One of the rules you always hear in the craft is not to talk about a spell that's in progress. Spells need time to percolate on their own, to gather power. I have found this quite useful in my work, but at times, it proves near impossible, especially when a particularly potent spell is cleansing your life like saltwater. That said, I've begun to supplement a change already begun in my life with spellwork-- my goal is to return to calm and balance, to love myself again after a period of being so unhappy. I need to cleanse lingering sorrow for my life, because a rose cannot bud in shallow soil. The ground has slowed in its rocking beneath my feet, and it's time to feel whole again, complete unto myself. I can feel the spell beginning to work. I will discuss it at some later time, but I did want to mark the change I'm experiencing in my life.
There are trials yet to go through, but when my roots are firm again, they will be easier to overcome. I cannot let myself backpedal. I will not settle for anything less than wholeness and fulfilment.
I'm going dancing again tomorrow evening. With work being what it is, it's been rare that I've gotten to go. I need to buy myself some nicer dancing shoes. The ones I have are very cute, but I'd like something a little easier to do kicks in. I'm hoping that I won't be so exhausted from waking up so early that I'll be cranky, as I unfortunately was last week. I slept all the way home. At least tomorrow is big band night-- hopefully, that will keep me energized.
If any of you in the MD area would like to learn swing dancing, go to FridayNightSwing.Com and look up the venue. It's only $12, and it's a whole lot of fun.
On a sad note, our 13 year-old cat, Martin, is being put to sleep this evening. He's been very sick for months now, and Adrian just didn't have the heart to take him in, but it's been time. He cries near constantly because he's blind and diabetic. He vomits most of his food and is subsequently withering away. He's been a good cat, and increasingly loveable from his young and feral years (we got him because he was abused by a previous owner). I will have other thoughts on this later, but mostly I'm relieved that his ordeal is nearly over.
There are trials yet to go through, but when my roots are firm again, they will be easier to overcome. I cannot let myself backpedal. I will not settle for anything less than wholeness and fulfilment.
I'm going dancing again tomorrow evening. With work being what it is, it's been rare that I've gotten to go. I need to buy myself some nicer dancing shoes. The ones I have are very cute, but I'd like something a little easier to do kicks in. I'm hoping that I won't be so exhausted from waking up so early that I'll be cranky, as I unfortunately was last week. I slept all the way home. At least tomorrow is big band night-- hopefully, that will keep me energized.
If any of you in the MD area would like to learn swing dancing, go to FridayNightSwing.Com and look up the venue. It's only $12, and it's a whole lot of fun.
On a sad note, our 13 year-old cat, Martin, is being put to sleep this evening. He's been very sick for months now, and Adrian just didn't have the heart to take him in, but it's been time. He cries near constantly because he's blind and diabetic. He vomits most of his food and is subsequently withering away. He's been a good cat, and increasingly loveable from his young and feral years (we got him because he was abused by a previous owner). I will have other thoughts on this later, but mostly I'm relieved that his ordeal is nearly over.
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