My Sweet Surrender ♥

Letters for Joy ✍️

simbasheart — Sat, 01 Apr 2017 19:25:49 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY!!!

Since it's your birthday, your fans all over the world whose lives you've touched and inspired want to wish you for your special day. We all love you! Thank you so much for being you!

Drunk

simbasheart — Sun, 30 Jun 2013 22:50:18 GMT

TITLE : Drunk
length : OneShot ; 1302 words
pairing/characters : RyeoWon ~~ XD
genre : PWP, Smut ; Weirdness?
rating : NC17
summary : Siwon have no idea how many rounds they had after that but he sure hell it's a lot to have him so fucking drunk that he's inside the toilet lip-locking with Ryeowook....

This is what happen when i cant sleep XDD.. PWP.. no plot, i honestly cant write anything lately no matter how hard i try, but i just really want to get this off my mind.. and now it's done.... idek XDD... im so sorry, im crazy o.o

oh well.. im sure no one would read this anyway.. hahaha XD otl .. im weird............... Q_Q

It was his fourth glass.. or was it his fifth? He shook his head as he lost count, his getting a bit tipsy and being the responsible man that he is he wanted to call it off a night and go home but a hand stopped him as he motioned to go up.

"Where are you going?" He blinked his haze eyes and looked at Ryeowook who was pouring more alcohol on his glass.

"Don't be such a girl, drink more." Ryeowook pouted as he pushed the glass towards the older.

He sighed as he noticed they were the only ones left drinking at the table. He looked around and he saw Eunhyuk, Shindong and Donghae dancing crazilly at the dance floor with Henry laughing his ass off as he join their crazy acts. Thank goodness they've rented the whole place for themselved because it would be chaos if anyone would see them like this. He looked at the sides and he saw Kangin dozing off, the man stopping after a few rounds, saying he's trying to watch his alcohol, Zhou Mi beside him who was knocked out only after a few shots. And he doesn't even want to know where Kyuhyun and Sungmin were after being kicked out by co-members after blatantly making out in front of them.

"I think we should stop. It's clear we're all wasted." Siwon muttered, putting down the glass of alcohol Ryeowook just offered him.

"Oh can you stop being so up-tight. Just relax and enjoy!" Ryeowook murmured as he pushed the glass back towards Siwon. Siwon sighed for the umpteenth time that night and took the glass.

"There you go!" Ryeowook cheered as he pour another round. Siwon have no idea how many rounds they had after that but he sure hell it's a lot to have him so fucking drunk that he's inside the toilet lip-locking with Ryeowook.

"Fuck, you taste so good." Ryeowook moaned as he grab Siwon's head deepening the kiss. And he could only agree as he felt the sensation crawling all over his body, reaching all the way down south and it definitely felt so good. He find himself wanting more as he buck his hips towards the other, their clothed erections brushing together. Ryeowook mimicked the action, thrusting harder as he knead Siwon's ass, pushing it even deeper towards his hard member.

"Oh F-" Siwon bit his lips, trying to control his moan but find it hard as Ryeowook humped their cocks harder. "Fuck!" He growled, his neck arching backwards as he cant contain the overflowing pleasure.

Ryeowook took it an opportunity to lavish Siwon's neck, peppering it with bites and kisses. Loving the taste, he immediately pulled Siwon's top, as he crave for more.

Ryeowook paused, his mouth watering as he eyed the other's perfectly toned abs. He moved his hand towards the perfection, biting his lips as he love the feel of it in his hands. "I've always known it look this good but I never thought it feels way much better!" Siwon didn't know what to reply as his mind was filled with lust and want, but he didn't have to say any word as Ryowook replaced his hand with his mouth, his tongue lapping every inch of Siwon like a cat in heat. "Mmm and fuck it even taste much better mmm... You taste so good Siwon." Ryeowook moaned as he lick every part of Siwon's chest , not leaving a bit of skin untouched.

He bit his lips as he reached Siwon's happy thrail, his heart brimming with lust as he started sucking downward until he met Siwon's jeans. He cursed at the annoying object as he hastily took it off. "Impatient, aren't we?" Siwon managed to say as he felt every bit of him tingle with excitement. At the same time, Ryeowook have pulled Siwon's boxers down, the other's hard erection standing high and proud as it was set free.

"Well damn, for this I definitely am!" Ryewook moaned as he eyed the other's member with so much want.

He moved forward as he took an experimental lick at the tip. "Mmm you taste so good, I bet you'll feel so fucking good inside me" Ryeowook moaned as he taste more of the other's erection. "Sadly i wont be able to feel you tonight, maybe some other time."

Siwon's eyes suddenly shot up at that statement but all questions was thrown out of the window as Ryeowook took all of his member inside his mouth.

Ryeowook sucked all of Siwon's member all the way down as the tip of the erection hit the back of his throat.

Siwon was in ecstasy that he almost failed to notice when Ryeowook inserted one finger inside his virgin hole. Another one came after, scissoring his tightness.

"Fuck Ryeowook that hurts!!!" Siwon screamed, gripping at the nearest thing his hand can reach which at that moment was Ryeowook's hair.

The smaller didn't mind as he suck harder, at the same time, his fingers hitting something inside Siwon that made him see heaven. "Oh fuck Ryeowook! Again! Fuck do that again!" Siwon begged, which the other more than gladly complied.

Siwon gasped as he begged for more, the mixture of pain and pleasure taking him in places he have never reached before and fuck it felt so fucking good.

He heard a loud pop and he felt so empty as Ryeowook's mouth left him but even more as the younger withdrew his fingers. He have never imagined anyone topping him, much more the eternal maknae, but damn! he find himself craving to have the younger as he felt the strange emptiness crawling inside him.

He was glad as he eyed Ryeowook who came back with a small pack of lube in hand.

"Where did you get that?" Siwon asked as he wasted no time and grabbed the pack and started undressing the younger.

"Mmm.. KyuMin. They always bring it with them everywhere. Horny couple." Ryeowook moaned as Siwon started coating his erect member with the lube. "Well send my thanks to them, because I'm damn horny for you right now." Siwon whispered making Ryeowook shudder. The younger immediately crushed their lips together in a messy kiss as he push Siwon on the wall.

Siwon pulled one of Ryeowook's leg as he guide the other's erection towards his waiting hole. "Fuck me now please." He whispered above Ryeowook's lips.

And the younger did as told as he push all the way inside the taller's tightness.

"Oh goodness! You're so tight.. ugh.. so good." Ryeowook moaned as he close his eyes from the amazing euphoria.

He waited a minute for Siwon to adjust before pulling out and slamming all the way in, repeating the proccess, as he try to find the other's peak of pleasure. He smiled as a lenghty moan escaped Siwon's lips. Knowing he found his target, he slammed faster thrusting towards that direction.

And soon enough, the small room was filled with moans and curses.

"I'm going to cum!" Ryeowook moaned as he reached his high, shooting all of his cum inside Siwon, the older coming soon after.

Siwon let himself fall, taking Ryeowook with him as they lay their wasted bodies on the floor.

"That was good." Siwon moaned, planting kisses on Ryeowook's neck as soon as he came down from his high.

"Mmm.. I definitely agree to that." Ryeowook moaned as he tilt his head, giving Siwon more access.

"So..wat now?" Ryeowook asked as he felt Siwon's lips going downwards, gasping as the taller find his hard nubs, sucking it with much fervor.

"Well you did want to know how it feels to have me inside you right?" Siwon asked as he guided Ryeowook's hands to his member.

Ryewook smirked. "I 'd love that."

Stages of Moving On

simbasheart — Mon, 24 Sep 2012 07:39:47 GMT

TITLE : Stages of Moving On
length : OneShot ; 2943 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin ; implied!SiMin
genre : Drama? Romance
rating : PG
summary : Kyuhyun had become Sungmin's life.. but now it;s time to move on

For @GaemSMl because i still owe her a fic.. I'm so sowee bb ;aaa;.. Kid!KyuMin doesnt love me Q.Q.. i hope ud like dis thou? ah idk.. *hides

i dont have MSWord ryt now ~ so there might be more grammar mistakes and typos than usual ;aaa;.... *hides4ever

DENIAL

All the evidence we're already presented right before his eyes but he chose to ignore it.

It started from those nights Kyuhyun would come home later than usual, that gradually increased to the young man not coming home at all. Sungmin will wait patiently for his lover to arrive, only to wake up the day after from the sounds of the door opening, signalling the arrival of his lover; sun already set, and Kyuhyun's favorite meal that Sungmin prepared the night prior already spoiled.

"We have too many things to finish at work that we have to stay until morning.."

"It's *insertname'Sugmin's not even sure is real' 's bday*.. we had too much fun that we lost track of time..."

..we're one of the zillions of excuses Kyuhyun would present to him... and stupid as he is, he believe every single one of it.

Next is that scent, that definitely wasn't Kyuhyun's, stenched on every shirt Kyuhyun had wore on those times. He doesn't know why, but there's just something on it that bugs him. Women's instict, they said, but man! he's not even a woman, so he just disregarded it as paranoia. He definitely need to cut down on soap operas.

Then there would be those times that Kyuhyun would receive a call, and his face would immediately lit up then the young man would lock himself inside the bathroom for hours, only laughters can be heard all trough-out. That and a bunch of things that made him worry.

But he never realy had the courage to ask Kyuhyun about it... He trust his husband, yes, he trust Kyuhun.

ANGER

He should've seen it coming really, but it still came as a shock to him as he saw it with his own two eyes.

It was supposed to be a joyful day. He was too busy being a dedicated house-wife that he doesn't have time to hang-out with his friends anymore; so Ryeowook - his bestfriend and co-teacher from his previous work had dragged him on one of their group's eat out, threatening to hate him forever if he didn't come, and an angry Ryeowook is definitely not a pleasant sight. But nonetheless, he was really happy with his decision, he missed Ryeowook and his friends too much that it felt so good to finally meet all of them again. He had been happy with his work but as he and Kyuhyun married and was blessed by a healthy baby boy, Kyuhyun had told him to stop, he was hesitant at first, teaching was his life, but since Kyuhyun had come, the young man had become his life. So he didn't think twice and agreed, but now as he saw that man he had offered his whole life with in the arms of another girl, all of his dreams we're shattered. He was mad, frustrated, not even words can describe the fury that's escalating inside his heart.

Before he could stop himself, he found his feet taking him to the "couple", his palm immediately finding it's way to his lover's cheeks.

"Min, baby."Kyuhyun gasped as he saw an enraged Sungmin in front of him and his mistress.

"Don't you fucking call me baby! How could you do this to me! You bastard!" He knew he would regret it afer, but that time nothing else matters, the growing number of people flocking towards them as if didn't exist as he let all of his anger out, the pain in his heart was too heavy that he wanted to let it all out. He need to let it all out, but every hit and words he threw towards Kyuhyun seemed not enough as the pain inside him felt like growing even more.

BARGAINING

"What the fuck! Stop causing a scene Min!" Kyuhyun shouted as he hastily pulled Sungmin out of the mall, away from the scrutinizing eyes of the people.

Sungmin scoffed. "How dare you! And I'm the one causing a scene?! You fucking ungrateful bastard! I've been nothing but faithful to you! How could you do this to me!" He screamed, as he felt frustration building inside him.

"Can you fucking shut up! This is what i hate about you! "

Sungmin froze from his position as Kyuhyun muttered those words.

"Fuck I'm so tired of this." Kyuhyun added before leaving him on that cold lifeless street, a mirror of his own heart.

"I hate you" - that word keeps on repeating inside his mind, he wasn't aware that Kyuhyun felt such towards him.. what happened to the i love yous and forever? Since when did the love change to hate?

Have he done something wrong? Was he not caring enough? Was he not sweet enough?

He shook his head out of the thoughts but his glance then fall on the reflection of himself by the window. His thoughts flew to that girl Kyuhyun was with earlier and then back to his own image. He laughed seeing how pathetic he was, he used to be the epitome of beauty, he did had lots of admirers back when he was younger, girls and even boys we're going crazy over his aegyo and breath-taking features but being a contented house-wife and dedicated mother of a healthy boy, he had forgotten about himself.

His bags visible, covering the life in his used to be sparkling eyes, pimples showing at his then flawless face that everybody envied,and an a visible couple of pounds he increased.

If he was still pretty like then, would Kyuhyun still love him?

That and a multitude of questions flashed in his mind as he reached home, but all of his questions and insecurities seemed to double as he saw Kyuhyun inside their room, bag in hand, as he threw a couple of shirts in.

"Where are you going?" He asked, his voice stuttering as tears flooded his voice.

"I'm sorry Min, I'm just too tired of all of this... I.. I just need some time to think things over. I'm really sorry. Goodbye."

Goodbye

That word seemed to hit something inside him, opening that faucet, as he started bursting out of tears. He run towards Kyuhyun, immediately clinging onto his back, preventing the younger on taking that one step that would lead him out of the door.

"Don't.. please don't..." Sungmin whispered trough tears as he tighten his hold on Kyuhyun, ".. I'll be better.. just tell me where I went wrong and I'll fix it I swear.. I love you so much. I beg you, please don't.. please don't leave me."

"It's not you Min.. I'm sorry... this would be the best for both of us... lets not hurt both of us more... I, I dont wanna hurt you even more.."

And he took that one step, breaking Sungmin into pieces, funny because this definitely hurt him the most.

DEPRESSION

Kyuhyun had become his life that it felt like his life was taken away from him the moment Kyuhyun left.

So what was the use of living really? Someone seemed to be chanting those words inside his head as he saw that blade at the top of the table as if telling him to go near. He trembled but everything felt so right as he took hold of the blade, he had always thought that suicide was stupid. Life was too good to end, even more with your own hands.

But that was back then when everything seemed perfect.

Everything's so painful that he just wanted to end all of it. He can't take it anymore, he needs something to stop it, someone to stop it, and without another thought, he slashed the blade on his wrist. He gasped at the pain, but the pain felt so good as it seemed to overpower the pain in his heart. He digged deeper.. and everything went blank.

ACCEPTANCE

Everything felt heavy as he adjusted his eyes at the sudden brightness. He immediately closed his eyes again, growling at the pain that shoot trough his head.

"Sungmin?! Oh my goodness he's awake! Sungmin's awake!" He heard a familiar voice shouting but everything felt so heavy that all he wants to do is close his eyes and go back to sleep, anything to take the pain away, but that's until he felt someone squeezed him, warm tears as if life brushing on his cold skin.

He slowly opened his eyes and there he saw his little baby, MinHyun crying as he mumble incoherent words on his mother's shoulder.

"Dont leave me again mommy."

He thought he had already felt the most pain when Kyuhyun left him, but he thought wrong as he felt his heart being crumpled into pieces the moment he saw the pain and sadness in his son's eyes, those he have caused.

"Oh baby, Mommy's sorry.. I love you baby. Mommy would never leave you." He sobbed as he hug his son tight.

"Really?"

Sungmin could only nod as he wipe MinHyun's tears away, his own tears falling uncontrollably.

"Don'y cry baby, Mommy loves you. I'll never leave you, I promise." and his heart shattered as he felt the other's tiny hands found it's way on his own face, wiping his tears away. He smiled as he finally felt his heart lighten up, laughing as he only realized now how stupid he was. He thought Kyuhyun was his life, he is. But not his whole life. He had just been a big part of it that he failed to notice that he's not the only one it consist of.

He smiled a sincere one as he felt a heavy burden being taken out of him. He hugged his son tightly in his arms, and looked around to see his mom, his dad, his brother and his friends looking back at him with a smile. He smiled back at them as he found even more reasons to live.

REBIRTH

"Kim Ryeowook!" Sungmin scolded his bestfriend as the younger man tries to push him inside the restaurant.

The young man had been bugging him about blind dates, stating he needed to find a new man better than that "asshole". He wasn't really sure if he's ready yet stating reasons after reasons to avoid the young man. Another one that bugs him was his appearance, he felt so ugly that he doesn't have the confidence that anyone would actually like him. Ryeowook gasped at that reasoning, immediately scolding his friend.

"Are you freaking kidding me?! Have you forgotten.. you're D' Lee Sungmin!"

"That was before. Look at me, I'm so ugly.." Sungmin sighed back, almost slipping to depression as he remembered his younger days. But Ryeowook didn't let that happen as he dragged Sungmin into the mall, and the next thing he knew, Ryeowook was prepping him up, and oh goodness he almost forgot his old bestfriend - his lovely eyeliner.

"Now this is definitely still D' Freaking Lee Sungmin!" Ryeowook squealed as he guided Sungmin towards the mirror.

Sungmin gasped, not really believing what he sees in the mirror.

"You're beautiful Min, I'd definitely tap you if I'm not in love with my Yeye"`

Sungmin only laughed at the statement.

And here he is now, being dragged by Ryeowook on a date.

"Cmon! Siwon's waiting for you inside."

"I.. I'm scared, what if he doesn't like me... What if.. "

"Oh he'll love you okay. Relax! Use your charm on him." Ryeowook winked before pushing Sungmin inside the restaurant, causing a commotion as he almost stumbled from the hard push. He felt his cheeks warmed up as he felt eyes towards him, but the heat increased, this time in a different reason, as he saw a hand being offered towards him.

"You must be Lee Sungmin."

"I.." Sungmin found himself lost in words as he lifted his face and saw the face that matched the beautiful voice. Oh fuck Ryeowook didn't told him Siwon was this nwkdlalcfa.

"It's nice to finally meet you. Ryeowook was right when he said you're beautiful.. even more to be honest."

He's a charmer, Sungmin's sure of it. He knows the other is playing with words to swoon him, but to heck! It's definitely working as Sungmin felt himself skipping like a highschool girl having her first crush. And maybe, giving this a chance would be a great idea after all.

He definitely had a great time and eveything was working great not until someone stepped in and made his world stop.

"Siwon!"

Sungmin froze from his spot, he definitely knew that voice. And his thoughts we're confirmed as the owner of it went towards their table. But what strike him was the sight of a lady clinged into the man's arms. He did felt a pain flashed inside him but what dominates inside him is anger. So he was depressed all along and here he was being happy with his girl?

"Sungmin?"

He lifted his head and he froze as their eyes locked into each other.

"You know Sungmin?" Siwon asked, oblivious of the growing tension between the air.

"Yes he just.. he look..."

"-he looks beautiful, isn't he?" Siwon grinned as he took Sungmin's hands to his.

Sungmin saw something flash in Kyuhyun's eyes with the action, as the younger stared, none too subtly, on the linked hands.

"Baby are you okay?" He heard the girl asked Kyuhyun.

He felt a tinge of pain flashed in his heart, the man was still his "husband" after all, but funny, he doesn't really care anymore, he had been in too much pain from the break-up that he's too tired of it.

He almost wasted his life for this man and he doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes all over again. He stood up, smiling a sincere smile, towards the three. "I'm sorry, I had a good time Siwon. Thank you, but I need to go."

"I'll send you home." Siwon hastily replied as he stood up from his seat, but Sungmin immediately stopped him. He doesn't want to use Siwon. He had a good time, yes, but as he think about it, he doesn't really need a man to be happy.

"I'm fine." He smiled, thoughts of Little MinHyun waiting for him in the house flooding his mind.

A NEW LIFE

He sighed as he inhaled the sweet wind of soul, the light ray of the sun felt so good as it flash towards his face.

It definitely was a beauiiful day, he was looking at the stores lined up on both sides of the street as he walk home, looking for somehing good to bring for MinHyun.

He's ready to have a "new life". A life where he wants to be a better person. But this time, not for Kyuhyun. He wanted to be better for himself. And he's planning to start today.

However his steps halted as he heard someone screaming his name. He turned back and his eyes doubled in size as he saw Kyuhyun running towards him.

"Don't date Siwon." Those we're the first words Kyuhyun muttered as he stopped right in front of Sungmin.

"What?" Sungmin asked, raising one of his brows as he look at the other man.

"I said don't date Siwon, you don't know Siwon.. he's..... he's not the one for you."

Sungmin scoffed, chuckling as he shakes his head. "And who's the one for me?.. You?"

"Yes."

Sungmin frozed from the abrupt answer, but sighed not wanting to fall for it.

"Stop this Kyuhyun. I've already moved on. Please don't make it any harder for me. Just... set me free." Sungmin pleaded as he turned around and walk away.

"No."

Sungmin frozed from his spot, his heart doing crazy beats as he heard steps going towards him.

"I can't. Not when I've learned my lesson and realized how an asshole i have been. I've made the biggest mistake in my life when I left you... it had always been you Min."

Sungmin tensed as the steps grew louder, the drumming in his heart, matching it's beat.

"I've always loved only you."

Sungmin gasped as Kyuhyun found his way in front of him, their faces inches apart, just like how Sungmin is so near on falling back to that line he swore he'll never go back in.

"Kyuhyun please, weren't you the one who broke this up. You're the one who said to stop this-"

"I never said anything about breaking-up or stopping what we have." Kyuhyun muttered before sighing and bowing his head down, "I was a fool. I was so stupid for even thinking I could leave without you. Please... please forgive me Sungmin. I love you so much.. can- can you give me a second chance?"

"Kyu.." Sungmin muttered, but he was too lost for words, his scared, this is definitely not part of his plan, he's supposed to start a new life - a life without Kyuhyun.

"Do you still love me?" Sungmin's thoughts we're stopped as he heard the other's question.

"I..." Sungmin started, he was scared to let the words out, but his heart screams the answer, and 6 years relationship with the man, Kyuhyun doesn't even need any words to hear it.

"Because I still do." Kyuhyun whispered and Sungmin felt something spark inside him as he saw sincerity in the younger's eyes. And it increased a multitude as he felt Kyuhyun's lips into his. He gasped as he felt something inside him burst.

The feeling felt like that first time Kyuhyun kissed him, hesitant yet sure. Too deep with passion that it had him burning in every inch of his being. And now he felt like he's back from the start.

oh fuck

When weirdness and randomness strikes..

simbasheart — Sun, 19 Aug 2012 03:44:29 GMT

TITLE : When weirdness and randomness strikes..
length : OneShot ; 1,281words
pairing/characters : KyuMin ; implied!SiMin
genre : Weirdness (coz it's my favorite genre :) ), fail!crack
rating : PG-13
summary : Kyuhyun should've known that his lover won't just let him get away with something as extreme as flirting with Donghae on stage..
warning : Full of weirdness :/... i have no idea what's this really...

*this was written during/for Super Show 4 ..? .. when Kyuhyun was flirting on stage, also the time where Siwon hurt his waist?... oh yah it was abandoned for too long dat i forgot wat SuShow was dat 8D... can i get any more fail? Q,Q

Ju.. this is yours! but i already told u this is weird so yah.. dont blame me ok? >< //hides

He should've known that this would happen. He knows that his boyfriend isn't someone that would just let him get away with something as extreme as flirting with Donghae on stage, but looks like he underestimated his bunny as he thought the other was already serving his punishment when the older was blatantly flirting with Siwon after the concert, stating that he can't leave Siwon's side because he needs to "take care" of him, as if.

He was annoyed with his lover so he retired to sleep early, too tired from the concert to even acknowledge his jealousy. He immediately doze to dreamland once his body met the soft sheets of his hotel room, something that he'll forever regret when he suddeny woke up in the wee hours of the night. He adjusted his eyes at the darkness of the room, only the lamp at both sides of the bed serves as lighting at the eerie darkness. He arched his eyebrow as he saw Sungmin sitting on the foot of the bed looking at him with that familiar gaze that only spells one thing, trouble.

"Baby, why aren't you sleeping yet?" Kyuhyun muttered, attempting to grab his lover in his arms, he feels cold and it was only Sungmin that could give him that flattering warmth his heart craves for, but his eyes shot open as he found his right hand cuffed on the bed.

"Lee Sungmin! What the heck!" Kyuhyun screamed as he tries to detach his hand from the chain.

"Aw baby, stop pulling your hand. You'd only get hurt." Sungmin cooed as he kiss the younger's hand lovingly, the other's kiss so gentle that Kyuhyun almost forgot that this was the same man that just cuffed him on the bed.

"You know i hate worrying over you, but i can't take care of you right now, so you should stay out of trouble okay?"

Kyuhyun looked at his lover with questioning eyes and as if on cue someone knocked on the door.

"Oh he's here." Kyuhyun wanted to asked who was "he" exactly, but he didn't need to as Sungmin happilly skipped towards the door revealing his answer, a very nervous Choi Siwon.

Kyuhyun looked at the two confusedly and by the look on Siwon's face once he saw the magnae's state, shows that the other was as clueless as him.

"What are you still doing there? Come here!" Sungmin called Siwon, tapping on the bed. He then looked towards his lover and shooed him to give more space for Siwon.

Kyuhyun scoffed but obliged nonetheless as Sungmin shoot him a piercing glare.
Siwon awkwardly sit on the bed, his gaze shifting over the two lovers.

"Does your waist still hurt?" Sungmin suddenly asked, batting his eyelashes. Kyuhyun shook his head from the sight, knowing exactly what this sly lover of his plans to do.
"A- a little." Siwon stuttered but he gasped as Sungmin's warm hand suddenly found it's way inside his shirt, soothing the aching muscles.

"You seemed so tense, you shouldn't overwork yourself. Cmon' let me massage you. Now go take off your shirt and lie down."

"W-what?!" Kyuhyun exclaimed as he suddenly found his voice that just left him along with his soul with his lover's blatant flirting, in freaking front of him!

"Oh Siwonnie don't be shy, you've already stripped in front of millions of people and now you can't infront of us?" Sungmin muttered at the nervous man, completely ignoring his lover's protest.

"Stay still i'm just going to get some oil." Sungmin muttered as he grab the bottle on the bathroom.

"Wait! I protest!" Sungmin looked at him briefly, but then smirked and ignore him as he started walking towards Siwon.

"What?! You're just going to ignore me now?! Lee Sungmin!"

"I'm sorry for the noise, I'll just turn the music on, you'll like that won't you?" Sungmin told Siwon, ignoring his boyfriend who was brimming with anger. And now even more as Kyuhyun heard their favorite song playing, his heart felt like being hit by thousands of needles as posssiveness crawl inside him.

"Oh you know what's the best thing to make you relax? Wine!" Kyuhyun's eyes widened as he watched his lover took out the bottle of wine they reserved for the TWO OF THEM.
"You can't drink that!" Kyuhyun screamed, effectively stopping Sungmin from completely opening the bottle.

"I.. I bought that! So that's mine!" Kyuhyun muttered childishly.

"But you told me earlier that you bought this for me." Sungmin replied.

"Well i take it back!"

Sungmin scoffed as he harshly push the bottle towards Kyuhyun who immediately hugged the bottle as if someone would take it away from him.

Sungmin tsked at his childish lover before looking back to Siwon.

"I'm sorry for that Siwonnie, it's cheap anyway. I'll buy something more expensive for us."

"Yah! you're the one who told me not to spend our money on expensive things so we could save for our future!" Kyuhyun protested.

"A future you'll never have if you continue acting like this." Sungmin muttered in gritted teeth before putting his smile again as he look back to Siwon. "Oh well scratch wine! I have something that would make you feel better." Sungmin muttered as he layed Siwon's tensed body on the bed.

Kyuhyun gulped trying hard to look elsewhere as Sungmin lifted the hem of Siwon's shirt and started mapping his hand all over Siwon's back. The tall man bit his lips, trying hard not to moan from Sungmin's expert hands. Sungmin noticed it so he pressed a sensitive spot, effectively escaping Siwon's moans.

Sungmin looked over the side and smirked as he saw Kyuhyun sweating as the younger fidget on his seat. The younger scoffed as he noticed the evil grin Sungmin's shooting towards him. Seriously? They said he's the evil one on this relationship?! He gritted his teeth as he completely opened the bottle of wine and drink straight from it.
Loving the reaction he's getting from his lover, Sungmin tapped Siwon signalling him as he attempted to completely take Siwon's shirt off.But Siwon immediately stopped him as he looked wearily at the magnae, gulping at the murderous stare the magnae's throwing over him.

"Cho Kyuhyun!" Sungmin scolded his lover who immediately broke his gaze on Siwon and looked at his lover with puppy eyes.

"Oh just ignore him." Sungmin muttered as he looked back to Siwon."Are you shy? Don't worry I'll take mine off as well if that would make you more comfortable." Sungmin added and was about to take his shirt off when Kyuhyun screamed.

"I give up!! Fine! You win!" Kyuhyun muttered, as Sungmin looked at him with a wide smirk. "What's that?"

"You win okay!... I... I'm sorry." Kyuhyun whispered, Sungmin grinned triumphantly and softened as he saw his lover on the verge of tears ~ it's the bottle of wine, Kyuhyun would protest later.

"Oh baby come here." Sungmion cooed, immediately shifting from an evil fox to an innocent bunny as he hug the younger boy.

"You'll never leave me for that horse right?" Kyuhyun asked his love.

"Aww ofcourse baby. You're the only one I'd love to ride."

Siwon scoffed at the statement and scowl as the two started eating each other's faces. Using this as a signal that he's not needed here anymore, he immediately scooted out of the room, not really wanting to see Sungmin riding Kyuhyun. He cringe at the image, shaking his head for witnessing the couple's weirdness. He then stopped as a raging Donghae welcomed him inside his hotel room.

"And where have you been?!"

Siwon grinned, looks like he'll get his revenge as well.

Closer to a Good Time ~

simbasheart — Fri, 06 Jul 2012 12:14:33 GMT

TITLE : Closer to a Good Time ~
length : OneShot ; 1,590 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : Smut, PWP
rating : NC-17
summary : It had been 2 years since Kyuhyun last saw Sungmin, and now his lover's coming back

for sneezessmiles , advance happy bday bb!! :* .. I'm not sure if my muse would cooperate and allow me to write something by then so.. this ^^"

I'm honestly finding it hard to write anything lately and this is just another abandoned fic i forced to finish XD ~ so i apologize for the plotlessnessss~ and the failnesss~~~~ //hides

No Beta ~

Every minute seemed like hours as Kyuhyun wait for the arrival of his love. He can’t help but fidget on his seat, wanting to kick himself for coming 2 hours earlier than the scheduled flight’s arrival. But how can he blame himself? It had been 2 years since he met the other half of his heart. It had been way too long and he had been craving to smell that distinctive sweet scent that make his mind hazy, to feel that soft smooth skin into his hands that never cease to make his heart flutter, to feel that soft lips to his, always making his heart scream of love, and a million other things he misses so bad, and his heart couldn’t hide it’s happiness as he heard that message signalling that his lover’s flight had arrived.

He immediately stood up from his seat as he looked over the multitude of people coming out, his heart beating too fast as he looked for that familiar face that has been etched in his mind.

“Kyu?”

His world seemed to stop as he heard that familiar voice calling his name, and he could feel the side of his eyes water from joy as he realized how he badly missed hearing it.
He turned around and he smiled like he never did for 2 years as he saw that beautiful man looking straight back at him, identical smiles patterned on their faces.

“Sungmin.” He breathed as he let himself ran over the man, engulfing him in a tight hug.

“Oh my God, Sungmin. I freaking miss you.” Kyuhyun sighed as he breathed that scent that true enough still have the same effect on him.

“I miss you too Kyu, so much.” Sungmin replied, reciprocating the hug with as much want.

“Goodness, how are you Min?” Kyuhyun muttered, reluctantly breaking the tight hug as he grabbed Sungmin’s luggage, leading Sungmin towards the exit.

Sungmin related all of his experiences in Japan as Kyuhyun just stared at his lover, missing even the way Sungmin talk.

“Why aren’t you talking?!” Sungmin pouted as both of them settled on their seats inside Kyuhyun’s car.

“I just miss this, just seeing you here beside me, just hearing your voice, it feels so wonderful.”

“I love you.” Sungmin cooed so adorably that Kyuhyun can’t help but lean in for a kiss, something he wanted so much to do since earlier.

He only intended to give his lover a soft peck but it didn’t went as plan as Sungmin pulled Kyuhyun’s head closer to his, deepening the kiss. Fuck it had been 2 years! And their insides crave so much for that taste of heaven it had missed so much, too much.

