I texted a little with Mike today. Simple how-do-you-dos, nothing more. I thanked him for his holiday greetings, because it meant a lot to me.

I finally added Ashley and Heather back to my Myspace top people, as I can now look at their respective pages without breaking down when I scroll halfway down the page.

I am not upset, I am not crying. I'm actually quite content.

I'm proud of myself. Go team me.

This is progress.

Virgo:: In Kabbalah, the tree of life is the primary symbol of the universe. In Norse mythology, the World Tree links heaven to earth and shelters all living things; beneath it lies a magical well with water that confers special powers on those who drink it. The ancient Chinese spoke of a peach tree that bore a single fruit once every three millennia, and provided immortality to anyone who ate it. In the mythic tradition of modern science, trees have a crucial role in maintaining the ecological health of the planet. I mention all this, Virgo, because in 2007 you'll benefit tremendously from deepening your relationship with trees--both the actual and mythical kinds. Get to know them better. Learn from them. Plant some. Put a picture of a favorite tree on your altar. Hug one now and then.

Virgo:: Mytho-poetic scholars say that honey symbolizes emotional maturity. When it appears in your dreams or reveries, it may mean you're expanding your capacity to experience feelings that are positive and healthy for you. It suggests you're ready to shed distorted psychological patterns that you unwittingly absorbed as a child, and replace them with new imprints that are in harmony with your highest values. Since 2007 will bring opportunities for you to do these exact things, Virgo, I suggest that you give honey an honored place in your life. Maybe buy some of the best stuff on the market, put it in a fine decanter, and keep it on an altar in your bedroom. Happy Holy Daze!

You know, that's not a bad idea. With all the drama that 2006 brought, my spirituality really took a backseat. My altar needs to be re-done entirely, and before that, I need to do a complete cleansing of my bedroom. I want things neat, tidy, pleasing to the eye. And more importantly, I need to clear out the cobwebs of negative energy and stagnation that have been hanging around for far too long. Tough times are here, and tough times are a-comin', and life doesn't stop just because things get hard. And really, as hard as things have been, I'm making baby steps in the right direction-- thank yous, kinder words, speaking from the heart, little repairs here and there. It's all good.

I like the idea of honey. Maybe I will buy a beautiful crystal bottle for some and keep it on the altar. Not that I want to catch flies, exactly. But it is a nice symbol. Sweetness and luxury borne of hard work. I like it.

2007 Resolutions:

1. Cry less, smile more. At the very least, wear waterproof mascara.
2. Treat others with grace. Speak from the heart.
3. Grow, and support others while they do the same.
4. Take no shit, even well-intentioned shit.
5. Do a complete negative-energy purge in my bedroom. Clean and smudge.

So, I'm on the fence about my hair.

I did the top layer of my hair strawberry blonde and the bottom layers pink.

On one hand, the pink looks awesome. On the other, it doesn't quite match the strawberry blonde on top. This is perhaps because the strawberry blonde ended up much much more orange than it did on the box, and not nearly as light, despite my applying it to lightened hair. Also, the bleach didn't lighten the ends so well.

It doesn't look bad, per se. Just... a little off. On the plus side, I can wear it all sorts of ways. Pulled back, it looks almost exclusively pink. And when the pink fades, the strawberry blonde / champagne blonde combo created by the bleach looks absolutely awesome. Honestly, I was a little tempted not to use the pink at all, because it gave off such a cool iridescent look. And when this shade fades, it gives off a really nice soft coral look. Maybe I just need to adjust to it a little more.

So. I'm gonna let it sit a day. If I don't like it still tomorrow, I'll ask Abby to make a pit stop at the Sally Beauty and I'll do my whole head pink, because at least I know that looks fabulous on me.

I would take pictures, but honestly, I'm super exhausted so I think I'm just going to climb under the covers and turn in for the night.