So. Religious stuff. Considering I'm not the most overtly religious person in the world, this is a fairly rare thing.
As I posted when I got my pentacle, more and more, I've been feeling a pull to my faith. It's like an ocean tide, pulling me in. I'd been a solitary for three years, and it never bothered me much because it's given me all the freedom in the world to study what I want and adapt rituals however I choose and generally be very independent.
Except more and more, I've been itching to work with others. A circle or coven, I can't say it matters to me. Maybe a circle would be a good choice for the moment-- there are circles that meet in Westminster that I've begun to interact with. But eventually, if I find somewhere that fits, I'd like to be part of a coven: a closed, regular group.
Also, in the three years I've been a practicing witch, I've learned an awful lot. But it's all been book-taught. I want a teacher. An in-person, one to one teacher. I want to be damn sure that I don't think I know more than I actually do, I want to make sure I'm not learning unevenly, and I want someone with a hands-on approach. It's a great frustration that my lack of car due to money and such limits my mobility. I probably won't be able to search for a suitable teacher until after college graduation, and that's over a year away.
I feel like I'm being called, I just don't know to what. All I know is that I've been taking things much more seriously lately, even if it's only taking a half hour or so every day to do something faith-related. I feel like I'm growing, but that I want to grow far beyond the confines posed by my current situation.
A High Priestess came to religion class today because we've been doing a mini-unit on Paganism, Wicca, & Witchcraft. Even if the circle she cast was very brief and designed for those who'd never been exposed to Wicca before, it was a genuine treat because I've never been able to see a HP cast a circle before. The class lecture/discussion was mostly the usual questions: "Do you believe in God?" "Is Wicca a religion or just practicing witchcraft?" "Where do you think we go after death?" and so on. Debbie was such a character. She definitely knew her stuff, but she was being larger than life with her whacky humor. I think that Dr. Nituma sensed that the class needed more of a normalizer/differing perspective, so she kept putting me on the spot as well. Usually I have so much to say that it kind of jumbles out and I end up being tongue tied. It came very easy-- and for that, I was grateful. I was happy that I didn't make myself look like a fluffy bunny. Go me.
She gave me a tarot reading after class and I got much what I'd expected. Things that came up were the Magician and the World. Basically, the gist is that the cards reflected that I've been buckling down, maturing in my path. It made me nearly glow when she said that I was exactly where I'm supposed to be-- I've got a firm grasp on my abilities and I'm ripe for growth, whereas before my energy had been a bit too scattered. She said to me, "Welcome to the world, to the spiral dance. You have exactly what you need. You're finally here." I hadn't even told her that my question regarded the future of my spiritual path. And then she hugged me. And it felt right. I feel like I'm heading toward something that will be just like home.
Also, she invited me to come to a one-day-a-month teaching circle that she hosts at her home. It's a step in the right direction, and Heather said that she could probably give me a ride if not be an observer herself. :) So that's of the good.
Also. I passed my Hsing Yi practicum. I also gave one of my classmates a rune reading. Lots of those lately. It's been an all around good energy day.
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