They devoured each other’s lips in a messy kiss, sucking every bit of that tasty perfection. “Oh goodness I have no idea how I managed to live for 2 fucking years without this.” Sungmin muttered as they paused to catch their breath, a thin line of saliva still connecting their swollen lips.

“Oh fuck you’re too sexy like this.” Kyuhyun growled as he felt his baby slowly waking from its sleep, can’t blame him, their webcam escapades doesn’t really satisfy his cravings as much as the real one does.

Sungmin chuckled at the obvious frustration of his lover, lifting his head to lick the saliva that dripped below Kyuhyun’s lips, trailing his tongue way up, tracing the contour of his lover’s lips with his sleek tongue before entering the hot cavern. He nudged Kyuhyun’s tongue urging it to join him.

Kyuhyun gladly took the offer and let his tongue do what it does best as it played with Sungmin’s, licking the organ before lapping every inch of that cave he missed so much to explore. He then rested his tongue but started to use his lips as it suck that delicious creation Sungmin’s lips is.

“Man I freaking miss this.” Kyuhyun sighed as he left soft pecks to Sungmin’s lips. The taste still addicting as ever that he can’t stop once he got a taste of it.

“I can see it.” Sungmin chuckled as he palmed Kyuhyun’s growing erection.

“Mmmmin..” Kyuhyun moaned, gripping Sungmin’s shoulder tight to stop himself from banging this teasing lad in front of him. “Fuck I don’t think I could wait any longer. We need to go home.”

“What do you mean go home? I need you. Now…” Sungmin growled as he stood up from his seat and in a flash, he was straddling Kyuhyun’s lap, the small space they’re in bring their hot and needy bodies closer to each other.

“Oh fucck… this.. ah..” Sungmin moaned as his and Kyuhyun’s crotch meet together. “Oh my goodness I almost forgot how wonderful this feels like. Goodness you’re heaven Kyuhyun.” Sungmin moaned as he roughly brush his hard-on over Kyuhyun’s, the friction enough to send them lustful shivers.

“And you’re my gorgeous angel.” Kyuhyun chuckled as he slowly grabbed Sungmin’s neck and pulled him in a deep kiss.

“I love you.” Kyuhyun whispered in between kisses as his hand starts to explore inside Sungmin’s shirt.

“Mmmm.. fuck I love you too!” Sungmin moaned as he felt his insides burn with lust by Kyuhyun’s touch.

“Oh I’d love to fuck you too.” Kyuhyun grinned as he bit Sungmin’s ears.

“Then what’s taking you so long!” Sungmin whined, all of his senses awakening as Kyuhyun sucked the skin at the back of his ears while his hands tease his sensitive nipples.

“So impatient.” Kyuhyun chuckled, licking the trail of Sungmin’s neck before sucking all the way down. Sungmin whined as he wanted to feel those hot lips in another place.

“Kyu…” Sungmin whined.

“Mmm..” Kyuhyun replied, taking Sungmin’s shirt off and smirking at those enticing nubs that welcomed him. He didn’t waste time and sucked the lovely nubs, loving the gasps and louder moans it emitted from his lover.

Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hair, gripping at the soft locks as he tried to supress his screams, finding it too hard as Kyuhyun started caressing his crotch.

“Oh goodness Kyu.” Sungmin gasped, arching his head backward, not even minding the uncomfortable feel of the steering wheel that’s poking at his back as all he could think of is heaven when Kyuhyun unzipped his pants and finally gave attention to his hard baby, pumping it with one hand, while the other play with his balls.

But it still wasn’t enough as he missed one particular thing that goes perfectly well with his member. He touched Kyuhyun’s hand signalling him to stop. Kyuhyun did as told and watched his lover put his arms at the steering wheel for support before lifting his legs and resting it over Kyuhyun’s shoulders. “Suck me please.”

Kyuhyun licked his lips, amused at his lover’s flexibility.

“Gladly.” Kyuhyun muttered, holding Sungmin’s torso as he leaned forward and engulf the hard-erect member in his mouth.

“Oh yes baby mmm.” Sungmin moaned from too much pleasure, he was right, Kyuhyun’s mouth and tongue would definitely be the best thing that ever came contact with his member.

“Mmm… as delicious as ever.” Kyuhyun moaned, licking his lips as he swallowed Sungmin’s cum.

Sungmin grinned deviously and went back on straddling Kyuhyun. “Really? Lemee taste.” He muttered, letting his tongue out and licked Kyuhyun’s lips that immediately parted open to give access to his lover. They shared a good minute of kissing and sucking before Sungmin pulled apart.

He looked down at his lover’s hard on and cupped the bulge with his hands. “Fuck Min!” Kyuhyun growled.

“Looks like your baby here needs attention.” Sungmin chuckled. “Let’s give him just that.” He added before tugging Kyuhyun’s pants down until it was pooling over the younger’s feet.

Sungmin pumped the healthy buddy as he position his ass on top of it. “Ready?”

Kyuhyun chuckled at the question leaning in to leave a quick peck at his lover’s irresistible lips. “Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” He muttered, slamming his hips upward, the tip of his member teasing Sungmin’s hole.

“I’ve been waiting for this for 2 years babe. Hell I’m more than ready!” Sungmin muttered, proving his statement as he slammed his ass down over Kyuhyun’s member.

“Oh sh…Kyuhyun!” Sungmin gasped at the intrusion.

“You’re so freaking tight!” Kyuhyun screamed as he moved his hips upwards, and started thrusting inside Sungmin’s tightness. The feel of Sungmin’s tight ass squeeze every bit of lust in his body that he can’t control his body and ask for more.

Sungmin gasped at the pleasure that shoot at every inch of him and started riding Kyuhyun, his tightness swallowing his lover’s member deeper inside him.

“Oh fuck!” Sungmin gasped as Kyuhyun hit his spot. “There Kyuhyun! Ugh More!”

Kyuhyun obeyed and abused that particular spot, slamming his hard member faster and harder. Their moans filled the air as they reached their pleasure peak, shooting their cums into each other.

“Goodness I miss that.” Sungmin gasped, coming down from his high as he rest his head on Kyuhyun’s chest. “And I miss this.” He smiled, leaving soft kisses on Kyuhyun’s chest.

“Now that you’re back, you could have as much as you want.” Kyuhyun grinned, kissing Sungmin’s neck.

“Well I do miss our bed.” Sungmin grinned, closing his eyes at the pleasure as Kyuhyun started sucking his exposed neck.

“Oh I’m sure we would have lots of fun on it later.” Kyuhyun smirked deviously as he dressed themselves in record speed, stepping on the accelerator as he want nothing more than but to reach home soon.

..and oh my 100th post here :D thanks everyone!! //hugssssssss

For an Hour in Heaven 2

simbasheart — Fri, 01 Jun 2012 07:29:22 GMT

TITLE : For an Hour in Heaven 2
length : Two-Shots ; 4,524 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : Smut, Drama, Angst
rating : Nc-17
summary : For an hour in heaven, what was he willing to give?

ONE //

I should seriously add "FAIL AT UPDATES" on things about me XD

ah there im sorry it took me forever, writer's block plus i really dont like the ending, but i dont know what to add anymore so ah.. bye ........... /hides

Kyuhyun wiped the drop of sweat that fell from his head as he reached the top of the hill, pausing for a while as he try to catch his breath, too tired to even move an inch. But all of his energy seemed to come back to life as he saw that lovely face from his view. He immediately leaned up and ran towards the man.

“Minnie.” Kyuhyun sighed as he hugged the small man tight in his arms, he nuzzled over the older’s soft hair, sighing as all of his exhaustion seemed to die down and was replaced by gentle comfort and warmth only this man can give.

But his heart suddenly fell from its heaven when Sungmin pushed him away.

“Min, baby why?” Kyuhyun asked as he attempted to caress the older’s face, but his heart cracked a bit as the other rejected it and pushed it away. “Why? What happened?” Kyuhyun asked again, this time full of confusion as he racked his brain on possibilities of him upsetting his small lover.

“Let’s not do this anymore. Let’s stop this.” Sungmin whispered, head bowed down so that Kyuhyun can’t see the others real emotions.

But Kyuhyun didn’t have the time to notice it as his whole world seemed to stop by the others words. Just the mere thought of Sungmin proposing a breakup made his heart clenched that he forgot how to breathe.

“Why?” Kyuhyun croaked trough the sobs that’s flooding inside him.

“My aunt had offered me a job in Seoul and a place to stay in..” Sungmin paused, trying to compose himself. “I already accepted it. I … I’m coming to Seoul tonight.”

“Tonight?! And you’re only telling me this now?! Don’t you even care on what I think about this?!”

“It happened too soon. You know how I badly need this Kyu. I’m in no position to say no.”

“But I can help you! I can take two jobs to support us both.”

“You know that’s impossible Kyuhyun! Even you, are already struggling every day to live! And even if we both take endless jobs all day and night, no one offer any good pay in this rundown city. You know this is a good break for me; I need this with Heechul’s condition worsening every day. Kyuhyun please understand me.”

“Then let me come with you. Sungmin you know I’ll go wherever you are. Just… just don’t leave me please.” Kyuhyun begged.

“Kyu.. you know you can’t, what about your mom? You know that she only have you now.”
“Lee Sungmin please. I love you. I love you so much. I can’t live without you.”Kyuhyun muttered in despair as he clings tight on Sungmin.

“Kyuhyun you’re still young, what you feel is just a shallow affection. You’ll find hundreds of guys, girls even that you’d love with all your heart.”

“Shallow Affection?” Kyuhyun chuckled, through his tears. “Is that just what you feel about me?”

Sungmin froze from his spot, his heart weeping knowing it’s definitely not what he feels. But he already made his decision, he need to do this; he knows that this would be the best for the both of them, so he sighed as he push inside the tears that’s threatening to fall from his eyes before he looked at Kyuhyun, nodding a yes.

Kyuhyun chuckled as he felt his body numb from too much pain, his whole body shaking from the sobs that filled his too heavy heart. “Oh I’m sorry. God! I’m sorry I’m such a fool!”

“I’m sorry I thought you feel the same way towards me.” Kyuhyun muttered as he clench his fist from the unbearable pain. “Well then I hope you’ll find a better life. And maybe a better man that you’ll truly love. Goodbye.”

Kyuhyun muttered as he walked away with a straight face, but once he’s away from Sungmin he felt his body tremble down. He let himself fall in his knees as he clutched his aching heart; sobbing all the hurt and the pain that killed him slowly.

Kyuhyun immediately hit the brake of the car, stopping at the side of the road as he felt his body tremble in tears from the painful memory. He had already learned to throw that memory away as it only gave him misery. He had been such a wreck after the breakup, he had made his life such a mess that he lost all things precious to him. And he had Sungmin to blame that he started to harbour hate towards the man he used to love with all his life, but looks like the love was not completely gone and was just shadowed by the hate that pain brought him that it presented its existence back once the man came back to his life. The image of Sungmin at that bar made his heart skipped in ways more than one that despite of the cold exterior he showed, his heart gushed inside by the sight of the man that it used to love, that it still loved. He thought he had forgotten him but looks like he was wrong as all the feeling resurfaced and hunt him. And it never stopped coming back as he received a call from Sungmin the month after asking him again for his “service”, he sure was shocked, but who was he to complain as deep inside he could feel his heart bounce from excitement, then after always anticipating Sungmin’s call every month.

But he doesn’t want to fall in this trap of love again, he had let himself fell once and he had fallen too deep that it felt like his life was taken away from him when it left.
He sighed as he started the ignition, resolved on his decision to not let the man in his heart again.

*

Kyuhyun rolled his eyes as he came home in the sight of his housemate and friend, Yesung, playing with his member as he speaks with someone on the phone, one of his “clients” most probably. Both of him and Yesung had earned their status of one of the best hookers downtown; however Yesung was one of the lucky ones that gets paid good cash even just by phone sex. Well the man’s voice was sex itself he must admit.

He strolled in the kitchen to get a glass of water, he badly need one by all of these stress all day.

“Came from another service with Sungmin?” Kyuhyun tilted his head and saw Yesung, coming to the sink to wash his hands. He looked at the older man, one eyebrow raised, giving him a glare.

“What? You always have that unexplainable joy whenever you’re doing it with him.” Yesung retorted.

“What? I do not. Stop inventing stories.”Kyuhyun defended.

“Oh C’mon’ Cho! Are you really going to lie to me? Every time you come home from one of your usual customers, you always have this disgusted look on your face. But whenever you we’re with Sungmin you just have this weird smile on your face all day. Seriously man it’s creepy!”

“Of course! Sungmin is different; he’s not like any of those sex-deprived whores!”

“But he pays you for sex.” Yesung deadpanned.

“I..”Kyuhyun tried to explain, but he can’t find any words. It was true, Sungmin was just paying him for sex, but deep inside he just knows it’s different. It’s like..
“What? He’s doing it because of love?”Yesung muttered, finishing the sentence Kyuhyun couldn’t finish.

“He doesn’t love me. Well.. he didn’t loved me. He’s just… I don’t know okay.”Kyuhyun replied as he felt his heart tightened, insecurities dominating inside him.

“Maybe I could just go to Sungmin, even offer myself free.”

“Yah don’t you dare!” Kyuhyun immediately screamed at the older man.

“Possessive much, aren’t we?” Yesung chuckled, loving to tease the younger man. “Why can’t you just admit it? It’s obvious that you still love him.” Yesung added.
He sighed as Kyuhyun just stayed silent, his gaze somewhat far as if in deep thought.

“Goodness Kyuhyun, don’t you think that I don’t know that you’ve been hiding all the money that Sungmin had given you? Knowing you, you have already used that money to buy that game you’re addicted to. You don’t even have it in your heart to use it! Admit it, you wanted every bit of having Sungmin as yours. You’re just using the money because of your damn pride.”

“Shut up. Im just saving it for something.”Kyuhyun grumbled.

“What? Yours and Sungmin’s wedding?” Yesung teased, dodging the apple that immediately came his way after.

*

Kyuhyun fidget as he looks at his phone, waiting for a text message to come. It’s the second of the month, the day of the month Sungmin would ask him for his “service”.

It was already nearing night, and worry starts spreading all over Kyuhyun when he’s still not receiving any text from Sungmin. The young man normally text him by noon to get ready for the night so this was definitely an odd one.

“Oh my goodness Kyuhyun you act like you’re his boyfriend! Maybe he’s just busy; the man has a life other than fucking you, you know.” Yesung teased.

“Or maybe.. he already found someone who actually have the balls to admit he likes him.” Yesung added, teasing the younger more. Kyuhyun just glared at him but he felt something inside him crack from realization. What if Sungmin really found someone that loved him? ..someone that he loved back?

*

Kyuhyun was a walking zombie the day after. He haven’t had any sleep at all last night, worry for Sungmin creeping at every inch of him.

He grumbled as he heard his phone ring, and lifelessly went towards the table to get the annoying device. “Hello.” Kyuhyun said groggily as he picked up his phone.

“K-Kyuhyun?” Kyuhyun’s eyes immediately shot up as he heard a familiar voice that had been flooding his mind all night.“Sungmin?”

“Oh I’m sorry.. I was.. busy last night so I failed to call you. I know it’s out of the schedule, but.. are you free tonight?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin, pausing in between as if weighing each word.

“Of course!” Kyuhyun answered without hesitance.

“Really?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin answered, this time his voice filled with much joy, enlightening Kyuhyun’s heart.

“Of course. Same place tonight?” Kyuhyun asked, his heart swelling at excitement.

“Yes. See you.”

“See you.” Kyuhyun replied as he ended the call.

Kyuhyun’s condition went on a 180 degrees turn after the call; it’s as if he went from hell to heaven in a flash as he made sure that he looks fine for the umpteenth time before strolling outside the door.

“Yah! Cho Kyuhyun where are you going?! You have an appointment with Mrs. Jung later! Yah Cho Kyuhyun!”

*

Kyuhyun fidget on the bed as he waits for Sungmin to arrive. He unbuttoned the first two buttons of his polo then sat at the edge of the bed, his hands at his side attempting to look sexy once Sungmin arrives. But creeps crawl in him thinking he looks stupid, he then tried another position but was startled as he heard the door open and just settled on his first position.

He was supposed to croak out a snarky comment, wanting to show the usual cold demeanour his showing the older but it died down his lips as he saw Sungmin’s state.

“You’re sick!” Kyuhyun muttered worriedly as he stood up from his sit and went over the older man.

“I’m not. I’m just tired.” Sungmin reasoned.

“Oh my goodness Min! You’re hot!” Kyuhyun exclaimed as he cradle Sungmin’s face in his hands.

“I’m fine.” Sungmin muttered as he pulled his head away from Kyuhyun’s touch. “The clock is ticking; let’s not waste an hour for this.” Kyuhyun looked hesitant but his head suddenly shot up as he heard Sungmin muttered something. He looked at the other confusedly as if asking if he heard the right thing.

“Kiss me” Sungmin whispered again, looking with Kyuhyun with so much desperation.
Kyuhyun hesitated but his insides burn with the want to feel the other’s lips to his and so he doesn’t even need to be told again as he attached his lips to Sungmin’s, they claimed each other’s lips as if it’s their last time, taking every bit of pleasure they could get as they suck each other hard that their lips could almost mould as one.
Kyuhyun whined as Sungmin broke the kiss, but his heart stopped as Sungmin took off his shirt revealing his perfect white skin, that no matter how many times Kyuhyun laid eyes on, still never fail to amaze him. Kyuhyun shivered as Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and placed it on his chest, trailing it upwards until it reaches the smaller’s cheeks. Sungmin nuzzled his cheek on Kyuhyun’s warm hands, the beautiful affection, making Kyuhyun’s heart melt.

“Could you pretend to make love to me?”Sungmin whispered, his eyes closed as he relished the comfort of Kyuhyun’s hands, as if this was a dream.

Kyuhyun was speechless, he wanted to reason out but Sungmin didn’t give him a chance to find his voice as the elder gently grabbed his head and attached their lips together in a slow mesmerizing kiss.

Kyuhyun wined as Sungmin broke the kiss. But his insides shiver in delight as Sungmin unbuttoned his polo and took it off and then left soft kisses all over his torso.
His heart melts in an overflowing desire as Sungmin took time to shower soft kisses all over his skin, each kiss so gentle that it electrifies every inch of him.

He gasped as Sungmin un-zipped his pants, taking his denim off before gripping his hard member with gentle care and left the same kisses all over it.

“Fuck Min!” Kyuhyun screamed as Sungmin took Kyuhyun’s member in his mouth, his tongue slapping and tasting every inch of the hard shaft that Kyuhyun almost wanted to cry in frustration and thrust inside Sungmin’s mouth, but he didn’t need to as Sungmin started to bob his head to and fro, giving him the most mind-blowing blow-job ever. As he thought about it, no one else had really given him this extreme euphoric feeling other than Sungmin. Sure he has sucked and had been sucked countless of times that it felt like nothing, that it felt like a show where he needs to act. But with Sungmin, it all felt so real, it felt like the first time he felt the other’s hot cavern on his sensitive member.

They we’re so young back then but their curiosity and the burning want for each other had lead them to give in to temptations.

They were so inexperienced, both now knowing what to do, but once they we’re in each other’s arms. Everything just felt right. It’s as if their bodies have known each other for too long that it already knows that right spots to touch.

“Fuck Min!!” Kyuhyun growled as he released his entire cum into Sungmin’s waiting mouth.
He looked down at Sungmin, eyes close as the smaller relish the taste of Kyuhyun inside his mouth. The sight making Kyuhyun lose his breathe that he found himself grabbing the older’s head and attaching their lips in a hot messy kiss.

He gripped Sungmin’s locks hard in an attempt to deepen the kiss, wanting to feel more of those delicious creations that left him breathlessly insane. “Goodness Min.” Kyuhyun gasped from too much pleasure as he sucked Sungmin more.

He let his hands roam all over Sungmin’s smooth back until it reached Sungmin’s pants.
Kyuhyun growled from the fabric that’s hindering his hands to explore Sungmin’s wonders. Sungmin chuckled at the sight and wanting to give his all to Kyuhyun, he unzip his pants and pulled it with his boxers in one go, immediately attaching his lips back to Kyuhyun’s heavenly ones.

Kyuhyun smirked, definitely satisfied as he rest his hands at Sungmin’s soft plump ass. He caressed the globes in his hands, earning a gasp from Sungmin as he squeezed it hard. He pulled the lovely piece up and Sungmin immediately got the message and attached his legs across Kyuhyun’s hips, their hard crotches brushing together by the process. “Oh goodness Min.” Kyuhyun moaned as he gently laid Sungmin’s body on the bed.

He smiled as he looked at the perfection that laid on the bed for him to deavour.

“Kyu.” Sungmin whispered, his cheeks tinting red by the gaze.

Kyuhyun smiled wider, always loving to hear his name roll Sungmin’s tongue. So he immediately let himself be engulfed by the warmth in his heart as he bring Sungmin’s lips in another kiss, there’s just something in the others lips, like a magnet, that he can’t stay away from.

Kyuhyun pulled away from the kiss as he felt his member protest from the lack of attention he’s getting so he left another peck from Sungmin’s swollen lips before trailing his lips downwards, leaving the same kisses Sungmin gave earlier, throwing all of his love and affection in each kisses, showering every inch of Sungmin’s chest downwards until he reached Sungmin’s erect member.

He smiled as the healthy bud twitched as he kissed the tip. “Kyu. Please.” Sungmin muttered breathlessly.

He smirked as he licked the tip of the member before taking the head inside his mouth. Sucking its tip like a kid enjoying his favourite lollipop, and hell did he enjoy it as he sucked the head hard and swirl his tongue on it.

Wanting to taste more, he took Sungmin’s entire member in his mouth and devoured it like a tasty meal. He released the candy in one loud pop, ignoring the whine that came from the beauty beneath him. He grabbed Sungmin’s hips and angled Sungmin’s ass towards his face. Thank goodness for the man’s flexibility.

He kissed the twitching hole before bringing his tongue in effectively turning Sungmin into a loud moaning mess. He thrust his tongue in and out before deeming it covered with saliva and thrust one of his fingers in, and then another until three are stretching Sungmin’s insides. He thrust his fingers in and out until he thinks Sungmin is stretched enough for the real show. He grabbed his member and coated it with lube before pushing it inside Sungmin’s tightness. He heard Sungmin cried from the intrusion and he stopped a bit to shower soft kisses all over Sungmins face.

Sungmin smiled from the action, closing his eyes to relish the blissful affection. He sighed afterwards as he felt his insides craving to be touched, the feeling of half of Kyuhyun’s hard-on inside him not doing any good.

He brought his hand on Kyuhyun’s cheeks, leaving the other a soft peck on the lips before whispering in between the other’s lips. “I’m ready.”
Kyuhyun’s member twitched inside Sungmin’s ass, making Sungmin shiver at the touch. “Kyu please.” The older whined.

Sharing the same desperation, Kyuhyun grabbed one of Sungmin’s legs and gently threw it over his shoulder and then slammed his member all the way in Sungmin’s waiting hole.
Moans and screams filled the room as Kyuhyun thrust in and out of Sungmin’s hole, each thrust going deeper as it abuse the other’s lovely spot. Both came, screaming each other’s name as they reached the peak of their heaven.

Their bodies lay sprawled beside each other as they tried to get down from their high.
“I love you.” Kyuhyun froze from his spot as he heard those three words he haven’t heard for years.

“Min..” Sungmin immediately sealed his lips blocking all of the words he wanted to say.
“Oh looks like my hour is up.” Sungmin muttered as he broke the kiss, he then immediately went up from the bed and slip in his clothes leaving Kyuhyun dumb-founded on the bed.

“Goodbye Kyuhyun, thank you.” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin whispered as the man completely went out of the room.

This seemed to bring Kyuhyun back to his senses and he immediately shot up as he just realized that he let Sungmin slip away without even saying what he feels.

*

Kyuhyun can’t sleep that night, he wanted to find Sungmin and talk to him, he’s not sure if he’s ready to welcome Sungmin back in his heart yet, but his heart clench from regret from letting Sungmin go. He wanted to meet him, he’s not sure what for but he’s dying to see him. So he followed his senses and immediately went up, grabbed his coat and left his pad, hoping he’ll see Sungmin tonight.

Loud music filled Kyuhyun’s ears as he tried to pass through the myriads of people that filled the. He knows that it’s impossible that Sungmin would even come to work after the session they had but he have no idea where the man lives and this is the only place he knows of Sungmin. So he braved his faith, hoping that luck is with him tonight and that he’d at least get some information on where Sungmin is.

“Sungmin? Oh I’m sorry I have no idea where he lives, and I don’t think our boss would give you such information.” The bartender in duty told Kyuhyun whose excitement and hope immediately died down after hearing the words.

The bartender seemed to notice so he sighed, biting his lips as he called Kyuhyun who’s about to leave the bar. “I don’t know where he lives but.. I do know that at morning, he works at that café two blocks from here. The one beside the music shop.”

“Thank you! Thank you so much!” Kyuhyun muttered, grinning wide at the bartender who just smiled back at him.

So that night, Kyuhyun left the bar with renewed determination, now more sure on what he wants to tell the older man.

Kyuhyun immediately went to the café first thing in the morning hoping he’ll find Sungmin in there, but he saw someone different. And it definitely came as a shock to him when said person welcomed him with a slap.

“Heechul!” A man Kyuhyun didn’t know immediately went to Heechul’s side stopping the man from hitting Kyuhyun more.

“What?! How dare that man come here after what he did to Sungmin!”

“Wait. Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun immediately asked as he heard Sungmin’s name.

“Hell would I let you see Sungmin after what you’ve done to him!” Heechul growled as he glared at Kyuhyun who just looked back at him confusedly.

He wanted to ask what have he done to Sungmin exactly? Wasn’t he supposed to be the victim here? But before he could asked, the man earlier kneeled beside Heechul so he could look directly at the man.

“Heechul, I think it would be best if we’ll tell him where Sungmin is.”

“What?! Are you out of your mind?! It’s his fault why Sungmin is there!”

“Heechul, you know Sungmin needs him. Please, for your brother. He might be able to help.”

“What are you talking about? Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun interrupted the two as worry starts to creep in him. “Please, Heechul I beg you. Please I really need to see your brother. Please.” Kyuhyun begged the man on his wheelchair who looked at him and then to the other man before sighing hard.

“Fine!”

*

“Please forgive Heechul. He’s just being protective of his brother.” Leeteuk, the man earlier, whispered to Kyuhyun, ignoring the scoff from Heechul, as he drove the two to where Sungmin is.

“Where is Sungmin actually?” Kyuhyun asked, but his heart started to tremble in fear as the car stopped in a particular place.

“We’re here.” Leeteuk muttered as he guided Heechul to his wheelchair and nudge Kyuhyun to follow them.

“But.. how – what..” Kyuhyun started not knowing how to grasp his thoughts as millions of questions flood in him.

“He had been over-working himself for these past few months that his body reached its limit and he collapsed.” Leeteuk answered for him.

“Why would he do that?” Kyuhyun asked confusedly.

“He had been having 3 jobs to be able to afford you, you bastard!” Heechul answered this time. He widened his eyes as everything seemed to be much clearer now. He felt his heart clench as realization hit him. He knows it’s impossible that Sungmin could afford his expensive services but he ignored it because deep inside he’s elated to be able to have Sungmin, but he’s too stubborn to admit it thus he used his job as a way to be able to have Sungmin.

“And he even managed to escape last night making his condition worse and even if he won’t admit it, I’m sure he came to you! You heartless brat!” Heechul added.

“I didn’t know. I’m so sorry.. I.. “ Kyuhyun croaked as tears fell from his eyes. His heart clenching in pain as his conscience eat him up.

“Heechul..” Leeteuk started but he stopped mid-way as he looked at the commotion at his front. Kyuhyun saw as his and Heechul’s eyes widened as they run towards the commotion.
Fear suddenly enveloped inside Kyuhyun as he hope against hope that it’s not what he think it is.

“What are you doing?! Where is Sungmin?!” Heechul screamed, panic written all over his face.

“I’m.. I’m sorry, we tried our best.. He started thrashing in his sleep earlier, complaining that it hurts everywhere..”

The doctor’s explanation seemed to be blurred in Kyuhyun’s mind as he saw the nurse wheeled the bed from the room.

His heart thump in fear as he stared at it, his whole body weakening as he prayed to God that it’s not yet too late.

“What’s this?” Sungmin asked as he let Kyuhyun put the necklace on him.

“Nothing, I just saw it in the market and I immediately thought of you. And I was right it looked beautiful on you.”

His knees tremble but he willed himself to walk closer to the figure, each step seemed to take forever as time stopped and all he could hear is the drums in his heart and the loud weeping of his heart.

“It’s beautiful Kyu. I love it.”

“If you love it, then why are you frowning?”

“I just feel so bad that I can’t give you anything.”

He clenched his hand, as he blames himself for everything. He hated Sungmin for leaving him, for causing him endless pain, but because of that, he had failed to remember that Sungmin had given him the best things in life, the best memories, happiness.

“But you don’t have to give me anything you’re more than enough for me. I love you.”

“I love you too. So much.”

Kyuhyun bit his lips, preventing himself from screaming as he felt thousands of swords attack his heart as he finally saw the figure under the sheets. But the pain was too much, much more than that night Sungmin left him. Because this time.. it’s for good.

“I can’t give you all of the riches in this world but I promise to give you my all. My heart, even my life, it’s all yours Kyuhyun.”

A PWP but is not titled as Sex because it sounds so wrong :/

simbasheart — Fri, 27 Apr 2012 05:51:26 GMT

TITLE : A PWP but is not titled as Sex because it sounds so wrong :/
length : One-Shot ; 1,722 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : PWP, Smut
rating : Nc-17
summary : Do we need a reason to write PWP for this couple? XD Seriously.

This is PWP and doesn't have a plot so i didn't bother on asking for a beta because it's seriously a... BLA

I still can't believe i really wrote a smut. but since its kyumin86eunhae 's bday.. Yah i did told you that i cant write for the "smut goddess" ? so u cant blame me if this is a fail xD Happy Bday! ;p /hides

Kyuhyun sighed as he steps out from the elevator, waving to his manager whose room was on the next floor.

He yawned, looking at the room numbers, contemplating if he could atleast steal an hour of sleep, but his manager’s voice reminding him that he needs to be on the rehearsal asap ring in his mind, irritating the guts out of him. He clicked his tongue, as he reached the room he was assigned to and immediately swiped his card to enter.

But all of thoughts of getting ready for rehearsal or being an ass and give in to his urge to sleep was thrown away as he felt someone slammed him on the door, his back hitting hard making him yelp in pain. He was about to push the man away but stopped as he felt the man’s lips attacked his. He sighed knowing too well who that familiar taste belongs to.

He let the other devour his mouth, taking time to cherish that wonderful taste in his tongue as he sucked with as much want. He pecked the other’s tasty piece one last time before looking at the other’s half-lidded eyes. “Mmmm I miss you baby.”

The other just replied with a pout before walking away. Kyuhyun smirked, knowing too well what the other wants and man he loves this beauty too much that he’ll give in.
Kyuuhyun walked towards his lover who was sitting on the bed. He crouched down, taking Sungmin’s head into his frail hands.

“Cmon baby, I’m sorry. You can’t be mad at me forever.”

“Yes, I can.” Sungmin deepened his pout that Kyuhyun can’t help but lean forward to kiss the pout away.

“For all, shouldn’t I be the one angry right now? Who was the one showing public display of affection with Donghae yesterday? Do you know how it hurt me when I saw my timeline full of “haemin” shippers flailing over that pic of yours and Hae?” Kyuhyun muttered, faking hurt.

“Yah! It’s your fault! Donghae was just hugging me because I was so depressed because of you!”

“So you’d rather hug him than me?” Kyuhyun pouted.

“Eww that’s disgusting stop that.” Sungmin muttered, slapping his lover lightly, not really intending to hurt the man.

“Then kiss it away.” Kyuhyun replied, pursing his lips towards his lover.

Sungmin scoffed but then smiled and complied anyway.

Kyuhyun smirked. “Mmmm that’s better.”

“Aish I hate you.” Sungmin grumbled before leaning in for another kiss.

“Of course you do.” Kyuhyun whispered in between kisses.

