over the mountains of the moon, down the valley of shadow

LJ Idol 2022

static_abyss — Sun, 02 Jan 2022 15:59:08 GMT

The quarter end of last year was a disaster, so here's to trying again and making it at least through the first 3 weeks of idol.

LJ Idol Season 11 Week 14: Raising Barns

static_abyss — Thu, 20 Feb 2020 21:21:01 GMT

This is my official sacrificial post.

Thank you to everyone who has commented and read my stuff this round. I appreciate the time you all put in and I can't tell you how much the encouragement has meant to me. I joined Idol last season at Dreamwidth and I am glad I joined this season, too.

Unfortunately, life has gotten in the way. There are things I have to do that will take time to sort out, but I hope to have everything in order in time for the next season. So, if all goes well, I will see you all again, and I will do my best to keep reading and commenting.

Best of luck to you all.

A Different Sort of Introduction

static_abyss — Sat, 21 Sep 2019 17:44:11 GMT

Hello, my name is Ana.

I recently introduced myself in a roundabout and vague way for LJ Idol's introduction round. I haven't ever really done an introduction post because some part of me is afraid of evil strangers on the internet, despite having made most of my close friends online. I suppose, some things from our youth never really leave us.

Not really introducing myself is probably also part of my personality. I like to talk to people for a while before I really give away intimate details. That's not to say that I don't share with my casual friends or don't consider the people I talk to my friends. I just don't feel like I should put my problems on other people when we all came here to have fun. Which is an issue I have always struggled with, not asking for help when I need it. I'm working in it.

In any case, I want this to be a more direct introduction than just me inserting details of my life into my stories. Hidden so that no one would ever be able to 100% guess what parts are me and which are not.

My name is Ana. I am queer and first generation American. My family is Mexican. My mom's family is native Mexican as far back as any of them can remember. My dad's family is mixed, about 15% with either Spanish or French. Not willingly, but that's just something we all have to deal with in some way.

I don't specify either my gender or my sexuality because I am not sure whether I fully understand what my relationship with gender is, and if I don't define my gender then I can't really define my sexuality. Suffice to say, I am not exactly cis or straight. I am Catholic in the same way every Mexican is Catholic. Which was not a great time when I finally realized I wasn't straight.

I like reading books and I like writing. I never really believed anything of mine was worth reading until I joined Idol last season, so thank you all for that.

Everything in my stories is linked in some way with myself or my family, so in some ways, what I put down on paper is me. But in the end, all my stories are fiction, unless otherwise stated.

I am happy to be joining Idol for this season, and I can't wait to get to know you all.

The Real LJ Idol

static_abyss — Tue, 17 Sep 2019 00:13:45 GMT

I joined LJ Idol last season when it was over at dreamwidth, and I very much enjoyed my time there, so this is me declaring intent to participate in the latest season. I encourage anyone who wants to sign up to do so.

Sign Ups are open until Thursday, September 19, 2019. You can sign up here

Yuletide: Dear Author Letter

static_abyss — Thu, 22 Oct 2015 05:46:23 GMT

First off, thank you so much for writing me something. I am 100% sure I am going to love whatever I receive. But here are some things just to give you an idea of what I do/do not like, plus some prompts.

Requests:
The Song of Achilles: Achilles, Patroclus, Briseis, Hector
The Raven Cycle: Ronan Lynch, Gansey, Blue Sargent, Noah Czerny
Elementary: Joan Watson, Jaime Moriarty|Irene Adler, Sherlock Holmes, Marcus Bell
Faking It: Amy Raudenfeld, Karma Ashcroft, Reagen, Lauren Cooper

General Likes:

I am fond of happy endings, asexual characters, enemies/friends-to-lovers, slow burn, plot, world building, character explorations, AUs, future fic, curtain fic. But I will explain more below. I am usually up for anything that's not in my Dislike section, so you have a pretty wide range of things to work with.

I would prefer no sex, but if you are inspired and would like to write it, that's fine. If that's the case, I would prefer that it be a smaller sections. Basically, not a pwp.

Dislikes:

Dub-con/non-con, extreme jealousy from character a that flatters character b, character death (except for one exception explained in the appropriate fandom section), female character bashing in any of my fandoms, underage, sad endings, love triangles (unless OT3 is endgame), psychological/physical/emotional abuse, most of the stuff on the crueltide list (just assume all of the things on the list, unless otherwise stated in this letter), genderbending.

The following are prompts specific to the fandoms I requested. These are to give you ideas of what I would like, or to inspire ideas of your own. Please do not feel obligated to use ALL of the prompts, or even any, if you have another idea. I want you to have fun writing this!

The Song of Achilles

Characters:
I listed Achilles, Patroclus, Briseis, and Hector, but you do not necessarily need to include all the characters I mentioned. I welcome gen fic, but pairing-wise I would like Achilles/Patroclus. Also would definitely love anything with Achilles's point of view, and how Patroclus isn't the only one in awe.

Potential plots:
a. cliched college au where Patroclus falls for football/soccer jock Achilles. Briseis as the long-suffering best friend, who saves the day.

b. soul mark/canon au where Achilles is born with a mark of some kind that makes Patroclus his soul mate, but Patroclus is born without a mark. Of course, Patroclus still loves Achilles more than anything. I am just very interested in how mark-less Patroclus changes their dynamics, canon wise, or even if it does, or how they take it, etc.

c. A Briseis character study. Basically anything she was thinking, or what she felt, or even, if you want, a bit of her life before she met Patroclus and Achilles.

d. A modern day AU where Briseis has a band and Achilles and Patroclus are her groupies, who follow the band around and make out a lot.

More General Prompts
a. "I feel like I could eat the world raw."
b. huddling for warmth
c. hand holding
d. "In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring out of the sun."
e.platonic housemates learning to live together
f. everyone thinks they're dating/together, but they're not
g. ugly christmas sweaters

The Raven Cycle

Characters: I listed Ronan Lynch, Gansey, Blue Sargent, Noah Czerny. However, I don't mind if you want to include any other characters. Again, gen, character studies, or parings are welcomed.

Potential Plots:
a. Anything with Ronan Lynch. And especially anything inspired by this quote: "And Ronan was everything that was left: molten eyes and a smile made for war." Give me Ronan Lynch in any setting, fighting to keep himself, or fighting himself. I will take anything with Ronan Lynch.

b. Blue and Gansey holding hands, and moving into a little house together when they go to college. Give me a Blue who is still angry and a feminist, but who has grown up, and understands herself better. Blue who can kiss Gansey and not be afraid of him dying. Write me Blue being happy.

c. An OT+ where the characters all move in together, and where when anyone asks them who's dating who, they all just go "yes."

d. Gansey and Ronan in any way, shape, or form. How they were together before Niall Lynch died. Them in a friends-to-lovers trope, or as a married couple, or as members of rival bands, or in any au you would like to put them in.

e. friendship fic with Ronan and Noah picking up a stray cat, and fighting over who technically owns it. Or them doing domestic things, like watching TV, or fighting over who has to tell Gansey they broke his favorite mug, fighting over what to order even though Noah doesn't eat. Or human Noah, and them fighting over how long Noah takes in the shower, or them sleeping on the same bed because Noah gets cold. Just all the domestic Noah and Ronan you can give me.

