Last week of 2025 is really coming in hot over here 😆.
My thought from this year is that if I keep being like “Wow, what a year” then maybe that is just life and I need to somehow re-calibrate expectations? Can it actually be this insane for a prolonged period or does that change?
My more uncharitable (honest?) question or wondering is that after years of quietly thinking that all the people who said “just trust God” were a little delusional, if that is really and truly the only option we have.
Maybe the prolonged craziness and me wondering if I need to actually (for real) trust God are connected.
Have been thinking of that Thomas Merton prayer a lot:
My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
My husband today said “2025 was a good year” and I had a hard time swallowing that. A lot of big good things long-term happened for our family, but I also feel like I was hit by a truck. (Christmas with a 3 year old and a newborn was just a LOT more intense than I realized). But now I’ve been thinking about how one can feel hit by a GOOD truck, as opposed to a bad one. I think I’ll have to do a looking back exercise like this myself.
That's such a good way to put it... and yes, newborn Christmas has always felt like chaos to me! It's hard for me to recognize the truck as a good truck until after it's hit me.
Coming here way late to say thanks for letting us look over your shoulder as you think about your year. Sometimes it's heartening to see how God carries someone else through difficult times, and I needed the reminder to look for his presence in the midst of some hard weeks surrounding Christmas.
“If this is what the end of my strength is like, I almost wish I had gotten here sooner.”
That might have got a little something in my eye. My year has looked different from yours, but the statement has appeared in its own accent here, too.
Praise God for how He has carried you in so many ways. Thank you for sharing it with us!
Came here to quote this line back to her, but you beat me to it.
Last week of 2025 is really coming in hot over here 😆.
My thought from this year is that if I keep being like “Wow, what a year” then maybe that is just life and I need to somehow re-calibrate expectations? Can it actually be this insane for a prolonged period or does that change?
My more uncharitable (honest?) question or wondering is that after years of quietly thinking that all the people who said “just trust God” were a little delusional, if that is really and truly the only option we have.
Maybe the prolonged craziness and me wondering if I need to actually (for real) trust God are connected.
Have been thinking of that Thomas Merton prayer a lot:
My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
My husband today said “2025 was a good year” and I had a hard time swallowing that. A lot of big good things long-term happened for our family, but I also feel like I was hit by a truck. (Christmas with a 3 year old and a newborn was just a LOT more intense than I realized). But now I’ve been thinking about how one can feel hit by a GOOD truck, as opposed to a bad one. I think I’ll have to do a looking back exercise like this myself.
That's such a good way to put it... and yes, newborn Christmas has always felt like chaos to me! It's hard for me to recognize the truck as a good truck until after it's hit me.
Ahh yes, this has been a year… praise God for being carried.
Amen!
So beautiful..had years like that too..love you so..
Yes! So grateful it happened, but so glad that it's over.
Coming here way late to say thanks for letting us look over your shoulder as you think about your year. Sometimes it's heartening to see how God carries someone else through difficult times, and I needed the reminder to look for his presence in the midst of some hard weeks surrounding Christmas.