“And oh I brought something for tonight.” Kyuhyun muttered before going towards his baggage and retrieved a bottle of wine.

Sungmin’s eyes immediately lit up and went towards his lover to examine the wine. “Why wait for tonight? Let’s have this now baby.” Sungmin muttered excitedly.

“As much as I’d love to, the managers would kill us, we have a concert tonight love and we need to join the rehearsals, which.. wait, why are you here?”

“What? I can’t welcome my boyfriend?” Sungmin pouted.

“You sneaked out didn’t you?” Kyuhyun asked as he eyes his lover.

“Well… I asked for permission! I said I needed to go to the comfort room. And I did go to the comfort room`… in our hotel room.” Sungmin smiled cheekily.

Kyuhyun laughed before kissing his boyfriend’s forehead. “You evil bunny.”

“Cmon’ I’ll just change then let’s go to the stadium together, I’m sure the managers would be looking for you any minute now.”

“Exactly, so we need to hurry.” Sungmin muttered before taking off all his clothes, leaving him naked in front of his lover’s eyes.

“What are you doing there? Why aren’t you fucking me yet!” Sungmin whined.

Kyuhyun smirked before striding forward, his hand immediately settling over Sungmin’s bare hips, before sliding down to those plump ass cheeks. He groped the globes in his hands, all the while pushing their crotches together.

“Why are you suddenly this horny?” Kyuhyun asked as he grinds their hips together.

“We date each other, since when was horny not in our dictionary?” Sungmin replied, moaning as he felt his member starts to get hard as it pokes over Kyuhyun’s equally hardening one.

“Point taken.”

“And why do you talk too much?! I’m naked and needy. Shut the fuck up, strip and take me already!” Sungmin whined as he thrust his hips towards Kyuhyun.

“As you wish.” Kyuhyun muttered before taking all of his clothes off and slammed both of his and Sungmin’s naked bodies on the bed.

He took Sungmin’s lips and sucked it dry before slapping his tongue in which the older immediately welcomed, their mouths starting to play in a messy un-organized kiss.

Kyuhyun then left his lover’s tasty mouth, but only to taste the other wonders of Sungmin’s body. He let his lips travel downwards until he reached Sungmin’s hard erect nipples.

He traced its contour with his fingers, before playing with it, loving how it feels in between his fingers. “Fuck Kyu mmm… stop teasing baby.”

“But you look so beautiful like this.” Kyuhyun muttered, his eyes locked at Sungmin’s pleasure-filled expression as he pinch his lover’s sensitive nubs.

Kyuhyun loved how Sungmin moaned his name and started to use something more talented than his lovely fingers. He swayed his tongue over the erect nubs before taking it into his mouth, the action making Sungmin gasp. He smiled at the reaction he got from his lover and thought the other deserves an award and started sucking Sungmin’s erect nipples.

“Nghh Cho! Ahhh.”

“Yes baby moan for me.” Kyuhyun whispered as he took his lover’s erect member, and pump it hard as he continued giving pleasure to Sungmin’s nipples.

“Oh Fuck! Kyuhyun!! Fuckkk! ” Sungmin trashed as he grips on Kyuhyun’s locks, the pleasure from both of his organs leaves him in an insanely blissful heaven.

Kyuhyun detached his lips from Sungmin’s nipples. He licked it one more time before going towards Sungmin’s member and covered it with his saliva, lapping every inch of the long shaft before taking it inside his mouth.

Sungmin shamelessly begged for more, which the younger complied to and sucked the shaft faster, his hand pumping the part which his mouth can’t reach.

All the pleasure was too much for Sungmin that he found himself releasing all of his cum inside his lover’s mouth.

“Goodness Kyu. I’ll never get tired of saying how amazing your mouth is.”

“Mmm.. well this mouth is all yours baby.” Kyuhyun replied before attaching his lovely mouth to Sungmin’s.

“You know I love your mouth as much right?” Kyuhyun muttered before sitting up and pumped his cock all the while looking at Sungmin with lust-filled eyes.

“And this mouth loves this.” Sungmin stated, slapping Kyuhyun’s hands away before taking the younger’s erect member in his hand.

He pumped the large shaft before crouching down and licked its tip. He let his tongue lap the throbbing head before letting his mouth take action and sucked the head with much fervour.

“Mmm baby you taste so gooood.” Sungmin praised as he took more of Kyuhyun’s member inside his mouth. He coughed as he successfully took it all in, relaxing his throat before he started to bob his head to and fro. He pursed his lips, sucking the member hard in his mouth.

“Ah baby stop.”

Sungmin stopped and looked at his lover but didn’t pull out Kyuhyun’s delicious member from his mouth.

“I love your mouth but I need your ass. Now. I can’t wait baby.”

Sungmin smiled and nodded, he sucked his lover’s shaft one more time before sitting up and positioned himself above Kyuhyun’s member.

“Baby, sidetable.” Sungmin whined as he inserts 2 fingers inside his ass.

Kyuhyun complied and looked at his side and smirked as he saw a lube carelessly placed at the top. He grabbed it before coating his member with it. “You are so expecting this to happen aren’t you?”

“Well not really the moment you arrived here, but c’mon baby! We’re here for 3 nights; sooner or later I’m sure we’ll need it. Why go through all the trouble of rummaging over our bags?” Sungmin reasoned out. “Ready?” Sungmin asked as he withdrew his fingers from his ass.

“Hell yes.” Kyuhyun muttered before throwing the lube over the side and grabbed Sunmin’s ass and positioned his lover back in top of his lube-covered member.

Sungmin moaned as he felt the head of his lover’s hard member peeked inside his tight ass cheeks.

“Ugh fuck!” Sungmin screamed as Kyuhyun thrust all the way in.

“Fuck baby, you’re so tight!” Kyuhyun growled before changing their positions, his body now on top before taking out his member and slamming it all the way in.

“Oh yes!” Sungmin screamed as Kyuhyun repeated the process, thrusting faster inside Sungmin’s deep cavern.

Kyuhyun grabbed one of Sungmin’s feet and threw it over his shoulder. The angle giving him a chance to thrust deeper until he reached that spot that he loves so much.

And as he expected, his lover started moaning shamelessly, cursing incoherent words that his ears love so much to hear as he starts abusing that spot.

After a particular one hard thrust, Sungmin reached the peak of his pleasure and shoot all of his cum in his lover’s torso, Kyuhyun following afterwards.

“Fuck, I don’t think I have the energy to rehearse. I just want to cuddle with you all day.” Sungmin muttered, nuzzling Kyuhyun’s body as he tries to catch his breathe.

“Don’t worry baby, we have lots of time for that later. We still have wine waiting for us.” Kyuhyun smirked before crouching forward to attach his lips to Sungmin’s , but it was stopped as they heard incessant knocking from the door.

“Cho Kyuhyun! Lee Sungmin! I know the two of you are in their! When would the two of you stop from giving me headaches?!”

“Looks like we’ll be hearing a hell lot of scolding once we get to the stadium.” Kyuhyun sighed, before kissing his lover and reached for their clothes.

“Oh as if, I’m sure we’ll hear it non-stop while going there.” Sungmin replied as he walked towards Kyuhyun who was now slipping in to his shirt. But before Kyuhyun could go to the bathroom, Sungmin grabbed him and sucked their lips together.

“But it’s worth it.”

For an Hour in Heaven

simbasheart — Thu, 19 Apr 2012 04:45:12 GMT

TITLE : For an Hour in Heaven
length : Two-Shots ; 2,674 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : Smut, Drama
rating : Nc-17
summary : For an hour in heaven, what was he willing to give?

a/n i feel like my writings are all the same that my fics are getting boring? XD ahh... i dont know what this is.. this have been bothering me since last last year.. but ive always felt that i cant write it then this.. ah i dunno.. i tried /hides

BETA by ailaling1017 thank u sooooooo much ;~~~~~~~~; /hugsutyt

The night was young – the best time to party as every bar downtown were flooded with girls and boys, ranging from the underaged who faked to be older to the older men who faked to be younger. And on one side of a particular bar, a flock of ladies could be seen surrounding the man by the counter. A few gasps and ‘awwws’ could be heard as they watched the handsome bartender flawlessly juggle the bottle of tequila in his hands, swayingwith it as if in a dance that he had mastered by heart.

Pride brimmed up on him as he eyed the sparkle in the eyes of the ladies. He smiled as he saw familiar faces that he had successfully captivated with his charm, and of course, new faces would be the best. The more people he had lured with his performance, the more earnings he gets from his cheapskate of a boss.

He had perfected this dance so much that he had never failed even once, but it looked like that record would be broken as a loud crash could be heard as the bottle that was in his hand hit the ground, shattering into pieces. The audience gasped, but the performer hadn’t had the chance to notice it as his eyes was fixed to a particular face, looking back at him with that familiar smirk on his face.

“Kyuhyun?”

*

Sungmin’s insides boiled in anger. Be it because of the boss, the scolding for ruining his perfect record, or the amount of cash that would be deducted from his salary for wasting a whole bottle of freaking tequila. But he told himself that it was definitely one of those reasons he mentioned and not because of the guy that had been the cause of his misery. And as if teasing him more, the guy even had the guts to sit in front of him, with his “date” curled around his body like a second skin.

He wanted to puke as he watched how the girl seemed to press her chest against the man’s body, the man’s hand situated at the curve of the woman’s ass, groping it with his firm hands.

It seemed that the two didn’t even have the slightest sense of decency and were close to fucking each other. So Sungmin sighed in relief when the woman’s phone rang, effectively stopping the two from their obvious plans.

“Ugh Stupid husband’s looking for me.”

“Aw... Too soon? You haven’t even gotten what you paid for.” Sungmin heard the man coo, making him feel sick as the guy emphasized it with a kisson the side of the woman’s neck, making the girl mewl like a whore.

“Oh whatever, you’re fucking worth it,” the woman muttered before grabbing the man’s lips into a messy kiss, their tongues twirling together, making Sungmin’s inside curl in disgust that he hadn’t had the chance to stop the gagging sound that slipped from his mouth.

The two broke the kiss by the sudden interruption, Sungmin immediately turning away. He didn’t really mind showing the disgust he felt towards the two, but he really didn’t want to lose his job too.

“Enjoyed the show?” Sungmin flinched as he heard that familiar hot velvety voice addressed towards him. The familiar flattery that it caused his heart, sent shivers coursing to every part of his body.

He slowly looked at the man and shivered as he saw the man’s finger swiping the lipstick that smeared on his lips, as if teasing him. He wanted to curse the man for knowing what his weaknesses were. “You seemed to have taken some interest in me ever since I walked into the room.” The man smirked.

“What do you want Kyuhyun?!” Sungmin spat, not liking this game which he knew he’ll never win; this guy had always been good at this.

“Still as feisty as ever,”Kyuhyun smirked wider.

“And you’re still cocky, just like how you used to be.”

The man chuckled, the deep sound almost pushing Sungmin out of his mind. “Well that’s where you’re wrong, princess.” Sungmin flinched, not used to the sudden endearment he hadn’t heard in the last five years. “I’m definitely not the boy I used to be.” Kyuhyun added, hidden meaning laced on the words as he felt a tinge of guilt pinch his heart.
The man seemed to sense it; he had always been good at reading Sungmin, looks like that’s the one that didn’t change through the years.

“Feeling guilty now? You shouldn’t be. For all it’s worth, I actually need to thank you. If you didn’t make me realize that what we had was just a ‘shallow affection,’ I would still be that poor loser struggling to live each day.”

Sungmin felt something stab his heart by his own words. He knew he’s to blame – he’s the one who called their relationship off and told the man that they we’re better off away from each other. But he was way fragile back then; they were too young and they were struggling with whatever this cruel world threw at them. But man did he not live a single day wherein he didn’t regret his decision. Kyuhyun had been his first love and had always been the only one; he just learned to bury that love deep inside of his heart, sending it to sleep. But it looked like it had woken from its sleep, as if knowing that its owner was just near. And now, here it is, wishing to be set free from its imprisonment.

“How have you been Kyuhyun?” Sungmin muttered breathlessly before he could stop his mouth.

He saw something flash in the man’s eyes that were covered by thick eyeliner, giving more edge to the young man’s beauty. Still, he wanted to bring his hands and brush it all away so badly, something inside him yearning to see that simple beauty he fell in love with, but it was immediately covered as the man flashed his infamous smirk.

“Why do you even care?”

Sungmin opened his mouth, but immediately closed it, not finding any words to say.

“Well who was I kidding? Of course you never did, and you never will,” Kyuhyun muttered before turning his back to Sungmin.

“Wait!”

This made Kyuhyun stop, but the man just turned around with that sly look on his face.

“My time is precious. People pay me for my time, you know that right?”

“Then I’ll pay for it!”Sungmin blurted out, not thinking of the words he said. There’s just something inside him that screamed that he’ll regret it if he let this chance slip away.

“You do know what people pay me for right?”Kyuhyun smirked, walking back towards Sungmin until only an inch of space separated them – the close proximity making Sungmin’s heart stop.

“Yes I – I do.”Sungmin stuttered, not knowing where to look as everything seemed to make his soul seep away, those deep orbs and those tempting lips, all killing him slowly.

“Well sorry, I don’t think you could afford me,” Kyuhyun muttered, his hot breath touching Sungmin’s lips, that the older man’s almost close to snapping and bridging the barrier; but it all seemed to be a part of the game Kyuhyun was playing when he withdrew his head, and looked back at the older man’s gaping mouth with a smirk on his face, as if knowing the effect he had on the older man.

“I don’t care. I’m willing to pay any amount,”Sungmin replied, irritation boiling inside him as the man seemed to step on his pride with the statement.

“Mmmm well if you say so, who am I to say no?” Kyuhyun smirked, bringing his hand on the other’s face, caressing it with the back of his hand. “Be ready for an hour in heaven.”

*

Sungmin could feel his heart pound erraticallyas the elevator seemed to take forever to top on their floor. He wanted to cry as he heard how much the Kyuhyun’s‘service’ was. Goodness! He should’ve known that the man wasn’t kidding when he said he couldn’t afford him, weeping as he almost needed to withdraw every penny on his savings account. All for just an hour of fuck? But there’s something inside him that told him that it’s worth it – that Kyuhyun is worth it.

He was pulled back from his reverie as he heard the elevator door opening, Kyuhyun standing outside, his hands crossed as he looks at him.

“Don’t tell me you’re going to waste your hour just standing there.”

Sungmin just stood there dumbfounded, as he realized what he was about to do. He’s definitely not a virgin, but there’s something that pinches his heart knowing the only reason he’s with the man he loved loves was because he paid him.

He shivered as he felt Kyuhyun’s slick tongue lap at that sensitive part below his ears.

“You’ve always been such a worrywart. Relax,” Kyuhyun whispered, trailing his tongue on the expanse of Sungmin’s neck.

Sungmin’s mind was too intoxicated that he wordlessly followed Kyuhyun like a puppy inside the motel room.

“So how do you want it?” Kyuhyun asked as he laid on the soft sheets, unbuttoning his polo’s buttons one by one, revealing more of that much defined chest.

Sungmin could feel his knees tremble as he walked towards Kyuhyun, mustering all the courage to give in to that carnal desire that was burning within him as he eyed the tall man, sans his shirt, ready for him to devour.

“Just exactly how I used to like it,” Sungmin whispered, climbing on the other’s lap, ignoring the tremble in his heart as he brought his hand to smooth the other’s chest.
Kyuhyun smiled at the request, groping Sungmin’s fluffy ass, before flipping their positions and laying Sungmin’s body on the soft sheets.

Sungmin could feel something in him flutter as Kyuhyun left soft kisses on his forehead, and then to both of his cheeks, before peppering the porcelain perfection with affectionate kisses. Something inside him brimmed in joy with the thought that Kyuhyun still remembered the exact way they used to do it back then, slow and romantic.

Kyuhyun then reached his lips and he could feel the side of his eyes water at the familiar taste that made his heart explode into goo as their lips attached. Sungmin thought he felt Kyuhyun’s lips tremble but it was immediately ignored as Kyuhyun started sucking the sanity out of him; biting Sungmin’s lower lips, asking for permission which Sungmin gladly gave, letting Kyuhyun lap every inch of his wet cavern.

Kyuhyun left one last kiss on Sungmin’s lips before unbuttoning Sungmin’s polo, leaving kisses to every inch of skin revealed, until he reached the last button and subtly threw the cloth away. He continued pleasuring the smaller man as he roamed his cold hands on Sungmin’s burning skin, before sucking at that smaller man’s neck, just like how he used to marked him as his.

He trailed his lips downwards before reaching for the obvious bulge on Sungmin’s slacks. Kyuhyun opened the zipper before taking the hard erect member in his hand, caressing it so gently that it made Sungmin tremble from heated pleasure.

Kyuhyun expertly slid his long fingers towards Sungmin’s shaft, kissing its head before licking it, just the mere sensation of Kyuhyun’s expert mouth on Sungmin’s needy member, blowing the older man’s mind away. “Oh goodness Kyu. Fuck! More please.”

Kyuhyunsmirked, loving how Sungmin begged for him. He left soft kisses all over the length before taking the head and sucking it like a pro. He took in the large member inch by inch, the action effectively turning Sungmin into a loud moaning mess.

He sucked harder, until Sungmin reached the peak of his pleasure and shot all of his cum on Kyuhyun’s mouth, the younger gladly taking it all in.

“Mmm...Still as sweet as ever,” Kyuhyun muttered, leaving one more kiss on Sungmin’s limp member before engulfing Sungmin’s mouth in a sweet kiss, roaming his tongue inside Sungmin’s cavern to let him know how good he really tasted.

Sunmin gasped on the kiss when he felt a finger poking his ass.

“Sshh… “ Kyuhyun hushed Sungmin, leaving soft kisses on the side of the smaller’s neck to distract the other before slowly inserting one finger .

“Goodness Min! You’re so tight.”Kyuhyun groaned as he felt Sungmin’s ass suck his finger in.

“Of course you bastard! I haven’t been fucked for five years!”Sungmin whined in pain, but it was all forgotten as Kyuhyun claimed his lips in a mesmerizing kiss, the kiss so gentle that it almost felt like the way it was before. But he knew that he shouldn’t fool himself, this was just a mere job for Kyuhyun, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t pretend. Tears formed at the side of his eyes as he gripped on Kyuhyun’s hair to deepen the kiss.

He whined as Kyuhyun detached from the kiss, they were so breathless and exhausted but they knew that they hadn’t even gotten to the main course yet. He looked at the younger man as he felt the other poke three fingers on his mouth.

“I’m sorry but I don’t have any lube.”

Sungmin smiled before gladly taking Kyuhyun’s fingers, and sucked on it, coating it with his saliva.

He gasped as he felt Kyuhyun’s tongue joining in; Kyuhyun’s sleek tongue playing with his that he can’t help but let him join. He licked the sleek tongue before entangling it together in a lovely dance.

Kyuhyun withdrew his fingers that were now thoroughly coated by his and Sungmin’s saliva, coaxing Sungmin to lie back down on the sheets. Once the older man was settled, he inserted one finger, thrusting it in Sungmin’s tight hole before adding the second and then the third, all the while caressing the elder’s chest to soothe the pain away. Feeling Sungmin starting to adjust from his fingers, he withdrew it all and positioned his hard erect member towards Sungmin entrance. But before plunging in, he grabbed Sungmin and engulfed his lips in a kiss, and then thrusted his member all the way in just one hard thrust.

“Fuck, Kyuhyun!” Sungmin screamed in their kiss as he felt something tear him into two.

“Ssh... “ Kyuhyun coaxed the smaller man to relax, leaving pecks on his lips, before withdrawing his member and thrusting it all the way back, repeating the process, knowing it would be better to find that sweet spot immediately. And he smirked as he found it.

“Oh goodness there! There! Kyuhyuuun!”Sungmin moaned wantonly, gripping at Kyuhyun’s body as he moved his hips with Kyuhyun’s.

Their bodies moulded as one, both reaching the peak of their pleasures and shot all of their cum together.

Sungmin laid on Kyuhyun’s sweaty chest, a smile covering his lips as the memories of two teenage boys curled together in a single bed, with only a thin sheet of blanket covering their bodies replayed in his mind. Back when they have nothing else, but their love for each other.

“Kyuhyun, I miss you so much. I never stopped lo-“

“I’m sorry. Looks like your hour is up,” Kyuhyun said, stopping him before he could continue. He then stood up, taking the warmth and comfort Sungmin was in, but it felt like more than that as Sungmin felt his heart being taken away from him. “Thanks. I had fun,” Kyuhyun muttered, not looking back as he left the room – as he left Sungmin.
Sunmin curled up on the sheets as he suddenly felt the coldness hitting his bare skin, but he didn’t move from his position, his body too weak as he felt a tear drop from his eye, followed by another, until he can’t help it anymore and he let it all out, sobbing it all away, hoping it could somehow soothe the pain he was feeling inside his heart.

All going down to the realization that after all these years, he’s still madly and deeply in love with Cho Kyuhyun.

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If the Feeling is Gone Chap. 15 Part2 (END)

simbasheart — Sat, 14 Apr 2012 00:45:50 GMT

TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone Chap. 15 Part2 (END)
length : Chaptered; 3,071 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin, YeWook, KyuWook,
genre : drama,romance
rating : PG-13

Last Chap!! :D :D ... I'm so sorry this took me forever to finish >< .. Thank you so much to everyone who supported this fic.. It's my first so i know if i fail at writing now then naku po, this is even worse XD... so to those who gave me the push to finish this.. /huggles Thanks for the inspiration!

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Something was utterly wrong. Kyuhyun was sure that Ryeowook had something up his sleeves the moment the man shoved him and Sungmin in one room, stating that he can’t leave Yesung alone so he’ll have to room with him. It’s as if the man was pushing him towards Sungmin, but he can’t understand what intentions the man could have had. Why would he shove his husband to another man?

He was weighing the reasons of Ryeowook’s sudden actions, but all of it was forgotten. along with the ability to breathe, as he saw Sungmin emerge of the bathroom, only a towel clad over his small body, water dripping all over his porcelain skin. His finger twitched as he envied those droplets that could freely sway over the smoothness of Sungmin’s skin, the desire to have his hand in that place burning within him.
Sungmin tilted his head and his eyes widened as he saw Kyuhyun eating him with his eyes. Realizing the consequences of his actions, he immediately grabbed his shirt on top of the bed and covered his still slightly wet body, ignoring the coldness of the water being seeping through his shirt as what overpowered his system was the heat of Kyuhyun’s stares that roamed his body.

Both of their bodies tremble as they felt that inner beast inside them plead to be set free.

“Y-you could shower n-now, I... I’ll sleep first,” Sungmin stuttered, his heart beating too fast for his liking, making every inch of him tremble on fear.

“Oh. Y-Yeah. Okay,”Kyuhyun replied, also in the same state as Sungmin.

Head bowed down low, he nervously took a step forward, but it’s as if fate’s was playing with them as they moved at exactly the same time, Sungmin stepping forward in the same direction as Kyuhyun, blocking the other to go further as they stood face to face, their aching bodies inches away from each other – that one more step begging to be bridged so they could mould as one.

Kyuhyun brushed the temptations away and moved over to the right; but fate was one playful kid as Sungmin moved at the same direction as well. The two trembled as it made it impossible for them to resist the building desire inside them to let fate win. It was too strong that they knew it’s impossible to fight it, so with the little restraint Kyuhyun still had, he hastily moved over to the empty space on Sungmin’s side, but fate was a bad player as Sungmin chose, yet again, the same time to move – the haste of their actions making both of them stumble over and fall to the ground, Kyuhyun straddling over Sungmin’s trembling body.

“Kyu...”Sungmin breathed, his face, just inches away from Kyuhyun’s, the position not doing anything good for his sanity. The other was like a magnet, drawing him nearer that he found his eyes wandering over to Kyuhyun’s lips, then to those orbs that were looking right straight at his.

“Kyuhyun,”Sungmin repeated. They both knew what they wanted, but they know they can’t; yet the temptation’s too strong that they found themselves slowly leaning closer, their breath touching each other’s lips, teasing them to close the gap.

“Kyuhyun, you know we can’t,” Sungmin muttered, holding on to that bit of sanity that was still in him.

Sungmin felt something wet touch his cheeks and his heart broke as he saw tears falling down from Kyuhyun’s orbs, that he can’t help but mirror the action, his own tears breaking free from his eyes.

“I’m sorry,” Kyuhyun whispered, his tear-stained eyes still looking longingly at the man under him, the image getting blurred as tears covered his sight. His heart broke, knowing that like the image he was seeing, he was indeed losing the other.
“Kyuhyun we need to let go.” Sungmin closed his eyes as Kyuhyun touched his forehead onto Sungmin’s. “I know,” Kyuhyun muttered as he gently caressed his wet cheeks over Sungmin’s, the older man’s heart fluttering at the affection.

Sungmin was close to leaning in to the touch so he was glad, over his breaking heart, when Kyuhyun broke free. But his heart stopped as Kyuhyun leaned forward to leave a kiss on his forehead.

“Goodnght,” Kyuhyun whispered, but in contrary, both didn’t have the slightest intention to sleep that night as both of them stayed still lying on their beds, minds filled with each other, crying silent tears that lulled them to sleep.

*

The day passed by painfully slow as the three just went along with whatever plans Ryeowook had for the day. But what made it more painful was the obvious plan of Ryeowook to push Kyuhyun to Sungmin. Kyuhyun was close to confronting him, but he didn’t want to make a scene, so he just opted to let the day pass and planned to talk to Ryeowook later when they’re alone; but it looked like the plan was forgotten as he reached his boiling point.

They were about to eat dinner but Ryeowook told them that he needs to get something in his room and asked them to go on first, and of course he pulled Jongwoon with him –leaving Kyuhyun and Sungmin alone. Kyuhyun sighed, his stomach grumbling to even think of Ryeowook’s antics, so Sungmin and him silently went to the place Ryeowook told them to, but they stopped as what greeted them in the garden was not something they expected.
There was only one table with two sets of plates, a candle, and a lone rose beside the wine bottle standing in the middle of the table – giving the setting a romantic feel. There’s dim lighting surrounding the place, and the sound of a violin playing could be heard complementing it.

In normal circumstances, this was definitely something he’d love to have with Sungmin, but sadly, it’s not. He’s married and he’s not liking it one bit that it’s even his husband who’s pushing him towards unfaithfulness.

“I need to talk to Ryeowook.” Kyuhyun bolted out, anger lacing his voice.
“Wait, where are you going?” Ryeowook asked, walking out from his hiding place, Jongwoon beside him.

“Ryeowook what the heck are you doing?!”

“It’s just a dinner. Jeez, if you don’t want it, just say it. Ugh. Jongwoon, I’m hungry. Let’s eat this before this gets cold,” Ryeowook muttered casually.

“Ryeowook! I’m serious!” Kyuhyun exhaled, not liking how Ryeowook acted as if this was nothing.

The said man stiffened on his spot, not knowing what to say. He might be showing a smile on his face, but deep inside, he was breaking apart. It’s not easy to let go of the man you loved for so long. Every time he pushed Kyuhyun to Sungmin, it’s as if he was pushing a little bit of his heart as well. It hurt so much that he felt his heart slowly dying.

But despite of the unbearable pain, he smiled before looking back at Kyuhyun. “This is what you want, right?”

Kyuhyun stood frozen, not knowing what to say. “W-what do you mean?”

“You don’t have to hide it Kyuhyun. I, I know you don’t love me anymore.” Ryeowook grinned wider, as he felt his heart crack. He had already accepted it, but it still hurt all the same.

“Ryeowook, you know that’s not true.” Kyuhyun immediately softened as he saw the pain in the other’s eyes.

Ryeowook chuckled as he fought the tears that were threatening to spill out from his eyes.

“You know it’s true, Kyuhyun. All four of us here know it’s true.”

“Wook-“ Kyuhyun started, but Ryeowook immediately cut him off, knowing the other man would deny it, and would splutter sugar-laced lies. He was tired; he didn’t want to play this game anymore. He wasn’t dumb to not know what’s real.“Sssh... I’ve already accepted it. All I wish is for you to be happy. I love you so much, Kyuhyun. You know that, I’m so sorry that I let myselfget too blinded by that love that I didn’t think straight and thought that as long as I have you, everything would be fine. It hurts, Kyuhyun. It hurts to know that I have you with me, but your heart will never be mine.”

“I’m so sorry,” Kyuhyun croaked in tears as he hugged the other man tight.

Ryeowook hugged back, relishing the other’s warmth as if it would be his last.
He sighed before letting go; he looked at Sungmin who was watching the whole scene playing in front of him with tears in his eyes, feeling guilt crawl in him, knowing he’s partly the reason for the other man’s pain. But he was shocked as Ryeowook reached for his hand. He was hesitant at first, but Ryeowook smiled at him, as if telling him it’s fine and Sungmin can’t help but smile back as he place his hand over Ryeowook’s.

Ryeowook smiled, gripping Sungmin’s hands into his, before taking Kyuhyun’s hand into his opposite hand. He then joined the two together, making the two men flinch.

“I know it, I could feel how much the two of you love each other. Sungmin, please forgive me for even thinking of taking Kyuhyun away from you.”

Sungmin shook his head as tears rolled continuously from his eyes. “What are you saying? You never did.”

“It’s okay, Sungmin. I’m happy you know. I’m happy to know that at least, I’m giving Kyuhyun up to someone I know who loves him as much as I do, even more, I think. So please, promise me you’ll make him happy. Promise me you’ll never leave him like what I did.”

Sungmin shook his head, his tears making it impossible for him to form any words.
“Kyu…” Ryeowook turned to the sobbing man, gripping his hand tight. “Promise me too Kyuhyun. Please be happy. Please?”
“Ryeowook…” Kyuhyun muttered in between sobs, but he stopped, not knowing how to respond.
Ryeowook sensed it and smiled before hugging the two sobbing men.

“Haa.. The song is beautiful, right? Jongwoonie, dance with me please?” Ryeowook went to the man who was silently standing over at the corner, shocked as he was suddenly addressed, but he obliged nonetheless – taking Ryeowook who immediately clung to him.
Ryeowook closed his eyes as he swayed with Jongwoon, letting the air control their bodies. “You can cry you know,” Jongwoon whispered when they were already far enough from Kyuhyun and Sungmin, knowing Ryeowook was just showing a strong demeanour, but deep inside, he knew how much the young man was crumbling.

Ryewook shook his head and smiled. “I cried too much my whole life that I don’t think I have any more tears to cry.”

“It feels great Woonie. It hurts, but it feels so good,” Ryeowook sighed, loving that peaceful feeling inside him.

“You’ve done the right thing. You should be proud of yourself,”Jongwoon smiled, cradling the smaller man’s face with his hands. loving the smile that adorned the other’s face, sighing at how one could be so beautiful. He might look weak, but those orbs shone brighter than any of the stars that night; and that smile – he looked at it, wanting it to be etched inside his memory forever.

“I did, did I?” Ryeowook smiled wider as he leaned his head on Jongwoon’s shoulder, his body swaying with the wind, smiling as Jongwoon nuzzled his hair.

“Yes you did,” Jongwoon whispered.

“Thank you,”Ryeowook whispered back, breaking the comfortable silence.

“You don’t need to thank me. I’m doing all of this because I want to.”

“You’ve been so good to me. Sometimes, I wonder why I didn’t just fall for you,”Ryeowook chuckled, burying his head deeper on Jongwoon’s comfortable chest.

“Jongwoon, I know I’ve asked you for too many favours already, but can I... Can I ask you for one more thing?”

“Don’t you ever hesitate to ask. I’ve already told you, I love what I’m doing. This is what makes me happy. So if there’s anything that you want, just tell me and I’ll do it for you.” Even give up my life, he wanted to add but didn’t, not wanting to burden the young man. But it was true that he would do anything for the other. Some might call him stupid for being such a fool for loving someone that he knew would never love him back, but can he really stop his heart? But Ryeowook’s request suddenly pulled him from his reverie, making him look at the young man, as if asking if he heard the right thing.
“Can you promise to find me on our next lives?” Ryeowook asked again.

Jongwoon looked at him questioningly. Ryeowook just smiled before continuing. “Just promise.”

