\n V24: After Merging
\n\n It had been a day since we had biomerged for the first time. And odd things were happening. I had ideas that weren't mine in my head. I asked Renamon about it. She was back in the house. After the merge she seemed like she had stopped fearing me.
\n\n Nathan: Hey Renamon?
\n\n Renamon: absentmindedly Um-hm?
\n\n Nathan: Since we biomerged I have been having weird thoughts. Like a compulsion to apologize to eat fish. Biomerging screw with peoples minds?
\n\n Renamon: Oh, that? When you biomerge you become one in body and mind. Essentially you get some of the other person. Sorry I love fish!
\n\n I look over to see what's she's doing. She had been reading one of my Fullmetal Alchemist books.
\n\n Nathan: You read FMA?
\n\n Renamon: No, I just can't fight the urge to read them.
\n\n Nathan: Ah! Sorry thats one of my traits, you must have gotten it.
\n\n She went back to reading. Then I got an idea. Perhaps I had been exposed to her feelings towards me. There was a good chance! I took up a meditation position that Matt had taught me. I remembered that and I flood of thought entered my head.
\n\n Matt: Hey Renamon!
\n\n Matt kisses her, Matt holding her.
\n\n Matt: I missed you!
\n\n I saw countless days together!
\n\n Matt: RENA!
\n\n Then it shifted.
\n\n Matt: not much time . . . get this to Omnimon . . . goodbye . . . my love . . .
\n\n I sat up, I realized what I had just saw! Matt dieing in her arms!
\n\n Nathan: Going to the bathroom!
\n\n I ran for the door. Went in, locked the door and jumped in the shower. I wouldn't let her hear me cry . . .
\n\n Renamon's Perspective
\n\n Renamon: MAN! I haven't enjoyed a book this much since Matt had showed me his!
\n\n I was enjoying the book. Then I remembered Matt doing the same things with me. I closed the book and curled into myself, I felt to lonely.
\n\n Renamon: I wish he was still here.
\n\n Then a shift. Not a memory like when I merged with Matt, just a single emotion. Lonesomeness. It was like nothing I had ever known. It was crushing, not an emotion, a physical feeling! It crushed me like a black cloud, I couldn't even think. Then I flash of light, and another. Then I was filled with light. I looked into expecting a god? No, inside that light, was me.
\n\n Renamon: How?
\n\n Then I realized it was Nathan's feelings. I curled as tightly as I could and cried.
\n\n
\n Back with Nathan
\n I got out of the shower. Still breathing shakily I started to dry. I was done crying but that image was still haunting me. Matt, soaked in blood, saying goodbye. I leaned over the toilet and vomited.
\n\n Nathan: How could I have been that dumb!? Asking her out! Her last boyfriend died not 6 months ago! IN HERE ARMS!
\n\n I walked out of the bathroom and found Renamon curled in a ball. She was shaking and whimpering. I put my hand on her and gave her a shake.
\n\n Nathan: Renamon? Are you okay?
\n\n She uncurled and shot at me. Toppling me over she was on top of me, crying?
\n\n Renamon: I'm sorry! I DIDN'T KNOW! Please forgive me!
\n\n She was sputtering and crying. Ever time I tried to get up she pinned me back down. Eventually her cry's subsided. She collapsed onto me. I gave her another little shake?
\n\n Nathan: Renamon? You alright?
\n\n She didn't move but I could feel her breathing. Sighing I heaved her over my shoulder and put her in my bed. I grabbed a blanket and jumped onto the couch.
\n\n Nathan: Couch will have to do. I wonder what got her so spooked?
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