I'm not sure how to introduce this sketch out of nowhere. It's very simplistic, but deeply personal. I don't know how much about it I want to share in words vs. how much I want to just let it exist.

In my continued journey to reckon with my personal history, with the good and the bad of all I've experienced, I feel disconnected with my own existence. The "me" that I was as a young kid, the "me" in high school, the "me" I was for myself, for my friends, for my family, and the "me" that I am currently. They don't feel attached to each other, in this moment. Every "me" has gone through so much, leading to sweeping changes in how I exist with the world, and with myself. My memories are often foggy, for a variety of reasons I'll be keeping to myself.

Recently, my only remaining friend from high school shared a photo of me when I was about 16 years old. I don't have many photos or memorabilia from that part of my life, so seeing that picture felt like looking at a familiar stranger. The next day, I had my second session with my new therapist, and then immediately saw this post by Choco again. All of that culminated in a desire to try out sitting with myself, and drawing... something. Anything. So, this is what came out.

I want to try and find this "me". I see people say things like "reconnect with your inner child" or "talk to your younger self", but I admit, I don't understand what that means. How you go about it. So instead of forcing myself to figure out whatever that is, I'm just going to look for her in the first place. Maybe I'll find her, and it can go from there.