Pseudo-Monday blues
Virgo:: "There have never in history been so many opportunities to do so many things that aren't worth doing," wrote novelist William Gaddis. That's important for you to keep in mind during the coming weeks. You'll receive a flood of invitations, but only some of them will be intimately related to the unique work you're here on Earth to do. Those few may be so amazingly useful, though, that they could dramatically change your life for the better. Please say no to all the others so you can attend to the good stuff with your heart on fire and your mind as fluid as a mountain stream.
Forgot to post this last week, and yes, it's fairly indicative of my life at present. I feel like I'm running in a hamster wheel and getting nowhere, letting too many things fall through the cracks. And when I do have free time, I'm to tired or busy processing everything else that nothing gets done. I think I need to put myself on a social hiatus for awhile, drawing back until I have bigger life stuff sorted out. I've felt especially touchy lately, especially when in social situations, which is probably a good indicator that stepping back for awhile is probably wise. I was at a party yesterday, and over the course of about 8 hours or so, I had two wine coolers and two glasses of wine, and I ate/snacked all day. Even so, I felt completely looped for the whole day, somewhat claustrophobic, very sensitive, and not at all myself. Rob's right, I may be in for a dramatic life change, and soon. I guess we see how the cards play out.
I'm not feeling so great this morning. I feel lightheaded and nervous and strangely down. Unsettled. Kind of like when you suspect something is wrong, but you can't pinpoint what it is, specifically. Or maybe it's just radiated uneasiness from things that I know are wrong. Anyway. I had some meat with breakfast to ease the lightheadedness. I didn't sleep very well last night, either. That probably didn't help any. My nerves are shot already.
Long day ahead, and then I have practice with Flissy, then I start classes with a new teacher. Hopefully dancing can break me out of this funk.