“I- I promise,” Jongwoon muttered hesitantly.

“Good. Because I’ll reserve my heart for you so you better find me soon,” Ryeowook whispered before going back to bury his head against the comfort of Jongwoon’s shoulder.

“I promise,” Jongwoon muttered, this time with more conviction as he felt tears drop down from his eyes from happiness.

“I’ll wait for you then,” Ryeowook whispered before closing his eyes slowly with a smile on his face.

Jongwoon felt the smaller man’s weight grow heavier on his shoulder, and he froze, hoping against hope that it’s not what he was expecting.

“Ryeowook?” He whispered, nudging the small man in his arms as he broke down into tears when he got no response from the smaller man.

“No please. Ryeowook!”Jongwoon screamed as he clung to Ryeowook’s body tighter.

*

Kyuhyun stood beside Jongwoon, giving the crying man a pat on the back as the people started to lessen; but Jongwoon stood still in front of Ryeowook’s grave, not showing any intentions of going away. Kyuhyun and the man weren’t really close, and he must admit, they didn’t really have a good start. But he saw how the man genuinely loved Ryeowook. His heart broke apart, seeing Ryeowook gone. After all, he did love the man. But he knew that it’s nowhere near the love Jongwoon had given Ryeowook, and he was sure that the pain the other in was greater than his.

Sensing the other’s worry, Jongwoon looked up at him with a smile, brushing his tears in the process. “I’m sure he’s already happy wherever he is. He had been through so much pain; he deserves to be at peace.”

Kyuhyun just nodded, bowing his head low, guilt eating him up, knowing a lot of the pain Ryeowook had went through was because of him. “He loves you, Kyuhyun. You shouldn’t blame yourself. I’m sure Ryeowook wouldn’t want that.”

“I just, I can’t help it. I feel so bad, I can’t help but hate myself.”

“Don’t you remember Ryeowook’s last wish for you? He wants you to be happy Kyuhyun.”

“I don’t think I can. I don’t deserve it,”Kyuhyun muttered dejectedly.

“But Sungmin deserves happiness as well right? You’re one lucky bastard Kyuhyun. Would you let Sungmin go through the same heartbreak Ryeowook underwent just because of your insecurities?”

“I-“ Kyuhyun started, not knowing what to do. Ever since that night, he hadn’t really talked with Sungmin yet. Everything just happened too fast.

“Ryeowook had already given you his permission, right? What are you still doing here?! Seriously! Don’t you know how scary Ryeowook can be when he’s disobeyed; you don’t want him to haunt you from his grave right?”

Kyuhyun chuckled before nodding at Jongwoon. “How about you?”

“I’m fine. I just want to be with him for a little more.”

Kyuhyun smiled before starting off, one destination in mind. But even before he went further, he stopped and looked back.

“Jongwoon!”

The said man tilted his head and looked at Kyuhyun.

“Thank you.” Jongwoon smiled, giving Kyuhyun a nod before watching him walk away. He then tilted his head to Ryeowook’s grave, a smile on his face.

*

Kyuhyun inhaled a puff of air as his heart trembled, not knowing what to do as he stood in front of Sungmin’s house.

He lifted his hand in an attempt to press the doorbell, but inches away from the button, he pulled his hand back.

This had been a repetitive process that he didn’t notice the chuckling man who was watching him.

“Donghae? What are you doing?” Sungmin asked his friend who was laughing by himself at the window.

He looked at what the other was looking at and his eyes widened as he saw Kyuhyun by the door. “Kyuhyun?”

“Yeah. He had been like that for the past few minutes. It’s amusing!”

“Are you crazy!? Why didn’t you let him in?!” Sungmin scolded.

“How could I let him in when he can’t even press the doorbell?!”

Sungmin shook his head and went towards the door.

Kyuhyun sighed, thinking it’s all or nothing as he threw all his fears away and was about to press the doorbell when his heart stopped as the door suddenly opened, revealing Sungmin who was looking at him with an eyebrow raised. “What are you doing? Donghae said you’ve been there for the past few minutes.”

“I...”Kyuhyun stuttered, a deep shade of red creeping on his cheeks from humiliation.

“You?”Sungmin asked. Kyuhyun just looked at him, not saying a thing so Sungmin asked again. “Why are you here?”

“It’s just... I just thought that maybe... Can we... I mean, do you still want to...”Kyuhyun trailed off, scared of being rejected.

“To?” Sungmin chuckled, finding this side of Kyuhyun amusing to watch.

“I... I love you Sungmin. Do you still want to be with me?” Kyuhyun whispered in a low voice, the blush in his cheeks getting deeper.

“What happened to you? This is not the Kyuhyun that I fell in love with.” Sungmin chuckled.

Kyuhyun’s heart stopped. “Do- do you still love this me though?”

“Tsk sadly, I’ve already fallen deep in everything that you are.”

Kyuhyun smiled wide at the confession, tears falling from his eyes at the incredible happiness he felt inside him.

“Oh my goodness. Lee Sungmin, what have you done to me?” Kyuhyun sighed. “But whatever it is, please don’t ever stop.” Kyuhyun added before attaching their lips in a deep kiss.

“Oh I won’t, I don’t even think I can,” Sungmin replied, kissing back.

“I love you, Lee Sungmin,” Kyuhyun muttered, looking deep into Sungmin’s eyes, meaning it with every fibre of his body.

“I love you, too.” Sungmin whispered before his lip was sealed by Kyuhyun, along with his heart.

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Eat Siwon, Again

simbasheart — Tue, 10 Apr 2012 09:13:54 GMT

TITLE : Eat Siwon, Again ( The man has two freaking bdays! ><)
length : One-Shot ; 1,544words
pairing/characters : WonKyu
genre : PWP, Smut
rating : Nc-17
summary : It is Siwon’s birthday, again....
sequel to Eat Siwon

late bday fic.. sorry Siwonnie! <3 Happy Bday bb!! <3

supposed to be longer, pero tinamad na kong basahin yung sinulat ko dun sa tissue buti nalang yung smut asa papel XD yan 2loi pwp ulit, sorry >< ..
.... and i honestly don't know how to end this hence the fail one, sorry... ;~~;

:*

Siwon looked at the clock on his phone for the umpteenth time that night, 10:54 pm, it says.

He sighed before throwing his phone aside, a big frown etched on his face, mirroring the black cloud that’s lurking in his heart. He wasn’t really expecting anything to happen that night. Really, what assurance can he have that the maknae wasn’t just joking that night? What if it was just a one night thing? What if the maknae forgot about it? These silly thoughts and more have been bugging him for the past two months but no matter what, he can’t stop himself on holding on to the words that Kyuhyun uttered that night. Truth be told, but his heart can’t stop beating erratically after that night, some might say that it might’ve only been coz of the freaking amazing sex, but he’s sure that that’s just not it because it’s his heart that’s fluttering with goo not his cock whenever he saw even just a simple glimpse of the man. And now, it’s undeniably his heart that’s feeling all the pain thinking that this feeling that he can finally put a finger on can’t ever be reciprocated.

He was almost drifting to sleep, wishing that he could atleast have Kyuhyun in his dreams, when he felt soft touches creeping inside his thin wife beater, the warm touch on his skin making him shiver in delight.

He finally gasped when he felt a tweak in his nipple, the pleasure shooting in every inch of his body. He shot his eyes and was shocked to see the magnae smirking on top of him, straddling his body.

His mind was too incoherent to form any word that he just stared at the beauty that’s on top of him, thinking if this is just one of his million illusions involving the young man.

“So are we just going to stare at each other? The clock is ticking you know, in an hour it won’t be your birthday anymore so is this how you want to make use of my gift for you?” Kyuhyun asked.

“Ah..” Siwon started, making Kyuhyun sigh already expecting this reaction from the older.

He tweaked the other’s nipple earning another gasp from the tall man.

“You’re so hot like this.” Kyuhyun muttered, not waiting for a response he’s sure he’ll not get before attacking those gaping lips.

Siwon sighed from pleasure as Kyuhyun’s mouth sucked his lips with much fervour as if telling him that all of these are indeed real that he stopped questioning it and met the younger’s lips with as much intensity. They suck each other’s lips as if they’ve waited too long for these, and indeed they do, Siwon have been imagining these for the past 2 months but nothing could ever come close from the pleasure that the real thing brings.

Wanting more, Siwon trailed his lips downwards sucking at the younger’s pale neck. The loud moans that the younger’s delicious mouth brings out, urges him to pleasure the younger more, anything to hear that lovely music once again.

Siwon threw away the younger’s shirt, his heart singing in delight by the sight of the younger’s chest. He trailed soft kisses on the bare skin, as if something so precious until he reached down to the younger’s visible erection. He stopped as he eyed the visible hard-on that’s straining the younger’s pants, his mouth watering as he imagines how great it would taste inside his hungry mouth.

Kyuhyun growled, impatience brewing in him as he thrust his hips upward, his hard-on bumping over Siwon’s mouth, just the right place he itched to be in.
“Fuuck pleeease.” Kyuhyun grumbled, not even caring of the desperation that’s clear in his voice.

Siwon smiled loving the feel of Kyuhyun’s bulge on his lips. He leaned forward and smelled the pre-cum stained erection, taking in the pleasure that wafted through his nostrils down to his lust-filled heart. He sighed, taking in all the heaven-like feeling before taking a lick at the hard-on.

“Oh jeez Siwon! just freaking take the real thing!”

Siwon smiled, biting the erection once before dragging the zipper with his teeth. He licked his lips as Kyuhyun’s member sprang free from the pants, more than ready to be devoured.

“No briefs?” Siwon teased the younger.

“I already know what’s going to happen so why bother?” Kyuhyun muttered before tugging Siwon’s hair towards his throbbing member.

Siwon grinned, before taking the hard member in his mouth.

“Oh yess Siwon!” Kyuhyun screamed in ecstasy as Siwon started sucking him. The feel of Siwon’s tongue, teeth and lips, the older’s saliva coating his sensitive baby all sending him in an indescribable euphoria.

Siwon sucked harder, loving the way Kyuhyun grips on his hair, it feels as if the young man need him, and he’ll gladly give everything he could offer the other as he suck faster, bobbing his head to and fro until Kyuhyun can’t take it anymore and shoot all of his cum inside Siwon’s mouth.

Siwon opened his mouth wider, not wanting any of Kyuhyun’s essence to be wasted, greedily taking it all in.

Kyuhyun smiled as he tried to come down from the wonderful high Siwon put him in.
“You’re amazing! But… It’s your birthday right..” Kyuhyun muttered as he stood up from his comfortable position and laid Siwon’s body on the bed.

Kyuhyun smiled at Siwon before pressing their lips in a deep kiss, taking Siwon’s shirt and shorts off. Once the distractions are gone, he showered the other’s broad chest with soft kisses much like the way the other was doing earlier. It was so gentle that Siwon feels that hope bubbles inside him, it gave him the push that he didn’t stop himself and grabbed the younger’s head and attached their lips together in a needy kiss. Their lips were detached as they gave way for a loud gasp when they felt their members pressed against each other.

Siwon thrust his hips upwards, moaning as Kyuhyun grind his hips with him. “Oh Kyu. Ahh…”

Kyuhyun bit his lips as he enjoyed the friction, kissing Siwon’s lips one last time before biting his ears. “Take me. Now.”

“Gladly.” Siwon replied, tilting his head to press a swift deep kiss on the younger before switching their positions.

Siwon settled in between of Kyuhyun’s legs, the younger’s legs automatically spreading wider for him. He started with kissing the younger’s more than waiting hole before putting in a finger in to prepare Kyuhyun, not wanting to hurt the younger. Seeing no effect from the younger, he started adding another one and another one until 3 of his fingers are thrusting in and out of Kyuhyun’s lovely hole. The intrusion already making Kyuhyun moan wild, that Siwon doesn’t think his baby can wait anymore. He kissed the inside of Kyuhyun’s thighs first, before pushing his hot throbbing member inside Kyuhyun’s hole.

Kyuhyun screamed at the thickness that entered him, Siwon immediately caressed the younger’s hips in reflex of not wanting to hurt the younger, he then placed soft kisses on the younger’s chest hoping it would sooth the pain.

Kyuhyun’s member twitch at the affection, smiling at that fluttering feel inside of him, he brought his hand into Siwon’s before intertwining their fingers.
Catching the signal, Siwon smiled, gripping Kyuhyun’s hand to his as he pulled out his member only leaving its head before slamming it all the way in.

Kyuhyun tightened his grip into Siwon that his nails started to etch at Siwon’s hands, but Siwon gladly took the pain as he thrust hard and deep inside Kyuhyun’s hole. The younger’s screams of more and pleasure urging him to piston his member inside, in search of that hidden wonder, and alas he knew he found it as Kyuhyun screamed, hard and erotic, begging him to touch that spot once again, and that he did bringing Kyuhyun in his intense high as he shoot all of his cum all over Siwon’s broad chest.

“Goodness Kyuhyun I love you!”Siwon muttered as he cum afterwards, releasing all of his cum inside the younger’s hole. Kyuhyun immediately stiffened, the change not failing to be noticed by Siwon.

“I… I’m sorry. I didn’t..” Siwon sighed blaming himself for ruining such beautiful moment. Kyuhyun remained silent, not knowing how to respond.

“I’ll just… “ Siwon started, but stopped midway as he felt something flood inside him, choking his insides, preventing him to form any words. So he just opted to stand and leave but he was stopped as Kyuhyun grabbed his hand.

“Stay with me.” Kyuhyun whispered as if too hesitant with his demand, and Siwon can’t help but ask if this was the same man he just had sex earlier.
But a smile formed in his lips as Kyuhyun attached their lips together in a slow, mesmerizing kiss, leaving him breathless after.

He looked at Kyuhyun’s eyes, and some might say he’s just fooling himself for being elated as he think he saw that familiar look on the younger’s face, but he didn’t cared and attached their lips once again, because even if he’s not entirely sure what it meant, he’s atleast sure that that’s the same look he sees whenever he looks in the mirror.

eh?

Fireflies

simbasheart — Fri, 06 Apr 2012 01:49:14 GMT

TITLE : Fireflies
length : Unfinished One-Shot; 1,475 words
pairing/character : I don't know anymore ;~~~; ; but for this one: WonKyu, Ninja!KyuMin, Ninja!KyuHae
genre : Drama
rating : PG
summary : a supposedly "Fireflies" ( The MV for Ariel Lin's Song staring SiHae, with Ariel being Kyuhyun nd yah.. XDD otl ) inspired fic?

i dont know >< I wrote this last year but until now i have noo idea how to continue.. so i thought i'll post it here first.. let u decide how u want to end this and maybe i'll get my inspiration?...

(dat is if anyone wud even read dis ><)nd if writer's block still won't leave me den dis wud be an Unfinished Fail One-Shot .. yah ;~~;

oh Grammar Mistakes, hi my lovely friend =)

It was dead silent saved by the rustling of the wind and the soft sniffles that could be heard from time to time. The silence was uncomfortable but both men didn’t make any move to break it, the million words that’s wanting to be said is burning their insides, piling in their already too heavy heart.

“I..” Siwon started hesitantly as if afraid to break the silence. “It’s getting late, I need to go and pack the last of my belongings.” He slowly stood up but a hand tightly held his as he took his first step. “P-please.”

Siwon stopped knowing the multitude of sentences that come with that single word. Kyuhyun had always been the silent unaffectionate type; he rarely says “I love you” or other sweet nothings to the young man, but that’s just who he is, he had never been good with words, always afraid to show too much, but Siwon knows him too well to know just by the look in his eyes what the younger’s soul wants to bare.

Kyuhyun wants him to stay, and not just for tonight.

He sat down and wrapped a hand to the younger’s body, smiling as the younger leaned in and rest his head to Siwon’s shoulder. “Kyuhyun you know I can’t stay.”

“But why do we have to..” The younger trailed off as his concealed sobs flood his throat, making it impossible for him to form a word.

“That’s the best for the two of us. A lot could happen in years; I just don’t want you holding on to me when I know you have a whole great thing ahead of you.”

“No! Why can’t you just say you don’t love me anymore! Stop feeding me bullshit! That’s why you’re breaking up with me right?!” You don’t love me! You never loved me!” Kyuhyun started screaming, his bottle of emotions bursting up.

“You know that’s not true. You have no idea how much I love you!”

“Then why?!”

“Because I’m afraid okay?!.. I’m afraid that you’ll find somebody else better than me; that you’ll eventually forget me and move on. I don’t know if I can take it Kyuhyun. I love you too much.” Siwon confessed, letting out all the weight that had been crumpling his heart ever since he proposed the idea to his beloved.

Kyuhyun hugged him tight as he burrowed his head into Siwon’s warmth, his heart enlightening at the serene comfort Siwon’s body exhale into his bleeding heart, thus, freely pushing all of his tears out as he hugs Siwon tighter afraid that this might be the last time he could hold Siwon like this.

That thought scared him making his whole body tremble, but he immediately calmed down as Siwon held him tighter with so much tenderness making his heart flatter yet with so much strength never failing to ensure him that the other needed and loved him as much as he does with the other. So he just stayed in that warmth and comfort hoping this won’t be the last time he would have a taste of this heaven.

*

Kyuhyun sits in the now empty room of what used to be Siwon’s apartment. He could still hear the laughter they shared together bouncing in the four walls. He closed his eyes as he remembered the first time they met, how he silently admired the man at first sight, and how his heart won’t stop beating erratically when the other finally confessed his feelings for him. And even if he was scared at first, he finally gave in knowing the admiration he first felt for the young man grew into something much extreme, something that he can’t just ignore.

Oh how it seems like he’s in heaven when he finally let out those three words his heart had wanted to scream, because that radiant smile the other gave him was definitely worth all his pride. And more when he felt the other’s lips in to his, he knew he definitely made the right decision.

He smiles trough his tears as he looks at the doodle that was pasted on the wall. His heart never failing to smile through the pain as he remembers those beautiful moments.

“Stop staring at me!” Kyuhyun muttered, eyes not leaving his PSP.

“You’re not even looking at me, how do you know I’m staring at you?” Siwon teased.

“I just know.. so stop it!”

“But I can’t help it.”

“Aish.. Choi Siwon!”

“Look at me first.” Siwon whispered, irritating the younger more.

“What?!” Kyuhyun shouted as he finally gave in, already annoyed with his lover but he was surprised as he was met with a swift kiss, throwing all of his anger away.

“I love you.” Siwon whispered making Kyuhyun’s heart stop as he looks at his lover, asking how he could ever hate this man when every single time, his love for the other just grows even more.

*

“Kyuhyun, auntie told us that you haven’t been eating lately and you won’t even come out of this room.”

Kyuhyun heard his besfriend’s voice, breaking his reverie but he didn’t move from his spot, mind still floating to those memories of yesterday where he still have Siwon beside him.

“Look, if you need help, you know we’re here for you right?” Sungmin, Kyuhyun’s bestfriend said, worry etched at his soft voice.

“I’m sorry but I just really want to be alone.” Kyuhyun whispered not even looking up, he’s thankful to have a friend like Sungmin, but he can’t stop his heart from screaming that all he needs right now is Siwon.

The older sighed, knowing it’s best to not push himself to help when the younger doesn’t want to.

“Just always remember Kyu, I’m always here when you need me.” Sungmin whispered before leaving the younger in the room.

*

“What?” Kyuhyun screamed as he heard his mother’s words.

“Kyu darling it’s been months since… since Siwon moved out from the apartment. I know how much important that room is for you, but I think this is also a good way for you to .. to move on.” Kyuhyun’s mom explained, pausing bit by bit as she carefully choose her words, afraid to hurt his son, but this decision is also for the other, she knows how much her son still love their ex-tenant, and by letting her son get drowned by memories of the past, would only continue hurting the young man.

Kyuhyun just stayed silent, knowing too well not to argue with his mother, he knows how much his mother cares and worries for him, but ever since Siwon walked out of his life, it’s as if his happiness came with the older man. Life’s just not the same again.

*

Ever since Siwon left, it has been his daily routine to go to Siwon’s old room every morning, spending the first hour of his day just sitting there, basking at the peaceful silence, leaning on the empty walls as he could still smell the faint fragrance of Siwon’s musky scent.

He was on his way to do just that, when he heard a loud blasting sound from the direction. He hurriedly went inside the room and he was stopped as he saw a guy in the room.

“Would you please turn that noise off?! It’s freaking 8 in the morning!” Kyuhyun shouted at the new tenant, he suddenly remembered that someone already rented the place yesterday and he hates to see that this man would be the one staying here on this room, Siwon’s room, his haven.

“Oh I’m sorry.” The new guy apologized with a nervous smile on his face, but then his face suddenly lightened up as he looks at Kyuhyun with a huge grin. “Are you Mrs. Cho’s son? I’m Lee Donghae. Nice to meet you.”

Kyuhyun tsked, already sure that he will hate this guy.

“Look! Before anything else, there are a few rules I’d like you to remember. First, I hate noisy people! There are other people who lives here so I don’t want to hear that noise you we’re playing earlier and .. .” He hesitantly looked at the writing on the wall before adding.. “Don’t you ever touch that!” Donghae just chuckled as he looks at Kyuhyun who was now rushing towards the door not even letting him have any say on the young man’s rules “Another thing!” Donghae shot his head up as he heard Kyuhyun’s voice again.

“Could you stop smiling?! It’s annoying.”

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simbasheart — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 06:56:27 GMT

so im shamelessly posting this here....

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LJ Quizzes XDD

simbasheart — Wed, 14 Mar 2012 08:43:56 GMT

LOL WHAT'S THIS? XD haha
i'm sorry for the names here.. blame the quiz generator >< >< .. /hides

If Your LJ Friends Were Family
LiveJournal Username
Favorite Colour
Your Age

Your Spouse Is	lovekibummie
Your Mother Is	kwitch13
Your Father Is	wonkyu_x3
Your Sister Is	bling_chullie
Your Brother Is	bling_chullie
Your Grandma Is	jaeryun
Your Grandpa Is	sallysync
The Family Pet	megmil12


This Fun Quiz created by Nat at BlogQuiz.Net

The Big LiveJournal Fight

LiveJournal Username

Why is everyone fighting?

How does this make you feel?

Are you going to try and stop this?

Duck!

Do you know how much time it is going to take to get all this blood out of the carpet?

Do you plan on joining the fray?

Is the first one killed

zittertatter

Strikes fear into the hearts of others with their Chainsaw of DOOM!

kyumin86eunhae

Keeps spouting corny catchphrases

kyureemin

Is surprisingly lethal with a ficus plant

jianwenk

Manages to decapitate themself on accident

jaeryun

Number of innocent bystanders slain by the fighters

Amount of propery damage the fight will cause

$185,449

Chance that you'll survive the melee

29%

This Fun Quiz created by Lynn at BlogQuiz.Net

Your LiveJournal Musical
LiveJournal Username
What is your favorite musical?
Do you like to perform?
What did you think of the recent Phantom movie?
What gender are you?

The mask-wearing psycho who likes to murder people	tenwon
The dead guy in the wheelchair	reishicolleen
The matchmaker	vivalapaparazzi
The popular girl	sjlover_sj_elf
The fast-talking con man	thefinalpansy
The english teacher's wife	scribbled_gem
The nun	angelqmin
The amount of money your show makes	$90,820


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If Your LJ Friends Were Couples...
LiveJournal Username
Number of Friends

The sickeningly sweet couple would be	yheoj
and	kitty1110
The couple who had the best sex with each other would be	vitasomnia
and	megmil12
But there would be pleanty of fighting between	ochidyati
and	blue_heart13
And you'd get into a hot threesome with	babysuju
and	lavender_lace12


This Fun Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net

ah......... o.o

*

What picture should each of your friends post?
LiveJournal Username
Number of people on your friends list you'd like to see naked

Should take & post a picture of their bedroom in a comment	sujufied
Should take & post a picture of the inside of their closit	chunrren10
Should take and post a picture of their bathroom	skeptic_manila
Should take & post a picture of themselves in crazy makeup	delliemin
Should take & post a picture of themselves wearing pj's	minayuurei
Should take & post a picture of themselves in a bathing suit	sjmagnae
Should take and post a picture of themselves with a celebrity	maxime260
Should take and post a picture of themselves with you	vin11lover


This Fun Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net

Journal Pass (mail art) for your Livejournal Friends
LiveJournal Username
Theme of the journal you will pass (butterflies, fairies, robots, etc)
Your email so people can send you their snail mail addy

Divide a journal into 9 sections. Fill the first section, then mail it to:	princessmikie
After your first lj friend fills a section s/he should mail it to:	bel13venprom15e
Who should fill a section, and then mail it to:	spinningstar_15
(after the last friend listed gets it, they should mail it back to you) ..and then mail it to:	sjlover_sj_elf
(then you can post scans and show off everyone's work) ..and then mail it to:	mishapantiness
(and you'll have a real journal to treasure forever) ..and then mail it to:	mlss_he
(and possibly be a little closer to your lj friends) ..and then mail it to:	hit0rigurashi
(If your lj friends post this, get involved in their journal pass too) ..and then mail it to:	kyumin86eunhae


This Fun Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net

RLOL tama na nga... jee wala lang magawa sori ><

Sad Fate

simbasheart — Thu, 08 Mar 2012 13:15:27 GMT

TITLE : Sad Fate
length : One-Shot; 2,076W
pairing/character : KyuMin
genre : Drama
rating : NC-17
summary : He was always the one chasing after him, is it so wrong for him to wish for Kyuhyun to be the one to chase him this time

a/n : idk.. just suddenly felt like writing it after........... yah ><

and for ayeengie , i know this is not even close to wat u requested wen u say min always chasing after kyu bla bla.. but yah... haha it somehow have the theme so why not? lemesee if my mind wud be nice to me and write a fluffier fic for that theme XD :*

/ goodness fail hides

nd yey! Finally have a beta... BETA by ailaling1017 :D :D Thank u soo much Aila!!!!!!!! ;~;

“Where are you going?” Sungmin asked as he woke up and saw that his husband was stuffing clothes in his bag.

“I need to go to Jeju with my boss. We will be there for five days so don’t wait up for me.”

“What? But you just arrived from your week-long trip last night!”
“Min! You know that this is for work! It’s not as if I could control the places where we should go to.” Kyuhyun spouted, hating it when Sungmin gets whiny.

“But...”

“Please! If this is another one of your jealous rants, please spare me! You know how hard I work for this family.Can’t you just appreciate it!? Fuck, Min. It’s not as if I’m leaving for a vacation! I’m leaving for work!”

Sungmin just bowed his head, unable to form any words. Kyuhyun sighed as he zipped his bag and made a beeline for the door.

“I’m leaving.”

“Wait! Kyuhyun! Can’t we at least have breakfast together? I miss you.” Sungmin muttered, whispering the last sentence as he followed Kyuhyun towards the main door.

Kyuhyun sighed as he turned around to look at his wife. “I’m sorry, I can’t, I’m going to be late. Let’s just do it when I come back.” Kyuhyun promised, leaving a soft kiss on his wife’s cheeks before walking towards the exit.

Sungmin just watched as his husband’s figure disappeared from his sight.

“That’s exactly what you promised last time.”

*

“You’re such a fool, you know that?” Ryeowook chided as he and Sungmin sat at the Chos’ living room.

“Cho Changmin! Stop playing with your food!” Sungmin scolded his son who was throwing popcorn everywhere before turning to his best friend, hearing what the other just said.

“Then what do you want me to do?” He sighed exasperatedly.

“What?! Sungmin, he’s cheating on you! You can’t seriously just act oblivious all the time and let him on with his sins.”

“We’re not sure okay. We can’t just throw him these accusations.” Sungmin reasoned.

“Sungmin, you’ve seen it with your very own eyes! I understood it when you didn’t want to believe our friends when they’ve been telling you that they saw your husband with another woman before. But this is different, Min! This time, you saw him kissing his boss yourself. What more proof do you need?!”

“I...”Sungmin started, his mouth hanging as he grasped for the right words to say, not knowing how to voice all the flooding emotions in his heart as he caressed his son’s hand with his thumb.

“Min.” Ryeowook coaxed his friend to speak.

“I’m scared. I... I don’t want to lose him, Wook. I love him, I love him so much.”

“But does he love you as much as you do to him? Can’t you give a little sympathy to yourself? You’re always the one chasing after him. Can’t you let him chase after you even just for once?”

*

You’re always the one chasing after him. Can’t you let him chase after you even just for once?

Sungmin repeated those words in his mind as it dawned on him how much of a fool he was being for Kyuhyun. It’s true. He wasn’t going to deny it. Ever since they’ve met, he had always been the one tailing over the younger man. If he hadn’t confessed to Kyuhyun that one fateful day in December, back when they were so young and carefree, he knew that it wouldn’t even be possible for the two of them to be together.

He was just one of the million admirers of the handsome young man. He didn’t even think that Kyuhyun knew he existed until that day when he finally mustered the courage to come up and confess to him. He was shocked and dumbfounded when the other immediately accepted his proposal, but who was he to complain?

Finally having the chance to prove his love for Kyuhyun, he did his best to be the perfect partner in Kyuhyun’s eyes. He always had that desire in him to always please the young man. He never really admitted it to anyone, but for the first few years of his relationship with Kyuhyun, he had always felt afraid. He was careful of his every action and every move, every word and every decision, as if afraid that if he did one wrong move, Kyuhyun would leave him.

He felt so pathetic as he thought about those times, and he can’t help but pity himself. For years, he had been giving his all for Kyuhyun. He fucking loved the young man with all his heart, he attended to all his needs,he gave him everything he wanted and more. And this is what he gets in return? It hurt him so much, too much that he felt his heart being stabbed by a million knives before being stomped on and being thrown as if it was some worthless piece of shit.

It hurt too much that he can’t even breathe anymore. For once, he wanted Kyuhyun to chase after him. For once, he wanted to feel Kyuhyun’s love.

*

“Kyuhyun, we need to talk.” Sungmin muttered firmly the moment he saw his husband enter the room. He had been imagining this moment for hours, rehearsing the lines he wanted to say and gathering all the courage he thinks he needed. But all of his preparation seemed to wither as he looked at Kyuhyun’s eyes, those dark alluring orbs always sucking his soul onto its deep passage, trapping him into Kyuhyun’s grip.

“What’s this Min? I’m tired.” Kyuhyun sighed as he slump his bag on the table before striding towards the bed, opening the first two buttons of his polo before letting his exhausted body collapse over the soft sheets.
“I can’t take this anymore. I’m so tired of this.” Sungmin whispered.
Kyuhyun growled, shutting his eyes tight knowing that this would be one of his lover’s “drama”.

“Cho Kyuhyun!” Sungmin huffed as he saw that his lover was not listening to him. “Fuck! Can’t you take me seriously just for once?!”

Kyuhyun sighed as he saw that his lover was serious this time. Sungmin was rarely like this so he pulled his body up from his relaxed position and inched closer to his lover to leave soft kisses on the older’s neck. “Babe, I’m tired. Let’s just talk about this another time, okay?”

Sungmin immediately shivered, his mind growing hazy just by the simple action. He gripped tightly on the sheets as the younger continue to pepper the expanse of his neck with soft kisses. He hated how Kyuhyun know too well how to make him submit to his wants, but he already had enough, he didn’t want to fall in another of Kyuhyun’s traps.

He was about to protest and push Kyuhyun away but immediately stopped to give way for a strangled moan to escape his lips as Kyuhyun sucked his skin deeper, sliding his tongue out to leave wet smooches on the soft skin.

“Kyuuuuu-ahhh...”Sungmin moaned as Kyuhyun’s hand found its way to his flawless thighs, caressing it so gently towards his heaven that he felt the pleasure shaking every inch of his insides.

“You’re just stressed baby. Come on, let me make you feel good.” Kyuhyun whispered onto Sungmin’s neck as he continued to suck the flawless perfection, while his hands continued to tease the other’s gradually hardening erection.

“Stop. This is not what I want.” Sungmin muttered breathlessly as he gripped the sheets tighter, trying to catch the little sanity that he still had left as it threatened to slip away from his grasp.

“Isn’t it?” Kyuhyun asked as he stopped lavishing Sungmin’s neck and looked straight at Sungmin’s eyes.

