So many little things happening in one's life in so little time. When I look back to my past, I realise I am really grateful for many things but also there are many details I would like to change. (what happened to LJ's editing page? I cannot "enter" to make a new paragraph?) Whatever.. I realise things have changed without my attempt to change them mostly. Just 10 years ago, I was 16 and actually full of energy. Now I am 26 and my mind is full of thoughts about work, school, family, money etc. No time to think and stop and do what your heart desires. Sometimes I see myself overthinking about details like what to do with the future, how to arrange the furniture, what to choose as masters degree and how to manage to pay the bills...... But these all are thoughts I must find answers for but not what my heart wants!! My soul wants to escape my body and travel the world.. Smell the flowers, walk on the beach, read a good book, dive into the music, taste different fruits etc. We are soooo trapped to live the life to earn money just to imagine those dreams about freedom! But they needed to be reality! Not just dreams...In this fucked up system I really really envy the life on the wild! I wish I was born as a wild life child. Living in open forest or in a jewel island I don't know. Just a place to live your life without money and without problems because of money. But since you are a city child, you know the fucking curse of the internet, modern gadgets, dreams of fancy houses and shit like that. It's an endless chain and you cannot escape. All you can do is spend your golden years to save money while working as fuck and if you're lucky you get a pay check when you're retired less than what you've spend while you were working and spend the rest of your life babysitting your grand children, waiting for death.. What a wonderful plan.. I am having so much fun typing this you know. Smiling at my future self thinking "you are fucked buddy, keep going".. Well..
