Stages of Moving On
TITLE : Stages of Moving On
length : OneShot ; 2943 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin ; implied!SiMin
genre : Drama? Romance
rating : PG
summary : Kyuhyun had become Sungmin's life.. but now it;s time to move on
For @GaemSMl because i still owe her a fic.. I'm so sowee bb ;aaa;.. Kid!KyuMin doesnt love me Q.Q.. i hope ud like dis thou? ah idk.. *hides
i dont have MSWord ryt now ~ so there might be more grammar mistakes and typos than usual ;aaa;.... *hides4ever
DENIAL
All the evidence we're already presented right before his eyes but he chose to ignore it.
It started from those nights Kyuhyun would come home later than usual, that gradually increased to the young man not coming home at all. Sungmin will wait patiently for his lover to arrive, only to wake up the day after from the sounds of the door opening, signalling the arrival of his lover; sun already set, and Kyuhyun's favorite meal that Sungmin prepared the night prior already spoiled.
"We have too many things to finish at work that we have to stay until morning.."
"It's *insertname'Sugmin's not even sure is real' 's bday*.. we had too much fun that we lost track of time..."
..we're one of the zillions of excuses Kyuhyun would present to him... and stupid as he is, he believe every single one of it.
Next is that scent, that definitely wasn't Kyuhyun's, stenched on every shirt Kyuhyun had wore on those times. He doesn't know why, but there's just something on it that bugs him. Women's instict, they said, but man! he's not even a woman, so he just disregarded it as paranoia. He definitely need to cut down on soap operas.
Then there would be those times that Kyuhyun would receive a call, and his face would immediately lit up then the young man would lock himself inside the bathroom for hours, only laughters can be heard all trough-out. That and a bunch of things that made him worry.
But he never realy had the courage to ask Kyuhyun about it... He trust his husband, yes, he trust Kyuhun.
ANGER
He should've seen it coming really, but it still came as a shock to him as he saw it with his own two eyes.
It was supposed to be a joyful day. He was too busy being a dedicated house-wife that he doesn't have time to hang-out with his friends anymore; so Ryeowook - his bestfriend and co-teacher from his previous work had dragged him on one of their group's eat out, threatening to hate him forever if he didn't come, and an angry Ryeowook is definitely not a pleasant sight. But nonetheless, he was really happy with his decision, he missed Ryeowook and his friends too much that it felt so good to finally meet all of them again. He had been happy with his work but as he and Kyuhyun married and was blessed by a healthy baby boy, Kyuhyun had told him to stop, he was hesitant at first, teaching was his life, but since Kyuhyun had come, the young man had become his life. So he didn't think twice and agreed, but now as he saw that man he had offered his whole life with in the arms of another girl, all of his dreams we're shattered. He was mad, frustrated, not even words can describe the fury that's escalating inside his heart.
Before he could stop himself, he found his feet taking him to the "couple", his palm immediately finding it's way to his lover's cheeks.
"Min, baby."Kyuhyun gasped as he saw an enraged Sungmin in front of him and his mistress.
"Don't you fucking call me baby! How could you do this to me! You bastard!" He knew he would regret it afer, but that time nothing else matters, the growing number of people flocking towards them as if didn't exist as he let all of his anger out, the pain in his heart was too heavy that he wanted to let it all out. He need to let it all out, but every hit and words he threw towards Kyuhyun seemed not enough as the pain inside him felt like growing even more.
BARGAINING
"What the fuck! Stop causing a scene Min!" Kyuhyun shouted as he hastily pulled Sungmin out of the mall, away from the scrutinizing eyes of the people.
Sungmin scoffed. "How dare you! And I'm the one causing a scene?! You fucking ungrateful bastard! I've been nothing but faithful to you! How could you do this to me!" He screamed, as he felt frustration building inside him.
"Can you fucking shut up! This is what i hate about you! "
Sungmin froze from his position as Kyuhyun muttered those words.
"Fuck I'm so tired of this." Kyuhyun added before leaving him on that cold lifeless street, a mirror of his own heart.
"I hate you" - that word keeps on repeating inside his mind, he wasn't aware that Kyuhyun felt such towards him.. what happened to the i love yous and forever? Since when did the love change to hate?
