So, tonight was Behind Closed Doors II, where returning RAs enact scenes to test how the new RAs deal.

I got picked to be suicide girl.

I had to enact FIVE suicidal tantrums and evaluate how the members dealt with the situation while still following strict emergency policies.

I even made myself do the hysterical crying thing, which wasn't too hard because two of them fumbled so badly, they'd be of no real help in the actual situation other than to call people who can actually deal. I think my boss got the hint that the scenario was completely fucked to hell when I asked one guy, "What can I do to get you to leave?"

One of the girls talked me down expertly, though. So that was good. Word is, I scared people who even know me well.

But damn, being suicidal really drains a girl.