“I...”Sungmin started. He wanted to say no, that for once, he wanted a decent talk with Kyuhyun. He wanted all his hardships to be heard, he wanted to tell Kyuhyun how much he had been hurting, he wanted to yell at him, hate him. But his mind seemed to turn hazy as Kyuhyun looked straight at him with that smirk on his face, his hand not ceasing from its sinful ministrations down his needy crotch.

“You?”Kyuhyun whispered, his hot breath ghosting over Sungmin’s lips as he looked at the tasty perfection back, then towards Sungmin’s eyes.

“I...”Sungmin shivered, knowing too well what Kyuhyun wanted. Kyuhyun wanted him to be the first one to give in, just like how it had always been. And that’s exactly what Sungmin wanted to change. He wanted to be strong, he wanted to show Kyuhyun that he could also reject him, but who was he kidding? His heart was so weak for this man that he felt himself slowly giving in. After a particularly hard squeeze on his member, he moaned loudly and threw away the entirety of his defences and sucked Kyuhyun’s lips with much fervor.

He felt Kyuhyun smirk into the kiss, but he didn’t care anymore. He had long since given in to the fact that he’ll never win in this game. For Kyuhyun, he had always been a willing servant, always more than ready to obey his master’s every word.

He let Kyuhyun lavish his lips, slapping their tongues in a hot messy fight; a battle wherein Sungmin would always admit defeat afterwards, letting Kyuhyun dominate him as the younger licked every cornerof his wet cavern.

They pulled apart from each other as they gasped for air. Kyuhyun tugged at Sungmin’s arm, guiding the older to sit on his lap, their hard erections that brushed together never failing to give that unbearable pleasure that made their hearts go wild.

Kyuhyun then let his body relax on the heap of sheets, that one look from him making Sungmin immediately know what his master wanted.
Kyuhyun closed his eyes, resting his head on his palms as Sungmin slowly pulled his pants down along with his boxers. Knowing Kyuhyun hated teasing, the older didn’t waste time and gripped the younger’s erect member before sucking its throbbing head. He slowly swallowed it whole, taking time to adjust to the length before bobbing his head to and fro, fast and deep, just like how Kyuhyun liked it.

He bobbed his head faster, squeezing the organ hard with his tiny lips as he felt Kyuhyun slowly reaching his climax. After one hard squeeze, Kyuhyun reached his climax and Sungmin opened his mouth wider, willingly accepting all of Kyuhyun’s seed.

Sungmin drunk all of his lover’s essence, relishing in the taste of Kyuhyun in his mouth.

He was woken from his trance when he felt Kyuhyun tugging his arms once again. He smiled, loving the sight of a whining Kyuhyun. He crouched down, giving the younger’s lips a sweet kiss before he rid himself of his clothes.

Once fully naked, he grabbed Kyuhyun’s member, pumping it with his fist before he adjusted himself on Kyuhyun’s lap and guided the hardening member inside his tight ass. He almost cried in pain as he felt his insides being split in half, but controlled himself, knowing Kyuhyun loved it raw. He gasped for air as Kyuhyun grabbed his waist and pushed all the way inside.

“Oh fuck!” Kyuhyun growled as he fully entered his wife’s tight ass. “Fuck, you feel so good baby.” He added, roaming his hands all over Sungmin’s flawless skin as the two adjusted at the tightness.
Sungmin smiled at the feel of Kyuhyun’s hand on his bare skin, the younger’s touch making him shiver in every way. He sighed as he felt the all too familiar pleasure in his nether regions, so he started lifting his ass and slammed it back in a hard thrust, squeezing Kyuhyun’s balls in the process.

“Yes, baby.” Kyuhyun moaned hard at the action, giving Sungmin more fuel as he rode the man beneath him fast and hard that it didn’t take long for the two of them to reach their release.

Sungmin collapsed beside Kyuhyun, panting hard as he tried to catch his breathe. He nuzzled his head on the younger’s neck before wrapping his hands on the other’s body.

“I love you, Kyuhyun.” Sungmin whispered as sleep slowly took over him, chuckling one last time, but not even shocked that he didn’t hear a reply. He gripped the younger man tighter as he fought the tear that had been threatening to escape from his eyes, surrendering his hopes of ever feeling loved, wondering why he chose to love Cho Kyuhyun of all people.

SEQUEL by ailaling1017 READ HERE .. thanks dear! :D :D

Donghae's Punishment

simbasheart — Tue, 28 Feb 2012 08:46:22 GMT

TITLE : Donghae's Punishment
length : One-Shot; 2,351 words
pairing/character : SiHae, KyuMin
genre : NONSENSE ;~;, Fail!Crack?
rating : PG-13 (Language & Implied...!)
summary : Gooodness what's this?! ><

SUNGMIN's PUNISHMENT // KYUHYUN's PUNISHMENT // SIWON'S PUNISHMENT

NO BETA.. because seriously this is nonsense, I've started this like june or july last year? and abandoned it because of lack of better ideas :((... then i just recently remembered that i saved it in yahoonotepad before i resigned at my previous work.. i already wrote more than 1000 words so it's a pity to not finish it ;~; so hence the nonsense ending.. well everything is nonsense actually so yeah... /hides ><

When Donghae helped Siwon, he thought that it was already punishment enough to see his best friend (“crush!” his heart screams which he harshly commanded to shut up afterwards), standing right in front of him, revealing all of his naked glory to his eyes. He had always seen the older guy's perfect abs, but to see what’s hidden waaay down that happy trail, that secluded heaven every person could just dream of, down to that little dangling perfection (man! he's even bigger than he imagined!.. not that he imagined himself sucking that cock way up until the peak of his throat, the length sliding easily to his mouth. His head bobbing to and fro as he lavish the tasty perfection…. uhump definitely not...)

He thought that that was already punishment enough as he felt himself losing all his blood in a second, but then he thought again as he sees an enrage magnae storming out of his room, in a murderous state.

"Who the heck helped Siwon?!?!'

Donghae gulped, a tinge of fear flashed through his eyes, and his body started to tremble as the magnae catch it. And as the younger man walked towards him with a mischievous grin on his face he knew he had been caught.

"Donghae??"

“Y- -yes?” Donghae asked as he felt himself cower from the younger’s gaze.

"Oh please babe, I don’t like that look, don't tell me you're planning to have another threesome, because I definitely won’t agree this time.” Sungmin scolded his lover, knowing too well that there are some evil schemes currently plotting on that freaking genius brain of his lover.

Tiny prick of needles suddenly attacked Donghae’s heart at the information, and a frown escaped his lips as he asked himself why the thought of the magnae and Sungmin doing it with Siwon pains his heart like this.

Tears started clouding his eyes, so he fight all his will to stop the tears from escaping, rolling his eyes here and there, hoping it would distract the tears away, but then his eyes met the magnae's gaze and he gulps as he see a knowing smirk on the others face.

"Oh... maybe a four-some would be loved. Don’t you agree with that Donghae-hyung?" Donghae gulped, not liking the way Kyuhyun looked at him as if bearing every inch of his soul, reading all of his secrets and hidden desires; and what the heck is with the sudden hyung?

And oh this still isn’t enough of a punishment! Looks like the stars really hated him as he felt Siwon suddenly hugging his back, an attempt to hide from that time seemed scary magnae, and of course his heart could've jumped in delight as every touch from the taller man always leaves his heart in a fluttering mess of goo but when the taller man is naked (that jacket he lend him earlier wasn’t really doing any good.. well he's so tall and could only cover a part of that delicious bode..) pressed against his back oh dhdjahdajsdhuehfedfjhdjj, he’s a man with desires! Enough said.

"Oh no need to worry, well your crazy if you think I would ever share My Sungmin again to anyone. This is all mine.” Sungmin yelped as Kyuhyun suddenly groped his ass, a tinge of red flashing trough his to-die for flawless face. "Plus I have better plans.” Kyuhyun smirked as he lightly lifted his lover and engulfed his Minnie's lips, making the man yelp and flail in an attempt to escape. But not even a minute has passed and he was already replying at the heated kiss, entirely submitting himself to the magnae, he just can’t resist his Kyuhyun like that.

The other two just gawked at the public display of affection of the kyumin couple as they watched them enter their shared room ( much to everyone's dismay, all of them had already been complaining to their manager for letting that two share a room, damn! they're too noisy! but for some reasons - the manager and Kyuhyun only knew, it’s pretty obvious as it shows how much submissive their manager is to Kyuhyun's demands - so that two have still been roommates for the past couple of years, giving the 11th floor occupants a pain in the head - isn’t it too obvious why Ryeowook - despite how much crowded the 12th floor dorm is compared to theirs - decided to move to the dorm upstairs, too much moaning, and cursing - breakfast, lunch, dinner... and oh midnight snack of course - made his poor little ears burn) doing hell whatever those horny bunnies always do.

*

"T-thanks hyung." Siwon muffled in a low voice, as he entered Donghae's room, now clad with the younger's t-shirt and jogging pants.

Donghae just smiled as he looked at the older, the man’s head bowed down low, obviously from too much shame. "It’s okay... that’s what friends are for right?"

"That’s what best friends are for." Siwon beamed as he reached for Donghae's hand, squeezing it a little tighter, the younger man’s heart suddenly launching in a magical symphony.

"Friends, best friends... hmmm"

The two men suddenly arched their heads up as they heard a voice interrupting their conversation. Donghae cursed (inwardly, he doesn’t want to have a bad record on Siwon's mind thank you). What the heck is the magnae doing in here?!

"But the other wants something more, while the other only wants what they have now, how tragic."

Donghae's eyes suddenly doubled in size, and looked at the magnae's eyes, pleading him to stop, he had always known that this love - like! – that he have for Siwon was one-sided, the guy was freaking straight for crying out loud!

Siwon just stared at his two dongsaengs, totally confused at the situation. "So .. Siwon hyung!.. have you enjoyed earlier?" Kyuhyun asked as he suddenly shoved Donghae and sat between the two. Donghae’s insides burn in irritation and all the more when the magnae’s hand, settled at Siwon's thigh, making blood bolt up to Siwon's hazy head. Kyuhyun started caressing his hand at the thin sheet of cloth that separates his candle-lit fingers to Siwon’s soft flesh, enjoying how Donghae's face burns up with jealousy.

“Man! This guy is too easy to read!” Kyuhyun thought, making it more the fun for him to play with the older man’s emotions. Well maybe he felt a pinch of guilt browse through his system, there's something in the back of his head trying to remember how his lover always scolds him about this, but then he can’t really remember the words, because oh life! Min is just soo effing hawt when he’s mad that he just wants to jump him right then and there, so he shrugged it off and continued on his ministrations.

"..because it seemed that you did." Kyuhyun smirked, his hand dangerously slipping near the middle of Siwon's thighs making the older squirm at the touch. "Want to try it again?"

The two was startled as Donghae suddenly bolted up and screamed.

Donghae’s eyes immediately doubled in size as he realized the impulsiveness and started to tense up as Kyuhyun and Siwon looked at him, waiting for his words. "You.. you can’t!"

"And why can’t I? May I please know why?" Kyuhyun asked, tilting his head on the side enjoying this way too much.

"Coz.. Coz.. You.. You said you don’t want to share Sungmin again right?"

"Well who said Sungmin would join. I’d love to have this baby all to myself."

Donghae just gaped like a fish out of water, not knowing what to retort, the magnae's just kidding.... right? But heck this heavy feeling in his heart just won’t go!

"Well .. Well.. Sungmin would be mad!"

"Why? He could have him when I’m finish."

"He’s not a toy Kyuhyun!" Donghae screamed not wanting how this is turning out to be, plus he could see how uncomfortable Siwon is and he doesn’t know why but he doesn’t like seeing the man like this.

"What’s with you hyung? Jealous aren’t we?" Kyuhyun muttered, pushing Donghae over the edge.

"I.. I’m not jealous okay! I’m just.. " Donghae trailed off as he looks at Siwon's eyes, those orbs that always entices him looking at him in question.

"You’re just what?"

"Fuck you!" Siwon's eyes doubled in size, too shocked at Donghae’s reaction. Oh damn! There goes his clean record.

*

Kyuhyun is pure evil! Pure evil indeed! Donghae repeated in his mind as he sees the young man flirting with his Siwon. Ever since that fated day, Kyuhyun was obviously flirting with Siwon more, and if he wasn’t too observant of the two he would just think it’s only for fanservice, but hell that’s impossible as he sees Kyuhyun always looking at him with that smirk of his as if loving how he crumbles a little more each time.

Donghae sighed, as he sat beside Sungmin who was pouting and glaring at his flirtatious boyfriend.

“Yah! Can you stop your boyfriend for being such a flirt?!” Donghae hissed.

“Eh? Why?” Sungmin asked as he looked at Donghae with that innocent (only he knows that it’s far from one ) sparkling eyes.

Donghae frozed, he can’t just say because he’s jealous. He’s sure Sungmin would tell it to Kyuhyun and the magnae would just definitely make his life more miserable. Jee.. seems that’s the magnae’s favourite hobby lately, other than fucking his boyfriend that is.

“Oh ofcouse I’m concerned about you. Everyone could see how much you’re hurting from all of this. He’s being inconsiderate of your feelings.” Donghae muttered with a big grin on his face.

“But who said I’m hurting?” Sungmin asked, wiping the grin off of Donghae’s face. “But! Aren’t you mad that your boyfriend is flirting blatantly with Siwon?!!” He asked, tsked he almost thought he would have a chance to stop these evil schemes of the magnae.

“Ah ofcourse not, make up sex is the best you know.” Sungmin grinned and then started to ignore Donghae as he averted his gaze to his lover who was looking (lusting in Donghae’s opinion) over him, and Donghae immediately went out of the room saving his poor eyes on what’s sure to happen next.

*

Kyuhyun had went a little too far this time, proposing to Siwon and man Donghae couldn’t deny that his heart crashed big-time as he saw Siwon accepting the flowers wholeheartedly.

“I give up! You win okay! Are you happy now!?” Donghae screamed at Kyuhyun who went towards him with a sly smirk on his face.

“Oh why? Are we playing a game?” Kyuhyun asked, feigning innocence.

“Shut up! I know too well that you know my feelings for Siwon! And now you’re torturing me, I give up okay.”

“I don’t think I understand.” Kyuhyun asked, still playing oblivious on the situation, but Donghae knows too well that this is just one of Kyuhyun’s evil schemes.

“Could you just please stop this. I admit it okay. I’m in love with Siwon! You win! I could never…”

“You love me?” Donghae frozed as he heard an all too familiar voice joining their conversation. He looked at Kyuhyun’s smirk and hell he’s sure that magnae knew that the man was there all along. Goodness he have been a good boy, why does he keep on falling on this magnae’s traps?!

“I..” Donghae stuttered, as he bowed his head low in an attempt to cover his blazing red face.

“You what?” Siwon asked softly.

Donghae lifted his head up as tears start to cloud his vision; he stared at Siwon’s face that’s looking expectantly at him. The older man’s gaze burns his heart that he found it hard to breathe.

Not knowing what to do, Donghae just opted to run from them. He kept on running and only stopped as he felt someone pulling his hand. He tilted his head and saw who it was and his heart stopped beating as he saw Siwon, panting hard.

“Jee you run too fast.” Siwon muttered.

Donghae stared at the older man, mouth hanged open as the he try to catch his breath, lips jutted down as if a tempting invitation for him to come nearer.

After some Leeteuk emoing, Heechul divaing, Yesung turtling, Shindong dieting, Sungmin kyuhyuning, Eunhyuk dancing, Ryeowook cooking, Kyuhyun sungmining…

The two sighed as they broke free from each other, a trail of saliva still connecting their swollen lips.

“Oh shisus that…”

“That?” Donghae asked still in dazed from the mind-blowing interaction.

“Mmmm.. looks like I need to need to feel it one more time just to be sure.” Siwon muttered breathlessly as he grabbed Donghae’s head and attached their hungry lips together. Donghae didn’t really how it started; blame the writer for erasing that it in his mind tsked she’s too lazy sorry, but hell who cares?! as all he could think of is DUH! HE’S KISSING CHOI FUCKING SIWON!

Who cares if he would be punished all over again if this is what he would have on the end? Oh guuh people should shut up now and just let him be.

So Donghae lavished Siwon’s lips, sucking every inch of the perfection, tasting pleasure and heaven as he grabbed the older man’s head closer to his head. He gasped as he felt something hard poking his own hard-on. Oh yes life is good.

*

Meanwhile, Kyuhyun smirked as he saw his hyungs making out. This ending is so freaking predictable, he sighed as he shake his head.

“Baby, I’m sleepy, let’s go home.” Kyuhyun smiled as he felt two familiar hands sneaking from his back, engulfing him in a warm comforting hug.

“Mmmm sure baby.” He sighed as he turned around and carry his lover who immediately cuddled on his chest. He nuzzled in his lover’s hair, sniffing the relaxing scent of the other’s shampoo. “I can’t promise you could sleep immediately though.” Kyuhyun smirked as he lavish his Sungmin’s lips. Oh but heck, no matter how much predictable what would happen next, gawd he must admit, he’ll never get tired of it.

A thin line between the Perfect and the Best 4/4

simbasheart — Sat, 18 Feb 2012 06:14:45 GMT

TITLE : A thin line between the Perfect and the Best 4/4
length : Short Story; 2,195 words
pairing/character : KyuMin, Broken!WonKyu
genre : drama, romance, fluff
rating : PG
summary : Siwon is the perfect boyfriend but no matter what, his heart still screams for that imperfect yet so strangely perfect one..

Sequel to WONT HOLD YOU BACK
PROLOGUE // ONE // TWO // THREE

No Beta.. I cant believe i managed to write both in one morning ;0; so sorry for the incoherency...
thanks to everyone who supported this! /hugs

Ever since Kyuhyun joined the group, Siwon already had his eyes glued towards the magnae. He didn’t know why but the quiet and mysterious aura that the shy young man exudes back then piques his interest in ways he can’t explain. And then he heard the man sing and he knew by then that his heart was captured.

He wanted so much to act upon his feelings and let the building love inside him be heard, but he stopped as he saw the undeniable romance springing between the man he admired and another person he adored and cared so much, Sungmin. He saw a certain happiness that the two only exudes when they’re together.

Kyuhyun, who used to be so quiet and unsure, started coming out from his shell, those hesitant smiles that he used to spew during awkward times started to become real and genuine ones.

Sungmin, who used to be so resigned to himself once the cameras stop rolling, those smiles he shows onscreen so different from the real ones, started changing, he started to see a glow in the man’s eyes that only sprouted when the magnae came in their lives.

He saw the great things that the two brought to each other. Most importantly, he saw how happy they we’re when they landed in each other’s arms, and Siwon wasn’t stupid to be a hindrance to such genuine and beautiful love.

But as he saw the miserable state of the magnae crying one day, he didn’t had the strength to control himself as he brought the young man’s body in his arms, setting a goal from that day on to never let this man cry again, to wash away all those sadness and pain he knows the magnae shouldn’t be feeling. He feel this sense in his heart to protect the young man from everything and he would be lying if he said he wasn’t elated when the younger let him inside his shield of glass.

He knew it was just another one of those drunken-mistakes, but he can’t help himself but respond as he felt Kyuhyun’s tasty lips into his, he knew how much thirsty he was for this that he didn’t had the courage to deny himself from its begging pleads. He wanted this so much, that no matter how much he doubted that that “I love you too” that the magnae replied to his confession was for his, he let his heart screamed in joy, hoping, hoping so much that it was just his crazy imagination that he heard a faint Sungmin in the end.

He had a strong inkling inside him that the only reason why Kyuhyun kissed him that morning was because of the pain that shoot in his eyes when he saw the magnae waking up with a horrified and regretful look on his face as he saw what happened between him and the older man. He also had a strong feeling that the only reason why Kyuhyun started to act lovingly towards him was because of gratitude. But he ignored all those feelings, hoping, hoping at least that the magnae could also love him. Why? Doesn’t he deserve to be loved as well? Can’t he have his own love-story too? Doesn’t he deserve to be happy?

He’s just human, he has a heart that wants to be acknowledged, that also feels pain. What? Does everyone think that just because he acts happy and content he can’t feel pain? Not just because he’s the “villain” in this story doesn’t mean he’s not hurting as much.

He was happy at the little attention and love the magnae gave him, but he’s not a fool to not feel that it was another man that’s occupying the man’s heart all along. He tried to ignore all of it, but as he saw how Kyuhyun’s slowly crumbling lately, all the more when he heard the conversation that the two had earlier, he knows he have to give up. He chuckled as he thought how much the readers of this love story must be hating on him right now, it hurts him because just like them he loves these two deeply, just as much as he loves each one of this fifteen-member group that had been a family to his.

A smile crept to his pained face as he knows what he needs to do, he wiped his tears as he stood up, ignoring the own weeping of his heart.

*

Sungmin was crying his heart out as he sat by the rooftop, the early morning air that hugs him, makes his heart calm as it coax him to let all the pain out. He was too caught up in his own sorrows that he only noticed the other man’s presence when it sat beside him, caressing his back in such a comforting way that he can’t stop himself from bawling all the more.

“I’m sorry.” Siwon whispered, his heart breaking at the sight of Sungmin like this.

“Why are you saying sorry? You haven’t done anything. If anyone should be saying sorry, it should be me. I’m so sorry Siwon. I should’ve controlled my feelings. I’m so sorry.” Sungmin cried, truly feeling bad, he wanted so much to blame the tall man for stealing Kyuhyun away from him, but he knows that Siwon didn’t really did so because he and Kyuhyun had been long over when Siwon stepped in the picture.

“That’s what I’m sorry for, that I haven’t done anything. I already knew that Kyuhyun still loves you, but I chose to ignore it and.. which brought us to this.” Siwon started, pausing a bit as he chokes from his tears. He looked at Sungmin’s confused eyes and it gave him the will to continue as he smiled at the small man. “You’re such a good soul Sungmin, and I know you never held any grudge against me even if you’ve been hurting all the while me and Kyuhyun we’re together. And I’m entirely grateful for that. But you know what? I never really stole Kyuhyun, because until now he and his heart still and would always belong to only you. He never really loved me Min, it had always been you.” Siwon sobbed as it dawned into him.

“Siwon don’t say that.” Sungmin muttered as he caressed the man’s back.

“Reality bites indeed, and I don’t want to fool myself anymore. Aren’t you tired of fooling yourself?” Siwon asked Sungmin who only replied with silence, but Siwon know too well to know what the young man wanted to say as he bowed his head down and avoided his gaze.

“Atleast now I’m happy because I know that two of the most wonderful people I love would finally have their happiness back.” Siwon stated, smiling as he closed his eyes, lavishing the warmth breeze of air that’s caressing his face as if telling him he made the right choice.

“Siwon, I...” Sungmin replied, not knowing what to say.

“Sssh. It’s okay Sungmin. Just promise me one thing. Just this one thing. Please?” Siwon pleaded at Sungmin who briskly nodded a yes, willing to do anything for the man.

“Please bring back his happiness.”

*

Sungmin wanted so much to grant Siwon’s wish right away and ran to Kyuhyun’s arms, but the moment he arrived from their dorm, he was immediately blocked by their furious manager.

“Lee Sungmin! Where have you been! You guys have filming for a talk-show in 2 hours! Go get shower and get dressed! You too Choi Siwon! You and Donghae have filming for Skip Beat!” Their manager screamed, too stressed out as he thinks of the multitude schedules these boys have.
Sungmin just sighed and complied, sadly pushing the reunion to later.

*

Sungmin could feel his heart breaking apart as he throw constant stares at the magnae who was sitting at the other side of the van. He could see how miserable the man was, and it breaks his heart that he doubted the other’s love for him for a minute. But now that the path had been clear, only waiting for him to cross the line, he doesn’t want to let another boulder come their way.

He just wished that he and Kyuhyun could have a moment alone; Although looks like the stars were against them as the moment they stepped inside the studio, make-up noonas started surrounding them, throwing them things to wear while going crazy to fix their styles and then after that, they we’re thrown off to stage without any more words. But looks like Sungmin thought wrong.

Million thoughts of him and Kyuhyun filled his mind that Sungmin wasn’t really paying attention to the interview, but one question directed to the man that’s gracing his thoughts suddenly pulled his attention.

“Among the members, who do you think is the best boyfriend?” The host asked to the suddenly tensed magnae. Kyuhyun’s heart started pumping out loud as it screams only one name and it even increased a thousand-folds as he saw Sungmin’s face as if waiting tensely for his answer. But a new-found courage seemed to grow inside him as he heard the fans screaming the name that his heart had been screaming all the while. And that smile that grew on Sungmin’s face as the small man looks at him with so much hope, definitely gave him the push so he smiled as he control the loud cheers of his heart as he say the name he knows his mouth would love to mutter.

“Sungmin”

That proud smile Sungmin gave and the loud cheering of the fans as if sharing their happiness was definitely worth it as he grins ear to ear from the elated happiness he feels in his heart. And if he thought he was already in cloud-9, he doesn’t know on what higher level of happiness it was called when he felt Sungmin’s arms, wrapping from his back, as if silently reciprocating his love and he needed to muster all the courage he has to not cry then on from the over-flowing happiness that filled him to the brim.

He wasn’t the only one as Sungmin pleaded his heart to stop from beating crazily but he knows he doesn’t really want to because it felt so freaking good! He never felt this alive as if a big thorn was pulled from his heart, enabling him to breathe love inside him and indeed it feels so wonderful.

It felt like hours of torture as the two wait for the taping to be finished, so they didn’t waste time and ignored the screams from their manager as they ran away from that place the second the director concluded the program.

They stopped as they reached a garden, feeling grateful that no one was there. And even though, they don’t think they could still control themselves as they engulf each other in a tight hug. As they cried identical tears of happiness, they know words weren’t needed as they felt the love that beamed so strong from each other. That wonderful feeling that was only present when the other was and yes indeed they don’t know why they have been so stubborn when it had been so clear all the time. Anyone could be perfect, but who needs perfect when Kyuhyun already have the best one all along.

*

Siwon smiled as he stares at the television screen knowing everything had finally fallen in to its right places but no matter how happy he was he can’t help but feel the pain at his empty heart.
“You shouldn’t frown it doesn’t look good on you.” Donghae muttered as he sits beside Siwon, stealing a sip from the taller man’s can of coke.
Siwon pouted at the action and immediately stole the can from Donghae’s grasp. “Yah! That’s mine!”

“And you should definitely not pout because hell that doesn’t look good on you much more than your expression earlier.” Donghae joked, smiling as the other scoffed at his words.

“Well.. well people think it’s cute you know!”

“Of course your fans would think it’s cute, pssh I think the sight of you vomiting would look good for them as well.”

“Yah! Is this a way to treat your heart-broken best-friend?!” Siwon scoffed at his so-called “best-friend”.

“Oh that! You definitely look good when you’re angry!” Donghae muttered as he pointed enthusiastically at his friend’s face.

“You’re crazy.” Siwon scoffed, immediately laughing at his friend’s childishness.

“Want some lollipop? You always give me one when I’m sick, and it made me feel a lot better you know. I hope it could also help.” Donghae offered shyly as he bowed his head down, his hand that’s been gripping the sweet stretched towards Siwon.

“I’d love that.” Siwon smiled as he un-wrapped the tooth-aching treat and suck on it. “Thanks.”

Donghae looked up as he stares at Siwon and his heart skip a beat as he saw Siwon’s dashing smile, now this, he thought is definitely the best look from the man.

“Thank you.” Siwon repeated, as he sighed, definitely feeling way much better and he doesn’t think it’s just because of the lollipop.

A thin line between the Perfect and the Best 3

simbasheart — Sat, 18 Feb 2012 02:51:02 GMT

TITLE : A thin line between the Perfect and the Best 3
length : Short Story;1,441 words
pairing/character : KyuMin, KyuWon
genre : angst, drama,
rating : PG-13
summary : Siwon is the perfect boyfriend but no matter what, his heart still screams for that imperfect yet so strangely perfect one..

Sequel to WONT HOLD YOU BACK
PROLOGUE // ONE // TWO

I honestly didn't know that anyone even remembered this XD but @Baby_KyuMin asked for it, so here u go dear! ^_^

Also dedicated to kyudreamer, I'm so sorry it took me (looks at last post... more than 6 months o.O) okay jeez i fail and this update is so short. I'll try to post the last chap asap... i hope >< /hides im so sorry >< (CLICK ON NEXT TO SEE LAST CHAP :) )

And incase anyone ask.. yes I said I'll stop it, but some people ofcourse wants the happy ending (who said this wud be a happy ending anyway? ;p /gets bricked haha jk XD).. So I'm sorry for those who agreed for me to stop this >< Well then I guess you could also just not continue reading it and let the last chap be the ending :D

No Beta.. so wrong grammar and me are yah,.. still trying to find one ><

Sungmin beamed as the sweet rays of sunshine hovers over his face down to his bare shoulders, the warmth leaving a satisfying feel for his elated heart.

He caressed his face at the soft pillow as images of last night flows trough his mind, the amazing sensation of Kyuhyun’s lips to his, that no doubt, still holds the same power over him, never failing to make him weak on the knees, and shamelessly begging for more. And the way the younger held him, it felt like before, those times where they we’re so in love with each other, and damn he knows that even hidden by insecurities and petty fights, that love had never really left them, it had always been there, just waiting to be acknowledged again, just waiting for their owners to finally find their paths together. Sungmin shivered from the amazing comfort, his heart wanting to weep from happiness as he felt it, although not by words, he had been with Kyuhyun for far too long to not know what those loving touches meant.

Kyuhyun, when they used to be together, had never been the affectionate type, so Sungmin had learned to read the younger’s every move. He just wished he had never let the younger go. They we’re so young with love back then, so oblivious and scared, but now that he’s this close to that heaven again, he wants to make it right.

He smiled as the strive to be a better man for Kyuhyun fueled inside him. He hurriedly stood up from his comfortable slumber, wanting to reach for that goal as he immediately reached for his discarded clothes. He frowned as he found the piece of cloth torn, it was his favorite shirt! But the thought of Kyuhyun being aggressive because of that want to be with him this bad, made his heart flutter in an unexplainable joy so he ignored the cloth with a big grin on his face as he went to his closet to look for a new one. It was definitely worth it, and he’s willing to lose a hundred more shirts if he’ll feel that same feeling from Kyuhyun all over again.

When he deemed himself presentable, he slowly walked to the magnae’s room, he was about to knock but stopped as he found the door slightly open. He smiled as he slowly widen the space of the door’s opening but stopped midway as he saw the sight that was unfolded to him.
The grin on his face suddenly dropped down to hell along with his heart, as he felt his body tremble with brewing tears. His dreams suddenly shuttering to pieces as his eyes glued at the magnae’s figure, naked inside Siwon’s equally naked form. The tall man’s arms engulfing the magnae’s body as if mocking him to whom Kyuhyun belongs to. His whole body continue trembling as he felt millions of knives stabbing his heart mercilessly. He fell down on the floor, his knees too weak as the undying pain in his heart eats him whole. It’s just too unbearable that he felt his heart dying slowly.

“Min?” Donghae asked as he saw the horrible state of his friend. “Are you okay?!” He immediately crouched down to help the small man but Sungmin just shook his head, unable to form any words from the tears that’s been flooding his heart. He immediately stood up to run to his room, wanting to run way from the pain. But the image was etched in his memory as if in need to kill him, and indeed it’s working as he felt his heart giving up the will to live as his tears continually stream from his tired eyes.

He looked at his bed, dry cum from their intimate moment last night could still be seen at the sheets, the faint smell of their sweat and lust still fills the air like it just happened minutes ago. But the dreams and hopes that that moment brought him we’re now crushed into mere illusions as he realized how much a fool he was. He was so stupid!

“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! STUPID!” Sungmin repeated, screaming it louder each time as he screams at himself, not believing how much a fool he had been. “You’re so stupid Lee Sungmin! How could you be so fucking stupid!” He cursed as he started bawling, the pain in his heart increasing a thousand folds. It hurts so much, too much.

