Tenderness is all I've got

snorkack — Thu, 13 Dec 2012 00:30:58 GMT

12/12/12

that is all

The first half(ish) of 2012

snorkack — Sun, 25 Nov 2012 17:33:34 GMT

SO LET'S POST A TIMELINE OF SORTS

JANUARY
DEPRESSION. LOTS OF HAPPINESS DESPITE THE DEPRESSION and if this sounds impossible to you god damn you have got lots to learn about depression (an aside, I'd really like to write about how depression actually works sometime because if there is one thing I have learned over the past few years it's that PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL WOW). Spent lots of time indoors.

FEBRUARY
more of the same except at the end of the month I met Tim, a pal of mine I've known since 2006. He and I spent about a week and a half with my cousin Chris and his roommates and went to see Radiohead which was just about the best night of my life LOVE THOM YORKE FOREVER.

MARCH
came home within the first week of March, fell back into the depression rut which was great. I mostly do not remember March. My dad and I went to an art gallery at one point though and that was really fun.

APRIL
what happened in April aside from the Radiohead Coachella livestream fuck
oh I lost a good friend of mine THAT WAS FUN. To clarify she didn't die or anything we are just not friends anymore but I hope she is doing okay. Also lost another friend I guess as a result to the first one but honestly we hadn't been the same for years.

is this ALSO when my main group of friends online sort of disbanded because I think it is. BOY did that suck! Thanks a lot, lies.

MAY
Met Duckie and Eli!!! Duckie is one of my favorite people and I cried on the way home because I missed her a lot and OH YEAH WE FED GIRAFFES TOGETHER! We went to the Miami zoo and it was amazing and I have photographic proof that giraffes think I'm amazing.
Also went to see Beach House with my ex which was fantastic god damn dream pop sure is one of my favorite things!!!

JUNE
There was another livestream of Radiohead. What else happened. OH I turned 21 and got my first ~legal drink~, it was a mojito and it was delicious.

JULY
TURNING POINT OF THE YEAR fuck I don't even know if I really want to write it all in this post just because it's so involved. Seriously the longest, most pivotal month of the year. I decided to say fuck you to depression and started meds even though it really broke me to "give in" because I was immature. My grams Irene had a heart attack in the first week of July and was rushed to the emergency room. My whole family, myself included, spent the rest of that month at the hospital basically. We might as well have slept there (and a few of us actually did most nights). I lost the ability to talk to anybody which really sucked and then my grandma died and I became really jaded with my family and I cuddled my dog a lot.

AUGUST
moved to North Carolina, reveled in newfound freedom, missed the hell out of my parents and dogs but mostly felt like I was free from my own brain for the first time in a while.

I think I'll finish the rest of this later yo

Let's try an undrunk post!!!

snorkack — Sun, 25 Nov 2012 17:11:05 GMT

But only because I have to go to work in two and a half hours, let's be honest here. Also because it is 11:30 AM.

Anyway HEY I guess I mostly wanted to post about how my life is different now. LET'S CATCH UP THEN I GUESS???
January through July was still MAGICAL DEPRESSION HOUR so there is honestly not much to report. Spent an unacceptable amount of time indoors, an unacceptable amount of time in bed, an unacceptable amount of time yelling at myself to get out of bed. There were lots of highlights, though! But I would rather break down the entire year in separate entries because I've decided to stop giving a fuck about how I come off on my own personal blog and actually WRITE thing here. Yes.

IN SUMMATION, in 2012 I lost lots of things I cared about -- people, the last remaining bits of my faith, my pride in some ways, my sense of security, fifteen pounds (which I later gained back and lost and gained back and lost and so on, fuckin bodies are weird), and a lot of things precious to me. But I gained freedom and so far that has been the most valuable thing in my entire life. 2012 has really been one of, if not THE most important year of my life.

For reference though, I now live in North Carolina with my sister, am the POS Coordinator at a retail-ish store here, am 21 years old wooooo getting my drink on, and feel more like myself than I have in three years or so which is a GREAT feeling and yeah i'm bored of writing now

Best mash-up ever

snorkack — Sat, 04 Jun 2011 06:12:01 GMT

unnecessary_, you kind of made my night by showing me this.

EXTERMINATING BY MOONLIGHT
EXTERMINATING BY DAYLIGHT
TEMPORAL SHIFTING FROM A REAL FIGHT!
SHE IS THE ONE NAMED DALEK MOON~

Safe Place Post

snorkack — Tue, 30 Nov 2010 02:08:32 GMT

Nabbed this from kaelakaelakaela because it is lovely.

This post is public. The comments will be screened. I will link it to my user info so that you will be able to find it when you need it. The purpose of this post is to vent and I will listen. Maybe we're very close or maybe we're not, but it doesn't matter because I will still listen all the same. You can say whatever you want: you can cry, you can complain, you can ask for advice, you can get off your chest something that has been weighing on you, you can ramble on and on randomly just for a distraction, or anything else you want to say. I will not judge, but rather celebrate in the fact that I am being trusted with a secret. I will not tell anyone what you say in this post and there's nothing that you can't tell me. I will be happy to PM or email you a response, just let me know your preference.

Also, if you feel like LJ comments aren't cutting it, you can contact me using

LJ private messaging obviously!
AIM: alasynnchains - if I am online, I am on AIM. Just let me know your screen name.
e-mail: pygmalism@gmail.com same here. If I am online, I have my e-mail open.

You guys should never have to feel like there's no one who will listen. Hopefully this post will prevent that from ever happening. ♥

snorkack — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 15:49:12 GMT

I SUPPORT TEAM OCEANIC

Please comment on the post linked above with "I SUPPORT TEAM OCEANIC" pals! It will take a mere few seconds out of your lives and will make me and a whole lot of SUPER AWESOME PEOPLE love you! :)

Lost parties are the best kinds of parties

snorkack — Fri, 25 Jun 2010 22:56:27 GMT

JOIN jjverse!!!
- an interactive jj abrams challenge community -
features Lost, Alias, Fringe, Star Trek, and sometimes Felicity

It is a lot of fun, and you should definitely join Team Oceanic today! If there are no current openings on our team, just ask to be in line for our next availability! :)

REAL ENTRY COMING SOON MAYBE?

Promotion city~

snorkack — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 06:59:37 GMT

Hey cool cats! You should all join disneyverse if you haven't already! It's a super fun challenge community based on Disney movies, and I'm a proud member of teampixar ♥! You can apply here, and I'd appreciate you telling 'em I sent you in your application. 8D

friends only!

snorkack — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 04:22:22 GMT

friends only
comment here to be added!