Phoenix feathers falling from hidden places

tiddly pom

sollunastella — Thu, 25 Apr 2013 17:39:47 GMT

To be honest haven't been on here in far too long, but got reminded about it so though i'd better post otherwise a lot of memories would be gone.
Still alive and life choatic as ever

sollunastella — Fri, 01 May 2009 05:40:52 GMT

Horrah Horrah the first of May, outdoor sex begins today :)

Bright Beltane Blessings to all

sollunastella — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 06:37:23 GMT

Happy St Georges Day to all

sollunastella — Fri, 13 Mar 2009 19:59:48 GMT

You Are An INFP

The Idealist

You are a creative person with a great imagination. You enjoy living in your own inner world.

Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.

It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close to you.

But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.

You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.

At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak

What's Your Personality Type?

sollunastella — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:07:38 GMT

A quiets New Year's Eve for me hiding from my personal demons

I wish one and all a Happy and Peaceful 2009

sollunastella — Thu, 25 Dec 2008 17:13:23 GMT

Happy Christmas to one and all.

May you have peace and love in your life and soul.

sollunastella — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 10:23:58 GMT

Solstice Blessings to all.

May the Oak King bring back light to your lives.

sollunastella — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 11:16:04 GMT

Life is too much.
I have just chipped a tooth and lost half of it and the depression has kicked in hard

sollunastella — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 21:35:28 GMT

I left today after 2 years hard graft and i didn't even get a sodding card.
The bloke i chatted to on my journey on the train gave me a box of choccies for luck but folks who i have worked along side for 2 years gave me jack shit.
I was really hurt by this as i'd stuipdly assumed that i'd get some appreciation for 2 years hard work but that will teach me.
I would not reccoemend that anyone ever works for Businesspost/Uk Mail as it is full of areseholes.

life has got to get better

sollunastella — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 20:30:35 GMT

This week i have been on the blob, dealt with a full moon, had a steriod jab into my pelvic bone and lost my job.

Things have got to get better as I'm not sure i can carry on coping for much longer.

sollunastella — Fri, 31 Oct 2008 06:45:06 GMT

Happy Samhain to all

THis is wonderful

sollunastella — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 20:22:22 GMT

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=Y150Lm4kZ_M

An opening up - this is not easy reading but I am not hiding it

sollunastella — Wed, 17 Sep 2008 21:23:03 GMT

I have been quiet as I have been put through sheer hell recently
I have learnt the very hard and painful way never to believe the lies of a married man. They never keep their promises even though they gild them with love poetry and promises of marriage.
They also will spin tales and send promises despite the fact that in their hearts they know they will never leave their wife becuase she holds the strings to them as a puppet which is that of their children. But they will do what ever they have to to get sex as this is missing from their marriage and even though they protest of love and take your heart and soul they do not know what to do with them so just throw them away as they get scared.
Unlike the person concerend or their wife I will not take any revenge even though the urge to do so is stronger thant I have ever felt in my entire life, but there are children who would get hurt and despite the pull of my main deity I will not go after revenege and vengence becuase I will not ever harm these children and this is despite the fact that their parents use them as pawns in their rows. I will not stoop to that level. If I had been kept as a mistress and dumped in 8 years time, then I wouldn't have any issues as the children would both be adults and able to make up their own minds about thier father's falandering, but they are still children si I cannot.
I am finally writing this down becuase yes I know I was foolish to give me heart to one who was already attached, but I believed their tales that they were planning to leave said wife and that they loved me and that they would marry me in a pagan ceremony once they had left their wife. This was not true when it came to the crunch of between love and society appearnces.
However I do not play the games of those who are directors and rich. I do not earn a six or seven figure salary and I had not realised that in such cases realtionships are business matters. The rules it seems is that you may have a loveless marriage but you keep it socially acceptable and that you make take a mistress but never get comitted to them and once you realise that they love you, you can just treat them with contempt and just throw them away with the trash.
I may never be able to trust again after this and the hurt they have cuased is even deeper than that caused by BP as i finally has the courage to let someone fully into my life and into my scared places, and all they did was use me and leave me in a mess and not give a damn.
I am willing to provide details if you wish to know but I have cried myself to sleep for over 2 months now virtually every night and recent events elsewhere mean that after long chats with those who i can trust I am doing this posting as part of my healing proccess. I would also like to save others in the Wiltshire and Oxford areas and perhaps further afield from suffering the fate I have done. He is a clever and acomplsihed man who can charm many folks but will dispose of them after he has finished with them.
It will take a brave pagan man to take the current mess that I am and heal it. I fear that it will never happen. I will eventually recover enough to carry on but for now i am going to be quiet.
I know there are some who will gloat and be happy and say that this is revenge or karma and i expect them to do so but I am still posting this publically so it can be seen by all, but the comments can only be seen by me.

sollunastella — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 04:01:04 GMT

Happy Solstice to one and all

thought of the day

sollunastella — Sun, 18 May 2008 09:39:17 GMT

Kind words are short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truely endless

A poem that struck a chord

sollunastella — Thu, 15 May 2008 20:36:41 GMT

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.

Yeats

sollunastella — Thu, 01 May 2008 08:21:49 GMT

Beltane Blessings to all

sollunastella — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 09:00:43 GMT

- May 6 -
You love literature and the arts and dreaming and traveling. You love attention and are constantly attracting people with your charm. People find you very stimulating intellectually.
Positive Traits: kind, generous, honest, trustworthy, responsible
Negative Traits: manipulative, a gossip, presumptive, codependency, controlling
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Thought of the day

sollunastella — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 05:39:20 GMT

Intelligence is knowing a toamato is fruit
Wisdom is not putting one in a fruit salad

RIP Charlton Heston

sollunastella — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 11:27:52 GMT

One of my all time action heros has passed away.
Rest In Peace El Cid

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/2496037.stm

Thought of the day

sollunastella — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 08:06:41 GMT

I got bored with feng shui and so I redesigned my house on the principles of chow mein: all wiggly and jumbled up

sollunastella — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 10:44:22 GMT

Happy Easter to all.
May you all finnd the new beinings you wish for.

Our Lady of Onions

sollunastella — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 07:29:46 GMT

http://charon.sfsu.edu/TENNYSON/TENNLADY.HTML

I have a copy of the picture in the link hanging above my bed, always get a lot of peace from the poem

phone post

sollunastella — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 08:13:40 GMT

no idea when i will get to work as am coming via reading as the windsor line is blocked

A poem that currently has a lot of meaning for me

sollunastella — Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:22:21 GMT

The Song of Wandering Aengus

I went out to the hazel wood,
Because a fire was in my head,
And cut and peeled a hazel wand,
And hooked a berry to a thread;
And when white moths were on the wing,
And moth-like stars were flickering out,
I dropped the berry in a stream
And caught a little silver trout.

When I had laid it on the floor
I went to blow the fire aflame,
But something rustled on the floor,
And some one called me by my name:
It had become a glimmering girl
With apple blossom in her hair
Who called me by my name and ran
And faded through the brightening air.

Though I am old with wandering
Through hollow lands and hilly lands,
I will find out where she has gone,
And kiss her lips and take her hands;
And walk among long dappled grass,
And pluck till time and times are done
The silver apples of the moon,
The golden apples of the sun.

-- William Butler Yeats