Have he done something wrong? Was he not caring enough? Was he not sweet enough?
He shook his head out of the thoughts but his glance then fall on the reflection of himself by the window. His thoughts flew to that girl Kyuhyun was with earlier and then back to his own image. He laughed seeing how pathetic he was, he used to be the epitome of beauty, he did had lots of admirers back when he was younger, girls and even boys we're going crazy over his aegyo and breath-taking features but being a contented house-wife and dedicated mother of a healthy boy, he had forgotten about himself.
His bags visible, covering the life in his used to be sparkling eyes, pimples showing at his then flawless face that everybody envied,and an a visible couple of pounds he increased.
If he was still pretty like then, would Kyuhyun still love him?
That and a multitude of questions flashed in his mind as he reached home, but all of his questions and insecurities seemed to double as he saw Kyuhyun inside their room, bag in hand, as he threw a couple of shirts in.
"Where are you going?" He asked, his voice stuttering as tears flooded his voice.
"I'm sorry Min, I'm just too tired of all of this... I.. I just need some time to think things over. I'm really sorry. Goodbye."
Goodbye
That word seemed to hit something inside him, opening that faucet, as he started bursting out of tears. He run towards Kyuhyun, immediately clinging onto his back, preventing the younger on taking that one step that would lead him out of the door.
"Don't.. please don't..." Sungmin whispered trough tears as he tighten his hold on Kyuhyun, ".. I'll be better.. just tell me where I went wrong and I'll fix it I swear.. I love you so much. I beg you, please don't.. please don't leave me."
"It's not you Min.. I'm sorry... this would be the best for both of us... lets not hurt both of us more... I, I dont wanna hurt you even more.."
And he took that one step, breaking Sungmin into pieces, funny because this definitely hurt him the most.
DEPRESSION
Kyuhyun had become his life that it felt like his life was taken away from him the moment Kyuhyun left.
So what was the use of living really? Someone seemed to be chanting those words inside his head as he saw that blade at the top of the table as if telling him to go near. He trembled but everything felt so right as he took hold of the blade, he had always thought that suicide was stupid. Life was too good to end, even more with your own hands.
But that was back then when everything seemed perfect.
Everything's so painful that he just wanted to end all of it. He can't take it anymore, he needs something to stop it, someone to stop it, and without another thought, he slashed the blade on his wrist. He gasped at the pain, but the pain felt so good as it seemed to overpower the pain in his heart. He digged deeper.. and everything went blank.
ACCEPTANCE
Everything felt heavy as he adjusted his eyes at the sudden brightness. He immediately closed his eyes again, growling at the pain that shoot trough his head.
"Sungmin?! Oh my goodness he's awake! Sungmin's awake!" He heard a familiar voice shouting but everything felt so heavy that all he wants to do is close his eyes and go back to sleep, anything to take the pain away, but that's until he felt someone squeezed him, warm tears as if life brushing on his cold skin.
He slowly opened his eyes and there he saw his little baby, MinHyun crying as he mumble incoherent words on his mother's shoulder.
"Dont leave me again mommy."
He thought he had already felt the most pain when Kyuhyun left him, but he thought wrong as he felt his heart being crumpled into pieces the moment he saw the pain and sadness in his son's eyes, those he have caused.
"Oh baby, Mommy's sorry.. I love you baby. Mommy would never leave you." He sobbed as he hug his son tight.
"Really?"
Sungmin could only nod as he wipe MinHyun's tears away, his own tears falling uncontrollably.
"Don'y cry baby, Mommy loves you. I'll never leave you, I promise." and his heart shattered as he felt the other's tiny hands found it's way on his own face, wiping his tears away. He smiled as he finally felt his heart lighten up, laughing as he only realized now how stupid he was. He thought Kyuhyun was his life, he is. But not his whole life. He had just been a big part of it that he failed to notice that he's not the only one it consist of.
He smiled a sincere one as he felt a heavy burden being taken out of him. He hugged his son tightly in his arms, and looked around to see his mom, his dad, his brother and his friends looking back at him with a smile. He smiled back at them as he found even more reasons to live.
REBIRTH
"Kim Ryeowook!" Sungmin scolded his bestfriend as the younger man tries to push him inside the restaurant.