*

“Donghae?” Kyuhyun asked as he saw the man by the door, he was woken up as he heard a faint sob and some rustling and he thought he saw Sungmin’s figure. He looked at Donghae for any answer and the look the man gave him made it clear for him. All the more as he looked at his and Siwon’s state

The older man immediately looked away, and Kyuhyun took this time as he immediately reached for his clothes and put it on, not even bothering to look if it’s inverted as he ran towards Donghae, locking the door as he reached outside.

Words weren’t needed as Donghae turned his gaze towards Sungmin’s room. And Kyuhyun already know what he had done. He slowly walked towards the room and was about to open it but stopped as he heard sobs coming from inside.

“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! STUPID! You’re so stupid Lee Sungmin! How could you be so fucking stupid!” Kyuhyun’s knees tremble as he felt the pain in the other’s voice.

“You’re not stupid Min. I am. I am the stupid one for causing you this pain. I am the stupid one for not telling you what I feel. I’m the stupid one here, not you, never you.” Kyuhyun whispered in his thoughts as he let his body slump on the floor, his own tears flooding from his face.

“I’m so sorry, forgive me.” He whispered as he kissed the door that had been separating them, wishing it would reach the man on the other side.

*

Kyuhyun didn’t know how long he stayed there, as the pain seemed to numb him, making his mind blank and empty. But he was woken up by his trance as he felt the door opening. He immediately stood up, startling the man in front of him.

His heart seemed to be punched by millions of needles as he saw Sungmin’s state, eyes bloody shut red, the usual liveliness on the other’s face, was as if stolen from him, leaving him on this miserable state.

It pained his heart to see the man it loved in this state that he found himself immediately engulfing the frail man’s body in his arms.

“Kyuhyun.” Sungmin croaked, the tears that he tried so hard to stop, wanting to escape from the border he planted inside him.

“I’m so sorry hyung. I’m so sorry.” Kyuhyun apologized, his hold on the younger’s body tightening as his heart crack when he felt the small man tremble from his touch.

“Please don’t.” Sungmin pleaded, as he attempted to push the man away, but his body’s too weak, not wanting to comply as it knows too well that this is what they need. But Sungmin scolded them, asking them if they really want to wallow in more pain that they’ll know they’ll be in once they yet again succumb in this sinfully tempting warmth. So it hesitantly complied, giving him atleast much strength to push the warmth away, immediately weeping in regret at the loss.

“Min.”

“We should stop this. We already learned to live without each other before this. I don’t think it would hurt to continue doing so.” Sungmin muttered as he muster all the courage to hide the scrunching pain in his heart before walking away but he was stopped as the magnae gripped tightly in his hand, and he wanted to curse his heart for believing the despair and want, the need that he felt by the touch.

“Min do you honestly believe that we’ve been living fine all this time?” Kyuhyun asked.

Sungmin wanted to scream no, he wanted to tell how much painful it was to continue living without Kyuhyun by his side. He wanted to scream how much empty it was, how much he longed for the magnae, how he wanted so much for his love to be known.

“Well we need to learn how to.” Sungmin muttered against his heart’s will, his heart trembling in pain as he walked away from its owner.

“But what if I don’t want to? What if I’m tired making myself believe that I don’t love you anymore? What if I don’t want to continue living without you? I’m so tired. My heart’s so tired.”

Eat Siwon

simbasheart — Fri, 10 Feb 2012 02:50:38 GMT

TITLE : Eat Siwon
length : One-Shot ; 1,794 words
pairing/characters : WonKyu
genre : PWP, Smut
rating : Nc-17
summary : It is Siwon’s birthday, that's a good enough excuse to act upon his lust.

Lol it's Siwon's birthday XD haha let this be,.. and gee I successfully wrote a WK Fic w.o my other bias... Siwon should be proud of me XD /weh! haha lol...
Ok lol.. i dunno wats dis... XD It's PWP and short so sorry ><

No Beta.. Me and Grammar Mistakes are Friends :*

Happy Birthday Wonnie! :* <3 <3 <3

Kyuhyun knows that he shouldn’t be having these feelings; he has a boyfriend for pete’s sake! But can he really blame himself? He admits he has been lusting over SJ’s resident hotty for quite a while now, well who wouldn’t get attracted by those wash-board abs and perfect body. He had actually been fighting it perfectly fine, well until now. He just came from an exhausting rehearsal for his musical and too tired, he slump his body at their comfy couch, his body aching too much that he’s too lazy to move towards his bedroom.

The magnae was about to doze off to sleep when he heard rustling, he tiredly opened his eyes and it immediately blew open as he see the man he had been fantasizing for weeks walking in the living room – naked. The body that had been haunting his dreams completely revealed in his eyes. Those perfectly sculptured abs, down to that healthy buddy, swinging in between the man’s long creamy thighs. A fucking tease!

Looks like the man had felt the hard stares thrown towards him because he tilted his head and he almost cursed as he saw the magnae looking straight at him. His eyes widen, his arms flailing in search of whatever to cover his body. “I’m sorry, .. I- no one was here earlier. I was too tired to go home , I thought I could crush in to your old room, and I don’t want to just to use your clothes, and I forgot to get a towel and since no one was here I thought I could just run back to the room and … “ The tall man’s words we’re suddenly cut-off as he felt a mouth against his own, sucking him hard that he felt like their mouths would mould as one. The kiss ended too soon for Siwon’s liking but nonetheless still left him speechless and breathe-less. “You talk too much.”

“Ah?” Siwon dumbly asked, still too dazed after the mind-blowing kiss. Kyuhyun chuckled at him, the man’s lovely voice not doing any good to his already too intoxicated mind. They grew silent, their bodies aching for the same thing, but they we’re both still sane to know that once they obey the silent pleads of their bodies, it would be complete chaos. But then a smirk appeared on Kyuhyun’s face, making Siwon’s member twitch. That only made Kyuhyun sure about his thoughts as he crouched down and hold Siwon’s throbbing length, the action making Siwon gasp, the itch to be touched too overwhelming that it felt so hell good to have even the slightest touch from the magnae.

“It’s your birthday right?” Kyuhyun whispered, his hot breathe touching Siwon’s hardening member.

“Ah?” Siwon replied, his mind still not leaving incoherency, but all the more pooling deeper as Kyuhyun fondled his member.

Kyuhyun just smirked in reply, knowing actions really are way better than words as he lounge down and engulf Siwon’s length. Its Siwon’s birthday, that's a good enough excuse to act upon his lust.

“Mmmm..” Kyuhyun moaned as his heart sighed, he had imagined this moment but he never thought that Siwon taste this fucking good!

“Oh fuck” Siwon breathed, his hand immediately finding its way to Kyuhyun’s hair as his knees wobble from the amazing pleasure. “Oh yes.”

Kyuhyun smiled trough Siwon;s member, loving the way Siwon succumbs to him, giving him the urge to suck the member faster and tighter, squeezing it hard and fast as he pump the member that he can’t reach with his mouth, who would’ve thought Siwon was this long!

Kyuhyun released the member as his lungs screams for oxygen, but not even a second last and he already find himself attacking the perfection yet again, it’s too good that he can’t waste even a milli-second to be away from it. He peppered the length with kisses as he reached Siwon’s balls; he kissed it before engulfing the balls in his mouth. His teeth tugging at the skin as he eats it whole-heartedly.

“Fuck Kyu I can’t” Siwon moaned as he feel his body falling down, the pleasure brimming too much that he feels his about to explode.

Kyuhyun felt it so he stopped his ministrations as he detached his lips from the tasty meat.

“I haven’t even started yet.” Kyuhyun playfully muttered, biting Siwon’s ears making the older sigh in pleasure, his mind growing insane as Kyuhyun let his sinful mouth trace the expanse of his neck, biting and sucking at the sensitive skin, until it reaches the man’s collar-bones biting hard at it, wanting to leave a mark that would remind them of this precious session.

A big grin crept from Kyuhyun’s face, loving the mark that he just left. He crouched down to leave one more kiss before exploring his mouth to more wonders, his lips traveling upwards until it reaches Siwon’s hanged mouth.

Kyuhyun stopped; their hard breathes mingling, their hearts beating one tune as they stare at each other with lust-filled eyes. As if asking for a silent permission. Kyuhyun looked at Siwon’s eyes then to his hanged-lips and as Siwon’s breathing grew harder, Kyuhyun threw away all of his inhibitions and attacked the temptress with so much force. He definitely didn’t regret his decision as he felt his mind explode from pleasure. They suck at each other’s lips, hands tightly gripped into each other’s head, wanting to feel more of that wonderful sensation.
Without even being asked, Kyuhyun immediately opened his mouth to let Siwon’s sleek tongue inside his hot cavern. He shivered as he felt his inside tickle at the intrusion, Siwon’s tongue dancing in a slow seducing sway as it lap every inch of Kyuhyun’s wetness.

“Siwon.” Kyuhyun gasped as Siwon detached their mouths. Hunger still not sated, Kyuhyun sucked all over Siwon’s chest, loving the feel of the defined perfection into his mouth.

“Kyu.” Siwon moaned breathlessly as he finds all his energy being sucked by Kyuhyun’s wonderful mouth. Knowing his knees would give up soon, he pushed his and Kyuhyun’s body towards the couch, their bodies entangling at the small space.

Noticing that Kyuhyun is still fully clothed, Siwon tugged at Kyuhyun’s shirt, the magnae immediately helping the other to remove all of his clothes. Every inch of him begging to be touched, wanting to feel the older’s strong hands. And Siwon didn’t made it hard for him as he didn’t even need to ask and Siwon’s already lavishing every bit of him, tongue, mouth and hands, all giving an intense sensation burning him in so many ways.

And as if the fire inside him wasn’t already too immense, it seemed like Siwon just poured more fuel on Kyuhyun’s body as he felt himself blaze from un-bearing heat as Siwon grabbed his hard erect member, pumping it hard and fast in an inhumane speed.

Then yes indeed, this man would never fail to amaze him more as Kyuhyun feel like he just entered heaven’s gate when Siwon licked his puckered hole, the older’s sleek tongue teasing the tight entrance. “Oh goodness! Shisus! Fuck!”

Knowing both of them couldn’t wait any longer, Siwon gave the hole one last kiss before sucking his fingers, that erotic sight making the magnae’s hole twitch from excitement. And not too long, Siwon’s fingers are already entering Kyuhyun’s tight cavern. “Fuck Kyu you’re so tight!” Siwon screamed as he starts to thrust his fingers hard, ramming Kyuhyun’s cavern. The intrusion earning screams of incoherent pleasure from the magnae.

Enjoying Kyuhyun’s lovely moans, Siwon curled his fingers inside the tightness, and he smiled as it made Kyuhyun’s moans louder and as the younger starts to thrust into his fingers, he knows that the magnae’s ready with the main course so he pumped his member, getting it ready in one hell of a ride. He hooked one of Kyuhyun’s legs to his shoulder, the limb immediately clinging to his body, while he starts to poke his hard member to Kyuhyun’s more than waiting hole.

“Just freaking put it in!” Kyuhyun scremed from frustration, and who is Siwon to deny him this? So the man obliged wholeheartedly and started entering the tight cavern.

“Oh gawd Kyuhyun.” Siwon exhaled as he feels his member being swallowed hard by the entrance. He then stopped as he saw Kyuhyun’s pained expression and immediately crouched down to give Kyuhyun a mesmerizing kiss, which effectively divert the magnae’s attention from the pain as he swallowed back Siwon’s mouth in a one hot messy battle.

“Please.” Kyuhyun whispered trough their open mouths, and Siwon didn’t have to be told twice as he rammed his hard member inside Kyuhyun’s tightness, his mouth attacking Kyuhyun’s lips to muffle all of his screams.

He stopped as he gave the younger a time to adjust at his huge length, and while waiting he took this time to leave kissed all over Kyuhyun;s face, down to his neck before inhaling the sweet intoxicating scent of the magnae. “Mmm.. “ Siwon sighed, nuzzling Kyuhyun’s neck while leaving sweet kisses at the soft skin. This effectively calmed the younger, smiling at the sweet affection; he tilted his head downward to invite Siwon in a sweet slow kiss. “I’m ready.”

Siwon smiled. Leaving one last peck on Kyuhyun’s tempting lips before thrusting out and slamming his member back in, making Kyuhyun scream out loud. Siwon repeated the process and shortly, Kyuhyun’s screams we’re replaces with screams of “More” and of pleasures, urging Siwon to thrust hard and fast, each time deeper, abusing Kyuhyun’s sweet spot.

Still wanting more, Kyuhyun pushed Siwon who was on top of him and reversed their position. Once he adjusted himself he lifted his ass up and thrust it back in one swift move, hitting Siwon’s balls hard, effectively making the older scream long and loud. The hotness spread all through them like a wild-fire as Kyuhyun started riding his horse, slamming his ass hard on Siwon’s balls.

Siwon’s mind grew hazy at the amazing pleasure and soon he found himself shooting all of his cum inside Kyuhyun’s hole, the magnae immediately following afterwards.

Too tired from the intense trip to heaven, Kyuhyun slumped his body on top of Siwon as they try to come down from their high.

After finally catching their breathes, Kyuhyun left a searing kiss on Siwon’s lips. “Happy Birthday.” Kyuhyun muttered as he stood up, making Siwon whine from the lost. Kyuhyun chuckled at this and looked back with a smirk. “It’s your real birthday in two months right?” Kyuhyun smirked wider before walking away.

Siwon smiled, for the first time thankful that his parents, for some reasons entered him in this brouhaha, giving him two birthdays to celebrate and hell he can’t wait for April to come.

Eat Kyuhyun

simbasheart — Fri, 03 Feb 2012 05:36:58 GMT

TITLE : Eat Kyuhyun
length : One-Shot ; 2,789 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : PWP, Smut
rating : Nc-17
summary : It’s Kyuhyun’s birthday. That’s a good excuse to jump him on the bed.

at ako na ang PWP ang bday fic for Kyu XD .. well it's Kyuhyun's birthday that's an excuse to write a fail PWP?? .. no? ><

Thanks to sneezessmiles for BETa-ing for me... ><

Dedicated to our lovely evil magnae CHO KYUHYUN! and to our own evil magnae XD ayeengie HAPPY BDAY!!!!:*

and oh blame sugoifapple for that weird tinny part in between der XD

A loud beating can be heard through the empty corridors of the five-star hotel where the boys we’re staying at as their aegyo member stood frozen outside the door of his room, his hand tightly gripped at the knob as he stares at his boyfriend.

They just came from a performance of Super Show 4 in Taiwan and in a few minutes, it would already be Kyuhyun’s birthday. They we’re originally planning to celebrate that night, but due to exhaustion, and the fact that they still need to have another performance tomorrow, they decided to have the celebration before the concert the next day.

And so Sungmin was about to go to their room to have his well-deserved rest, when the sight of Kyuhyun adorned with only a thin wife beater and boxers that perfectly reveals his pale snow-white skin, exposed to his now hungry eyes.

Sungmin might flirt freely with girls but in all actuality, Sungmin had always been the shy type when it comes to his relationship with Kyuhyun. It’s the younger that always initiate the “session” which he always gladly takes. But this, adding the fact that his boyfriend had indeed been a freaking tease this past few weeks. Seriously! What’s with that “fuck me” look on his “Catch me if you can” Photos?!

He growled as he felt himself getting hard just by imagining that sexy look. He looked at his hard-on and then to his boyfriend who was sleeping soundly at their bed. He’s contemplating on jerking off with just looking at those sexy thighs of Kyuhyun – coz hell he’s going to bet that one would actually cum just by looking at those luscious babies, but he was already beyond horny that he doesn’t think he could be sated with just jerking off. He wants the real thing. Well no, he needs it. Badly!

So he slowly closed the door as he advanced forward, licking his bottom lip, not caring about the drool that had been shamelessly dripping from his hanged mouth, his cock twitching just by the pleasurable sight.
It’s Kyuhyun’s birthday anyway. That’s a good excuse to jump him on the bed.

He straddled Kyuhyun’s body, making sure that he placed his hard crotch just above his lover’s. “Oh gawwd.”He moaned, loving how it feels to have their crotches pressed together.

He pushed his hips forward as a silent order for Kyuhyun to wake up. Kyuhyun’s eyes didn’t open but a smirk appeared on Sungmin’s face as he felt Kyuhyun’s hands slowly gripping his thighs moving it along as he grinds his hips to the elder’s. The feel of Kyuhyun’s slowly hardening member poking into Sungmin’s is like ecstasy, making the older dizzy with more lustful wants.

“Ugh” Kyuhyun growled as he let out one particular hard thrust upwards, his frustration clearly showing as he slid his cold palm inside his lover’s pants, caressing that sweet ass as they continue to grind into each other’s clothed members. “Who woke my horny bunny?”

Sungmin shook his head, too tired to explain as all that fills his mind that moment is the want to feel that perfect creation into his bare skin. So instead of answering, he bent his body forward burying his head into Kyuhyun’s inviting neck. He snuggle into it, loving the softness of Kyuhyun’s skin as he inhale that sweet scent adding to the overflowing want in his body to lavish the man beneath him.

He smiled as he felt a soft kiss on his forehead. He looked at Kyuhyun and he could feel his heart flying high as he saw not just lust in those eyes, because despite of the overbearing lust there’s still love always present in those deep orbs making Sungmin weep from happiness. Looks like Kyuhyun and him feel the same joy, as the magnae moved forward and attach his soft lips to Sungmin’s. The older moan as he feel Kyuhyun suck at his lips, the younger’s slick tongue entering inside his waiting mouth, the action making his mind blank from pleasure. After relishing the freaking wonders that Kyuhyun’s tongue could do, Sungmin made his own moves and swipe his tongue out to lick Kyuhyun’s own tongue. He shiver as Kyuhyun played along, slapping his tongue to his, lapping it like an obedient dog, before sliding it in top of his tongue and slowly entering his wet cavern, marking every inch of his mouth.

Sungmin broke from the play as hefound it hard to breathe from too much pleasure, growing terribly insane just by Kyuhyun’s tongue. He saw Kyuhyun smirked knowing how much that little organ of his affects his lover, so Sungmin went forward and bit the tease for punishment. Kyuhyun growled at the pain but then just chuckled and swiped his tongue out. Sungmin somehow grew weary when he saw a trickle of blood but it was quickly changed when Kyuhyun brought his finger to swipe the blood on his tongue. His candle like finger slowly gathering the blood before he put it whole into his mouth, sucking it with so much fervour. Sungmin could feel his heart beat starts to increase as Kyuhyun moan with his finger still inside his mouth his head bobbing forward to suck the delicious thing. Kyuhyun looked at his lover straight in the eyes as he continued to suck his finger as if teasing him knowing he’ll break down anytime soon. Sungmin wanted to think about his pride but who cares with pride when having it means not having to fuck this man in front of him, and man, he’ll gladly choose fucking Kyuhyun than thinking of damn pride anytime of the day. So without any more thinking, he snatched Kyuhyun’s hand and licks the finger that was previously in Kyuhyun’s mouth. He could taste Kyuhyun’s saliva making him moan from the addictive taste, a taste he’ll definitely won’t grew tired of, so he suck the finger hard, squeezing every bit of it. Wanting to have more of that addicting taste he put all of Kyuhyun’s finger in his mouth sucking all of it in before releasing it with a loud pop but he don’t want to stop so he suck each of those lovely fingers from the pinky to the thumb before sliding his tongue on Kyuhyun’s hand way up to his bare arms until he reach the other’s smooth white neck, so fucking tempting as if wanting to be eaten whole, so he did just that and bit Kyuhyun’s neck. “Ughh Min.” Kyuhyun moaned and his heart flutters in joy as Kyuhyun stretched his head at the side, giving his lover more access to his lovely treasure.
He let his fingers trail the smooth expanse of Kyuhyun’s skin, loving its softness. He caressed the pale white perfection, thinking how lucky he was to be the only one who could touch that perfection like this. He knows how people fantasize about his boyfriend, and the thought that only he has the privilege to actually have a piece of this, makes his heart glow from pleasure. He could feel his member enjoying the feeling, so wanting to give more; he replaced his fingers with his tongue. He moaned as he have a taste of that lovely skin, the taste so mind-blowing that he can’t help but swipe his tongue at the length of Kyuhyun’s neck, licking it like a very delicious meal, and hell indeed it is. He could feel Kyuhyun shiver at the action, his shiver coursing through Sungmin’s own veins, sending waves of electricity in every part of his body. His moans grew louder in Kyuhyun’s neck smiling as Kyuhyun pushed his head deeper on his mouth so Sungmin gave him more pleasure as he started sucking the lovely piece, giving small bites from time to time but putting a small kiss after to assure that all he’s giving Kyuhyun is pleasure.

His cock shivered as he feel Kyuhyun shudder the moment he travelled his hand inside the magnae’s thin wife beater, his hands roaming to that lovely chest. Another treasure that only he have the privilege to lavish, so wanting to make full of that benefits, he slid Kyuhyun’s top and threw it to wherever.

“Man you’re so hot I want to eat you right now.”

“I know you want it, just fucking do it.” Kyuhyun growled, actuating with a hard thrust upward. Sungmin shivered with the pleasure shooting trough his vein with the action. Feeling his whole body steam from the blazing heat, he crouched forward to suck on the inviting skin. Sucking just anywhere his lips would take him as he trail his tongue all around Kyuhyun’s chest before he reached his hard erect nipples. Sungmin smirked as he pinch the sensitive nub, loving as Kyuhyun cry from pleasure. “Shit” Kyuhyun cursed urging the older to lean forward and take the erect nub in his hungry mouth, sucking it with much want. He stopped as he feel Kyuhyun tug on his left arm so he lifted his head up, thin saliva still connecting the tempting nipple to his lips.

“Goodness you’re so fucking sexy!” Kyuhyun screamed. Sungmin unconsciously closed his eyes as he feel his sexy lover licked the saliva that had dripped to his neck, all the way up to his parted lips, before swapping his tongue inside Sungmin’s mouth and ending the slow mesmerizing dance with a deep kiss.

He then tugged Sungmin’s left hand again before leading it to his left erect nipple. “My other baby’s jealous” Sungmin chuckled at the statement. Getting the message, he gladly obeyed and started sucking Kyuhyun’s left nipple, making sure that the other is having the same attention as he played with the right one with his skilful hands.
Sungmin lap the erect nub before going back to the right one, sucking it before letting his lips roam around Kyuhyun’s perfection. He moved upwards, sucking at Kyuhyun’s collar bone, making sure to leave a mark, marking Cho Kyuhyun as his own before leaving a trail of kisses towards his shoulder pad and going down to his armpits. He stopped as he inhaled the sweet scent of Kyuhyun’s soap, pushing Kyuhyun’s shoulder higher to give him more access at the inviting scent.

“Mmmm you smell so good babe.” He muttered as he nuzzled Kyuhyun’s armpit. He bit his lower lip as a sudden urge suddenly rushed inside him. He moved away and stared at the temptress as if calling him, and knowing he could never deny those calls, he found himself darting his tongue out to lick the sexy skin.

“Fuck Min what are you doing?! Min!”Kyuhyun moaned as he feels the pleasure prick towards his arms to his heart that had been overbearing with lust. “Not there.”

“Mmm.. why? I love every bit of you. Everything about you is perfect.” Sungmin muttered, leaving soft kisses on Kyuhyun’s armpit with every word.

After peppering the skin with soft kisses, Sungmin nuzzled his head in it before sighing in relief. “I love you.” A soft smile dash into Kyuhyun’s lips as he hear his lover whisper those three words, so he slowly grabbed Sungmin’s face and answered the older man with a loving kiss, loving the way their lips mould so perfectly with each other. Sungmin sucked back into his lover’s lips as he straddled on top of the magnae, loving how Kyuhyun gripped into his thighs so possessively. Sungmin detach their lips, smiling as Kyuhyun followed it as if magnets that can’t be away from each other.

Sungmin gave him one more peck before he gently pushed Kyuhyun to lie down. The magnae was about to protest but it died down as Sungmin slowly strip his top away, the lovely sight in his front, enough to leave him speechless.

Sungmin then followed with discarding his pants, sighing as he felt his hard erect member freed from the tight grasp of his pants. He smirked as he saw Kyuhyun’s mouth water as the magnae’s eyes directs to his throbbing cock that’s now standing high and proud. Wanting Kyuhyun’s little baby to receive the same attention, he crouched down and let his tongue graze over Kyuhyun’s evident bulge on his boxer.

“Ohh yes.” Kyuhyun gasped, urging Sungmin to taste the real thing, so he swiftly pulled Kyuhyun’s boxers down, and didn’t waste any time to devour the huge aching perfection that sprang in front of him. He wrapped the thick length in his hand, pumping it slowly as he admiringly eye the member, his eyes glinting in lust and admiration at his lover’s amazing length. He grazed his finger at the tip of Kyuhyun’s member, smearing the pre-cum that’s pooling in the tip.

“Min!” Kyuhyun growled. Obviously frustrated and patience wearing thin.
But Sungmin wanted to take more time to admire the lovely perfection so he ignored Kyuhyun’s whines and caress the length with his cheeks, loving how the hard erection pulsates through his soft skin. He gently slide it through his face, loving how the pre-cum slides into the smoothness of his cheeks, as he slowly slide the member until it reaches his lips. He swirled the tip of the length at his closed lips before sighing from pleasure and slowly putting the length inside his mouth, immediately adjusting to the size and bobbing his head to and fro, taking it deeper with each ride.

“Ohhhhhh Fuck!” Kyuhyun shamelessly cursed as he can’t control himself and start to thrust his hips inside his lover’s mouth. Sungmin bobbed his head, joining his lover’s thrust, already used at the intrusion. He tightened his lips as he suck the large length of his lover, each time faster that it made Kyuhyun insane that his bottle burst as he shoot all his cum inside his lover’s mouth that hungrily took all of it.
The euphoria was too intense that Kyuhyun needs to let it out so he grab his lover, pushing all of it in one hot kiss, their mouths sucking each other in an unorganized messy kiss. They pulled from each other as they try to catch their breaths, eyes that are bearing with more lust attached to each other in a mutual agreement.

Words weren’t needed to know what they want as Sungmin lied his body down, immediately slinging one of his feet on Kyuhyun’s shoulder as his lover went on top of him.

Sungmin sighed as he felt Kyuhyun inserting one finger inside his tight ass, it wasn’t enough but he knows he needs to be patient because any minute now he’ll be getting his much awaited gift. He smiled as he think how it’s supposed to be Kyuhyun’s birthday, but the magnae never fails to give him more pleasure every single day, he just hopes he’s doing the same to the other.

He was too immersed to his thoughts that he let out a surprised strangled moan when Kyuhyun rammed his cock inside his ass.

“Oh fuck Min you feel so good! Ohh yeah..” Kyuhyun moaned as he rammed his cock in and out of Sungmin’s perfect tightness. Sungmin smiled as that seemed to answer his question earlier so he made sure to give his all as he thrust his hips towards Kyuhyun’s, moaning out loud as he feel his pleasure peak being hit simultaneously.

“Oh Kyuhyun I cant..Ahh… fuck!” Sungmin cried as the pleasure overflows inside him that he find himself unable to even form any incoherency as he slump his body down and let Kyuhyun abuse his tight hole. After one particular hard thrust the two found themselves shooting all of their cums they reached the peak of their pleasure.

Kyuhyun bring his now limp member out from Sungmin’s ass, his cum flowing from the hole. The younger crouched down to swirl the cum with his finger, putting it inside and then out as he admire Sungmin’s throbbing hole. He peppered it with soft kisses before going up and does the same with Sungmin’s lips. “I love you baby.”

“Mmm.. I love you too.” Sungmin replied, letting his body be engulfed by Kyuhyun’s arms.

“Happy Birthday. I’m so sorry I can’t give you a better present.” Sungmin whispered as he kiss Kyuhyun’s bare chest.

“Shouldn’t you already know by now that you’re the best present I could’ve ever wished for? Ever since you became mine, I never really wished for anything else.

“Really?”Sungmin asked as he looked at his lover.
“Well maybe that we could be together forever.” Kyuhyun replied with a smile, leaving one deep kiss on Sungmin’s lips before continuing. “You could give me that right?”

Sungmin chuckled at his adorable lover as he caresses the other’s cheeks before pulling the younger in a longer kiss.

“That you don’t even have to ask.”

Drowning

simbasheart — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 09:48:22 GMT

TITLE : Drowning
length : One-Shot ; 1,182 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : drama,angst, nonesense
rating : PG-13
summary : He was the one who decided their fate, there’s no turning back now

i have noo idea what this is.. wrote this in one go, no beta, dont wanna reread it, my head hurts and im sleepy.. so i think writing this nonesense on this state is a bad idea? ><

Their tongues swirled together, as they mould their mouths into one, not wanting to break free from the deep union as they squeeze every bit of pleasure from each other’s mouth. They part from each other for a second as they try to give air from their burning lungs, but only to go back to each other’s mouth the next second, the bitterness of the cigar, still fresh from their lips matched with the sweetness of pleasure, all too inhumanely addicting it’s impossible to let go. They grip into each other’s head, in an act to push their heads deeper than possible; they want to take more from that biting pleasure, licking their bodies in a sensual whisper.

The older man’s hands slowly crept its way inside the younger’s shirt, making the latter gasp from the icy touch on his burning skin. The older chuckled at the action as he attach his sinful lips to the younger’s neck, the vibration of his laughter sending the younger in a mindless state of euphoria. A loud slurp can be heard as the older suck the younger’s neck deep and hard, the red purplish mark standing out on the younger’s tasty pale skin. This only urged the older to leave more of those marks, loving the sense of knowing that he owns this man that millions had been dying to have. He slowly roams his hand in the younger’s smooth chest, loving the erotic moans that’s slipping from the younger’s delicious lips.

He was about to rip the younger’s shirt that has been hindering him to explore further to the younger’s treasure, but the action died down from their thoughts as they heard rustling towards the door. The younger immediately scurried towards his room but was stopped as his head was turned in a splash, the time seems to stop as he feel the older’s lips in to his. His heart stopping in beat as the thought of the members seeing them like this scared him but at the same time, doubled the excitement swirling inside of him. He was about to kiss back, when the older detach their lips just in time as the main door opens, revealing a chatting Sungmin and Ryeowook.

“Jung Hoon hyung! What are you doing here?” Ryeowook asked.

“Nothing, just keeping the magnae in company.” Jung Hoon answered, throwing a mischievous glance in the said man which passed the eternal magnae’s eyes. But it wasn’t missed by the watching eyes of Sungmin who clearly saw how Kyuhyun shy away from the look, his heart prickling at the all too obvious actions.

“Well I’m going home. I’m so sleepy! Coming hyung?” Ryeowook muttered, oblivious of the things happening.

“Sure,” Jung Hoon muttered as he slowly walked towards the door but stopped just before he could close it and then turned around “Goodnight Kyuhyun.” He added, voice laced with smooth velvet, making Kyuhyun shiver at the simple phrase. “G-goo goodnight hyung.” Kyuhyun stuttered.
Kyuhyun thought he could already breathe as the other who never fails to make D’ genius Cho Kyuhyun insane and senseless, left the room, but he thought wrong as he was then met by Sungmin’s knowing look.

“What’s with that look hyung?” Kyuhyun asked, raising an eyebrow, not liking the look the other man’s giving him.

“You can’t really hide it forever you know.” Sungmin simply stated but Kyuhyun ignored it and attempted to walk away but Sungmin grabbed his shoulder stopping him. “I’m talking to you! And jeez did you just smoke?!” Sungmin asked as the strong disgusting smell stench all over Kyuhyun’s form.

“It’s none of your business.” Kyuhyun spat back.

“What do you mean it’s none of my business?! I’m your hyung! I care for you of course it’s my business on what you do to your life!”

“Care?” Kyuhyun mocked, laughing at the word. “I believe we already stopped whatever emotions or connection would attach us since we broke up. Wait no, since You broke up with me. And now you’re going all concern because you care for me?! What a fucking bullshit that is! Damn this!”