More General Prompts:
a. sleepless nights
b. Blue Sargent
c. camping
d. hand holding
e. pretending to be married
f. road trips

Elementary

Characters: I listed Joan Watson, Jaime Moriarty|Irene Adler, Sherlock Holmes, and Marcus Bell. I would be more than happy to see all of them in one fic, if you can manage. If not, then I am more than okay with a few of them left out. Am also okay if you want to add any other characters. Pairing wise, I am partial to Joan Watson/Jaime Moriarty, Sherlock/Marcus. But I accept gen too.

Potential Plots:
a. C O L L E G E AU. I want them thrown into college in any way, doing whatever college thing you can think of. Maybe Joan and Jaime are reluctant roommates, and Marcus Bell is just glad his roommate isn't the weird guy, Sherlock, from his biochemistry class, except OH WAIT, HE IS.

b. bounty hunter au where Joan Watson and her partner Sherlock Holmes are sent to capture Jaime Moriarty, renown art thief.

c. a series of letters between Joan Watson and Jaime Moriarty set in canon.

d. Joan and Jaime as pen pals. They met once when they were children, and Jaime came over to Joan's fifth grade class as part of an exchange program. They became friends in the few months Jaime was in New York, and have been writing to each other since then. Now, they're older and Joan hasn't heard from Jaime since she started college. It's been years, and then suddenly, she gets a letter.

e. friendship fic or an exploration of Joan and Sherlock's relationship. Them cooking breakfast and not agreeing on cooking methods. Or them fighting over whether Joan is allowed to watch TV if Sherlock is in the room. Domestic things between friends.

More General Prompts:
a. enemies-to-friends-to-lovers
b. oversized christmas sweaters
c. count down to new years
d. mistletoe
e. crashing on sofas

Faking It

Characters: Amy Raudenfeld, Karma Ashcroft, Reagen, Lauren Cooper. You do not need to include all of the characters listed, but I do give bonus points for even a mention of Lauren Cooper because she is amazing and my absolute favorite.

Potential Plots:
a. Karma and Amy (or any of lady/lady) get snowed in and have to spend the weekend together. Bonus points for it being an old apartment with terrible heating/no heating and they have to curl up on the sofa to keep warm. Extra bonus points for ugly Christmas sweaters and hot cocoa to keep warm. Super extra bonus points if you include the least refined Christmas tree possible.

b. Reagan learning, maybe from hanging out with Amy, that, yes, some bisexuals are assholes, but not all assholes are bisexual.

c. Amy and Reagan touring with the band. Them hanging out together before shows and after shows, sleeping on the side of the road in their car, or outside in tents. Them falling in love on the road, and holding hands in the dark.

d. Amy and Karma, where Karma had to learn to let go of Amy. How time apart affects both of them. Maybe how Amy can finally breath freely, because if she doesn't see Karma then she doesn't have to think about being in love with her. And Karma learning to allow Amy her space. How they come out stronger because of it.

e. coffee shop au where Amy and Karma co-own the store, and Reagan comes in twice a day and flirts with Amy. Karma is the only one who notices. Meanwhile Lauren sits in her corner of the shop, being beautiful and superior ♥, and rolling her eyes at all three of them.

f. B A N D AU

More General Prompts:
a. two pictures for inspiration
b. road trips
c. hand holding
d. A song for Amy

And that's pretty much it. I am static_abyss on LJ, Dreamwidth, tumblr and AO3 in case you wanted to take a look at anything there that might give you an idea of what I like. In general, if I've written about a particular trope then that means I'm very interested in it. Also, anything I reblog on tumblr, I like. And here is a page on my tumblr with a bunch of aus and writing related stuff for more inspiration.

Once again, thank you so much dear author, and Happy Holidays ♥♥♥

teen wolf holiday fic exchange

static_abyss — Wed, 10 Sep 2014 00:48:23 GMT

Dear Writer,

First of all, thank you for writing me something. I'm sure I am going to love whatever it is because I'm easy to please, I promise. That said, the following are things I'd like/prompts to give you ideas.

What I'd like

Characters:
I've listed Stiles, Scott, and Allison as the three POV characters I'd like, but if you choose to do gen or femslash, I'd love any other lady POV. My favorites include, but are not limited to: Lydia, Erica, and Kira. I'm also totally fine with Derek. Extra bonus points if you can manage to write me some Boyd or Danny.

Potential Plots:
a. gen fic of everyone dealing with Allison's death.

b. Character A and Character B as next door neighbors who share a cat. How they happened to end up sharing a cat is up to you. Could be that the cat belong to one of them and the other thought it didn't have an owner because it lost its collar. Could be that they used to be together and bought a cat together and now have joint custody. Whatever you like.

c. Kira and Allison (or any of lady/lady) get snowed in and have to spend the weekend together. Bonus points for it being an old apartment with terrible heating/no heating and they have to curl up on the sofa to keep warm. Extra bonus points for ugly Christmas sweaters and hot cocoa to keep warm. Super extra bonus points if you include the least refined Christmas tree possible.

d. Malia learning about being a human from Kira. Kira and Malia spending a lot of time together, getting to know each, learning from each other, etc. Whether romantic or platonic is up to the writer.

e. future fic about any character(s) and what they're doing now that they've finished undergrad. Do they stay in Beacon Hills? Do they leave? Who moves to New York? Who stays despite always wanting to leave? The more nostalgic the better.

f. Anything and everything having to do with Scott/Stiles. In any way. Friends, boyfriends, roommates, brothers-in-laws, step-brothers, husbands etc. Bonus points for keeping their exact relationship on the show but making them boyfriends or husbands.

More General prompts/plots
a. anyone wearing ugly Christmas sweaters.
b. pretending to be married
c. barely-tolerate-each-other to "you're all right"/"I'd date you"
d. platonic housemates learning to live with each other
e. everyone thinks they're dating but they're not
f. something for Derek

Things I don't want
I'm not really looking for sex, but if you're absolutely inspired and want to do it, then go for it. Definitely do not want non-con, dub-con, scat, watersports. No lady bashing. No cheating, please. No aggressive jealousy from character A that flatters character B.

Thanks again, and I hope that covers everything. If you have any questions, feel free to talk to Andrea and she'll get in touch with me.

uss denny help

static_abyss — Tue, 10 Jun 2014 02:05:43 GMT

Okay, so this is a screenshot of the beginning of your fic. I circled the part that needs editing. You just need to erase the second lj-cut tag there and it should fix the problem. I tried it as a separate entry and it worked. But if it doesn't then I can post for you on the comm.

