Sitting by the window  
The weather is eerie 
My stomach is churning 
The news i am awaiting is scary 

My face is frozen by fear 
Played this moment time and time again 
But nothing can prepare you 
For the news i am about to ad-hear

I shake from the mental strain that takes form,
On me making me feel the claustrophobia 
Its a terrifying feeling to experience 
Its a horrific thing to have relevance 

Fingers scratching at the window 
As the rain pours upon the frame 
Clock stops as time slows for me 
And suddenly a feeling inside saying I'm to blame 

I no this is normal thinking 
But could it really be 
That the call that couldn't come 
Was all because of me 

I know its a silly thing to suggest 
But it buries me deep 
Gnaws at my heart and head 
Feeling sick now feeling weak 

The clock moves and strikes the dead of twelve 
With ominous thuds 
My tears are suffocating my face 
And now I peer at my fears 
Begging for the call that couldn't come 

I prayed, I cried, I screamed, I died 
To keep him here just for a few more days 
But the pain that he suffers is far to extreme 
Yet i still hold my head up in hope as i pray 

I feel the choke hold upon my throat  
But nothing is there except my thoughts 
Its causing me nausea and sickness 
Its causing me to lose all face and hope 

My heart races with so much panic and pain 
Knowing that daddy won't be coming home again 
But i can't see life without him I'm so afraid 
Do i really have to endure such a tragedy 

My brow now sweats and my eyes close 
I see his face with a huge smile on his lips 
That gives me warmth inside my heart 
I wish to give my father just one last kiss 

Suddenly there's a ring of the phone 
I feel the sudden shock the paralyzing effect 
It takes a hold of me i can't move  
My aunt answers the phone is it the news we all now expect 

She mutters towards the receiver 
And there's a faint reply  
Helen my dear sister tell Emily 
That uncle Alan has died 

I could see from her face 
That the news was broken 
My tears ran ever so faster 
i was shaking i was broken 

Auntie Helen slowly places the phone 
Back down to the chair 
She looked at my innocent face 
And uttered the words that she couldn't bare 

Sweetheart i have to speak to you 
Now please don't cry  
I'm for you darling 
But daddy has lost is life 

He fought my dear with all is might 
So please don't be sad 
He fought all he could sweet Emily dear 
He was a very brave dad 

Although Aunty Helen held my head high 
My face welled up deeper and deeper 
I had a stream of tears in my eyes 
I couldn't hold back any longer 

The call that couldn't come  
Though i begged for its place 
I love you daddy always will 
I'll always remember the smiles upon your face.