March 12, 11:39 i woke up late again, as always, and spent two hours reading in bed. i'm listening to the radio and eating pistachios, i need to edit some poems today. i'm trying to figure out why i can't shake it all off, why i can never feel like myself, why it is always so complicated March 8, 14:43 good afternoon everyone, i'm writing here for the first time and that, i am very grateful for. it is a sunny day, but my blinds are closed. it is a restful day but i am tired. i think this is just the way things go sometimes.