OUR TIME HAS COME

static_abyss — Wed, 09 Apr 2014 20:25:50 GMT

PARTY TIME MOFOS

THAT IS ALL. I HAVE LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE TO SAY.

PEACE.

thoughts about my life

static_abyss — Thu, 18 Jul 2013 20:21:31 GMT

This is a post about something that has been bothering me. Warnings for homophobia.

So, this is a post to vent because I can't really do it at home. I identify as asexual but biromantic, I guess. Meaning, I don't really want/understand/care about sex in a relationship or in any form really. I don't think I'd mind if it ever came down to it later on, but right now, I'd rather not. But I do like all people in an aesthetic way and I am open to relationships with both girls and guys. The problem is no one in my family really understands that. I've only told my sister and my bisexual cousin (who has only told her mom and me) and a few close friends. I asked my mom about it once, like what she'd do if I were to come out to her, and she said that she would probably cry for a few days and then get over it. She also told me that she thinks homosexuals just went down the wrong road and that it's a parents job to help their children when they lose their way. Which is complete bullshit, because homosexuality is not something you can cure. Never mind my dad who thinks homosexuality/bisexuality can't possibly exist in his family. But, they're still my parents and I love them, and that's how shit works. They can believe what they believe, and I understand it's because of the way they were raised and that there's little I can do to change them now. I don't blame them and I don't let anyone else blame them because just no. But that makes it really hard to be who I am.

There's this girl where I work who's really nice and there was this girl at college. The one at college I knew for a fact was interested, but that couldn't really go anywhere. I can't get into a relationship with a girl because it wouldn't be fair. I would have to introduce her as a friend and we'd have to sneak around when we held hands and shit. And it makes me really sad and kind of nauseous to think about how much I really wanted to and just can't. And the girl at work. Just liking her and not being able to brag about how pretty she is and stuff makes me really sad and kind of angry. Like, this shit shouldn't even be an issue, and it still fucking is and will always be an issue.

Then there's my sister who didn't even care when I told her I wanted to date both girls and guys. She said that she thinks she should have been surprised but wasn't and that she thought it was fine. AND THEN, she went on and told me that bisexuals were selfish. To her, that's not a big deal, but it means a shitload to me. She basically called me selfish for fucking being myself. She said she thinks pansexuals are jerks, and I asked her why. She said it was because that's what everyone else thinks because bisexuals and pansexuals have more boyfriends/girlfriends than heterosexuals. Which is bullshit because she's had three boyfriends and she's heterosexual and I have dated no one. Also, that girl I liked at work is straight so that was never going to work out, so I don't know where she's getting her numbers.

Basically, it's all very stupid around my house and I have to sit here and fight with them all whenever they say things against anyone who isn't heterosexual.

THAT TEEN WOLF EPISODE

static_abyss — Wed, 10 Jul 2013 01:46:58 GMT

NO ONE TOUCH ME. OMG. THE SCOTT AND STILES BROMANCE.

THE. SCOTT AND STILES. BROMANCE.

SCOTT AND STILES.

SCOTT. STILES. DRGSKJFHFGSFDJKFHGTRSHKYGSTRKHHYCSXR

SOBBING.

this has been a relevant post.

I AM POSTING MEANINGFUL SHIT

static_abyss — Fri, 28 Jun 2013 14:39:17 GMT

So, Teen Wolf (IS TOTALLY MEANINGFUL I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT). I really, really like what Jeff is doing this season. Like, I really like the idea that Derek is trying his best to make up for all the crappy shit he did in seasons 1 and 2, and I also really like how he's still Derek, and how he thinks that being as asshole is the best way to protect his pack. Not to mention the whole Stiles becoming a detective type thing. I JUST WANT MORE PAPA STILINSKI AND STILES INTERACTION OKAY.

a million bonus points for Scott because HE IS THE BEST EVER (A THOUSAND POINTS FOR ISAAC/SCOTT/ALLISON BECAUSE YES. SO MUCH YES.). Also, no one can tell me that the whole fight between the twins didn't seem sexually charged because YOU ARE LYING. I was so weirded out during that scene because I couldn't decide if they were going to start making out or ?

Anyway, I joined another challenge thing, but I am pretty confident I am going to be able to juggle all the stuff I have to do this week and that. Also, PORNATHON OKAY. SUMMERPORNATHON OWNS MY LIFE AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL AND GORGEOUS AND I AM SORRY TO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO AREN'T PARTICIPATING BECAUSE YOU ARE MISSING OUT.

And that's pretty much it. Except for how I am behind five weeks now on all my shows and I keep having to close my eyes when I go on tumblr BECAUSE NO ONE IS SPOILING DEFIANCE FOR ME. It is such a great sci-fi show. It's women characters are so rounded and real and it makes me so happy the way they portray everyone (the males included) because I can actually believe that they are actual people/aliens. I am so serious about making everyone watch that show though. YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED. Unless you don't like sci-fi.

LOOK WHAT ME AND EMO_WHAT97 ARE DOING

static_abyss — Wed, 26 Jun 2013 17:55:27 GMT

Sign ups for the third round of teenwolf_bb are now open!
All story types and pairings are accepted.

Rules and Information
Sign Ups: Author | Author/Artist Team | Artist | Beta | Cheerleader

SO. Me and emo_what97 are going to do this and we are doing Peter/Chris and we are going to get people TO LOVE PETER/CHRIS BECAUSE FISH TACOS. THE END.

to the wonderful person who donated to the HIV/AIDS foundation and to whom I owe a fic

static_abyss — Tue, 25 Jun 2013 21:37:10 GMT

I AM GOING TO GET THAT TO YOU ASAP SORRY LIFE IS BEING A DICK AND GETTING IN MY WAY BUT I AM GOING TO GET THAT TO YOU I PROMISE.

love,
me

drabble prompts

static_abyss — Fri, 24 May 2013 18:08:25 GMT

I'm alone at my aunt's house and I want to write something new to get rid of this writer's block. also I just really want to write something so give me a prompt from whatever fandom (Merlin, Teen Wolf, Supernatural, Shinee, Super Junior, Spartacus).

~~the person who requests minkey will get my eternal love~~

HIV/AIDS charity auction

static_abyss — Thu, 23 May 2013 19:59:20 GMT

Hey guys, thebig24 is holding a charity auction to raise money for the HIV/AIDS foundation. I am offering ficfor the following fandoms: Merlin, Supernatural, Spartacus, Shinee, Super Junior, Teen Wolf. Any rating. Any pairing.There are more details here.

lets talk exchanges (shinee)

static_abyss — Sun, 03 Mar 2013 06:31:22 GMT

Okay, so in my world it's not Christmas yet, okay. I owe three people things, and I swear I am working on that hanchul fic okay. I AM. BUT. This is a post because I really want fic and someone needs to go write it for me, and I thought that I'd make it fair and do this as a sort of exchange thing. So, I'll trade you one of my prompts for one of yours.

MY PROMPTS
1. Minho/Key.
they're like a married couple and some pics for inspiration.

