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| I'm falling in love again. I think it's time. I'm excited. | ||
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| Thursday, August 20th, 2009 |
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| I'm falling in love again. I think it's time. I'm excited. | ||
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| Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008 |
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| ayonks.blogspot.com | ||
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| Monday, November 17th, 2008 |
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So I'm going abroad this spring. I'm going to be in London from February to the beginning of June. I am so excited. I'm nervous too, but I know this experience is going to be amazing. On some level I feel like I'm using my study abroad as an excuse to run away from my life for a while... but maybe that isn't such a bad thing... |
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| Tuesday, March 11th, 2008 |
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I've begun to realize how much of a waste of time and money college is. It's a trap. Kids are pretty much forced to spend at least 4 years of their young adult life learning something that probably isn't going to have much of an impact on their life afterwards. At least I feel this is my position. As I get older, I realize how much I love learning..and I wish I could just learn for the sake of learning, not to take prescribed classes so I can get a degree. I could spend my money learning something I really love...like history or art...but neither of those are going to do my any real good when I graduate. I don't want to be a teacher or an artist. I would like to have a steady job to sustain myself. I know those aren't the only options for those avenues, but if I wanted to further my options for a job in that field I would have to go to school longer. I don't think it's fair for families to have to shell out thousands upon thousands of dollars on their child just so they can get a "better than average" job. Especially now that "better than average" jobs STILL mean you barely make enough money to live, let alone pay your mortgage. Sweet. It makes me sick how this economy is doing. Prices for everything are going up. Including wheat. People now have to pay more for bread. Tuition is going up. Gas is more expensive now in real dollars than it was during the OPEC crisis in the 70s. Granted, its still cheaper than pretty much everywhere else...But people are making LESS in real dollars than they were decades ago. So basically we're earning less and paying more for the same stuff. And I'm paying 8k out of MY OWN pocket (rather, a loan that I will be paying off from my own pocket) on top of the 10 that my parents are and the 8 that I get from being smart. I know i'm in a better position than some, but still. Other countries pay less for the whole term than we do for one year. I dont know...I guess what I'm trying to say is that college is no longer the luxury it once was. It's now a necessity, but the luxury price tag hasn't changed. I'm going to school to get a degree that will (hopefully) guarantee a decent job for me in a field I am midly interested in. However, I will probably leave that job when I want to have a family because (everybody prepare yourselves...) I really just want to be a mom. GOD FORBID. I want to be able to afford to have a family, so I guess that's why I'm in business school getting a marketing degree rather than an art history degree. I want to be able to have a family and live as comfortably as my family did/does. And be there for it. I hate nannys. I want to be the one to take care of my kid - not some random full-time babysitter. It frustrates me to no end that I have to go through this route to accomplish what was the norm 50 years ago. It's times like these when I really just want to leave school and move to another country where so much isn't expected from you. gah. I just don't understand. This really isn't where I want to be, but I can't get away from it without throwing away everything I want to become. It's a vicious cycle. </rant> |
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| Friday, January 4th, 2008 |
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| twenty years. i guess i'm really not a kid anymore. | ||
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| Tuesday, January 1st, 2008 |
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| oh jeez. its 2008. i'm stressed out for some reason. | ||
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| Saturday, December 29th, 2007 |
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| ( just so everyone knows i haven't fallen off the face of the planetCollapse ) | ||
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| Monday, July 30th, 2007 |
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i'm sitting here, listening to the crane wife and evan eating pretzels. the stress in my life has come to a head again. I can't deal with it much longer. I am the small child in a messy custody battle between my managers and its wearing me way too thin. i'm scheduled for 43 hours this week, not including the 6.5 i worked doing heavy labor yesterday morning in prep for a huge store change that natick is one of three in north america to take part in for the body shop. i'm not complaining (maybe a little) I mean, i wanted to be a part of that move, i just wish my managers would get over each other so i could actually have a day off. i love how my title is "part time assistant manager" but i work more than both of my managers...and isn't it kind of illegal to schedule people for more than 40 hours? especially because i'm only supposed to work 25?...um yea, sweet deal. I've worked every day since last wednesday and i dont see a day off in the next week or so. I dont know, i just feel like i'm losing touch with my life. I like the people i work with (with one exception), but i see them more than anyone else. I'm sorry i've fallen off the planet. if you want to see me i'll be at work, but i'll appreciate the distraction. we dont actually have a manager in wellesley. there's an "acting manager"..who is leaving on saturday. and I'm pretty much going to be in charge, which is great because I'm not going to get paid for the work that i'll be doing. I'm pretty much falling into that position and I won't be recognized for it. I talked to my district manager breifly about it today. It's all a mess and its compounding to a terrible mess in my well-being. and Evan and i cant find an apartment. I dont need any of this right now. I burned green tea home fragrance oil today at work and it reminded me of my room senior year, because i burned that scent. and for the first time i really missed being in that room; in that bubble. |
