Oy.

I just scheduled the first two of my mandatory three instructor-led driving sessions. As luck would have it, all three of their driving instructors are on vacation during the same week-- the week before I'm taking my test. Lovely.

On top of that, they don't schedule students to take their driving tests on Saturdays-- which means on top of taking a half-day on Sept. 11th so I can complete class #2, I'll have to take a half day on whatever workday I take my test. And if I fail it the first time, another half-day.

All this just to have a license-- since I can't afford car insurance on my wages after paying $200/mo. student loans, rent, my credit card bill, and groceries. For real, being young and poor and just out of college sucks royally. Realistically, I'll have to change jobs before I get a car. I'm lucky that my cousin has offered me use of her antediluvian vehicle, lovingly named 'Putt Putt', until I get something better, but it's the insurance that may well break the bank, with me being a new driver and all. And even if I could afford it, I would be seriously, seriously without any coin leftover for spending money. Of course, changing jobs looks like it's going to have to happen soon anyhow, but to have to do it for financial reasons just makes it suck even more.

And if one more clueless relative without any other small talk to make asks, "So, Chris, how's the driving coming?" I am going to fucking hit something. My mother didn't get her license until 24, and at age 43, she still has never owned her own car. Not to mention that my closest cousin didn't get her license until 24, either. Why the hell are they all acting like I'm so freaking unusual for waiting? Perhaps if I'd been bought a car two cars and had my insurance paid for the first year like my brother had done for him, I'd have a fucking car. (Tangent-- and he's dropped out of college once so far, owes them in excess of three thousand dollars, and is not charged rent despite working for the NSA.) But no, the money that I could have set aside for a car went towards rent, because my fucking parents charged me rent when I moved home those first seven months after college. And I'm still paying rent, and groceries, and bills, and student loans on top of it. SO FUCKING STUFF IT.

Everybody says that getting your license is supposed to be so liberating. All I can muster is, 'eh, what a pain in the ass.'