\n My Lonesome

\n Today, I'm feeling quite alone
\n I'm feeling quite depressed
\n Because this monster it has grown
\n And I cannot put it to rest

\n But, these hurtful feeling will not leave
\n They hurt my mortal soul
\n And that gives me this numbing grief
\n To have no one to make me whole

\n I'm looking for that special one
\n That will hold me close and near
\n The one who's still there with the morning sun
\n the one I'll call my dear

\n I want a man who's really nice
\n who's beauty does compare
\n So then, my heart will be suffice
\n As I brush my fingers through his hair

\n But, how could I act all this shallow!
\n My face and body aren't that great
\n I see myself and I'm just hollow
\n My mind is struggled with this debate

\n And people tell me otherwise
\n They tell me "I look great!"
\n But how come I don't feel that way
\n These thoughts are my demise

\n They also say "Just give it time"
\n But, I don't wanna wait
\n I want someone I can call mine
\n This loneliness I truly hate

\n And then I look into my future
\n With no one still to hold
\n Because, I'm with no human creature
\n And that just makes me feel so cold

\n And how am I to find other people?
\n If I'm too scared to say I'm gay
\n I feel like I was left in a steeple
\n Left on my own all night and day

\n But, I don't feel this all the time
\n I smile always on my own whim
\n But, it's as if lonelines was just a crime
\n And I've created this big sin!

\n But, I will hope for hapiness
\n And hope I find that one
\n Because, that will give me utter bliss
\n To know I have someone

\n But, now it's time I go to sleep
\n This poem's kinda long
\n I close my eyes as I slowly weep
\n Hoping tomorrow that I'll be strong

\n So goodnight to everyone out there
\n I'm sorry to be so sad
\n I just had to express myself to anyone who cared
\n Because today was really bad :(