So many gymnasticses to watch. The men’s results were really unexpected. I’m feeling a lot better than last night, though. I’ve been mulling over fiction stuff and doing some planning. And I got another good chunk of unpacking/organizing done. We even hung up some pictures and art.

Dear self,

You are doing OK but in the next few days you need to:

  • Finish that work assignment
  • Take another assignment when you’re done!
  • Go through the rest of your inbox
  • Do something about the AC unit
  • Call the insurance people

You can, if you feel like it:

  • Clean the refrigerator door
  • Vacuum
  • Put more kitchen stuff away
  • Contemplate hanging stuff on the hooks in the kitchen
  • Unpack the last few boxes
  • Probably just throw away most of the stuff in the cupboard under the sink

I got so much done today! I cleaned a bunch of stuff in the kitchen AND made lunch and dinner AND washed/put away dishes AND took out trash AND got the mail AND went to the store. And I only feel mildly mushed now. I think I’m really recovering.

Bullying 3

This is kind of an unfinished thought, but (a) it’s been sitting “unfinished” in my drafts for a while now (b) it’s pretty long, so it may as well stand on its own.

This is about bullying, a little bit, and also about that feel when you’re afraid of a problem but you’re more afraid of asking for help with it.

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I cooked food today and it was fine.

I ate food today and it was fine.

I washed dishes today and it was fine.

I cooked more food in the aforementioned dishes and it was fine.

I made this sort-of shawarma today and it’s slightly more anxiety-inducing for me than other foods (because it involves cooking with raw meat, and also raw ingredients that go straight into the final dish, and also eating wth my hands) but it’s so good, I keep forgetting how good it is. It smells amazing and now that I’ve bowed to the inevitable and stopped trying to make my own flatbread every time, it doesn’t take very long either.

I cook some onions in the same pan as the chicken and it’s so good. I need to make this more often.

Life update

The apartment is steadily approaching cleanliness/organization/etc. We’ve cleaned out some closet and drawer space and unpacked stuff into it.

I get a chair! by a window! with a lamp! in my bedroom! It’s great. Nothing matches anything but whatever, it’s still great.

I really need to finish cleaning the kitchen though.

 

For the first time in my life

I think I might actually want to wear sunglasses.

My mother was very firm about making sure my brother and I both Had sunglasses when we were little, and I never really felt a need for them then, but now I kind of do. I’m spending too much time squinting when I’m outside.

I also bought and used some sunscreen, which I really should have started doing before now. It’ll be good for my face I hope.

I really just want my brain to get back to its normal capacity. I’m definitely less mush than I was a week ago, but doing what should be a easy-to-normal amount of stuff is still exhausting me.