Basically, what I want is, minkey in some sort of trip to somewhere, doesn't have to be London. Sort of like a minkey power couple, think Brad and Angelina. Okay? OKAY.

2. Minho/Jonghyun.
anything with them being complete assholes to each other. but it ends in a good way. here have an aesthetically pleasing picture.

Make them rock stars or something. idk go wild.

3. JONGHYUN/MINHO/KEY.
okay, let's be real here. i would give you whatever you wanted, write you whatever you wanted, do you any favor you wanted if you wrote me this okay. LIKE WHATEVER. I would give you my kidney if you wanted it. Anything with the three of them so long as Minho's the main here, so it's more like jongho + minkey. Don't want jongkey with minho getting in the way. Make it sexy. Make it awesome. P L E A S E

That's what I want, and you can tell me what you want in the comments. So, one of my prompts for one of yours okay.

look what i have

static_abyss — Mon, 10 Dec 2012 04:33:04 GMT

So, I went and did it again. I signed up for something but this time for the SPN fandom because I LOVE THE SPN FANDOM WITH MY SOUL. Long story short, I finally found a show that I can say I relate a lot to (we're talking the relationships here not the monster hunting) and it physically hurts my soul to watch that, but it was also very therapeutic in my earlier days of sad. SO I am going to go write fic for this fandom now because it is only fair that I do. AND because I can't ever go slowly, I have a big bang to write, plus a pairing bingo card YAY FOR ME.

Dean/Balthazar	Anna/Castiel	Dean/ Crossover Character	John/Ellen	Sam/ Gabriel
Bobby/ Jody Mills	Crowley/ Dean	John/ Annie Hawkins	Dean/ Alastair	Sam/ Jessica
Castiel/ Benny	Gabriel/ Kali	WILD CARD	Dean/Meg	Sam/Ruby
Lilith/ Crowley	Dean/Jo	Azazel/ Sam	John/ Gordon Walker	Dean/ Castiel
Crowley/ Kevin Tran	Michael/ Adam	Samuel/ Deanna Campbell	Bobby/ Crack Character	Sam/ Sarah Blake

so that's the table and that's what i'll be doing until february. That and Merlin ;; my fandoms are all leaving me. And I still have that onho fic that I just want to burn even though people liked it when I posted as anon. I feel like, if by the end of the month I haven't managed to like it, I will just post as is and let it go. So, hi everyone. HI

mary chris mass

static_abyss — Fri, 07 Dec 2012 01:27:49 GMT

So, I never do anything nice for you guys on Christmas, or like, ever, so this is me wanting to give you something. I am only good at writing, so if you want to request, like art, or something, I can't guarantee it will be even remotely good. B U T it is the holiday season so you can ask for whatever you want from me. (By this I mean art[don't please, i can't draw and i will cry], writing, icons [lol that isn't going to work too well, but I can try], I will even make you a fucking collage of all your favorite things if you want, or like fanmixes for a fic of yours, or a podfic. GUYS I WILL MAKE YOU A FUCKING PODFIC BECAUSE I LOVE YOU) So, go ahead, and drop a comment here with what you want.

RULES and things to know:
1. If it's writing, I will only guarantee a drabble, but it may or may not be longer depending on the prompt.
2. For writing, I need a prompt, a pairing, a fandom, and a maximum/minimum rating. I will write you whatever you guys want, in whatever genre you want. Prompt away.
3. I will write for the following fandoms: Supernatural, Merlin, Teen Wolf, Harry Potter, Shinee, Super Junior. (I can't remember what else, but ask and I will let you know if I can).
4. For podficcing, I am American, so let that be your only warning.
5. Again for podficcing, you can chose whatever fic you want, but like, please be keep in mind that wanting me to talk for more than 3 hours straight is going to make me sad.
6. I will only do three podfics, okay.
7. For fanmixes, link the fic you want me to read and make a FANMIX for. I will upload all the songs on mediafire, so keep that in mind in case that doesn't work for you.
8. I am so serious about the collage. I will rip out things from magazines and whatever and make you something nice, but unless you know how to teleport, the only way you're getting this physically is if you let me know where you live.
9. CHRISTMAS CARDS. Okay, so this list is everywhere. But if you just want a Christmas card, tell me where I'm sending it.
10. Comments here will be screened
11. Yes, I know I left out art and icons because N O.
12. This is supposed to be fun.
13. Um, eventually, depending on how many comments I get and how much time I have after finals, I will cut off this post.
14. I AM GOING TO TRY TO GIVE YOU ALL WHAT YOU WANT BUT THERE WILL BE A MAXIMUM NUMBER OF REQUEST FOR THE SAKE OF MY SANITY.

we should all do this and then i can go on your ljs and demand things from you.

A L I C E hi

post of postness, idk

static_abyss — Thu, 25 Oct 2012 00:39:08 GMT

I am BORED and so tired I could cry, but it's that kind of tired where you're so tired you can't sleep because your skin itches and your eyes just hurt and everything hurts. I need to relax before I go to sleep, so maybe I'll go rewatch Jericho. But, I saw this meme on tumblr and decided I wanted to do it.