The young man had been bugging him about blind dates, stating he needed to find a new man better than that "asshole". He wasn't really sure if he's ready yet stating reasons after reasons to avoid the young man. Another one that bugs him was his appearance, he felt so ugly that he doesn't have the confidence that anyone would actually like him. Ryeowook gasped at that reasoning, immediately scolding his friend.
"Are you freaking kidding me?! Have you forgotten.. you're D' Lee Sungmin!"
"That was before. Look at me, I'm so ugly.." Sungmin sighed back, almost slipping to depression as he remembered his younger days. But Ryeowook didn't let that happen as he dragged Sungmin into the mall, and the next thing he knew, Ryeowook was prepping him up, and oh goodness he almost forgot his old bestfriend - his lovely eyeliner.
"Now this is definitely still D' Freaking Lee Sungmin!" Ryeowook squealed as he guided Sungmin towards the mirror.
Sungmin gasped, not really believing what he sees in the mirror.
"You're beautiful Min, I'd definitely tap you if I'm not in love with my Yeye"`
Sungmin only laughed at the statement.
And here he is now, being dragged by Ryeowook on a date.
"Cmon! Siwon's waiting for you inside."
"I.. I'm scared, what if he doesn't like me... What if.. "
"Oh he'll love you okay. Relax! Use your charm on him." Ryeowook winked before pushing Sungmin inside the restaurant, causing a commotion as he almost stumbled from the hard push. He felt his cheeks warmed up as he felt eyes towards him, but the heat increased, this time in a different reason, as he saw a hand being offered towards him.
"You must be Lee Sungmin."
"I.." Sungmin found himself lost in words as he lifted his face and saw the face that matched the beautiful voice. Oh fuck Ryeowook didn't told him Siwon was this nwkdlalcfa.
"It's nice to finally meet you. Ryeowook was right when he said you're beautiful.. even more to be honest."
He's a charmer, Sungmin's sure of it. He knows the other is playing with words to swoon him, but to heck! It's definitely working as Sungmin felt himself skipping like a highschool girl having her first crush. And maybe, giving this a chance would be a great idea after all.
He definitely had a great time and eveything was working great not until someone stepped in and made his world stop.
"Siwon!"
Sungmin froze from his spot, he definitely knew that voice. And his thoughts we're confirmed as the owner of it went towards their table. But what strike him was the sight of a lady clinged into the man's arms. He did felt a pain flashed inside him but what dominates inside him is anger. So he was depressed all along and here he was being happy with his girl?
"Sungmin?"
He lifted his head and he froze as their eyes locked into each other.
"You know Sungmin?" Siwon asked, oblivious of the growing tension between the air.
"Yes he just.. he look..."
"-he looks beautiful, isn't he?" Siwon grinned as he took Sungmin's hands to his.
Sungmin saw something flash in Kyuhyun's eyes with the action, as the younger stared, none too subtly, on the linked hands.
"Baby are you okay?" He heard the girl asked Kyuhyun.
He felt a tinge of pain flashed in his heart, the man was still his "husband" after all, but funny, he doesn't really care anymore, he had been in too much pain from the break-up that he's too tired of it.
He almost wasted his life for this man and he doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes all over again. He stood up, smiling a sincere smile, towards the three. "I'm sorry, I had a good time Siwon. Thank you, but I need to go."
"I'll send you home." Siwon hastily replied as he stood up from his seat, but Sungmin immediately stopped him. He doesn't want to use Siwon. He had a good time, yes, but as he think about it, he doesn't really need a man to be happy.
"I'm fine." He smiled, thoughts of Little MinHyun waiting for him in the house flooding his mind.
A NEW LIFE
He sighed as he inhaled the sweet wind of soul, the light ray of the sun felt so good as it flash towards his face.
It definitely was a beauiiful day, he was looking at the stores lined up on both sides of the street as he walk home, looking for somehing good to bring for MinHyun.
He's ready to have a "new life". A life where he wants to be a better person. But this time, not for Kyuhyun. He wanted to be better for himself. And he's planning to start today.
However his steps halted as he heard someone screaming his name. He turned back and his eyes doubled in size as he saw Kyuhyun running towards him.
"Don't date Siwon." Those we're the first words Kyuhyun muttered as he stopped right in front of Sungmin.
