The Wowingly Awesome Adventures of Bee!

La Luz!

2011-02-17T03:41:48Z

Tomorrow morning D and I are getting on a plane to Albuquerque! Yay! My mom will have some nice green chile stew waiting for me. Then, on Friday, we are going up to northern New Mexico to see my grandfather. He will be 90 in April. My mom and stepdad are coming with us, and my dad and stepmom will be there, and also my brother, sister-in-law, new niece, and sister! I don't have to be back at work until next Wednesday. And I have nothing, NOTHING that is undone at work, either.

I am probably going to gain 10 lbs. while I am there. Ugh. But so worth it.

As most people know, I never pack until the last possible second, often meaning I get no sleep the night before travelling. Well, guess what?! I'm already packed! Sheesh. What is happening to me in my old age?!

Luckily I'll have my telephone, so I can continue posting. Even from the national forest where my grandfather lives.

Good night, all! Must sleep before flying.

It's a lesson in patience. Right?!

2011-02-16T03:30:29Z

There is something incredibly annoying and incredibly creepy about coming home to find that some workman your landlady hired has been in your place without any notice, moved your shit around gotten plaster dust on all your clean clothes, broken stuff, and thrown away his debris in your recycling bin. An act like that can only be followed by bitching at your landlady about it and finding out that the same jackass will be back tomorrow to spackle. W. T. F.

You know what else is good about LJ?

2011-02-15T02:09:37Z

I can complain as much as I like about work and how much it sucks, how unappreciated I feel, and so on. On Farcebook, one is always at risk of industrial espionage. LJ, less so.

Today was crappy at work.

But the Valentine's smushy stuff was nice, though! D made me low carb, sugar free fudge. You'd never know! It was pretty damned good. We are experimenting with a couple of recipes. And I got floral appreciation. And dinner. Pretty darned good, I'd say!

I am now watching Low Rent Law & Order (aka Law & Order Criminal Intent). Pretty soon, bedtime. I am so old. I LOVE going to bed at 9:30!

Hope it was a good day for all.

♥

I am a weirdo.

2011-02-13T04:05:31Z

I had a dream that D and I were pirates, and we somehow wound up in rehab. For pirates. Only the rehab was run by this evol dude. And then there was a big war, and we and our pirate crew escaped to the open seas. Yeah, I know. I'm a weirdo. But it's not as weird as some of my Elf dreams, right?

D and I had a Star Wars kind of day. That's always nice.

Last day of meme:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. Dharma
2. Tea
3. Book
4. Pyjamas
5. Bears
6. Snuggles
7. Dog
8. Cat
9. Sucralose
10. Huzzah!

So tired. So, so tired.

2011-02-11T02:01:27Z

I got to work very early. I worked my bee-hind off. I came home and ate. I went to class. Teacher-la teased me and said that next time, we'll hold the class in they style of monastic debate so that I have to ask more questions. Came home again. Now I am drinking my imitation rice wine substitute (aka Sprite). And going to bed.

MEME!

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart

1. Bring your chocolate labrador over.
2. Save spiders and don't kill things, no matter how ugly you think they are.
3. Ask questions, don't avoid topics you don't understand.
4. Point out when I'm being a hypocrit. Nicely.
5. Write me a story or write stories with me.
6. Send me a postcard.
7. Be nice to D.
8. Put up with my bullcrap.
9. Think before speaking, be aware when you might be saying something hurtful to someone for no good reason.
10. Be silly about dumb fandom junk with me.

DAY 10: Final 10 words

Seriously, how annoying.

2011-02-10T00:50:16Z

All kinds of crazy crap happened today, but the first and worst was that my yahoo email account got hacked, and some stupid phishing spam was sent from it. In theory, that is all under control now. But I'll just say it again, if you didn't get an email or a message from me already: Spam. From my yahoo account. Don't fool with it.

Next week I'm going to visit my grandfather (and all and sundry). I haven't seen him in 2 years or more. He'll be 90 in April.

Work continues to be stupid. The world spins on.

Here's today's meme installment:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs

1. Sound & Vision - David Bowie
2. Golden Years - David Bowie
3. Marjaani Marjaani Kasame (from the Billu soundtrack)
4. Kuch Kuch Hota Hai (from the movie soundtrack of the same name)
5. Scheherazade. Yes, all of it.
6. Together - Tierra (for purely sentimental reasons)
7. Flight of the Moorglade - Jon Anderson
8. Just about any song you can name by The Cure (the same goes for Bowie, really).
9. A String of Pearls - Glenn Miller
10. Starship Trooper - Yes
(This list is completely random and by no means comprehensive.)

DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

TV and more TV!

2011-02-09T02:57:11Z

As many of you may know, I do not have television in any traditional sense of the word. I do have a digital projector, and I use it to project various movies from DVD and via Netflix from the Wii. I also sit like a lazy-ass right here in front of my antiquated computer monitor and watch shows sometimes. I recently watched 2 and a half seasons of Sanctuary, one of the most ridiculous shows ever. I love it. Today, though, it was a few episodes of the PBS series, The Story of India. I don't think to much of the dude who hosts it, but I LOVE the series. There are 6 hour-long eps. Very, very good stuff. I look forward to more of that ridiculousness tomorrow.

Work is wearing me out this week. I'm going to bed. It's only 9:54. How pathetic am I?

Here's today's meme installment:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without

DAY 7: 10 important people

1. Shakyamuni Buddha
2. HH the Dalai Lama
3. D
4. My grandmother Barbara
5. Kazoo. Yes, she was people.
6. shmoobits
7. Kiki Rose
8. I'm going to cheat and say my siblings and only use one number for all four of them.
9. Saundra Ann Land
10. You.

DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

So full.

2011-02-08T01:03:16Z

I just finished eating my spinach, mushroom, and cheddar omelet. Yum. And now I am drinking diet cream soda. So good.

The stressful work meeting wasn't too bad. I mean, it was moderately stressful, but not panic-inducing. Sometimes I wonder if I've surpassed my lifetime level of feeling super stressed out already. I just can't muster the energy most of the time. I remember in years past being super stressed, even about the dumbest stuff. I wonder if it's a good thing or a bad thing to have possibly surpassed my limit. Hmm...

Today's meme installment:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without

1. This physical body, such as it is.
2. A roof over my head. Maybe I could do without this if I lived somewhere a bit warmer.
3. Food.
4. Drink.
5. Imagination.
...okay, I'm having a really hard time with this one. I can't really think of anything else I can't live without. People, maybe...items is a bit harder. Friends? Are they items?

DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

Alrighty, off to collect D from his seminar or whatever it was he was doing this evening. See y'all tomorrow.

Laaaaaaaaazy Sunday afternoon, got no mind to worry!

2011-02-07T01:23:08Z

Close my eyes and drift away.

We had a pretty lazy day today. It was nice. Now, however, I'm already starting to stress about work tomorrow. Ah, well. The worst that could happen is still not the end of the world.

I felt like I was getting a cold the last couple of mornings, but I'm not sure if it really was a cold, or whether it might be because we have no control over the heat in this house. At night, the landladies keep it around 60, too damned cold for me. In the morning, they've got it cranked up to about 80, and it's super dry in here when they do that, too. Ugh.

Today's meme stuff:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes

1. I wish I could do well on the GRE.
2. I wish I could get that job I want.
3. I wish my grandmother were still with me.
4. I wish I'd had more time with my sister.
5. I wish we could sell our old house.
6. I wish I had a chocolate lab.
7. I wish I saw my Elf friends more frequently.
8. I wish I'd done some things differently.
9. I wish I could find a decent doctor and dentist.
10. I wish I could retire right this minute. Heh.

DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

14 years ago today...

2011-02-06T03:43:17Z

D and I got married. Every year we go to the movies, sometimes more than one. Today we saw the mediocre Green Hornet, then we came home and watched the also mediocre Kal Ho Naa Ho. But we had a nice time, and we had a nice lunch, with dessert, followed by popcorn, and malts on the way home.

The 14th anniversary traditional wedding gift is ivory. We decided to donate to this elephant sanctuary in Tennessee.

Day 4 of the meme:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person

1. You're fantastic.
2. Everything about your career is inspiring.
3. I don't like everyone you like.
4. I wish you wouldn't drink so much.
5. You are the most genuinely good person I know.
6. They don't really care about you, they just use you.
7. You should have been there.
8. Be careful.
9. Thank you for understanding.
10. Bears are light sleepers and quite ferocious.

DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

Wow, was THAT a bad day!

2011-02-05T02:43:24Z

I was so miserable when I got home that I put on sweats and went to bed. At 5:30. And watched old eps of Mercy Peak for 4 hours. You know, I make just over HALF the median salary for my field, and I do it because I want to work doing what I do. But there are limits.

D made me feel much better, though, when he got home and made me cheese and broccoli crepes. Now for ginger ale and back to bed. Tomorrow is another day, right?