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
- Je suis de celles by Benabar (interesting story about this. i kind of fell in love with his music because of my junior high school french teacher. also, i totally understand everything he says because FOUR YEARS OR FRENCH. i can understand when people talk at me, but making sentences and speaking is harder)
-Forever After Days by The National (OKAY MY MOST FAVORITE BROOKLYN INDIE BAND EVER)
-El Atrapasuenos by Mago de Oz (my brother got me into them. I love their music).
-It's Time by Imagien Dragons (OKAY BEST BAND EVER.)
-Your Bones by Of Monsters and Men (JUST BEAUTIFUL)
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
The Dalai Lama.
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
Okay, I have like twenty books all pretty much the same distance away, so
"Was I then to you" Tempest by Shakespeare.
4) What do you think about most?
Honestly, my brain never stays still for long. So, it's usually a combination of plot for fic I am working on, my family, my school work, my itouch, music. If I had to pick, I guess lately it's been sterek because FIC and yeah.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
"eating" I kid you not. that is all the text says because my best friend is perfect.
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
lol this questions. With clothes.
7) What’s your strangest talent?
Drawing. If you know me then you probably know that I, up until recently, couldn't draw to save my life. But, then this summer I thought I'd give it a go and see what happened and I'm actually pretty decent. So, yeah, it's new and strange that I can call that a talent now.
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls are people too. (IDK it was the first thing that came to my head)
Boys form boy bands. (What did anyone honestly expect. i am not creative unless i'm writing stories).
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
omg, okay. So, yeah, i don't know whether to cry or face palm. See, there was this one guy I knew back when I was sixteen and in high school. He used to let me read his stories and I think I may have once shared one of my poems with him. omg, long story short. I kind of had a crush on him and was going to tell him, but like, when we were IMing (because I was young and thought this was the best way to let him know i liked him) i think i mentioned how great he was at writing poems. So, he wrote me one. I'm not sure if he did it on the spot (his poetry was THAT good) or if he'd written it before and just sent it to me then. Anyway, POINT BEING that was the first and last time to date that anyone ever wrote me a poem. It was nice. I never saved it though which I don't necessarily regret (because he turned out be a jerk) but it might have been nice to read it now and again. And that was my story for the day.
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
LOL. Never.
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
not that i know of.
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
OMG i actually laughed out loud at this. OKAY, listen because it's nothing like it seems. I was two maybe. TWO. And my mom says I had a fascination with sticking things up my nose. Gum and corn, okay. Gum. And corn kernels.
13) What’s your religion?
Catholic.
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Walking to class or walking the forty five minutes to wal-mart.
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Out of those two, behind it.
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS QUESTION. ARGH, okay, so i feel like I'm ripping my soul into pieces, but The National.
17) What was the last lie you told?
I told my sister I wasn't mad at her.
18) Do you believe in karma?
In a way, yes.
19) What does your URL mean?
it's a description of my friendship with cheese_on_sauce
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
I can get angry easily.
I can also forgive easily.
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
IT'S A TIE BETWEEN JENSEN ACKLES AND DYLAN O'BRIEN OKAY I REGRET NOTHING
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
lol nope.
23) How do you vent your anger?
If I am very angry, I cry, but it rarely gets to that point. My family has helped raise my "I'm done" bar. So, usually I write and abuse my characters or my journal.
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
Birthday/Holiday/Greeting cards. I've kept all the ones I've ever gotten. I started when I was 15.
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
the phone.
26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
Yes, actually. Despite hearing how no one is ever happy with who they are from everyone I know, I am actually pretty fucking proud of the person I am.
27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
I don't like nails on chalkboards. I do like the sound of pots in the kitchen.
28) What’s your biggest “what if”?
Once upon a time there was this guy I really liked, and I kind of crushed on for six or so years(so, i totally understand where stiles was coming from with his crush on lydia). We were kind of best friends too. We used to go to middle school together and we talked a lot because he didn't know much English, but I knew Spanish so we got on great. And he even signed my fourth grade signature book, said something about how we should enjoy our time together because we weren't going to be laughing together next year. Anyway, then when we got to high school, we took trains together even though we went to different high schools. We'd wait for each other and stuff, and he'd walk me to my block before he went home, because we lived like, two blocks away from each other. The one day, I think, he sort of was trying to tell me something because he got real close and all, like, closer than any person had ever stood next to me before. And I freaked and moved away, and he got kind of sad and then just stopped waiting for me at the train, stopped walking me home. :( I guess, my biggest what if, is basically, what if i hadn't moved away, you know.

Wow, that was intense. I still sort of get really nostalgic when I think of him, and I hope he's somewhere good, doing good things. Maybe studying art like he wanted to when I knew him.
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Aliens, yes because I think it is very narcissistic of us to think we are the only sentient beings in the ENTIRE universe.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
With my right arm, my water bottle. I drink like a gallon of water a day, omg. With my left, my wallet. I bought it at Chinatown in NYC. cheese_on_sauce was there.
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Lavender from our air freshener.
32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
Las Vegas when it was 112 degrees outside, omg
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
EAST COAST ALL THE WAY
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
What is up with these questions, man. Um, I am bad at bands and music and life in general, okay. So, I pick G-Dragon because I like his face.
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
Being happy and helping others.
36) Define Art.
Art is the personification of feelings.
37) Do you believe in luck?
Yes.
38) What’s the weather like right now?
Omg, it is beautiful outside. There's this mist all over the campus and it's drizzling.
39) What time is it?
It's 8:05 (do you know where your kids are?)
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
No to both. Not yet, but I will drive soon. and then i will get a car and treat it like my baby, love it, wash it, yell at people who drink/eat in it.
41) What was the last book you read?
Tales of Love and War for Humanities this morning.
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
No.
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Annie, Anise (pronounced in Spanish), Tapioca by my roommate BECAUSE I AM DELICIOUS but probably because of my last name. Anita by my aunts.
44) What was the last movie you saw?
Brave for the second time, but this time with my roommate.
45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
I sprained my ankle. Seriously, I have been very lucky when it comes to injuries.
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Yes.
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Not obsession perse, but Merlin and Supernatural are back on so you know where I will be. Also Elementary, Doctor Who, THE WALKING DEAD. Yeah, shows and things.
48) What’s your sexual orientation?
This is probably the hardest question I have ever had to answer. I don't know. People in general are attractive, I've just never had the chance to see if I prefer any kind of gender yet because 1. never dated 2. never really wanted to
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Yes, omg so when I was in middle school i knew this girl who became one of my closest friend. Then thins got nasty and there were rumors EVERYWHERE. It was bad.
50) Do you believe in magic?
define magic. Maybe, i don't know.
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Never. I am the worst person when it comes to grudges. If I'm angry at someone, come back five minutes later and it'll be like it never happened.
52) What is your astrological sign?
Scorpio. PLUTO USED TO BE MY GUIDING PLANET RAGES
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Save it. I like to know I have something to fall back on.
54) What’s the last thing you purchased?
A voucher to get into Ripley's Believe It or Not museum.
55) Love or lust?
loveeeeeeeeeeee, but in the platonic way.
56) In a relationship?
Nope
57) How many relationships have you had?
None
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Nope.
59) Where were you yesterday?
I was in my campus crying when I realized I got 100 on my genetics test.
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
LOL Never, not if I can help it. Please, I don't think there's anything pink within 100 feet of me.
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
no
62) What’s your favorite animal?
dogs, because dogs are soft. But then, also doves and stuff.
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
My smile and charming wit fails.
64) Where is your best friend?
Too far away :( She's back in NYC
65) Spit or swallow?(;
oh god, i hope this is not meant to be sexual. i will pretend it's completely innocent and say swallow because spit is gross and a swallow is a pretty bird. SO THERE
66) What is your heritage?
I am a Mexican born American. And as I've recently experienced some heavy racism, I will say that my tolerance for Mexican jokes has gone way down.
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Reading for my humanities class and listening to my roommate watch supernatural.
68) What do you think is Satan’s last name?
what even is this question. Lucifer, idk.
69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
omg of course this had to be question 69.
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
Yes, because i am AWESOME
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
I would save the dog because I would not be late, because I would have left my house half an hour early.
72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
Um, I feel that I would tell the people closest to me, the ones who I know won't make me feels bad knowing it. And I'd make a list of people who I'd want to know after I'm dead. Just out of courtesy so that they know what happened. Afraid, probably. I would also spend as much time as I could with the people closest to me and write some things, give my unfinished stories to other people to write. Pretty much just sit and watch movies, eat, go out with my family and close friends.
73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
Like, love as in get married/live together love and not family/platonic love? Because in that case, trust.
74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Karen by The National.
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
2325 (almost like 1315 SUJU GET IT)
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust and mutual respect.
77) How can I win your heart?
You can love all my fandoms.
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Oh most definitely.
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Not choosing a roommate for my freshman year. If i had i would have never met my roommate turned close friend.
80) What size shoes do you wear?
8 in womens. But, like idk what this is in other countries. It's a 6 in mens.
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Here lies Ana, she was awesome. (this will probably change as i get older)
82) What is your favorite word?
how do people even have favorite words. i don't know, guys, I love all words.
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
red.
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
something from my mom, "if you can't change it then don't stress over it."
85) What’s the last song you listened to?
Demons by Imagine Dragons.
86) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?
BLUE EVERYTHING ON MY BED IS BLUE
87) What is your current desktop picture?
lol, it's a slideshow of pictures which contain, Dylan O'brien, Jensen Ackles, a Doctor Who fanart of the ninth, tenth and eleventh doctor, Rory the centurion, that picture of Tyler Hoechlin with his hand on Dylan O'brien's shoulder with the sun right over their faces, a inspector spacetime poster pic from community, a Torchwood sign AND a ford race car.
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
No one, omg what even.
89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
i am an open book guys. i wouldn't be afraid, just hesitant
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?
I was really hoping this was going to say ZOMBIES. Anyway, I go back to sleep hoping it is all a dream.
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
lol omfg can you just picture this though. Like radioactive vegetables and i would go ahead and eat them orz BUT super power of choice. Healing, but like, others not just myself.
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Any time where my entire family was just sitting together in my brothers' room watching a movie and eating popcorn.
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
This is a loaded question. If you know me then you probably know the answer to this. Basically, the issues with my dad from the last two years.
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
I don't know. I don't do sex.
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
ENGLAND JESUS OR SCOTLAND OR ROME
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Nope.
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Yes, when I was smaller this was a big problem.
98) Ever been on a plane?
Multiple times. I ROCK PLANES
99) Have you ever self harmed?
never
100) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
heyy guys :)