"What?" Sungmin asked, raising one of his brows as he look at the other man.
"I said don't date Siwon, you don't know Siwon.. he's..... he's not the one for you."
Sungmin scoffed, chuckling as he shakes his head. "And who's the one for me?.. You?"
"Yes."
Sungmin frozed from the abrupt answer, but sighed not wanting to fall for it.
"Stop this Kyuhyun. I've already moved on. Please don't make it any harder for me. Just... set me free." Sungmin pleaded as he turned around and walk away.
"No."
Sungmin frozed from his spot, his heart doing crazy beats as he heard steps going towards him.
"I can't. Not when I've learned my lesson and realized how an asshole i have been. I've made the biggest mistake in my life when I left you... it had always been you Min."
Sungmin tensed as the steps grew louder, the drumming in his heart, matching it's beat.
"I've always loved only you."
Sungmin gasped as Kyuhyun found his way in front of him, their faces inches apart, just like how Sungmin is so near on falling back to that line he swore he'll never go back in.
"Kyuhyun please, weren't you the one who broke this up. You're the one who said to stop this-"
"I never said anything about breaking-up or stopping what we have." Kyuhyun muttered before sighing and bowing his head down, "I was a fool. I was so stupid for even thinking I could leave without you. Please... please forgive me Sungmin. I love you so much.. can- can you give me a second chance?"
"Kyu.." Sungmin muttered, but he was too lost for words, his scared, this is definitely not part of his plan, he's supposed to start a new life - a life without Kyuhyun.
"Do you still love me?" Sungmin's thoughts we're stopped as he heard the other's question.
"I..." Sungmin started, he was scared to let the words out, but his heart screams the answer, and 6 years relationship with the man, Kyuhyun doesn't even need any words to hear it.
"Because I still do." Kyuhyun whispered and Sungmin felt something spark inside him as he saw sincerity in the younger's eyes. And it increased a multitude as he felt Kyuhyun's lips into his. He gasped as he felt something inside him burst.
The feeling felt like that first time Kyuhyun kissed him, hesitant yet sure. Too deep with passion that it had him burning in every inch of his being. And now he felt like he's back from the start.
oh fuck
length : OneShot ; 2943 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin ; implied!SiMin
genre : Drama? Romance
rating : PG
summary : Kyuhyun had become Sungmin's life.. but now it;s time to move on
For @GaemSMl because i still owe her a fic.. I'm so sowee bb ;aaa;.. Kid!KyuMin doesnt love me Q.Q.. i hope ud like dis thou? ah idk.. *hides
i dont have MSWord ryt now ~ so there might be more grammar mistakes and typos than usual ;aaa;.... *hides4ever
DENIAL
All the evidence we're already presented right before his eyes but he chose to ignore it.
It started from those nights Kyuhyun would come home later than usual, that gradually increased to the young man not coming home at all. Sungmin will wait patiently for his lover to arrive, only to wake up the day after from the sounds of the door opening, signalling the arrival of his lover; sun already set, and Kyuhyun's favorite meal that Sungmin prepared the night prior already spoiled.
"We have too many things to finish at work that we have to stay until morning.."
"It's *insertname'Sugmin's not even sure is real' 's bday*.. we had too much fun that we lost track of time..."
..we're one of the zillions of excuses Kyuhyun would present to him... and stupid as he is, he believe every single one of it.
Next is that scent, that definitely wasn't Kyuhyun's, stenched on every shirt Kyuhyun had wore on those times. He doesn't know why, but there's just something on it that bugs him. Women's instict, they said, but man! he's not even a woman, so he just disregarded it as paranoia. He definitely need to cut down on soap operas.
Then there would be those times that Kyuhyun would receive a call, and his face would immediately lit up then the young man would lock himself inside the bathroom for hours, only laughters can be heard all trough-out. That and a bunch of things that made him worry.
But he never realy had the courage to ask Kyuhyun about it... He trust his husband, yes, he trust Kyuhun.
ANGER
He should've seen it coming really, but it still came as a shock to him as he saw it with his own two eyes.
