In OBX. Got bad news from Olive's neuro on the way down. The proteins in her spinal fluid were so high that he cannot rule out all cancers. He is still seeking other opinions. My anxiety will not calm. I am not crying, but I can't laugh or relax, either. Were it not for the anxiety, I'd be numb. It's all I can do to not be a debbie downer and mar everyone else's much deserved vacation. I want off this rollercoaster.

Also, the more I stew on it, the more I realize how poorly written the ending is. I get it from a realism standpoint, but it was just so unsatisfying, for reasons I'll go into once I can put spoilers behind a cut. Plus it was so damn repetitive and passive. I am disappointed.