oh, god that was the longest most awesome thing i have done today.

today's sociology class was emotionally draining.

static_abyss — Thu, 18 Oct 2012 22:16:09 GMT

Today, in my sociology class--where I am part of the few minorities, and the only person who comes from, what is essentially the lower class--we were having a discussion about education. Because, I honestly hope no one thinks that education for kids pre-k through 12th grade is equal. Quite, the opposite actually and pardon the long post, but some people need to wake up.

I went to a middle school where we had math textbooks that were ridiculously out of date. The kids in our school had to watch out after school because there was always the danger that one of the kids from the high school next door would beat them up. Kids in my school didn't even think about high school when I was in fifth grade because they were too busy trying to get through the material needed to pass the standardized test we had to take from 4th to 8th. There was no money for my school, no way for the kids who went there to get the help they needed because that meant more books, more computers, more teachers. And the thing is, even if we had the money for more teachers, there was no room to put them because we shared the building with two other schools, because we couldn't afford it.

And the teachers tried to get the kids to keep going, to study and understand. And, I did. Some of the kids in my class did. But, the thing is, even when we all gave it 200%, we were significantly behind the other kids who went to the schools in the suburb. I mean, honestly, without the books or the materials what did anyone expect.

And, so I was remembering how bad off my school was (and it was probably one of the better ones in our community) and then this girl in class today says that if her parents pay higher taxes than my parents do, then I deserve my school. She said that everyone is better off the way they are, because if you gave every school the same resources then that would just create more competition for her and other kids who want to go to college. Then, someone else agreed with her and said that it's unfair to them because they want to go to school and if you help the kids from poorer schools, you're forcing them to go to college when they don't want to. Meaning that the kids from poorer schools don't even want to go to college so we should just let them keep their outdated textbooks, because, yeah, it's not like they want to go anywhere in life. This kid went on to say that it's okay to keep them uneducated because we need people for physical labor.

Now, I hope to God and things divine that the people I know don't think this way. Guys, that way of thinking is the fucking reason that we have so many kids dropping out and the reason that half the girls in my fucking middle school class got pregnant and dropped high school.

Let me explain.

Even if, god forbid, the upper, middle and lower class (because, surprise, the lower class pays their fucking taxes too) pooled their taxes and split them equally among the middle schools and high schools, sadly, very little would change. Sure, maybe education would be the same and the kids from poorer schools would be able to get into great colleges, but they still wouldn't be able to go even if they wanted to. I probably still would have had to say no to Northwestern and Cornell, because my parents wouldn't (and still can't) afford to send me there. So, everyone who thinks that giving poor schools better text books and giving those kids a decent level of education is going to ruin their chances, can relax. Because, guys, even then, the kids from poor families would be at a disadvantage. There would still be people who wouldn't go to college and end up working in blue collar jobs. And there would be girls getting pregnant, but, at least if all schools were giving all kids the same level of education, then it wouldn't be because these girls or guys were uneducated, but because they made bad life choices.

And that's okay. I accept that. Because people are still just people and they will always make mistakes. But, it would be because of that and not because they just don't know. Because they were never given the chance to be something else.

So, yeah I was pretty pissed when I heard what some people in class had to say. But, honestly, I'm more sorry for that girl and that guy in class who said those things, and I'm sorry that their parents forgot what it was like to come from a poor school and make something of your self. And lucky them that they don't have to go through the shit that other kids go through.

And there's more I could say, but honestly, I am way better off than most kids and we should be helping them not just talking about it.

can we talk about all the unfinished shit i have

static_abyss — Fri, 12 Oct 2012 21:03:12 GMT

So, I was looking through my docs and the amount of unfinished fic there makes me sad. So, I'm going to dump it here and pretend that that means I've posted it in comms and never have to look at it again. Then, I'm going to go and finish my stupid spnaubigbang fic and finish my first ever sterek fic and cry. THEN, I will try to go through my merthur fics and see if there's anywhere I can take those.

Also, can we all just talk about how there are a billion challenges/exchanges and I'm pretty sure combined, kingdra and I have joined all of them. Seriously, I quit my job. I am going to go into fic writing full time. Who needs money anyway.

Right, so here have a bunch of unfinished fic and if you leave a comment with the name of the fic, I will bombard you with fun facts and wonderful/random stories about where I got the idea for it or how I started writing it or whatever.

Minho first sees Jinki at a charity concert where Minho's the MC.

Minho's there because South Korea won bronze at the Olympics and, as the team captain, that makes him important. It's good for his career Jonghyun, his manager, told him. He'd get his face recognized by the cameras and the sponsors would pour in.

Minho hates cameras, but he's been told the MC is rarely on TV. It's about the singers, dolled up girls and pretty boys. Minho's caught Jonghyun looking where he shouldn't more than once. He thinks the pretty girl with the short blond hair is seconds away from filing a lawsuit. It becomes less of Minho's concern when the sound crew calls him for last minute checks.

