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Mack Devlin's avatar

This was heartbreaking. I understand the feelings in this all too well. You’re amazing.

stabilise's avatar

So are you 🫂💫 Thanks for reading :)

Night Cracks's avatar

I love how you open ended it. It felt like there should be another paragraph or two, but it never really finishes, does it?

These thoughts seem so important and still they're just a drop in the storm we tend to go through.

It would be impossible for me to survive without faith. I'm glad you have one.

Lintara's avatar

"He's got first glimpse of the door."

That line reframes everything before it — the darting eyes, the aunt bowing, the question about the gun. It's not fear of violence. It's the geometry of survival: who sees the exit first.

The Galway church detour looks like digression. It isn't. Same question, different building: where are the rules, who holds them, and what happens if you get the sequence wrong.

"Divinity is a second language" — you almost let that go too quietly.

What made you put the crackers and the birds at the end, after everything else?

stabilise's avatar

I think I did let go of divinity as a second language too quickly.

I put the crackers and the bird at the end because that was the order of my thoughts as I wrote it.

In timely pieces, I could tell you more about where I struggled, but what I can say about this relatively hasty piece is that I struggle to read it.

It's not that I don't like it. It's that I don't know where I wanted it to go.

Thank you for reading and offering your careful analysis. Always a pleasure.

Kim Williams, M.Div.'s avatar

There is a soft disturbance in this piece— like a bee making its way through a crowd, breaking concentration as it gathers the dust of thought. Still, it holds a single truth.

I’m not sure what it is…but I feel it.

stabilise's avatar

Same. I think part of my internal friction is trying to rush to name it. One of the hardest lessons I’m learning is allowing things to be. Not every particle needs to be examined.

Kim Williams, M.Div.'s avatar

What? Say it isn’t so! 😏

Grant David Crawford, PhD's avatar

Beautiful piece. This line in particular got me “The bullet may have its own impulse, but I do wonder about choice.”

Labyrinthia Mythweaver's avatar

This was beautiful and heartbreaking.

stabilise's avatar

Thank you ❤️🫂

Maria Matheou's avatar

This is such a great piece. You say so much in with so little. Contained and compelling.

stabilise's avatar

Thanks, Maria. I know I’ve got a story somewhere inside me. These snapshots are just me grasping at straws. Thanks always for reading 🤗

Maria Matheou's avatar

The snapshots are brilliant and the story will come.

Bran Iberi's avatar

👍 heart felt

Nick Hills's avatar

Thanks for your writing Fatima, always thanks, this is definitely the best piece I'll read today

stabilise's avatar

Thank you so much, Nick. I appreciate you reading my work ✨ have a lovely day.

Elijah Westin's avatar

Every time I read one of your pieces I just want to hug you and tell you it's gonna be ok and I love you..

Your writing always tears me open..

I agree with mack, you're amazing

stabilise's avatar

It’s gonna be ok and I love you too.