Day Two

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.

1. My voice has gotten a lot lower since I stopped singing classical music. I was a soprano 1. I had an easy high D. I haven't sung in several years, 'cause let's face it, it was something I was good at, but it was never a real passion. It was a means to surrounding myself with artistic people and developing myself as an artist. Anyhow, now, I'm much more of an alto. The voice is like any other muscle... if you stop stretching it, it's not as flexible. I like to sing in general, for fun. I need to start flexing that muscle again.

2. I struggle a lot with my weight. I've gained about 25 lbs since college, and that's hard. I don't think I'm fat, but I am uncomfortable with myself a lot of times. It's weird, as I have no feelings whatsoever on anyone else's weight. I just have an idea of what I should look like, and my current body is much softer than that. I wish there was a magical pill that could force me to exercise, since that's my big weakness. I don't overeat or eat poorly. I'm doing a whole lot better with sweets than I used to. It really is that I have a hard time forcing myself to exercise regularly. I get bored, and I'm oftentimes too busy to set aside that time. I wish I could accept my own body like I accept others'.

3. I'm deeply conflicted about having children. Before we got married, I made sure to tell J that. But I'm worried about five years down the line. I am the type of person that would be totally okay with not having biological kids, and adopting in my late 30's or 40's. Jason really wants biological kids. But I'm selfish... bio kids mean having them earlier; they mean lots of bodily changes that I don't want. I am worried that it will become an issue later in my marriage. Maybe my opinion will change. I don't know.

4. I love Christmas music. Except "Last Christmas," "Simply Having a Wondeful Christmastime," "Do They Know It's Christmastime?," and that awful one that's a riff on Pachelbel's canon. Those can GTFO. But Christmas music... especially the old standards... cheer me up and make me feel warm inside.

5. I believe in past lives. I don't think everyone who claims to be Cleopatra or Marie Antoinette is telling the truth, mind. But I have had vivid enough connections / dreams about other times and places that I think there's some merit to the theory. I don't know if everyone gets reincarnated or anything else about death, but I think some people definitely get more than one go at it.

6. If I could have any plastic surgery free of charge, I'd totally have a nose job. I don't think I'm more vain than most people, and I've never fixated on it particularly. But there's a bump at the end of my nose that has always bugged me, so if it were free, I'd go for it. A subtle trim. I'd like to have a breast reduction later in life, but that'll be more medical than cosmetic. I don't intend to get past a DD, and when I do, it'll be time to find a surgeon.

7. I often feel like I'm just on the outskirts of any social circle I participate in, and I often have a lot of insecurity about that. I've often felt optional, like I might be the last one to be picked for kickball. I'm also very self-conscious in many social situations, even if I don't seem to be-- I know I have a very blunt way of presenting myself, and I'm never sure if I'm coming off douchey and too forward rather than authentic. I have individual friends I'm close with, but I can't say I've ever been completely at home in a circle of friends. Maybe that's why I've always been very partner-oriented. I know I at least belong somewhere, with someone.

8. I started my own business not because I had an overwhelming artistic desire, but because I got sick and tired of working for micro-managers who would not trust me to do my job. I'm a really good worker. When I know what I have to do, I can prioritize and budget my time and get things done. But I don't take well to being treated like a child or talked down to, and many of the small-business bosses I've had have done exactly that... because a lot of small business owners have no skill for management. Luckily for me, my gamble paid off, and now Sihaya Designs is my passion. It's the best job I've ever had, bar none.

9. I drink, on average, four mugs of tea a day.

Wow, that was hard. I really struggled to find stuff I haven't talked about in previous memes. Given that I've been on LJ for 8 years now... yeah.

I have all the updateyness done except photography/photoediting. Hopefully I'll get that done tomorrow.