Minho's getting checked backstage when Jinki walks past him. Minho doesn't know the man is Jinki then. He's seen the face on commercials, he thinks, but Minho doesn't know what it is the man does. All he sees as he waits for the sound crew to get his mic on is a man with golden brown hair and eyeliner that Minho can see from where he is ten feet away. The man is wearing tight jeans and a white dress shirt that has the first two buttons undone. He looks casual in a messy way, perfectly styled by whoever it is that does his hair. But it's the smile more than the way the man is dressed that makes Minho stare. It's the way that smile wrinkles the corner of his eyes and lights up his whole face as he talks to another man.

Minho doesn't even hear when the sound crew tells him he's ready.

-

The guy's name is Jinki and his friend is Kibum, Key for short. Minho knows this because he introduces them as the last to go for the night. The lights dim as Jinki and Kibum get in position. There are drummers and guitarists in the background and Minho thinks "rock." He gets to hear Jinki's voice, low and with edges that drag over Minho's back and up his shoulder. It's like listening to the sound sand makes against his back at the beach.

At the end of the night, Minho takes off his own microphone and hands it over to the sound crew. He shakes hands with all the important people who held the concert and nods at a couple of faces he recognizes from work. His manager, Jonghyun, is off to the side looking amused.

"Where are you going," Jonghyun asks.

Minho shrugs and cranes his neck above the crowd to see if he can spot Jinki. He's counting on the stylists to keep Jinki and Kibum busy as long as possible. Minho's known actors who takes hours after a show is over to finally leave. He hopes that Jinki is one of those. Or, well, he hopes Kibum is.

"Looking for your boyfriend?"

Minho's head snaps back so fast he almost hits Jonghyun. "What?"

Jonghyun grins. "The kid from the band, Jinki."

Minho stares at the wide smile on Jonghyun's face. They’re good friends, the kind that say and do stupid things to each other.

"You know him," Minho accuses.

Jonghyun shrugs and makes a show of walking for the exit. It doesn't quite work because Minho's been trying the same thing for the past ten minutes and hasn't had any luck. He's not surprised when Jonghyun gives up after a minute and turns around to glare at Minho.

"Fuck you," Jonghyun snaps when he sees the grin on Minho's face. "His name is Jinki and we drink on the weekends, happy?"

"Yeah," Minho grins. "You're bringing me with you next time."

Jonghyun grumbles about how he's such a good friend and how Minho doesn't deserve to have him, but when Minho makes way for him through the crowd of people, Jonghyun shuts up. Minho stops looking for Jinki then because he's going to see him that weekend. He's preoccupied with getting himself and Jonghyun out alive. He's also more worried about the sheer number of fans outside when he finally makes it to the door. He knows they're not there for him, but he doesn't know another way out.

They tell Minho the world is going to end in one week.

"Why?" he asks.

"We don't know," they say, voices low and sad as if they don't want this to happen, but know they can't do anything to stop it. "It's just going to happen."

"And what would you have me do?"

They look at him in their black suits, faces blank except for their eyes. Minho believes in that moment that the eyes really are the window to the soul. He can see the pain, the way years hunch the backs of the men before him. The lack of sun has left their skin pale, like milk, only there's a crumpled paper texture to it, like someone has crumpled them up and flattened them out more times than they should be able to handle. Minho doesn’t know who these men are, just that they came to him one night and asked him if he was ready. He hadn't been able to answer them then, just shrugged and asked them what they wanted.

He sees them now, in his living room on the cleanest side of town in the only house left in the entire city. His rational mind argues that there is still a possibility that the pollution in the air is making him see things. He's well aware of the deteriorating ozone layer, the way oceans are turning black, the smell of the smog in the wind no matter which way he turns. It's not pretty, but Minho didn't, doesn't, think that his world has reached the end. It can't.

"Are you ready?" the men ask him.

Morgana doesn't pay overtime when her workers are late, but when she sees who walks in through the doors of Le Fay Vids, she thinks she can make an exception.

Arthur Pendragon is the golden haired god of sex videos. He's known for his blue eyes and well defined muscles, his broad shoulders and the way he fucks like he owns the person underneath him. He's good looking enough that even though he does men exclusively, more than one woman has sent Morgana requests for Arthur as a partner in their videos.

Morgana doesn't hand out Arthur unless she's feeling generous and since Arthur keeps her purse full and her scotch coming, she does what he wants. Most of the time.

Today, for example, she has chosen to not do what Arthur wants.

X rated videos—porn to be frank—are a profitable business. Morgana was smart enough to take advantage of that even while her father, Uther, threatened to disown her. When anyone at an event asks her what she does for a living, Morgana just smiles at them, winks at her father and says she runs an entertainment company. No one asks for details, not at parties where everyone is just there to one up the person besides them.

Morgana hates Uther's parties, but she goes because she likes the way he looks at the people she brings with her. Leon happens to be her favourite. He's all curly hair and light eyes that seem to know things that no one else does. His shy smile and the way he charms the people around him without knowing it are what attracted Morgana to him. Sometimes she thinks she hates him, with all his kindness and appropriate comments to the every person he meets. But at the same time, it's what makes him so hard to leave. Morgana also likes the way Uther's face goes red whenever Leon is around.

Uther thinks Leon sucks cock for a living. Morgana is the only one who knows that Leon has a law firm three blocks down.

Morgana likes Leon and she likes her job. She is good at her job. She's got the best looking actors, good ones too and an eye for who looks good with who.

Gwen, for example, is dark skinned and gorgeous with big brown eyes that tend to be soft and kind. Morgana likes to pair Gwen up with Lance who's got the same kind of brown eyes and soft hands. Lance and Gwen make the sappy, romantic videos, with music in the background. When Morgana gets tired of those, she makes Gwen tie Lance down and teach him how to fuck. The two of them work well. Sometimes so well that Morgana has to separate them because the way they look at each other is dangerous, too intimate for the kind of work they do.

But Lance and Gwaine work well too. It's all the hair and the eyes.

"Are you going to drive me to school," Kibum asks.

"No."

Minho doesn't bother to look up from his book, his legs propped up on the kitchen table. The side of his face where he can feel Kibum staring itches, but Minho doesn't scratch. He focuses on the words in his book, the way the characters stand bold against the white of the page. He's hyper aware of Kibum, every move he makes as he looks through the cabinets.

"We don't have anything in the fridge," Kibum says.

"I know," is Minho's answer. "I haven't bought anything yet."

"What am I supposed to eat?"

Minho shrugs. He can hear Kibum's exasperated exhale, the banging of the cabinets and the shuffling of fabric as Kibum puts his backpack on. Minho counts to ten, but the apartment door doesn't open. There are no sounds of feet moving along the floor.

"What," Minho asks.

He looks up when Kibum doesn't answer, catches the way Kibum's cheekbones stand out in the low light of the room. They're on the west side of the apartment building so they always have to turn on the lights in the morning and Minho gets to see this. He gets to see Kibum in his tight jeans and loose shirts with his new piercings. Minho gets to watch the way Kibum's hair falls over his forehead, the new blond color fitting so well with who Kibum is.