It was supposed to be a joyful day. He was too busy being a dedicated house-wife that he doesn't have time to hang-out with his friends anymore; so Ryeowook - his bestfriend and co-teacher from his previous work had dragged him on one of their group's eat out, threatening to hate him forever if he didn't come, and an angry Ryeowook is definitely not a pleasant sight. But nonetheless, he was really happy with his decision, he missed Ryeowook and his friends too much that it felt so good to finally meet all of them again. He had been happy with his work but as he and Kyuhyun married and was blessed by a healthy baby boy, Kyuhyun had told him to stop, he was hesitant at first, teaching was his life, but since Kyuhyun had come, the young man had become his life. So he didn't think twice and agreed, but now as he saw that man he had offered his whole life with in the arms of another girl, all of his dreams we're shattered. He was mad, frustrated, not even words can describe the fury that's escalating inside his heart.
Before he could stop himself, he found his feet taking him to the "couple", his palm immediately finding it's way to his lover's cheeks.
"Min, baby."Kyuhyun gasped as he saw an enraged Sungmin in front of him and his mistress.
"Don't you fucking call me baby! How could you do this to me! You bastard!" He knew he would regret it afer, but that time nothing else matters, the growing number of people flocking towards them as if didn't exist as he let all of his anger out, the pain in his heart was too heavy that he wanted to let it all out. He need to let it all out, but every hit and words he threw towards Kyuhyun seemed not enough as the pain inside him felt like growing even more.
BARGAINING
"What the fuck! Stop causing a scene Min!" Kyuhyun shouted as he hastily pulled Sungmin out of the mall, away from the scrutinizing eyes of the people.
Sungmin scoffed. "How dare you! And I'm the one causing a scene?! You fucking ungrateful bastard! I've been nothing but faithful to you! How could you do this to me!" He screamed, as he felt frustration building inside him.
"Can you fucking shut up! This is what i hate about you! "
Sungmin froze from his position as Kyuhyun muttered those words.
"Fuck I'm so tired of this." Kyuhyun added before leaving him on that cold lifeless street, a mirror of his own heart.
"I hate you" - that word keeps on repeating inside his mind, he wasn't aware that Kyuhyun felt such towards him.. what happened to the i love yous and forever? Since when did the love change to hate?
Have he done something wrong? Was he not caring enough? Was he not sweet enough?
He shook his head out of the thoughts but his glance then fall on the reflection of himself by the window. His thoughts flew to that girl Kyuhyun was with earlier and then back to his own image. He laughed seeing how pathetic he was, he used to be the epitome of beauty, he did had lots of admirers back when he was younger, girls and even boys we're going crazy over his aegyo and breath-taking features but being a contented house-wife and dedicated mother of a healthy boy, he had forgotten about himself.
His bags visible, covering the life in his used to be sparkling eyes, pimples showing at his then flawless face that everybody envied,and an a visible couple of pounds he increased.
If he was still pretty like then, would Kyuhyun still love him?
That and a multitude of questions flashed in his mind as he reached home, but all of his questions and insecurities seemed to double as he saw Kyuhyun inside their room, bag in hand, as he threw a couple of shirts in.
"Where are you going?" He asked, his voice stuttering as tears flooded his voice.
"I'm sorry Min, I'm just too tired of all of this... I.. I just need some time to think things over. I'm really sorry. Goodbye."
Goodbye
That word seemed to hit something inside him, opening that faucet, as he started bursting out of tears. He run towards Kyuhyun, immediately clinging onto his back, preventing the younger on taking that one step that would lead him out of the door.
"Don't.. please don't..." Sungmin whispered trough tears as he tighten his hold on Kyuhyun, ".. I'll be better.. just tell me where I went wrong and I'll fix it I swear.. I love you so much. I beg you, please don't.. please don't leave me."
"It's not you Min.. I'm sorry... this would be the best for both of us... lets not hurt both of us more... I, I dont wanna hurt you even more.."
And he took that one step, breaking Sungmin into pieces, funny because this definitely hurt him the most.
DEPRESSION
Kyuhyun had become his life that it felt like his life was taken away from him the moment Kyuhyun left.
So what was the use of living really? Someone seemed to be chanting those words inside his head as he saw that blade at the top of the table as if telling him to go near. He trembled but everything felt so right as he took hold of the blade, he had always thought that suicide was stupid. Life was too good to end, even more with your own hands.
But that was back then when everything seemed perfect.