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| Monday, July 2nd, 2007 |
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well hello livejournal world. what a long time it has been. I've been around...sneakily reading and catching up on everyone but never getting the energy or will to post. Right now i'm laying on an inflatable bed in Evan's stepdad's record room (thats a room filled with records) in wichita, kansas. we drove here. it was long. i work at the body shop in natick and wellesley. stop by you massholes i know. um. i'm moving to boston at the end of the summer. i'm going to suffolk. my life is pretty good right now...thats probably why i dont update as much as i used to when i thought my life was SOOO SHITTY (8th - 10th grade?) yeah. i've had this baby for so long, i should just kill it. but i cant. its a part of me. so much of me is in this stupid online journal. it boggles the mind. |
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| Wednesday, April 11th, 2007 |
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today i gave blood. i felt good. until i got back to my dorm and almost passed out. i got up the hill to my dorm, then up the stairs to my floor and i had to pee, and by the time i got to the bathroom i was sweating profusely and shaking and nauseaus. so i got into a stall, almost collapsed while fiddling with my belt and then fell onto the toilet. i couldnt get back up. i was still shaking and sweating and nauseaus and i couldnt move. i couldnt take off my coat. it was terrifying. i thought i was going to pass out and someone was going to find me on the bathroom floor. how embarrasing. its one thing to pass out in your room or in the hallway, but in the bathroom...please. so i finally got the energy needed to walk the 20 feet more to my room and i collapsed onto my bed, which is where i am now, and i dont plan on moving. ever. again. i dont know if i want to give blood anymore. |
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| Monday, December 11th, 2006 |
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| ( yess, its the end of the year...you know what that means? STOLEN MEMES THAT SUM UP MY YEAR BY ASKING QUESTIONS!!!Collapse ) | ||
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| Thursday, November 2nd, 2006 |
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ok. so basically i really like unh. but i like evan more. and boston. i really want to go to school there next year, but i dont have the money my parents wont let me take out a loan, and they will only give me a certain amount of money. so i would need a job (duh..) where should i go? i'm looking at suffolk's sawyer business school. i dont know why, but i'm really stressed out about this... help me! |
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| ( my livejoural will slowly succumb to only meme's i steal from my friends.Collapse ) | ||
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| Saturday, October 14th, 2006 |
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damn. i never actually write in here anymore. oh well, its been too long anyway. i mean, i've had this thing since 8th grade. shit. that's crazy! but...i'm happy, alive and with evan! i saw a bunch of dana girls yesterday except ashely and aggie because they were both gone! wtf. but its ok because i hung out with edie and i'm going to see gemma tonight!!!!! and i'm bringing elio's pizza. |
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| Thursday, September 14th, 2006 |
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i got a parking spot!!!! wooooooot! now i can have my car here and drive down to f-ham (thats what i call it now) to visit evan!!! as much as i want!!! yay! so i'm getting an oil change tomorrow. i hate spending money. lame. |
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| Saturday, September 2nd, 2006 |
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here i am, in college. the other day jenny brought up degrassi, and i havent seen it in a while. and of course there is a marathon tonight. so i have to watch. and quite frankly. WHAT HAPPENED TO EVERYONE??? this is making me so upset!!! what happened to the cute environmentally friendly emma? what is this eating disorder thing????GAHH SHES SO SKINNY!! ew shes turned into a bitch!! i miss the old degrassi. emma and manni friends, the most scandalous thing was that manni wore a thong to school. this drama is killing me. but i cant stop watching. dun dun dun...i'm falling back into a teribble cycle of degrassiness. ITS SO INTENSE!!!! 100% |
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| Friday, August 25th, 2006 |
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| well shit, here i am...at college. | ||
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| Thursday, August 24th, 2006 |
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| Friday, August 11th, 2006 |
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so for the record -- terrorist plot foiled at heathrow yesterday. 21 people in custody (that i know of) and nobody is hurt (thankfully) but now there is chaos in british airports and you arent allowed to carry on anything except your passport, wallet and keys. so i will check EVERYTHING, and hopefully flights will have returned to a somewhat regular schedule by wednesday....when i intend on returning stateside. i am alive and there are no terrorists here. no worries! |
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| Tuesday, August 8th, 2006 |
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hello world, yes i am STILL alive, even though i'm not in the country. i managed to spend a week in london by myself and not get killed! hurrah! i'm halfway done with my trip and already have taken over 350 pictures. i'll send a slideshow to anyone who wants one. um. im hopelessly in love with my boyfriend, so for those of you whom i havent seen, you can blame it on that little fact. i'll try to get around to seeing you guys soon, like days when evan is working. because he is pretty much my life right now. and i'm happy with that. so england, its pretty rad. im in oxford now. and getting a little peckish. i might take a nap and then wander around town. or not. hell, i'm happy just to have a computer again. and yes, it will be weird to see tom (he's in spain right now, coming back tonight) but whatever, i'll just be like 'look, im spoken for, so paws off.' so yes, i am alive and doing well, and will speak to you all in due course! |
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LiveJournal for annie.
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gloomy.
tired.
anxious.