Sungmin flinched, not used to hear those profanities coming out from Kyuhyun’s mouth. He bowed his head low, wanting to explain, there’s too many words that he wanted to tell the magnae but he don’t know where to start. He then grew weary as he saw Kyuhyun grabbing a familiar pack from his pocket, Kyuhyun’s candle-lit fingers slyly cradling the thin deadly stick like a pro, and his other hand rushing to bring his silver lighter towards it. It wasn’t Kyuhyun’s intention to do this in front of Sungmin but he was way beyond frustrated that he needs something to calm him, which he could only get from the powerful item. He was about to bring the now lit stick on his trembling lips but it was slapped away by Sungmin making him frustrated.

“What was that for!?”

“What do you mean what was that for?! Are you crazy!?!” Sungmin asked back, forcefully grabbing the pack of cigar on Kyuhyun’s hand, Kyuhyun gripped it tighter not letting the older take away his precious friend from him to the point that he blindly pushed the older harshly towards the side table, Sungmin’s small frame, crashing at the hard surface.

Kyuhyun flinched as he realize what he had done, but it wasn’t the physical pain that he caused the older that made his heart weak, it was those teary orbs that looked at him, full of pain and agony, crumpling his heart in a tight grip. But before guilt enters him, he immediately shielded it away, closing the door that he made when the older broke up with him. He convinced himself that the older deserved it, the older crushed his heart when he had gave him his all. He deserved it, it was Sungmin’s fault why he turned into this so he can’t be sorry now, Sungmin brought them to this. So he turned back, not wanting to deal with this.

“I never wanted to hurt you.” Sungmin whispered, making Kyuhyun stop from his steps.

“But you did. You did when you decided to choose what the management wants over me.” Kyuhyun muttered, bitterness clear on his voice.

“I’m sorry, I’m too weak, I’m so sorry. I’m really sorry” Sungmin replied, guilt and regret eating him whole.

“Don’t you think it’s too late for that? Nothing would change what happened now. It’s your decision that brought us here.” Kyuhyun ended as he completely walked away, leaving the pained form of the man that once occupied his heart wholly, and he chuckled as he repeated the sentence in his mind, because damn be told but he knows that the man still is it’s one and only occupant.

But it’s true that he was the one who decided their fate, there’s no turning back now. He wiped the lone tear that managed to escape his eyes as he grabbed his phone, slowly bringing the device in his ear as he hear the phone rings. “Jung Hoon hyung. I need you.”

*

first of all, i ship Kyuhyun-Prince Manager.. and i started shipping them when i saw this last year, http://a8.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/s720x720/422540_313454315368210_150980631615580_954060_1993953640_n.jpg I somehow bump to this again today and I remember wanting to write this story, and not wanting to lose it again, i wrote it in one go, it came out completely diff thou ><... amazing fanart is by @rixal_ she's osomm

Of Coffee, Wine and that Four Letter Word

simbasheart — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 09:44:28 GMT

TITLE : Of Coffee, Wine and that Four Letter Word
length : One-Shot ; 4,134 WORDS
pairing/characters : KyuMin, Ninja!SiHae
genre : drama,romance
rating : PG
summary : Love and Sungmin are two words that could never be together, would someone like Kyuhyun entering Sungmin's life change this?

Request by sneezessmiles , im so sorry if this took forever! this is the only thing that my tiny mind came up with >< (and sorry for d major changes :D - - atleast d necklace is still der?? ><)

and i therefore conclude that i should stick with writing none-sense crack and smut, i fail at this big time ><

and ofcourse thank you sooooo much to ailaling1017 for the beta!... atleast it's more "readable" now XD .. Thank u soo much!

“Do you think Siwon would really love what I’m wearing? Isn’t it awkward? What if I look bad in it?” Donghae sputters as he eyes himself in the mirror, his heart becoming more tense as the realization of finally having a date with his long time crush sinks into him.

“Oh yeah I’m sure he’ll definitely back out once he saw you in that.” Sungmin, Donghae’s brother, replies – teasing the younger.

“You’re just jealous because you don’t have a boyfriend.” Donghae playfully teases back.

“Oh as if. Those boys and girls? Whatever. They are just pains on the ass. I’m living perfectly fine by myself, thank you very much.”

“But Sungmin, seriously, why won’t you find someone whom you could settle with? You shouldn’t just exhaust yourself with managing this resort; you should get a life and enjoy yourself.” Mrs. Lee, Sungmin’s grandmother, asks as she seats by the balcony,enjoying watching her two angels.

“Well I enjoy working at the resort.”

“Sungmin dear, you know that’s not what I meant.”

“Really Halmoni, just because I don’t have a lover doesn’t mean my life would be incomplete.”

“But-“

“Halmoni!”

Sungmin’s grandmother gives a resigned sigh, knowing better than to pursue the issue further. Ever since he was young, Sungmin had already erased all possibilities of love in his life. He grew up witnessing his mother and father engage in constant fights, which eventually led to his father’s departure. He could vividly remember how her mother sobbed every night until that one fateful night when she realized that their father, her husband, had already left them for good. This brought too much pain to his mother’s heart that she ended up killing herself. The frail mind of Sungmin who was just 10 years old at the time had absorbed all of the pain and heartaches brought about by their family’s situation. He learned to despise the thought of love and this stuck with him even as he grew old. He didn’t believe in love, knowing that love was the one responsible for killing his mother. The reason why he and his brother Donghae had to grow up without their parents by their side.

Mrs. Lee knows that her grandsons were thankful that she was there to take care of them until Sungmin was already off age to handle the resort that their family had left them. Yet, she knows that deep inside, there’s still this loneliness and longing for the love only their parents could have had given them. The love they hadn’t had the chance to have.

“Halmoni, are you okay?” Sungmin taps the old woman’s shoulder gently.

Sungmin’s grandmother just smiled, she just knows that there’s still hope, somehow.

*

“Sungmin dear, come here.” Mrs. Lee calls Sungmin, coaxing the young man to sit by her side.

Sungmin obeys and slowly walks towards the old woman.

“I just want to show you something.” Mrs. Lee says as she scrambles over her box, beaming as she finds what she’s looking for. She then shows it to Sungmin, who looks at the item cautiously.
“What is this? A necklace?” Sungmin asks. “Isn’t this for a girl?” He adds as he scrutinizes the pearl pendant.

“It’s a love pearl. They say that if you wish for something with this necklace, it would come true.”

Sungmin hesitantly takes the necklace, eyeing the piece in his hands.

“Stories tell that there was once a couple of people who were brought together by fate. They were so in love, however, it was also fate that pushed them apart. The younger man was so depressed that he neglected his health. He then found this necklace and wished night and day to finally be with the man he loved. The younger man died in the end, but I’m sure he’s already happy wherever he is now, because his wish was finally granted.”

“Why are you telling me this?” Sungmin asks, confused at the sudden randomness.

“I’m telling you this because I don’t want you to lose hope. Love is one of the most beautiful feelings in this world, it might bring you pain and heartaches, but I’m telling you, once you allow yourself to love, you’ll know how worth the pain is for the experience of that wonderful feeling.”

“I don’t know... I can’t…” Sungmin starts, giving the necklace back, but Mrs. Lee hushes him.

“Just give love a chance, and I assure you, you’ll never regret it.” She says as she gently pushes the pearl back into her grandchild’s hand. She didn’t let the younger protest as she abruptly stands up, leaving the younger in his own thoughts.

*

Sungmin stood up after a few minutes, his mind whirling with images from his childhood.

Love

He scoffed. For him, this word is nothing but imaginary. People just bring too much meaning on this certain feeling and deem it as love. They fall too much on this make-shift heaven, only to end up crashing in hell as their sunshine fades away, to be replaced by storms. That’s what love has always been – a pain.

Aside from his parents, he had friends, friends who were so in-love this minute, and crying in pain in the next. It had always been like that, so how can people make him believe that this thing called “love” actually exists?

Sungmin rolls his eyes, thinking why he was even wasting precious time on such meaningless thoughts. So, he stood up to leave the area but as he turns around, he suddenly bumps into a tall man, making the necklace fall from his hand.

*

Only the loud clang of the necklace as it reaches the floor could be heard as time seems to stop as the two figures looks at each other. They could feel the identical beating of their hearts as they stare at each other’s eyes, as if an invisible force is pulling them towards the other.

“Sungmin! Are you okay?!” Donghae comes rushing to his brother immediately after he saw what happened.

Sungmin suddenly wakes up from his reveries when he hears his name, his eyes immediately shooting up when he realizes he is straddling the other man’s body. He hastily stands up, bowing down to apologize.

“No, it’s okay. It’s my fault.” The man replies.

Sungmin blinks, his body shivering at the sweet melody of the other’s voice, his heart thumping in a way he had never felt before.

“Hyung, are you okay?” Donghae asks his brother worriedly.

“Yeah, I’m okay.” Sungmin replies as he tries to calm the abnormal flips of his heart.

“This is yours, right?”

“W-what?” Sungmin splutters, looking up at the sound of the other’s voice.

“I mean, this is yours right?” The other man repeated.

“Oh y-yeah.”Sungmin replies sheepishly.

“Here, it’s beautiful. But I’m sure it would be more beautiful when you’re wearing it.”

Sungmin blushes a deep shade of red as the words repeat themselves in his mind.

“T-thank you.” He manages to reply as he reaches out his hand to the other man, stretching out his palms to receive the necklace. As their hands brush together, they could feel a light glowing from their hearts to the other, making them shiver at the strange feeling.

“And-“ The other man was about to say something but it was suddenly interrupted as his phone rings. “I’m sorry, I need to take this.” He adds and gives a sheepish grin as he looks at Sungmin and his phone, as if wanting to say something more. The voice of a famous male group Sungmin could remember his grandmother raving about blasted louder as the man’s phone keeps on ringing. The stranger, not wanting to disturb people, answers the call but immediately hangs up, mouthing something to Sungmin, eliciting a rare smile from his face. “See you around.”

When the other man said that, Sungmin didn’t really think that he’ll see the man evr again. Yes, their resort wasn’t that big, but it wasn’t small either. There’s still a huge percentage of chance that they won’t see each other. Nevertheless, fate had taken its course and they actually found themselves bumping, yet again, with each other. This time, in one of the nearby cafes:“Vitamina”, Sungmin’s favourite, which is inside their resort’s premises.

“Looks like were fated to bump into each other in such random moments, aren’t we?” The other man sheepishly chuckles as he sees the beauty that he is crossing path with yet again.

“Well, there’s no such thing as fate, either it’s just coincidence or both of us are just really careless people who should learn how to focus more so we won’t disturb other people.”

The man’s grin turned into a curious stare, not knowing how to react to the other’s words.

“But don’t you think it’s great that there’s such a thing that could bring two people together in such unexpected times and perhaps, bind the two without them knowing it, right?”

Sungmin snickers at this, amazed at the man’s dazed expression as he states his belief of fate with so much conviction.

“You’re one of them, aren’t you?” The young boy looked at Sungmin, confused as to what he meant.

“Those people who let themselves be blinded by love. They’re so in love with the thought of having their own perfect little world where everything revolves around that illusion, but once the mischievous mask of love starts to peel up, showing it’s dark side, they’ll realize that love isn’t that perfect after all, but not before being crushed and killed by their own make-shift heaven called love.”

“Wow, why hold so much hatred over love? Did someone break your heart so badly that you can’t even believe in love anymore?”

“I never had a lover before, and I’m not open to having one.”

“How could you speak so freely about love as if you know it so well, when you haven’t even experienced it yet?”Kyuhyun asks in disbelief.

“I don’t need to experience it to know what it is. I see people around me being fooled by this. I’m not that crazy to actually follow their footsteps.”Sungmin reasons.

“You’re interesting.” The other man chuckles. Sungmin raises an eyebrow at the other man’s sudden reply.

“This makes me hungrier. Since we’re already here, want to eat together? Well I mean, I hope you don’t share the same sentiments you have about love in friendship?”

Sungmin chuckles at this, deeming the other guy as crazy. “Lee Sungmin.” He mutters as he stretches his hand out for a hand-shake but immediately drops it back down when the other man just replies with a huge grin, which he refuses to admit, affects him more than it should. “You’re crazy.”

“Cho Kyuhyun.” The other man, Kyuhyun,smiles as he introduces himself, lifting his hand this time, a huge grin still plastered on his face and Sungmin had to think twice as he felt a jolt on his skin as their hands meet for the hand-shake, afraid of what that spark entails.
But that fear was swiftly pushed to the bin as he finally started to get to know Kyuhyun. He didn’t know why, maybe it was because of the other man’s persistence, or the thing the younger calls “fate” that always brought them together; but Sungmin found himself growing closer to the younger man that he found a day incomplete without having a cup of coffee with him at their favourite spot by the window, sharing their ideas about the world, although sometimes – well most of the time – said ideas opposed each other. Sungmin didn’t really mind. He actually loved debating with the other up to the point that they’d roll into a fit of laughter with their craziness. He loved being with the man, growing up in their secluded town, he never really had the chance to acquaint himself with other people, but with Kyuhyun, everything just seemed to click. Another reason, Sungmin thinks, is their love for wine; he loves their occasional wine-tasting by the bay.

Tonight was one of those nights wherein Sungmin held a glass of wine in his hand as he sits by the sand, his gaze looking past the vast sea, the cool breeze keeping the serene atmosphere and enveloping them in a warm and comforting embrace.

“I just noticed, you’ve been wearing that pearl more lately.” Kyuhyun muttered, breaking the comfortable silence.

“What? Someone told me I look good with it.” Sungmin replied smugly.

“As far as I remember, it’s the necklace that I said was beautiful, not you.” Kyuhyun teased, earning a light kick from the older man, “Bastard!”

“What? Were you actually hoping that I was complimenting you? Oh Sungmin, don’t tell me you’re falling in love with me.”Kyuhyun teased.

“Fuck you, Cho!”Sungmin growled, this time kicking Kyuhyun harder, making sure that it hurt.

“I was just kidding!” Kyuhyun laughed hard. “What? Still haven’t changed your view of love?”
“Love and I are just two words that could never be together.” Sungmin replied, and he thought he saw a glint of disappointment in Kyuhyun’s eyes but he chose to ignore it as he continued to sip from the glass in his hand.

“Oh.”Kyuhyun replied, sadness evident in his voice that it crumpled Sungmin’s heart for reasons he cannot fathom. Yet, deep inside, he knew the reason but refuses to acknowledge it, mostly because of fear. He knows, he could feel it, the gentle look and touches the other gave him were a dead give-away on what the younger keeps inside of him and it scares Sungmin, he doesn’t want to break the younger man’s heart, he was too special, too special.

“You can’t.”

“What?” Kyuhyun asked confusedly, but as Sungmin repeated the words with unshed tears in his eyes, he knew what he completely meant. “I’m sorry, I really like you Kyuhyun, you need to stop this.”

“Then can you tell me how? How can you actually stop loving someone?”Kyuhyun chuckled, looking at the sea as he tried to stop his tears.

“Love is just something that a person creates in their mind; they grow attached to it, thinking it’s love when it’s just merely an emotion hyphened up by their imaginations.”

“Fuck Sungmin, can’t you stop this!?” Kyuhyun shouted, losing all his control as he gently pulled Sungmin to face him. “Do you think I just commanded my heart to feel this? I never told it to skip a beat when I met you! I never told it to beat so fast when I see you smile, laugh, talk...everything you do. It just acts like it! And moreover, I never told it to beat so hard to the point that it already escaped my chest to crawl to you, telling me that I don’t own it anymore, because my heart now belongs to you. So how can I command it when it already serves you as its owner?”Kyuhyun sighed as he looked deeply in Sungmin’s eyes. “I love you…. I’m deeply, madly in love with you Lee Sungmin.“ Kyuhyun whispered, the words flying towards Sungmin’s heart, and he shivered as he felt his heart actually welcoming the words, but the fear suddenly chose that moment to stomp forward and remind people of his existence, making Sungmin bolt up, immediately closing his heart before it fully accepted those feelings.

“I’m sorry, but you can’t.” Sungmin muttered before walking away, and he had to will his feet to continue walking as his steps faltered the moment he heard Kyuhyun break down into tears, the sound of the young man’s heart breaking into pieces overshadowing the thud as his very own heart broke as well.

*

It’s funny how fate seemed to attach their paths together when they weren’t asking for it, yet now that all Sungmin wished for was to see even a glimpse of the young man, hoping, wishing that he’s fine, it looked like fate wanted him to dwell on guilt as he can’t seem to find the man anywhere. Fate’s a bitch indeed! Then Sungmin had to pause, realizing that he just blamed something he doesn’t even believe in. Is it true? Is he really slowly caving in to love?

Sungmin sighed, erasing the thoughts. For now, all he really hoped for was to see Kyuhyun. Goodness! That man had really made him crazy! But still, he can’t help the loud beating of his heart. He just left Kyuhyun last night in such a devastated state and he can’t help but worry whether the young man managed to come home safely last night. Or if he had….Sungmin’s eyes shot-up as images of his childhood comes flashing in his mind that he found himself immediately running towards Kyuhyun’s room. Finding the door unlocked, he sprinted inside, not caring to knock. “Kyuhyun! Cho Kyuhyun!” Sungmin bolted towards the younger’s room but he wasn’t there, his heart starts to crumble with fear, his knees trembling, afraid that what he was thinking was true.

“Sungmin?”

Sungmin immediately turned around as he heard the voice he had been craving to hear all day. And he didn’t even care if he admitted that said voice melts his heart as he ran towards Kyuhyun, engulfing the tall man in a tight hug.

“Fuck, you made me worried! Where were you all day?!”Sungmin punched Kyuhyun who just smiled in response, touched that the other still cares for him.“Wait what’s that?” Sungmin broke the hug as he noticed Kyuhyun’s luggage neatly placed beside Kyuhyun’s bed, and then he looked at Kyuhyun and only noticed that the young man was dressed up, his bag placed above his bed.

“Are you...?”

“My flight is in two and a half hours.”

“Oh.”Sungmin replied, he could feel tiny needles slowly pinching his heart, making his whole body tremble. “So you’re not planning to say goodbye to me? I’m hurt.” Sungmin faked a laugh, but suddenly cut it as he saw Kyuhyun’s serious eyes looking straight at him. Who was he kidding really?

“This is for the better right? This is the only way that I could forget about you.”

Sungmin nodded his head, but he doesn’t know why his heart felt crumpled by the statement. Shouldn’t he be happy? This is what he wants right? Right? He asked himself, and it made his body tremble as the answer seems so bold and big screaming right at his face.

“Well, I’m sorry but I need to head at the airport if I don’t want to miss my flight.” Kyuhyun muttered, breaking the uncomfortable silence crawling to their skin. Sungmin didn’t utter a word so Kyuhyun took this as an answer that he really needed to go, so he picked up his luggage and his bag and was almost out of the door when he heard Sungmin shout his name, a tinge of hope glowing in him as he looked at Sungmin’s orbs which were looking at him, with as much intensity.

“I-“ Sungmin started but his throat seemed to block, words jumbling in his mind that he can’t grasp the right ones to say.

“I-“ Kyuhyun grew tense as he waited for Sungmin’s words, but all of his hopes suddenly died down like he was flying so close to heaven, only for his wings to be cut apart, making him fall way deep down. “Have a safe flight.” Kyuhyun chuckled as he nodded, what was he really expecting? So he headed towards the exit but this time, he turned around to say something before he walked away completely with Sungmin just looking at his retreating figure, and only when the man was completely gone did the words sink into him, making him fall on the ground, his tears that had been wanting to escape earlier, streaming down from his face like a rain shower.

“I’ll never regret falling in love with you. Even if it caused me all this heartaches, it was worth it Min. Because you were worth it … I just hoped that I was as well, to you.”

*

Sungmin smiled as he sees his brother sitting on the sand, face flaming as if ready to kill someone.

“What’s with that face?”

Donghae didn’t answer and just growled instead as he glared towards his front. Sungmin tilted his head to see who was the poor victim for the younger’s rage and he chuckled, sighing as he sat beside his brother.

“What did Siwon do that made him earn such anger from you?” Sungmin asked, referring to Donghae’s lover.

“Tsk just look at him! Who wouldn’t be mad at him!”

Sungmin looked and saw Siwon helping a girl who seemed “unable to stand” after “slipping”, and Siwon being the gentleman that he was, didn’t think twice before helping the girl who seemed to be enjoying the handsome man’s attention.

“Well he’s a lifeguard, it’s his job to help people.”

“Tsk! Can’t he see that those girls are flirting with him!”
“
Well if you can’t stand it, why don’t you just break up with him?” Donghae’s eyes shot up at this and gaped at his brother.

“Yah! I won’t breakup with him just because of that! I know he loves me, I believe in him.”

Sungmin sighed, not understanding how his brother thinks.

“Yes there are some fights, misunderstandings and whatnot, but those are parts of a relationship, hyung. Those hardships make the two of you stronger. Those are what make you realize how precious your love for each other is.” Donghae added and as if emphasizing the statement, Siwon looked at them and then stared at Donghae, giving him a smile, a smile Sungmin was certain was reserved only for his brother. Donghae smiled back at him, they were so at peace as they looked at each other.

“Donghae, what is love?”Sungmin suddenly asked.

“There are a million answers to that question, hyung. But I think it depends on how the person feels it. Just like me with Siwon, love is the feeling of security, the feeling of being so safe when you’re in his arms. The thought that everything would be okay because love is there. You? What do you feel when you think of love?”

“I… I think of early morning coffees with Kyuhyun.” Sungmin chuckled that the first thing that came to mind was him and Kyuhyun at the table by the window; he could still smell the sweet aroma of coffee making his mind relax. “I think of the way he talks, the way he laughs, the way he holds me…” Sungmin trailed off, choking as tears suddenly fell from his eyes as moments with Kyuhyun came flashing through his mind. “I screwed up, didn’t I?” Sungmin asked Donghae, tears falling uncontrollably from his eyes.

Donghae just hugged the older man who was now breaking down in tears, thinking how stupid he is for letting Kyuhyun go. But all he could do now is cry, laughing at his misery. He always thought that love was stupid because it only gave pain, but funny how he’s experiencing pain now when he didn’t even give a chance for love to blossom. And now, all he wished was another chance for love.

*

“Sungmin hurry up! Donghae’s waiting for us.” Mrs. Lee called her grandchild who was scrambling over his bag.

“I’m coming! Ugh, where is that!?” Sungmin growled as he rummaged through his things. He knew he just put it in here somewhere.

“There you are!” Sungmin sighed in relief, smiling like the sunshine as he eyed the necklace that he was looking for.

He immediately turned around to catchup with his grandmother when he bumped into a tall man.

And as if in de ja vu, he fell on the ground, he could feel the familiar loud beating of his heart like drums in a crazy beat. He slowly tilted his head up to see who he bumped into and his heart seemed to stop as their eyes locked with each other’s. His body trembled at that familiar sensation, making his heart glow.

The other man slowly stood up, offering a hand to Sungmin, who gladly took it.

“Looks like nothing has changed. We’re still two careless people who should learn how to focus more so we won’t disturb others.” Kyuhyun chuckled as he looked at Sungmin with a big smile on his face, making Sungmin’s heart melt.

“No.” Sungmin started, smiling as he grabbed Kyuhyun’s head to place a deep kiss on the younger’s lips, panting as they broke apart for much needed air. The time they spent away from each other made them realize how much the other meant to them. Sungmin smiled at Kyuhyun’s dazed expression before tugging the younger by the collar and bringing their lips together in another sweet kiss, but not before whispering the words he’d never thought he’d ever say. “It’s fate.”

If the Feeling is Gone Chap. 15 Part1

simbasheart — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 00:13:45 GMT

TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone Chap. 15 Part1
length : Chaptered; 1,632 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin, KyuWook
genre : drama,angst
rating : PG-13

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a/n : short chapter >< i'm sorry but im stuck on this for a couple of days now.. i guess i need more inspiration to write a proper ending.. im so sorry ><

and a BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY to i_love_sungmin and to my beautiful daughter fanaticstory :* ... I'll write a more happy kyumin next time.... ? ><

NO BETA, anyone wants to beta the last part? .. thou i havent even wrote a word yet >< /4everfail... want to suggest? :D

Ryeowook sighed as he lay lifelessly on the soft white sheets. He looked around the room, rose petals scattered everywhere, a bottle of wine in the bedside table and the dim lighting of the room adding to the romantic feel the room wants to exude, but it just doesn’t feel right.
He thought he would be happy after he married the man he loved so much, he should be happy, but there he was, his heart feeling so heavy that he can’t breathe.

He closed his eyes as he heard the sound of the shower stopping followed by the sound of an opening door. He tried to relax the loud beating of his heart as he grew tense on facing what’s to come next. He wants to chuckle as he imagine his heart beating this crazy just this morning, but that time it was beating with so much happiness and excitement as if it just reached heaven’s gate, and he couldn’t even fathom what happened that it suddenly slumped down to hell, this time beating so fast and loud that he feel it’s about to bleed soon.

“Y-you could shower if you want or..” Ryeowook could feel the nervousness in Kyuhyun’s voice as if hesitant on what’s inevitable to happen, and if he doesn’t know how great Kyuhyun is as a man, he would’ve thought that the guy would run out of the room anytime now. He chuckled on how miserable their situation is, because he’s hell sure that this isn’t how newly-wed couple acts. Shouldn’t they be elated with happiness, hearts brimming with joy and love as they shower all of their affection for each other and engage in heaven in in each other’s arms? That’s how he imagined this night would be, not this, not pain, sadness, hesitance… not even a single ounce of love. He wanted to cry thinking if he actually made the right decision to marry Kyuhyun.

He opened his eyes and looked at his husband who was sitting stiffed at the edge of the bed, mind as if travelling somewhere, and Ryeowook asked if he must have been thinking of Sungmin? He choked back a tear as images of earlier flash back through his mind, the way Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin, the look he wished so much was for his.

Kyuhyun noticed Ryeowook crying so he immediately went near his newly-proclaimed husband. “Ryeowook?” Kyuhyun asked as he went nearer to the younger man but he was startled as the younger immediately latched his lips to his that it took him a second to respond.

The kiss was awkward. It’s as if it the way they suck each other’s lips we’re just mere actions, just doing it the way they know they should do it. Kissing and sucking, until their tongues met in a messy dance. Then their lips would travel downwards, in a more secluded place, their clothes being torn apart, as they devour every inch of each other’s skin. Lips, tongue and hands roaming in places they knew they should be, until it reached their bare members massaging first, licking, then sucking until they grew impatient by their building lust. One finger first then another until that lovely hole stretched to the fullest and then the member enters, thrusting slowly at first until it increased in speed. Not stopping until they hit the peak of their pleasures and they’ll be shooting their cums into each other as they shout each other’s name. And so there they was, lying naked beside each other, but instead of the usual heaven-like feeling, it seems numb, empty, just like how their interaction was. Just like reading a book then after it…. It’s done like that, without emotions, without the most important ingredient, love.

*

Sungmin could feel his body growing tense as he slowly enter Siwon’s office, but he managed a smile as he was met by the other’s radiant one, his heart calming as he thinks how much he would also miss this hyung of his.

“Sungmin, what brought you here?” Siwon asked.

“I just want to give you this.” Sungmin murmured and he have to stop his heart, as Siwon shot up from his seat and images of Kyuhyun doing the same came rushing into his heart.

“Resignation Letter?! Sungmin please, you don’t need to leave Cho Enterprise. We need you here.”

“I’m sorry Siwon, I know you have been great to me but..” Sungmin bit his lips as he smiled, hesitant to continue. “..but, I don’t think I’m strong enough to face this.”

Siwon immediately softened at the confession, guilt eating him up as he just realized how insensitive he was for not thinking of how Sungmin must have been affected with all of this.

“It, it still hurts.” Sungmin continued, all the bottled pain in his heart bearing too much that he feels like it’s slowly killing him inside. He tried to act strong, but it’s too much that he feels his defences slowly crumbling down that he just wants to break free even for just a minute.

“Ssh..” Siwon hushed Sungmin as he leave warm strokes at the other’s back. The action, as if hitting a button inside Sungmin making his faucet of emotion flow from his eyes as he cries his heart out. He tightened his hold on Siwon as he sobs all his pain away. He knows he have to move on sooner or later but… not now, not yet.. as of now he still wants to relish all the pain, because only through the pain does he know that his and Kyuhyun’s love still exist there and he just wants to feel that heaven-like emotion one more time, someday he’ll let go but not now, not yet.

*

“Sungmin! Sungmin wake up!”

“Ugh Donghae! Go away. I want to sleep.” Sungmin growled as he was interrupted by his slumber, it was almost nearing dawn when he slept last night. He badly wanted to lull himself to sleep so that he could not feel the dying pain inside of him, but it’s just too strong that its eating him alive, the pain contorlling him.

“Sungmin wake up, I think you’ll like to see this.”

“See what?” Sungmin asked as he slowly stood up and went towards the door. Donghae didn’t answer him but instead nudged his head towards the living room.

Sungmin could see the worry in his friend’s eyes, but he followed nonetheless and he was shocked as he saw Ryeowook there.

“W-why are you here? Shouldn’t you be..” Sungmin trailed off, his heart scrunching in pain just by the mere thought of Ryeowook and Kyuhyun.
Ryeowook seemed to notice this making his frown deepen but he smiled knowing he made the right decision.

“I heard you resigned? Why?”

“I…” Sungmin started not knowing what to say. But Ryeowook knew the answer already so he continued “Go ahead and pack your bags!”

“W-what?” Sungmin asked.

“Cmon, we’re going on a trip.” Sungmin didn’t have the chance to retort as he found himself being pushed by Ryeowook towards his bedroom. So he just followed Ryeowook until they reached an unfamiliar place. But on that unfamiliar place, his heart stopped as he see an oh so familiar person staring at him with the same shock written all over his face.

“Ryeowook, what is this? And why is Sungmin..” Kyuhyun stopped as he tries to muster all the courage not to melt down and run to Sungmin’s arms. He already made up his mind that he’ll stand through his decision of being a good husband to Ryeowook, but seeing Sungmin right in front of him is a different story as he feel his heart jumping as if knowing its mate is just near.

“He’ll come with us.” Ryeowook answered simply as if it’s a normal thing for the three of them to be together in one place.

“Wait the- the three of us? Where are we going?” Sungmin asked, suddenly finding his voice that shied away with his breath as he sees Kyuhyun, his heart as if being alive again.

“We’re going on a trip! And no someone will be with us. Oh he’s here!”
Kyuhyun scrunched his eyebrow as he saw the man nearing them. Jongwoon? What is he doing here?

“Oh guys! This is Yesung” Ryeowook beamed happily as he introduced the man beside him who was looking in the ground as if sharing the same feeling with Kyuhyun and Sungmin of not wanting to be on this trip. But as if Ryeowook hold such a strong force on them that they find themselves obeying the youngest as he push Yesung towards the driving seat, him following at the passenger’s seat.

Kyuhyun and Sungmin’s eyes went wide as they realized that there’s no other way but for them to sit next to each other at the back seat.
“Ryeowook..” Kyuhyun asked as he grew tense, thinking hard what the younger must’ve been planning.

“What?! Just go inside or do you still want me to shove the two of you in there?”

Kyuhyun and Sungmin looked at each other as they feel their hearts beating an identical beat.

“Kyuhyun! Sungmin! We don’t have all day!” Ryeoowok shouted.

Still hesitant, Sungmin climbed to the backseat, wishing, praying that he’s making the correct decision. Kyuhyun followed after, trying hard to stop his heart from running away from him and going to Sungmin, because he knows that no matter what happened, his heart would always be pulled towards this man, like a puppy knowing its rightful owner. However, he already admitted to himself that he can’t obey his heart’s wishes anymore, he’s already married, but now that his just inches away from his heaven he’s afraid, he’s so afraid that his heart would win all along.

His Only Wish

simbasheart — Wed, 04 Jan 2012 09:15:17 GMT

TITLE : His Only Wish
length : One-Shot ; 1,936 words
pairing/character : KyuMin ; Hinted!WonKyu
genre : drama, angst
rating : PG
summary : It's Sungmin's bday but he knows that he could never have his only wish (???)

