This town is like this. Darkness covers the sky. I walk home as usual. I don't want to go home. I'm afraid of my family. But I have to go home. My family doesn't love me. I just disclosed my sexual orientation to my family a month ago. They start to hate me, they all want me to die

As soon as I got home, my brother punched me in the stomach

"You fucking dare to go home, what do you mean, look down on me?" I didn't feel the pain when he punched me, but my heart hurts very much.

  I stood up, he slapped me, I just covered my face, and then he walked away I went back to my room, listening to those very depressive songs, it was a nightmare

  Just when I was about to sleep, my mother suddenly yelled very loudly "Get the fuck out of me!" I was just listening to a song, she tore off my headphones, she dragged me off the bed and spanked my ass. I endured the pain and didn't shed tears. She continued to spank my ass

  I don't want to ask for help because there is no one to help me

I walked into the yard and suddenly a wine bottle flew towards me and smashed my head to bleed. My father thought I shouldn't be in this world. He was very angry when he saw me.

"Dennis! What do you think you are? How dare you go into the yard boldly" My dad slapped me by the way

  I shed tears and he continued to beat me. My brother saw me being beaten and asked Dad to beat me harder. I fell on the ground and covered my belly with my hand. My father walked away angrily. My brother laughed at me and thought it was me who was wrong.

"Ha ha ! Dennis, if you were not gay, you wouldn't be like this." My brother spit at me, I want to resist, but my brother stomped on my head with his foot. I couldn't resist.

"Do you still want to resist? You should die instead of staying here." When I heard these words, I gave up resisting. He kicked my nose to bleed. I was very uncomfortable and wanted to cover my nose. He grabbed me, punched me in the face, then let me go, I lay on the ground crying loudly

 Dinner time, my family is dining next to the table but they didn't give me a meal. I can only buy food with my own money. How can this, they don't even give me money, I can only imagine. If someone gives me a bright day, I will never stay here but this is impossible. I can only imagine the bright future in my dream, I really hope that I can find this bright.

[Sigh] When did I become like this, this is only a month, I thought it was a year, don't look for my classmates and teachers to help because they are not good. I can only comfort myself. This town is a dark place. Students and teachers don't care about my feeling. The police just say some messy words and then tell me you can go out!

The next day, I look for my locker on the hallway, and one person grabbed me to put me in the locker. He said to other students.

"Dennis is a monster not to let him come out if he is going out, we will die." Others are doing their own things after listening to it.

  I tried to come out from the locker but he locked, the class bell rang, the other people's rush back to the classroom, I alone in the locker, I cried. What do I want is a beautiful and harmonious life, but I am crying here, but what is the method? I have to wait here to wait for the locker to open or it's broken, I can only wait. The door of the locker opened, I feel that the teacher opened it. I didn't expect him because he cares that I have late rather than I am here, when I am going to leave my clothes.

"Dennis, where are you going?" I still can't escape trouble, I have to answer him "um - this? I have to go back to the classroom", I really don't help, he is really angry.

"Dennis! I told you how many times don't be late, but you still don't listen!" I know that he will insult me but this time I want to change my unfavorable situation "b- but". I haven't mentioned it yet. He interrupted me. "Is it late, you still don't admit it?"

When he is walking, I am standing here and crying. I will never understand how the late happiness is. Maybe I should go to the new high-rise building in the town, then jump. But I will lose life but what can I still do now? I have to do this anyway, everyone doesn't care, I don't care.

( I have never understood it, why do you want to do this. ) Why did I listen to the damn song ( I have never been clear that you treat you like a normal person but you think you are my burden )I still can't control myself to listen to this song. ( If you have any feelings, you need to say it to me, then you will tell me, so tell me what you want to say? ) May this is my hobby (Don't escape everything to tell me what you want to say?)  I think I finally understand my life goals  (Let's tell me what you want to say? Don't escape everything ) I want to commit suicide.

Another lesson passed. I still didn't learn anything in the end. In the hallway, I was thinking how would I kill myself? Suddenly two bullies approached me, and I knew I was going to suffer again. They put my head on the ground and kicked my genitals with his feet. Then he stepped on my waist and made me feel very painful. I felt that my waist was about to break.

"Do you like this? I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for you to be gay." What he said made me feel shocked. Did they treat me like this? If so, why did they stay here for me? Now I only wish I was dead, because I think only this can be liberated. I can never go on like this forever. I have to find a reason to leave here.

Perhaps the best way is to leave the state, but it is better to commit suicide. I'm thinking that homosexuality has so many rights in the United States, but the people in this small town are still very stubborn. Maybe it's because they are backward in thinking or they want to rebel. It's not worth it. Kansas is so big, I can't walk away from here. Of course, if I manage to leave here, chances are still there. And the central part of the United States is pretty dry. I can't stand this dryness.

I came home but I didn't dare to go in. What I fear most is this time. I can't believe that I will suffer here. If God exists, why didn't he kill me? I am indeed going to go to hell. I opened the door. I didn't expect it. My family looked at me angrily. I couldn't escape anymore. Sooner or later, I would die. It's better to let them go on. They might call me "son of a bitch" but I can only ask them to do so

I went back to the room and I was very sad because they did something indescribable to me. I turned on the radio (Hi! Dennis, I'm the narrator of this story, bob. It's great to tell your story) I'm terrified. How does he know my name? (You look good but in fact you are now a zombie, why don't you give up?) Why does he say that? (Let go for the sake of your freedom) b-but (In short, the new world will accept you) What new world?

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He didn't answer me. I turned off the radio and lay in bed crying. Why can't I get the life I want? Maybe my life should end like this. My dreams, my hopes, my happiness is basically broken. If I die, it's good to me, good to everyone, then what am I waiting for? So I decided to commit suicide I walked to the tall building mentioned before and I observed it. This is a good place for suicide [sigh] In the end, I still didn't leave anything. It's a pity that this building has just been completed and some people have committed suicide here. I got to the top of the building while others were not paying attention. I decided to jump down. It didn't hurt anyway. At least I didn't have to stay here. I jumped down from the top of the building. The air was slow but I felt very cold. Maybe this is how I felt before death. I don't care how I was. I don't care how happy I was. Isn't this the ending I want?. Maybe I will never wake up after death or maybe I have come to a new world. If it is the latter, then I hope this new world is very good for me. If this new world is good for me, then it will help me!

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It looks like Dennis did it. I'm bob. I'm the narrator of this story. Dennis will be in a world of anthropomorphic animals. He will appear in New Zealand as a wolf. What will he choose? Is it love or hate? Or continue to be depressed? The important thing is that he meets true love, whether he is straight or not, they will eventually fall in love with each other, so let us look forward to the next chapter.

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oh! New Zealand beautiful place where the fur is doing his own thing as usual, but today is a little different. A happy wolf is riding a bicycle. He wanted to enjoy the beautiful scenery of Auckland, but he saw a wolf lying on the beach. He didn't look like he was sunbathing. He looked more like he was drowning. He took his pulse. Fortunately, he was not dead. He decided to take him home. From then on, he and the wolf's future love story was doomed.