Everything's so painful that he just wanted to end all of it. He can't take it anymore, he needs something to stop it, someone to stop it, and without another thought, he slashed the blade on his wrist. He gasped at the pain, but the pain felt so good as it seemed to overpower the pain in his heart. He digged deeper.. and everything went blank.
ACCEPTANCE
Everything felt heavy as he adjusted his eyes at the sudden brightness. He immediately closed his eyes again, growling at the pain that shoot trough his head.
"Sungmin?! Oh my goodness he's awake! Sungmin's awake!" He heard a familiar voice shouting but everything felt so heavy that all he wants to do is close his eyes and go back to sleep, anything to take the pain away, but that's until he felt someone squeezed him, warm tears as if life brushing on his cold skin.
He slowly opened his eyes and there he saw his little baby, MinHyun crying as he mumble incoherent words on his mother's shoulder.
"Dont leave me again mommy."
He thought he had already felt the most pain when Kyuhyun left him, but he thought wrong as he felt his heart being crumpled into pieces the moment he saw the pain and sadness in his son's eyes, those he have caused.
"Oh baby, Mommy's sorry.. I love you baby. Mommy would never leave you." He sobbed as he hug his son tight.
"Really?"
Sungmin could only nod as he wipe MinHyun's tears away, his own tears falling uncontrollably.
"Don'y cry baby, Mommy loves you. I'll never leave you, I promise." and his heart shattered as he felt the other's tiny hands found it's way on his own face, wiping his tears away. He smiled as he finally felt his heart lighten up, laughing as he only realized now how stupid he was. He thought Kyuhyun was his life, he is. But not his whole life. He had just been a big part of it that he failed to notice that he's not the only one it consist of.
He smiled a sincere one as he felt a heavy burden being taken out of him. He hugged his son tightly in his arms, and looked around to see his mom, his dad, his brother and his friends looking back at him with a smile. He smiled back at them as he found even more reasons to live.
REBIRTH
"Kim Ryeowook!" Sungmin scolded his bestfriend as the younger man tries to push him inside the restaurant.
The young man had been bugging him about blind dates, stating he needed to find a new man better than that "asshole". He wasn't really sure if he's ready yet stating reasons after reasons to avoid the young man. Another one that bugs him was his appearance, he felt so ugly that he doesn't have the confidence that anyone would actually like him. Ryeowook gasped at that reasoning, immediately scolding his friend.
"Are you freaking kidding me?! Have you forgotten.. you're D' Lee Sungmin!"
"That was before. Look at me, I'm so ugly.." Sungmin sighed back, almost slipping to depression as he remembered his younger days. But Ryeowook didn't let that happen as he dragged Sungmin into the mall, and the next thing he knew, Ryeowook was prepping him up, and oh goodness he almost forgot his old bestfriend - his lovely eyeliner.
"Now this is definitely still D' Freaking Lee Sungmin!" Ryeowook squealed as he guided Sungmin towards the mirror.
Sungmin gasped, not really believing what he sees in the mirror.
"You're beautiful Min, I'd definitely tap you if I'm not in love with my Yeye"`
Sungmin only laughed at the statement.
And here he is now, being dragged by Ryeowook on a date.
"Cmon! Siwon's waiting for you inside."
"I.. I'm scared, what if he doesn't like me... What if.. "
"Oh he'll love you okay. Relax! Use your charm on him." Ryeowook winked before pushing Sungmin inside the restaurant, causing a commotion as he almost stumbled from the hard push. He felt his cheeks warmed up as he felt eyes towards him, but the heat increased, this time in a different reason, as he saw a hand being offered towards him.
"You must be Lee Sungmin."
"I.." Sungmin found himself lost in words as he lifted his face and saw the face that matched the beautiful voice. Oh fuck Ryeowook didn't told him Siwon was this nwkdlalcfa.
"It's nice to finally meet you. Ryeowook was right when he said you're beautiful.. even more to be honest."
He's a charmer, Sungmin's sure of it. He knows the other is playing with words to swoon him, but to heck! It's definitely working as Sungmin felt himself skipping like a highschool girl having her first crush. And maybe, giving this a chance would be a great idea after all.
He definitely had a great time and eveything was working great not until someone stepped in and made his world stop.
"Siwon!"
