I don't know what's the matter with me. This doesn't feel like depression, but what ever it is, I just can't seem to shake it. Everything's fine one moment, and then the next, I'm really morose, and I just want to scream or cry or hit my pillow until all the feathers spill out. I'm starting to worry a bit about myself. I want to stop feeling like I'm in a little dome where my breath fogs up the glass in front of me. Everything's blue, and I might smile for a little while. Then it all goes away, and I'm back to where I started.