Blessed Beltane
If ever there were a day to go out and make love in a field, this is the day. Alas, tonight is the first Beltane in five years that I'll be spending all by my lonesome. That's kind of disheartening, but I'll cope. I can start on my unblocking ritual, I guess. Or spend some time on the swings if I can get out a little early.
Overall, I'm just kind of frustrated today. First of all, it's Monday, the bane of my existance. Second of all, my stomach is tied in knots. Third of all, I've only been in the office for twenty minutes and already I'm fantasizing about taking off for lands unknown.
In honesty, I'm contemplating another move. Ashley was talking to me about how I'd be able to get a place in Annapolis relatively close to her & Heather for about $500/mo. If I worked for one of the firms down there, I could swing that. I'd also have the added bonus of being practically walking distance to lots of interesting places, plus I'd be much closer to my friends. And me not feeling so isolated all the time can only be a good thing, right?
While I'm grateful for this job and my current living arrangements, I can't help but feel that they're only transitional. I like my roommate a lot, but she's going through a divorce, and she's mentioned that she doesn't know how much longer it'll be until she packs up and moves. The house is too full of memories for her. I can understand that. And, as much as I care for Skyler, this job and that house are far too tied into his life, into his family unit. I can't help but wonder about the awkwardness if he and I broke up, so I think a little less overlap would probably be for the better.
I don't know when exactly this move would go down-- I guess I'm going to start checking into the job situation. See if it's financially workable and all that. That would send my bills up to approximately $1,250/mo., and that's without a car. Well, I suppose I could consolidate my student loans and all that.
There are three things that I am quite happy about, however. Thing one is the cutest letter ever from
musie_muse, thing two is a care package featuring Pink Martini's Hang on Little Tomato from bellybalt, and thing three is that the four Twilight Alchemy Lab oils that I ordered on last Wednesday arrived on Sunday. That's less than a week's turnaround. That's unheard of. I'm quite amazed.
Overall, I'm just kind of frustrated today. First of all, it's Monday, the bane of my existance. Second of all, my stomach is tied in knots. Third of all, I've only been in the office for twenty minutes and already I'm fantasizing about taking off for lands unknown.
In honesty, I'm contemplating another move. Ashley was talking to me about how I'd be able to get a place in Annapolis relatively close to her & Heather for about $500/mo. If I worked for one of the firms down there, I could swing that. I'd also have the added bonus of being practically walking distance to lots of interesting places, plus I'd be much closer to my friends. And me not feeling so isolated all the time can only be a good thing, right?
While I'm grateful for this job and my current living arrangements, I can't help but feel that they're only transitional. I like my roommate a lot, but she's going through a divorce, and she's mentioned that she doesn't know how much longer it'll be until she packs up and moves. The house is too full of memories for her. I can understand that. And, as much as I care for Skyler, this job and that house are far too tied into his life, into his family unit. I can't help but wonder about the awkwardness if he and I broke up, so I think a little less overlap would probably be for the better.
I don't know when exactly this move would go down-- I guess I'm going to start checking into the job situation. See if it's financially workable and all that. That would send my bills up to approximately $1,250/mo., and that's without a car. Well, I suppose I could consolidate my student loans and all that.
There are three things that I am quite happy about, however. Thing one is the cutest letter ever from
musie_muse, thing two is a care package featuring Pink Martini's Hang on Little Tomato from bellybalt, and thing three is that the four Twilight Alchemy Lab oils that I ordered on last Wednesday arrived on Sunday. That's less than a week's turnaround. That's unheard of. I'm quite amazed.