Today's installment of meme:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate

1. Pompous, self-important jackasses.
2. Elitism.
3. Texas - except Austin. (Sorry, you guys, it's true.)
4. Myself, sometimes.
5. Animal suffering.
6. Being a grown-up.
7. Missing people I'll never see again.
8. Gaining weight
9. People killing things for no good reason (like harmless spiders and caterpillars).
10. My chemical allergies.

DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

Hahahaha!

2011-02-04T01:41:36Z

I blew it already! I forgot to post yesterday. Ah, well, last time I did fine, so what the hell. I'll go ahead and carry on as if nothing has happened, and continue posting for the rest of the month. One other thing I forgot to do yesterday was go to my chiropractic appointment. Boy am I sorry now. Especially after trying to sit in half lotus for an hour and a half.

Went to my Sautrantika class this evening. Even after a pretty crappy day with people being mean to me (well, person), it's fantastic to go to classes at the monastery.

Aaaand on with my meme, day 2:

DAY 1: 10 things about you
DAY 2: 10 things you love

1. The Three Jewels.
2. Girl chocolate Labrador retrievers.
3. Hanging around with D.
4. Elvses (yes, still)
5. Pickles, especially from Disneyland.
6. Tea.
7. Reading, be it hard copy books or Kindle editions.
8. Sleeping.
9. Summer.
10. Honey Bearess.

DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

It's sodding cold!

2011-02-01T22:00:11Z

Well, actually, it isn't as cold as it has been lately. But it SEEMS colder due to all the stinkin' snow that is falling. And this is what my employer has to say about closing tomorrow, when there could be up to 22 inches of snow on the roads:

"We will not close the agency unless an official state of emergency is declared."

What bastards.

I did leave work at 4 today, and I will probably take a personal day even if they don't close tomorrow. Unless the weather forecast is completely off, which is absolutely a possibility.

Also, to take up space, I think I'll join in on a good old fashioned meme, since this is my first time to post on LJ for a while.

DAY 1: 10 things about you

1. I didn't start college until I was 30; I didn't finish grad school until I was 36.
2. Where I live now is the most wonderful place I've lived in decades. I adore it.
3. I suddenly developed severe allergies to some cosmetics and fragrances about 2 years ago. The results are like a chemical burn.
4. I've lived on 3 continents.
5. I love Labradors.
6. I used to be an emergency services dispatcher.
7. I'm studying for my GRE and hoping to go back for my Ph.D.
8. My first love was Spock. I still love Leonard Nimoy, even though he'll be 80 next month.
9. At one time, I wanted to marry either Mr. Rogers, Mohammed Ali, or Tarzan. (I was 3).
10. I've been 6 feet tall since I was 12.

DAY 2: 10 things you love
DAY 3: 10 things you hate
DAY 4: 10 things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: 10 wishes
DAY 6: 10 items you can’t live without
DAY 7: 10 important people
DAY 8: 10 of your favorite songs
DAY 9: 10 ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words.

The weekend's gone, but it was good.

2010-05-02T23:56:48Z

Retreat was awesome. Learned a lot.

Last day!

2010-05-01T01:49:42Z

Today is the last day of April, and therefore my last day of posting every day with extremely dull random crap.

When I scooted home tonight after my retreat, the air was full of the perfume of lilacs and honeysuckle. Lilacs are my absolute favourite. Then I went over a little metal one lane bridge so I got cool breeze off the water. Then I drove through a part of my trip home that doesn't look like anything much in the daytime, but in the spring evening is utterly transformed. Total magic.

Retreat for the rest of the weekend.

Things are generally good.

I now return you to your regularly scheduled more exciting people.

See you next year, perhaps.

Ready for the end o' the week.

2010-04-30T02:14:17Z

It's been lunacy at work. I've at least gotten some things done, but there's so much more! I think I'll probably have to go in and try to catch up on Sunday afternoon.

I'm going to this retreat this weekend. That'll be excellent.

Been riding my scooter to work this week. It's starting to warm up a bit. It's supposed to be 76 tomorrow and 80 on Saturday. 79 on Sunday. Nearly fit for human habitation!

I just drank a diet Barq's with a an ounce of heavy whipping cream in it. It was exactly like a rootbeer float, only better.

D just brought the cat in and said he'd just seen him coming out of someone else's house across the street! NOT comfortable with that.

Not patient.