Sungmin froze from his spot, he definitely knew that voice. And his thoughts we're confirmed as the owner of it went towards their table. But what strike him was the sight of a lady clinged into the man's arms. He did felt a pain flashed inside him but what dominates inside him is anger. So he was depressed all along and here he was being happy with his girl?
"Sungmin?"
He lifted his head and he froze as their eyes locked into each other.
"You know Sungmin?" Siwon asked, oblivious of the growing tension between the air.
"Yes he just.. he look..."
"-he looks beautiful, isn't he?" Siwon grinned as he took Sungmin's hands to his.
Sungmin saw something flash in Kyuhyun's eyes with the action, as the younger stared, none too subtly, on the linked hands.
"Baby are you okay?" He heard the girl asked Kyuhyun.
He felt a tinge of pain flashed in his heart, the man was still his "husband" after all, but funny, he doesn't really care anymore, he had been in too much pain from the break-up that he's too tired of it.
He almost wasted his life for this man and he doesn't want to repeat the same mistakes all over again. He stood up, smiling a sincere smile, towards the three. "I'm sorry, I had a good time Siwon. Thank you, but I need to go."
"I'll send you home." Siwon hastily replied as he stood up from his seat, but Sungmin immediately stopped him. He doesn't want to use Siwon. He had a good time, yes, but as he think about it, he doesn't really need a man to be happy.
"I'm fine." He smiled, thoughts of Little MinHyun waiting for him in the house flooding his mind.
A NEW LIFE
He sighed as he inhaled the sweet wind of soul, the light ray of the sun felt so good as it flash towards his face.
It definitely was a beauiiful day, he was looking at the stores lined up on both sides of the street as he walk home, looking for somehing good to bring for MinHyun.
He's ready to have a "new life". A life where he wants to be a better person. But this time, not for Kyuhyun. He wanted to be better for himself. And he's planning to start today.
However his steps halted as he heard someone screaming his name. He turned back and his eyes doubled in size as he saw Kyuhyun running towards him.
"Don't date Siwon." Those we're the first words Kyuhyun muttered as he stopped right in front of Sungmin.
"What?" Sungmin asked, raising one of his brows as he look at the other man.
"I said don't date Siwon, you don't know Siwon.. he's..... he's not the one for you."
Sungmin scoffed, chuckling as he shakes his head. "And who's the one for me?.. You?"
"Yes."
Sungmin frozed from the abrupt answer, but sighed not wanting to fall for it.
"Stop this Kyuhyun. I've already moved on. Please don't make it any harder for me. Just... set me free." Sungmin pleaded as he turned around and walk away.
"No."
Sungmin frozed from his spot, his heart doing crazy beats as he heard steps going towards him.
"I can't. Not when I've learned my lesson and realized how an asshole i have been. I've made the biggest mistake in my life when I left you... it had always been you Min."
Sungmin tensed as the steps grew louder, the drumming in his heart, matching it's beat.
"I've always loved only you."
Sungmin gasped as Kyuhyun found his way in front of him, their faces inches apart, just like how Sungmin is so near on falling back to that line he swore he'll never go back in.
"Kyuhyun please, weren't you the one who broke this up. You're the one who said to stop this-"
"I never said anything about breaking-up or stopping what we have." Kyuhyun muttered before sighing and bowing his head down, "I was a fool. I was so stupid for even thinking I could leave without you. Please... please forgive me Sungmin. I love you so much.. can- can you give me a second chance?"
"Kyu.." Sungmin muttered, but he was too lost for words, his scared, this is definitely not part of his plan, he's supposed to start a new life - a life without Kyuhyun.
"Do you still love me?" Sungmin's thoughts we're stopped as he heard the other's question.
"I..." Sungmin started, he was scared to let the words out, but his heart screams the answer, and 6 years relationship with the man, Kyuhyun doesn't even need any words to hear it.
"Because I still do." Kyuhyun whispered and Sungmin felt something spark inside him as he saw sincerity in the younger's eyes. And it increased a multitude as he felt Kyuhyun's lips into his. He gasped as he felt something inside him burst.
The feeling felt like that first time Kyuhyun kissed him, hesitant yet sure. Too deep with passion that it had him burning in every inch of his being. And now he felt like he's back from the start.
oh fuck