(SUPPOSEDLY) Sungmin's birthday fic XD.. in my defense! I swear I'm almost finished last Jan.1, but then someone text me that Siwon's going in Manila, so I immediately opened my browser, closed MSWord.. and things were never the same again XD dasdawdawfwfcaefdcafrfcflakc hahaha

but what the heck HAPPY BDAY SUNGMIN! XD... and ofcourse 1st new year fail.. ending was rush, everything was rush actually so... yah... fail nga e XD HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE <3

“Put your hands over his shoulder!” Yesung mused as he pulled Kyuhyun’s hand and put it over Sungmin’s shoulder.

“You really want to live out your title as KyuMin’s Fanclub president are you?” Kyuhyun laughed but obliged nonetheless as he lean closer over Sungmin’s small figure, growing used to all of this fan service they’re obliged to do for the fans, he doesn’t think of it as a burden anyway as he regards it as a usual interaction of two friends, especially him being close to all of his hyungs.

However, it was different to the other man who grew stiff by the interaction, no matter how Lee Sungmin have been doing this for years, he can’t find himself getting used to all the fan service, especially when it’s the magnae who is at the receiving end, which is something he can’t run away from as he and Kyuhyun, KyuMin as fans pen them, are one of the “norm pairs” of Super Junior, thus they’re obliged to do some butt-slapping, intertwined claps, lingering looks and some playful interactions from time to time that the management deemed to be a great way to market them and earn more money, as if they’re not already earning millions from them. It might be just a simple friendly interaction for Kyuhyun, but it was different for him.

He could still remember the time when he was actually enjoying every sweet moment like this. The very second Kyuhyun joined their group, he already knew he’ll like the guy. That was the reason why he welcomed Kyuhyun wholeheartedly, and chose to stay by the magnae’s side when everyone else was judging him. They became the best of friends that they’ve already grown accustomed being with each other. But he didn’t’ realized that the thought of liking the guy would actually come real on the sense of like-liking someone, not just the simple like a person feel for a friend, but the like with the hearts doing wonders to put more colour and whatever magic on the word. So before the word jump to the next level, an emotion that until now he refuses to admit he feels for the magnae, no matter how strong his heart radiates the feeling whenever the magnae was near, he somehow distanced himself to the other, which the magnae didn’t seem to noticed as that time he was already growing closer to the other members. And that thought also torn his heart to pieces, yes he’s happy that Kyuhyun managed to grew close to the other members, but he must admit, he do miss those times when Kyuhyun would whimper in the dark whenever he felt the others doesn’t like him, but then the fragile guy will smile as he feel Sungmin’s presence, thanking him for being there for him, as if everything’s fine as long as they have each other. He missed those times when he only had Kyuhyun by himself.

He heard the camera click, the state of his heart being mirrored by the image in the picture, sad, depressed. And as Kyuhyun left his side, he managed to bring out a fake smile on the next click, as his heart torn into million pieces, knowing he’ll never get his one only wish.

*

He stared at the bloody red liquid in his glass as he laughs a bitter one, thanking the perfect creation for being his lone companion in his misery. He’s thankful and he did felt the love of his friends who cared for him and wanted him to be happy at this special day, but after all the rustles and the bustles of the celebration, when all of them went on with each of their lives, now that he’s all alone, he can’t help but launch in his misery and dream of what he could never have.

He heard the door of his room opening, and for a minute he thought the alcohol was playing jokes with him and bringing him the illusion of the man that had been occupying his dreams and imaginations.

“Sungmin hyung. It’s already 4am, why are you still awake? And wow! Did you finish all of those by yourself?” Sungmin’s roommate asked as he eyes an empty bottle of wine, and another which is about to be on the same state as the first one.

“Well I don’t have anyone to help me.” Sungmin whispered.
Kyuhyun bit his lips, suddenly guilty, but then he smiled again as he grab one of the wine glass just beside their wine collection and sat himself on his bed. He reached for the wine and poured some of its contents in his glass.

“Well you have me now, don’t you?” Kyuhyun smiled, and Sungmin scolds his heart as it flails like a fangirl in the mesmerizing sight. Something that only Kyuhyun could do.

“It’s okay it’s already late. I’m sure you’re tired, you should go to sleep. I can manage by myself.” Sungmin whispered, afraid to show the magnae what he was doing to him.

“But I can’t just leave you like this.” Kyuhyun persist, making the other man frustrated. Was he really this oblivious?! Can’t he hear the sound of his heart breaking whenever he’s with him?

“It’s okay I would just go ahead and bother Shindong, he’s expecting me to be there anyway.-“ “But Shindong is with Nari.” Kyuhyun cut him, making him froze in air as he was about to stand up and leave.

“Then what do you want me to do?!” Sungmin sighed as he stretch his body up, the alcohol on his system taking over his body, giving him the confidence to toll out all his building frustration.

Kyuhyun froze at his spot as his throat constricted him of words, he could feel the gloomy cloud looming over the older’s figure and he wanted so much to help the other see his sun but he knows he can’t.

“I’m sorry, I’m just drank. Let’s just sleep.”

“I’m sorry hyung.” Kyuhyun whispered.

Sungmin halt at his steps, registering the magnae’s words. “For what?” He whispered.

Kyuhyun can’t seem to find the right words to say so he just trusted his body and let them brought himself towards the older, his hands automatically attaching into the other’s body, hoping that action do speak louder than words.

“W-what are you doing?” Sungmin asked, his heart doing crazy somersaults that he feel like his body’s about to explode.

“Nothing, I just want to greet you a Happy Birthday.” Kyuhyun shake his head a no, his heart sighing in glee as he feel the older relaxing in his hold. “Do you know what I wish to God for you right now? I wish that he’ll give you happiness.” “-But.” Sungmin interjected, wanting to say how’s that possible if Kyuhyun is his happiness, and he knows that that’s something he could never have, but his tears prevented him from saying it out loud as it freely flowed from his eyes.

“You’re such a great person hyung. You deserve all the happiness in this world. And I’m sure you could find it anywhere you wanted to.”

“You don’t understand it. You-“

“Please stop doing this to yourself hyung. You deserve way much better. You deserve someone that could..” Kyuhyun trailed off, suddenly realizing what he was about to say.

“Someone that could what Kyuhyun??” Sungmin asked, tilting his head upwards to look the magnae in the eyes. Kyuhyun immediately avoided the gaze as he feels his heart thumping like drums, he was about to step back, not liking where this could lead to but Sungmin immediately held on to his hand, and his heart stopped beating but only to shatter into pieces as he feel Sungmin’s hands tremble, and the pain in Sungmin’s heart radiate in to the hold. “Someone that could love me back?”

Kuhyun bolted his head upwards, wanting to defend himself but as he sees the pain in the older’s eyes he knows that not even the strong grip in his heart, unabling him to breathe is not even half worse on what he’s doing to Sungmin, so he just dropped his head down, letting the silence as the clear answer to Sungmin’s question.

Sungmin laughed from his aches as he look at the dejected figure of the younger, and he sighed as no matter how much pain the other gives to him, there he was falling even more.

He stepped a little closer, letting his body main him for the first time, and engulf the fragile body at his front.

“H-hyung?” Kyuhyun asked as he froze from the touch.

“You wish me happiness right?” Sungmin asked. Kyuhyun was about to retort, he love his hyung so much, he’s the best friend he ever had, but how much as he love him.. “Don’t worry.” Sungmin muttered, stopping him from his deep anxiety.

“Do you know what makes me happy Kyu?” Sungmin asked, pausing for a while to wipe the endless flooding of tears on his face, but he continued not expecting an answer from Kyuhyun. “Whenever you sing, that amazing voice of yours that leaves everyone in awe. Whenever you play your games, that look of concentration on your face I honestly admire how determined you look as you give your best to win every single one of it, just like when you dance, you don’t know how much proud you make me whenever you perfect a move no matter how much you think it’s impossible at the start.

Everything you do is just amazing. Even your mere presence is wonderful enough for me.”

“Hyung.” Kyuhyun muttered, as his tears wet Sungmin’s chest.

“But do you know what makes me the most happiest?” Sungmin smiled as he gently lift Kyuhyun’s face which is now fully wet with tears. He gently caress the younger’s face, wiping it away, but the action only made more tears flash like a waterfall on Kyuhyun’s face.

“What makes me happiest is seeing you smile. You have no idea how much wonderful it feels just seeing even a bit of smile from you. So if you really want to make me happy, just let me love you because no matter how much painful the heartaches are, the happiness you gave me are worth it. I lo-“ “-Hyung.” Kyuhyun stopped Sungmin, fear of hurting the other gnawing him inside. But Sungmin didn’t hinder and smiled even wider as he continues. “I love you Kyuhyun.”

“Hyung.” He kissed the other’s forehead as he feel Kyuhyun’s hug tighten on his body, his limp body trembling from the tears. “I’m so-“

“Oh gee I’m hungry. You should treat me! It’s my birthday you know.”

Kyuhyun slowly look up at Sungmin who was now smiling like sunshine as if nothing just happened. “Yah if you don’t want fine, you’re such a cheapskate! I’m just going to ask your boyfriend at least his more generous.” Sungmin continued to babble as Kyuhyun stay stilled at his spot.

“Hey Siwon your boyfriend is ignoring me.” Sungmin pouted, and Kyuhyun still stood at his spot not comfortable at all of this. Siwon seemed to notice it because he swayed forward to the young man to caress the other’s back. “Hey are you fine?” Siwon asked with so much gentleness. And as Kyuhyun show a small sincere smile at the tall man’s touch, Sungmin’s heart sobs but he smiled nonetheless, knowing even if he can’t have his only wish, he could make Kyuhyun’s wish for him come true, because despite of the pain, falling in love with Kyuhyun is the best thing God had given him.

Desperate for A Touch

simbasheart — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 04:43:12 GMT

TITLE : Desperate for A Touch
length : One-Shot ; 1,939 words
pairing/character : WonKyuMin ;(WonKyu/Sungmin ?)
genre : smut, drama
rating : NC-17
summary : Sungmin's about to age another year, and as he grew older he only realized how lonely it feels to have no one beside you.. thus, drama and desperation ensues which leads to crazinesssss...

(super late) Birthday fic for hit0rigurashi ; WonKyuMin fic with lotsa sexy time but is more on WonKyu?
nahihiya ako.. this is such a fail >< sorry po >< >< >< >< Belated Happy Birthday Eonnie <3 im sorry.. i tried ><

Also, Advance Happy Birthday Lee Sungmin! :* and Merry Christmas to everyone! ^^
/hides

Sungmin sipped the last drop of liquid from the wine glass in his hand, groaning as he looked at the now empty bottle on his bedside table. He wanted to stand up and search for more alcohol that could intoxicate his mind, but no matter how much he deemed himself not drank, his body says otherwise as it refuses to make any movement, loving the comfortable rest it was in on Sungmin’s fluffy white sheets.

The boy wanted to throw the now empty glass from irritation but thinking otherwise on the mess it would cause so he just opt to throw his pillow, but it seems not enough as the building stress inside him didn’t lessen even a bit.

His head hurts like hell, his stomach churning up and down from the alcohol, but it’s still not enough, it’s not enough because he’s still sane to feel the loneliness, to feel all the insecurities and angst that have been crumpling his heart. He doesn’t want to be emo or whatever, he wasn’t even used to be like this, he started as a trainee for SME at an early age, and by that time since now all he just remembered doing was working his ass up and staying obedient of all the company rules. He was fine with it, not having time for his love life. He do have some crushes from time to time, if you’re working in an industry that look is one of the main factors to be in, it’s impossible to find not even one attractive, but due to all the complexities of being in this industry, he didn’t act on those feelings. It was okay at first, but as he reached the age of 27, he started to think of his future and the things he have achieved.

In 3 years, he’s about to turn the golden age of 30, sooner he needs to go inside the army and be locked away from the world for 2 years, and there he was, not even having a chance to taste how it feels to have someone beside him, someone that could hold his hands on night like this and assure him that everything’s fine, there he was miserable and alone

ALONE, bolded and highlighted, that word seems to be mocking him that he’s going to stay forever like this, not having anyone by his side. Goodness he’s 27 but he’s not even kissed! Yes, he did have shared a few smooches on-screen and on-stage, but it was different, it was just for work, just a plain meeting of skin to skin. He wanted to experience that tingling feeling they say you have once you kissed someone. He wanted to experience the fireworks? Butterflies? Mesh of wonderful colours all-together, or whatever word or feeling they use to describe the interaction. He was desperate!

His deep thought was cut as he heard the door of the room opened and revealed 2 figures. He adjusted his eyes from the darkness of the room and as the door opened wider, the light coming from the living room gave him more access to see who it was; it was his roommate and best friend, Kyuhyun with his boyfriend, Siwon. Guh even the evil magnae has a boyfriend! What is so wrong with him that no one likes him?

He was about to look away, knowing he’ll just be sinking himself to a deeper pool of depression but he froze from his position when the couple’s lips attached together. It’s not as if this is the first time he saw the two kissed, but there’s something different from today’s, maybe it was because of the alcohol or the depression but as Kyuhyun’s moans licked his ears into a shivering sensation when Siwon sucked on the younger’s tongue, he doesn’t really have the time to care on whatever the reason was. His mind just seemed to suddenly grow blank at that moment that he can’t take his eyes off of the two figures.

He watched as Kyuhyun’s candle-light fingers gripped tight on Siwon’s black locks, pushing their heads deeper, not wanting even a space of air to separate their faces as they suck each other in a messy unorganized kiss.

“Oh ffuck Siwon!” Sungmin heard Kyuhyun growled as the other man kneed his groin, pushing his knee deep on Kyuhyun’s obvious growing crotch. And he have to bite his lips as he fight a moan, his own member twitching at the sight, begging to be touch like that.

He lost it though when he saw Kyuhyun returning the action by pushing his hips towards Siwon, pushing his erection deeper on the other’s knee. He threw away all his inhibitions and brings his hand inside his pants, his hand trembling, from disgust or from excitement, who cares, as he reach for his member that’s slowly awakening from its sleep. He hesitantly touched the head of his member and was about to pull back but as he heard Kyuhyun’s stifle moans grew louder with Siwon’s hand now inside the younger’s pants, doing wonders, basing from Kyuhyun’s pleasured moans, we’re mind blowingly good, this gave him more confidence to continue his ministration and bring his hand back to his pants , this time not even taking a pause as he engulf the whole member in his cold hands, his whole body shivered with flame as his throbbing member attach to his cold skin.

Loving the way it felt, he tried to explore more as he squeeze the length, he almost cough as he try to fight back the moan that freely came out from his lips from the pleasure that shoot to his brain from the action.

“Fffck!” He growled.

Great thing that the couple was immersed by their own world that they didn’t heard him, as Siwon’s now pumping Kyuhyun’s hard member, his other hand inside Kyuhyun’s shirt massaging that sexy chest, until it rested into those erect pink nubs, clasping it with his two fingers before squeezing it, his mouth serving as a basin to all of Kyuhyun’s moans as the younger now shamelessly threw all of his pleasure in a song of heaven. And Sungmin must admit that that sound is definitely the best melody he had ever heard as his hand dances along with it, pumping his member hard and fast while his other hand dances trough his erect nubs, copying the dance Siwon is doing to Kyuhyun’s body.

His eyes shot from pleasure as he continue pumping his member hard, imagining Kyuhyun’s moans we’re for his but he stopped when the song suddenly came into a halt.

The sound of heavy breathing filled the room as the three tried to catch up with their own breathes.

“I think we should stop.” Kyuhyun whispered.

“We’ve gotten this far, I don’t think I could stop.” Siwon replied, desperation clear on his voice. And Sungmin also mirrored the same desperation as he silently begs them not to stop. Not Now.

“But, not here, someone might see us. There-“ Kyuhyun’s words we’re suddenly stopped so Sungmin opened his eyes to see what’s happening, and his member twitch from pleasure when he sees Siwon sucking the younger’s lips. It ended as soon as it started as Siwon detach their lips, but only to stare at the magnae’s eyes and Sungmin could only grit his teeth from not moaning out loud from the look in Siwon’s eyes. “I don’t think I could still wait.” And Sungmin couldn’t deny the glee in his heart as the tall man ripped Kyuhyun’s pants and boxers in one go, the magnae’s large erection springing free. Sungmin’s mouth ran dry as he imagines that tasty piece inside his mouth. Looks like Siwon share the same desire as he lick the head of the magnae’s member, before putting a soft kiss on it. He could see the magnae shiver at the action as his eyes remained glued on the two, not wanting to miss even a single scene from his favourite show.

Sungmin could feel his body burn as Kyuhyun screamed a pleasured moan when Siwon bring the whole member to his mouth, pausing for a second, his face clearly showing admiration from the taste, and Sungmin could only watch with jealousy as his inner self whined for a taste of it like a kid burning with jealousy while watching another kid devouring himself with the tastiest chocolate ever created.

But it all popped up as Siwon started to bob his head to and fro into Kyuhyun’s erection. “Oh fuck Siwon! Yes ugh.. fuck!” Kyuhyun started to curse incoherently, his hand gripping Siwon’s hair hard as he push the older’s head into his erection wanting to feel more of that amazing warmth.

Sungmin could feel his member itching to be touched, but he can’t move even an inch from his position as he grew immersed by the show in front of him, he watches as Kyuhyun’s member disappear from Siwon’s mouth, his mouth hanging dry as he imagine it was his mouth doing all of those pleasure to the magnae.

Kyuhyun whined as Siwon stopped and released the younger’s member with a loud pop, Sungmin was also about to protest but his protest was replace with delight when Siwon then bring his tongue to Kyuhyun’s puckered hole, lapping it like a dog before slipping one finger inside; the action making Kyuhyun scream from the mixture of pain and pleasure.

Siwon sensed the pain so he kissed the younger’s pale thighs coaxing the younger to calm down. After a few seconds, Kyuhyun started to thrust his hips to Siwon’s finger, knowing his lover would understand it as a signal that his ready. The other smiled, getting the request, so he kiss Kyuhyun’s thigh one last time before using his tongue to lick the soft flesh. “Oh fuck Siwon please! I need you inside me!” Sungmin heard Kyuhyun begged for the first time of knowing the other for years, and his heart twitch as he suddenly have the desire to be the one Kyuhyun would beg like that, hair dishevelled, eyes strained with lust, head arching backwards, his pale neck stretched as if asking an invitation to be sucked, and hell he know he could never deny such request, and if he could only do so he’ll shove Siwon away from the younger and be the one to fuck the young man senselessly. But looks like he doesn’t need to as Siwon obliged the younger’s demand and slammed his hard erect member in the younger’s hole, not even giving the younger a time to adjust as he thrust hard and fast. “Oh my goodness yes! Ughhhhhhhhh!” Kyuhyun’s screams grew more erratic and loud, pushing Sungmin to his limit so the man gave in to his wants and grabbed his member, clasping it tight in his hands, imagining it was Kyuhyun’s tightness that swallowing his whole.

The whole room was filled with moans and curses from the three as all of their pleasure starts to boil up, Siwon’s thrusts growing faster as he stabs the younger’s hole hard, Kyuhyun meeting the older’s thrust as he moans hard every time the older hit his sweet spot, Sungmin’s pumps also growing faster as he feel his stomach bubble up at the peculiar feeling.

And so all three of them reached their boiling point as all of them shoot all of their cums, screaming loud as they reach their intense high.

“Oh fuck!” Kyuhyun screamed, but this time it wasn’t one that is filled with pleasure, and Sungmin’s eyes shot up as he decipher the feeling, shock.

Oh fuck.

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If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 14/15)

simbasheart — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 07:48:29 GMT

TITLE : If the Feeling is Gone (Chap. 14/15)
length : Chaptered; 2,522 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin, KyuWook
genre : drama,angst
rating : PG-13

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this fic is so random, i'm sure you already know the ending right? ><

Sungmin was shaking in tears as he watches the frail body of Ryeowook lying on the hospital bed. The doctor said that the man was already stable and just fainted because of over fatigue but he can’t help but worry for the young man, and from time to time blame himself. He already knew that the other was sick, but there he was even pushing the young man to over exhaust himself, he was so inconsiderate.

“Sungmin.”His thoughts were cut as he heard a familiar voice, making his bottle burst from its warmth.

“Kyu!” Sungmin hiccupped as he let himself run to the other guy, sobs growing harder as the tall man draw him in a tight hug, “I swear I don’t know what happened. He was about to go home and then... it’s my fault.”

“Ssh.. it’s okay it’s not your fault.” Kyuhyun hushed him, engulfing the man’s shivering body in a tighter hug, Sungmin immediately succumbing at the warmth as he purrs at Kyuhyun’s caresses.

Kyuhyun smiled as he feels the way the other relax in his arms as if he always belonged there.

“Ummm..”

“Ryeowook!” Sungmin immediately pulled back from the safe haven he was in as he rushed to the guy.

“Oh my goodness Ryeowok, are you okay?”

Kyuhyun followed immediately, genuinely worried for the young man.
“I’m fine,” Ryeowook murmured; voice hoarse and weak.

“Ryeowook! You should take care of yourself!” Kyuhyun replied, as he caresses Ryeowook’s hair.

Sungmin gulped a thorn that was suddenly trash down his throat, as he immediately diverted his attention from the couple.

“Uhum, I better get going now. Ryeowook take care okay.”

“It’s almost midnight, it’s dangerous let me send you home.” Kyuhyun said.

“No, I’m okay, Ryeowook needs you.” Kyuhyun stared deep at Sungmin’s eyes as the smaller man says those words, as if not meaning just for that night and as Sungmin turns around and left the room, he can’t help but feel like his world stop, as if the man also walked out of his life.

*

“Kyuhyun.”

“Kyuhyun!” The called man suddenly looked up as he heard his brother shouting his name.

“Yah what’s wrong with you? I keep on knocking but you weren’t answering.” Siwon said, worried as he looks at his brother’s body that’s lifelessly sprawled on the bed.

“Don’t mind me, I’m fine.”

“Is this about Sungmin?” Kyuhyun didn’t answer but as the water in the side of his eyes grew more visible Siwon didn’t even need a yes to know that he just hit the spot.

Siwon slowly walked towards his brother and sat at by the edge of the bed.

“You haven’t even told him that you remembered.”

Kyuhyun just remained silent as he held the scarf in his arms tighter, the scent of that night still lingering in the thin cloth, the warmth it offered still hugging his body in a safe sanctuary overwhelming his heart at the light fuzzy feeling it always loved to felt.

“Looks like I need to give this back to him shouldn’t i? He offered me help and lifted me at that dark place, but here I am pulling him in this misery. “

“Kyuhyun, you could still back out.”

“Hyung we’re marrying next week.” Kyuhyun whispered.

“Wait, what?!” Siwon asked, shocked at the sudden plan.

“I’ve decided that we can’t waste time. Ryeowook’s condition is just getting worse. He needs me more.”

“That’s the most unbelievable thing I’ve ever heard! Cho Kyuhyun you know that that’s not a reason to marry someone!” Siwon screamed, his temper rising at his brother’s unbelievable logic. And they said that he’s the genius one in the family?!

“I already made my decision. There’s no turning back.” Kyuhyun said at his brother as he stood up, his mind too exhausted to be subjected to another fight with his brother.

“Kyuhyun.” Siwon said as he watched his brother walked towards the door.
Kyuhyun just continued walking but stopped as he reached the door and then turned around to look at his brother, “I’ll be fine. I’ll try to be.” He smiled as he slowly turn back around, hiding the lone tear that managed to escape his eyes.

*

“Kyuhyun?” Sungmin asked, confused of the reason why the guy suddenly asked him to come outside in the middle of the night.

The other man didn’t utter a word, and just lifted his hand.

Sungmin knitted his brows, confused at the action, but nonetheless get the item that the man was offering. He was about to ask what it was when it suddenly clicked into him.

“T..this.”

Kyuhyun just smiled, his head bowed down.

“Yes”

“Y-you remember?” Sungmin asked, still shocked that he didn’t noticed the tears that’s falling from his eyes.

“Yah, t-thank you. I haven’t thanked you for that night so I just want to thank you now. Thank you so much for giving me warmth when I need it the most. Thank you so much for making me see light, when all I can see was darkness.” He smiled as he recall “That have always been my comfort when I need it the most. I guess it’s just right that I’ll give it back to you now… right?” Kyuhyun asked, murmuring the last word with so much hesitance, with something much deeper, desperation.. desperation of wanting to hear a no.

“I-if you want you could just keep it..”

“Min you know that I don’t only mean about the scarf right?” Kyuhyun asked his own tears, matching Sungmin’s in its fall.

“Kyuhyun.” Sungmin breathlessly replied.

“Sungmin.” Kyuhyun retorted, attempting to go near the older but he was stopped as Sungmin took a step backwards, a step that as if took place in his heart, leaving a big stomp, crashing him inside.

“Kyuhyun, let’s not fall in this trap all over again. We know we can’t, we’ve done a mistake last time and we can’t make the same mistakes all over again. Let’s stop before we completely fall.”

“You know that doing that, loving you was never a mistake!” Kyuhyun screamed, his heart overwhelming with too many emotions.

“Kyu..”

“Damn! Of all the things I’ve done, loving you is the rightest thing I’ve done!”

“Kyu..” Sungmin sobbed hard that he didn’t had the chance to step back when Kyuhyun ran towards him and draw him in a tight hug.

“.. Kyuhyun. We c-“ “-I know.” Kyuhyun hiccupped, his tears drowning him inside. “But just.. just please let me love you, even for just one last time. Please.” He whispered as he closed his eyes, cradling Sungmin in his arms, remembering the first time he held Sungmin like this. The familiar warmth emitted by their entangled bodies, that familiar music brushing their souls in a sweet whisper and that oh so familiar feeling in their hearts they’ve grown to love.

After what just seemed like a second, Kyuhyun pulled away knowing he might want to keep Sungmin in his arms forever if he don’t.

The two looked at each other, both afraid to utter a word, knowing it would lead to goodbye. But as if like magnets that needed to be together, their lips connected. No one knows who started it, but both lavished the moment, kissing each other’s lips with so much desperation, sucking every bit of love they could take as they hold into each other with so much desire and need burning their bodies. The intense passion seeping all their breaths and sanity away, making their minds blank as their lips, tongue and saliva connects. Kyuhyun licked Sungmin’s lips seeking for entrance which the other gladly welcomed. Kyuhyun smiled at the access as his tongue map every bit of Sungmin’s territory. He then nudge Sungmin’s tongue, asking him to dance with him, and their hearts flattered as their tongues glided perfectly with each other and more so when their lips connected again, a match in heaven as they complete each other like perfect puzzle pieces that they don’t want to stop but as their lungs screamed for air, they let go, knowing they have to.

Kyuhyun rest his forehead with Sungmin’s as they catch their breaths. They look at each other’s eyes and smiled as their love lingers in the air, enveloping them in the sweet haven their love for each other build. “Thank You.” Kyuhyun whispered as he leans for one more peck, before breaking apart from each other.

“No, thank you.” Sungmin smiled as he turned around and walked away.
Kyuhyun turn around as well, facing the other way, knowing his defences when it comes to Sungmin are too weak that he might want to bring him back in his arms, but he can’t help himself as his heart wins and he turned back. Thou, he stopped his feet from running to the calls of love and just stood there as he watches Sungmin walk away, this time for good.
He chuckles as he feels his heart breaking, knowing it’s impossible to ask Sungmin to give him a chance to love him for one last time, because he knows, in his mind and his heart that no matter what happened, even if no one knows, even if no one sees it, his love for Sungmin would always stay in his heart, permanently placed in the depths of it, because even if Sungmin doesn’t know, he’s walking away with Kyuhyun’s heart, walking by his side.

*

“What do you think?” Ryeowook asked as he walks out from the room, clad in a black suit, he can’t help but get anxious as all the thoughts of actually marrying Cho Kyuhyun just weight into him.

Sungmin smiled; his heart also weary as it aches like never before now that the day of Kyuhyun and Ryeowook’s wedding has come. And it even crush his heart more that he’s there as Ryeowook’s best man, he couldn’t find it in his heart to say no when the younger came to him and asked him the favour. But now that he’s actually there, he feel so lost and as if he doesn’t deserve the place knowing he’s not 100% genuinely supporting the couple. But even with that, he knows that he do genuinely care for Ryeowook even for the short time they knew each other, so he smiled as he look at Ryeowook, really wishing the other’s happiness. “You look great.”
“I don’t. I look so bad. Look at me.” Ryeowook sighed as he looked at himself at the mirror, his insecurities growing as he sees his weak features. “I look so weak; Kyuhyun might back out when he see me like this.”

Sungmin walk towards the guy and pat his back. “Ryeowook, you know that Kyuhyun’s love for you is not that shallow.” He then stopped, he himself shock by his own words.

“Why are you so good to me?”Ryeowook asked as he looked deeply at Sungmin trough the mirror.

“W-what do you mean?”Sungmin asked back, suddenly tense at the intensity of Ryeowook’s stares.

“You’ve only knew me for a short time yet… this, you even agreed to my best man and..” Ryeowook trailed off.

Sungmin chuckled as he himself can’t explain why. “Honestly, I don’t know. But one reason I’m sure of is it’s because of you. I really love being with you. You have no idea how beautiful you are Ryeowook. And that I’m sure is what Kyuhyun loved about you.” He smiled, meaning each word.
He was then startled when Ryeowook suddenly hugged him, his suit getting wet by the other’s tears. “Ryeowook are you crying?”

“Thank you.” The smaller man simply stated. “Thank you so much.”
Sungmin smiled as his tears flow from his eyes, his heart fluttering at the other man’s sincerity. “Yah, stop crying, you should be happy. It’s your wedding!”

Ryeowook smiled as both of them chuckled at their drama.

“Guys, are you ready? Everything’s set and we’re just waiting for you.” The coordinator suddenly appeared, breaking their moment.

Sungmin smiled as he offered his hand to Ryeowook. “Ready?”

Ryeowook smiled and accepted it, walking hand in hand towards the small chapel. It was only a small celebration, with only a few close people invited as the two want it to be simple and intimate.

As the entourage starts marching, Ryeowook felt his heart bursting from happiness imagining himself being Mrs. Cho Kyuhyun in a few hours. His happiness even grew more as he sees his dashing groom, looking dreamily towards him. He wanted to cry from too much joy, but his heart seems to fall hard into hell when he realized that Kyuhyun wasn’t looking at him.

He looked at his front, and sure enough Kyuhyun was looking at Sungmin. He dropped his head down, afraid to show his sudden depression to everyone. He already knows that there’s something going on between the two, it was obvious by the way they look at each other, he himself can’t deny the tenderness and affection that emanates between the two, but he chose to play dumb and ignore all of it.

He looked back at Kyuhyun and saw longing in his eyes, matched with tenderness and.. love. A look he realized Kyuhyun had never directed to him, a tear escaped his eyes as his heart aches thinking how stupid he is for only realizing it now.

His tears were falling freely from his eyes, blocking his vision that he didn’t notice that he was already at the altar. He stared at Kyuhyun who gave him a small smile as he reached for his hand. His heart aches as he felt how cold the touch was.

His mind was flying elsewhere that everything that’s happening won’t register at him.

“Are you okay?” Kyuhyun whispered at him. He looked at his soon to be husband, not knowing what to say, but they broke from their gaze as the priest started asking them the question that would change their lives forever.

“Do you Cho Kyuhyun take Kim Ryeowok as your lawfully wedded husband? And promise to love, respect and honour him throughout your years together?”

Kyuhyun looked at Ryeowook, his heart getting heavier as they look at each other with so much hesitation. He then diverted his attention at the guy beside Ryeowook, and Ryeowook have to look away as his heart feels like being crash into pieces as he saw the action.

Sungmin looked away from Kyuhyun, his heart tightening as he feels the tension.

Kyuhyun bit his lips as he look back at Ryeowook who was now looking away from him, he then looked down before inhaling a deep breath and looked back at the priest. “I do.”

“Do you Kim Ryeowook take Cho Kyuhyun as your lawfully wedded husband? And promise to love, respect and honour him throughout your years together?”

Ryeowook looked at Kyuhyun and then to Sungmin, both sharing the same worried and tense expression in their eyes. He bit his lips at the silent war of thoughts in his head. He love Kyuhyun, oh goodness he love Kyuhyun but this…

He let his tears fall freely as he let himself utter his decision. “I do.”