2010-04-29T02:21:38Z

Y'know, I've been attempting to follow a certain path for, oh, roughly fifteen years now. I've attempted during that time to improve a little in certain basic skill sets. And let me tell you, it's a lot more difficult than I first thought it was going to be. And that's actually saying something, because I didn't anticipate it would be easy peasy.

It's generally easy to feel discouraged when things aren't easy, or when one doesn't feel particulary successful at things.

But sometimes, just on the rare occassion, it is actually possible to look back to fifteen years ago and see a little progress. That...is an amazing thing to me. Wonderful.

Eh, who gives a crap about stress, right?

2010-04-28T01:36:53Z

I'm not claiming I haven't got any. Goodness knows I have. But really, I've sort of reached a levelling off of peaks and valleys, if you will.

Not much is the end of the world in my book, and a good portion of the things I would consider being in that category have already happened, so, WTH?

I have diet ginger ale and a (temporarily) ketogenic diet.

All's well.

Or at least not as bad as it could be.

Broken record.

2010-04-27T02:21:23Z

1. Went to work at 7 a.m.

2. Stopped work and left the building at 6:20 p.m. (only because I REFUSE to miss my class at the monastery).

3. Finished class at 8 p.m.

4. Came home and called my dad for the first time in months because OMG YAY, MY PHONE WORKS!

5. But had to call him while eating my dinner because

6. There's just enough time to feed and walk the emergency backup dog, post this, and go to bed.

7. G'night.

Worked.

2010-04-26T02:25:26Z

Worked my bottom off this weekend. Probably will continue to do so into this week.

It rained a good deal today. Quite nice.

Today was also my grandfather's 89th birthday. He's lovely.

That's about it on the news front from me.

Busy, busy bee day.

2010-04-25T01:29:41Z

Today just zipped by.

I did end up having to pay at my WW meeting. SUCK! So the next month is going to be one of seriousness. No slacking allowed. And at least I'm only like 4 over, not 20 or anything like that.

We went straight from the meeting to eat at Friendly's though, just as a sort of, uh, last hurrah. Heh.

After that, I FINALLY solved the problem that has been plaguing me since we moved here and got a new phone plan. Verizon is the only one that gets decent reception around here, apparently. And I got a cool new phone into the bargain, yay. But that means that Monday I have to call and fight with T-mobile about their crappy service and the fact that I can't actually get any phone calls or make any here so that they'll let me out of my contract. Heh. That'll be a joy.

Then we went to AutoZone. Ew. But my car hasn't been happy recently. And like this guy who used to be my friend, I have an old car and really have no desire to have a new car. Much as I have an old computer and really have no desire for change. So D is working on fixing my transmission. And he accidentally found out what was causing my oil leak, and apparently it wasn't a big deal. It was actually just bastardly rip off artist mechanics in Texas trying to convince me I needed to buy a new car. Pft.

Then we bought groceries for the week. Thrilling, but necessary.

Now we are home, and I am thinking of downloading an app for my phone that will simulate Darth Vader's light saber, with or without accompanying music.

I got through the day! And the week!

2010-04-24T02:54:39Z

I got through the day without setting off the sprinkler system at work (just barely)! And I got through the week with my sense of job satisfaction mostly intact.

I'm probably going to have to pay at my meeting tomorrow on account of the gigantic calzone I just ate.

It was totally worth it.

Well, there is a positive side to this.

2010-04-23T00:33:30Z

Believe it or not.

So, today I cried at work. Twice. Not, like, where everyone could see me or anything, but still. How lame.

It's the same old same old in some ways. No possible way to do everything asked in the time alotted. It's the nature of my field.

The positive side is this:

I've been working here for nearly six months, and this is the first time I've felt super stressed to the point of being overwhelmed. The last two places I've worked, that's happened within the first few weeks. Maybe within the first week in the case of the last one.

I also still love it in this community. I'm not disillusioned with it at all.

So things aren't so terrible on the whole. And I was able to address the crappiness pretty well.

I can end the day feeling okay.

And next weekend, I'll attend a mental health intensive with monks. Yay.

I'm a bad bee.

2010-04-22T00:58:35Z

It's D's birthday, but he was out of town until this evening, and I am so sick, I forgot! I forgot my husband's birthday, which is bad enough, but it's even worse because it's four days after my own birthday.

I'm a bad, bad bee. :(

Going back to bed.

2010-04-20T23:05:08Z

I had to come home from work early, because I am sick. Went to bed, burned off some fever, got up to get a drink and post, going back to bed. Ugh. So, so sick.