"I don't like your hair," Minho says.

"Fuck you."

Yes, Minho wants to say, that is exactly the problem.

"Go away. You'll be late."

Kibum shrugs, but he leaves.

He hears the voices from the space all around him, embedded into the crevices of his mind, like fingers stroking along the side of his face. They're caresses that tell him things he doesn’t want to know but has to hear. He can feel their power in the air he breathes, his eyes open, but he is unable to see anything in the vast expanse of darkness. The boy thinks this is what death must feel like, but he had no memory of dying, no memory of ever existing. There is no life before this. They called. He came. This is his existence.

"We've waited long for you."

They appear before him, three sisters sitting upon thrones of thread. They're identical, same dark hair framing faces where aristocratic noses sit below dark eyes surrounded by long lashes. The boy thinks that they might be beautiful if it weren't for the glint in their eyes, the power that surrounds them so clearly. The sister to his left sits on her throne, her hand hovering over her lap where thread of pure gold falls from her fingertips. She doesn’t look up once as the boy stares at her. The sister to the boy's right winds the golden thread into a ball. Her eyes focus on her task and the boy thinks he knows who they are. He looks at the sister who sits in the middle, the one who spoke. She looks at him and smiles, slow and sure as if she's waiting for him to say it. They're terrifying because they hold his life in their hands.

"You are our most precious charge," the sister says. "We saw your life play out before us. We wound your destiny between the three of us and when you were ready, we let you sleep in Avalon. We had your name long before your mother was even a thought in her mother's head. You are the one who will save us all."

"Save you from what?" the boy asks. He does not know another world besides this land of darkness and there is nothing to save anyone from here.

"Your name," the sister says, her head inclining towards him for a moment and the boy can't mistake it for anything other than respect. "Your name is Emrys. You will be born to a woman in Ealdor, a town so small only the pettiest thieves ever think to go near it. She will raise you without a father and there you will learn about what you can do, the magic you possess, and with you, the laws of the world will be set right."

"How," Emrys questions. "How do I set the laws of the world right when I don't even know the world you speak of?"

"Come."

Emrys eyes the open arms of the sister. She smiles at him and he feels the pull of familiarity within him, strong enough that he goes to her. She's part of him in some way he can't fully understand. Her hand is cold when she clasps his, but she shows him. He sees a world torn down by rage and grief, sees a beautiful man with a brilliant smile, shattered. He blames magic for the death of the woman in his arms, her yellow hair glowing even in death. There is a child. His life wrapped in hatred, lies spun to bind him closer to the man who tears down the world just so that he can keep his afloat.

Emrys feels the cry of the Earth, the strings of life cut too short. He hears the cries of dragons, strong and deadly, but obedient to a man Emrys does not know. He watches as the man who tears down the world tears them down too. There is blood, death and sorrow. It fills the land, infects the people in the outer areas so that it translates to hatred, a deep rooted abhorrence for the man who takes the throne and calls himself king of Camelot. King Uther Pendragon, destroyer of the world.

"This is the world I am to save?" Emrys whispers. "A land ruled by a king who would kill me for what I am to be?"

"It is your destiny and that child's. He will be the greatest king Camelot has ever seen. He will unite the lands and call them Albion. There will be peace during his reign and magic will be allowed to roam free again, no longer rotting away the Earth. You can feel it can't you?" the sister asks and Emrys nods. "You can feel where Uther Pendragon has pushed the magic of the land, to the deepest bowels of the Earth where it rots because nothing should ever hold it down. Camelot is a land of magic, a land that needs magic and you and Arthur are destined to make it so."

"Who are you?"

The sister smiles, "I am a Priestess of the Old Religion. I was born when the world wasn't yet complete, in this land of Avalon. My sisters and I saw the birth of the Earth, the first steps of mankind and even then, you slept. "

Emrys can still feel her hand clasping his and he feels a sudden reverence for this woman, for the sisters who know destiny and spin fate. She is older than the world she watches and Emrys doesn’t understand why Camelot should mean so much to her.

"We have welcomed too many of our kin to this land," she tells him. "But, it had to be so. We could not ask you to save them because you would have failed without Arthur, as he will without you. You, Emrys, must watch him."

"He will be loved by his father because he will be the man his father was too afraid to be, the king he was too weak to become. Arthur's heart will be kind even without a mother or, perhaps, because he doesn’t have one. He will fight with his men like no other king has ever fought before and they will gladly die for him. Even you."

Emrys can see it all. A young man with golden hair, a beauty that reminds Emrys of Uther, but with softer eyes, a heart unburdened. He wields a sword that shines in the light, markings on the side that say the sword was made for Arthur Pendragon. His chain mail is spotless, capturing the light from the sun so that Arthur Pendragon glows golden and pure. Emrys sees him and thinks that it would be an honour to die for this man who is to save the world.

"He will be courageous, strong and just in every decree he makes, but you must watch him," the sister speaks again, soft as if she is afraid that she will scare Emrys, as if she could, now that he has seen who is to fight by his side. "He will be like his father in that he will love unconditionally those who he deems worthy. He will rule as his father did in the beginning, a true king, strong. But, he is not his father and his people will love him just as Arthur will love them. He will be stubborn and righteous and no words will convince him that he should stand down when he thinks he can help. There will be times when his greatest virtues will be his greatest flaws and he will be intimate with death more times than anyone will be comfortable with. But you will be there to keep him alive, to guide him towards his destiny and yours. Without you, there will be no Albion, and without him magic will rot the Earth from the inside out."

Emrys nods, some long hidden sparks growing inside of him. He closes his eyes, but the burning light is everywhere. It glows yellow reminding him of Arthur who glowed with the same light in the vision the sister had shown Emrys.

"Everything you are telling me," Emrys says. "Why? Why did you not just give him magic and be done with it."

AND

Long Live Sooman, screamed at him from the black and red posters along the train.
Minho sat with the blue book tucked under his jacket trying to focus his eyes on one spot and failing. His heart jumped in his chest, the feeling of being watched heavy as he tried to keep still.

-

"Take that," the guy says shoving a book into Minho's hand.

"What is it?"

But, the guy is gone. Minho takes one look at the book and shoves it under his shirt. He doesn't recognize the cover and he knows, even before he opens the book, that this is what everyone has been talking about for the past year.
The words are on the eleventh page, the day the resistance took the record's department entire top floor.

Dǐkàng wànsuì.

There's an address underneath.

So, that's all I'm posting for now because the rest is just depressing. But, feel free to ask away and I shall answer. Also, most of these make me want to start writing them again, so I might.

okay, i tried.

static_abyss — Wed, 10 Oct 2012 23:31:53 GMT

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I'm just going to put this out there for all the shinee fans. This is, like, one of the best fics I've read in a while. The way this author writes is absolutely amazing, kind of like walking on clouds. The imagery is beautiful and the way she describes what's going on in her fic makes it feel like a dream.

Bascially, read the fic.

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