Excess Ain't Rebellion

It's been a long time

2012-03-05T01:57:47Z

Hello friends. It has been a very long time indeed since I posted here. SO so so so much in that time. Incredible work. Divorce.Moving. New love. Moving again. Yes, I now live in Austin, TX. I have wanted to come and write, but every single time I looked at a blank journal page, I froze. What to say. So awkward. So exhausted. But, here I am, now. Feeling a bit more like a real, live person. Still up in the air, but I can see the earth now. I am living with my partner Simon. I got here in November. A couple trips and the holidays, and some settling in are the chief pursuits of the last months. Yesterday we set up the garage as a studio. We must be far along at settling me in. I have also been getting to know town, and, more so really, the wild areas of Austin. I put back on most of the 15 pounds I lost and hence people are no longer horrified at my appearance. I have found No Shame Theater here. I have watched movies and all of Downton Abbey. I spent last year in Berkeley, CA with my dear, dear college friend Christine. My hair is quite long and has big fat blond chunks in a few spots. My hands still bother me, but I am seeing a magical chiropractor who is helping me. I did a period book cover last year. I have a picture on a vinyl record coming out soon. Not too much shooting work, but some archive orders in the last year. Still sorting out the next step professionally. Thinking of taking a year's cycle here in Austin before really trying to sort out our next master plan. Life - who knew? I mean to start writing now, so I hope I will find words to share here. I have been reading the whole time I have been away. So, it has been nice to feel you all out there. xo

I admit that I have been waiting for Poetry Month

2010-04-02T00:28:30Z

And, here, to begin, that most enigmatic of forms, the cestina.

Paysage Moralise

Hearing of harvests rotting in the valleys,
Seeing at end of street the barren mountains,
Round corners coming suddenly on water,
Knowing them shipwrecked who were launched for islands,
We honour founders of these starving cities
Whose honour is the image of our sorrow,

Which cannot see its likeness in their sorrow
That brought them desperate to the brink of valleys;
Dreaming of evening walks through learned cities
They reined their violent horses on the mountains,
Those fields like ships to castaways on islands,
Visions of green to them who craved for water.

They built by rivers and at night the water
Running past windows comforted their sorrow;
Each in his little bed conceived of islands
Where every day was dancing in the valleys
And all the green trees blossomed on teh mountains,
Where love was innocent, being far from cities.

But dawn came back and they were still in cities;
No marvellous creature rose up from the water;
There was still gold and silver in the mountains
But hunger was a more immediate sorrow,
Although to moping villagers in valleys
Some waving pilgrims were describing islands . . .

'The gods,' they promised, 'visit us from islands,
Are stalking, head-up, lovely, through our cities;
Now is the time to leave your wretched valleys
And sail with them across the lime-green water,
Sitting at their white sides, forget your sorrow,
The shadow cast across your lives by mountains.'

So many, doubtful, perished in the mountains,
Climbing up crags to get a view of islands,
So many, fearful, took with them their sorrow
Which stayed them when they reached unhappy cities,
So many, careless, dived and drowned in water,
So many, wretched, would not leave their valleys.

It is our sorrow. Shall it melt? Then water
Would gush, flush, green these mountains and these valleys,
And we rebuild our cities, not dream of islands.

-- W. H. Auden

I know I have not been around, but a request for input

2010-03-03T17:58:40Z

Hey Folks - I know, I have not been around here much. The madness is hot and heavy around here, and you'll mostly find me shucking and jiving over at Facebook as a professional focus especially.

In the mean time, I have a question for the serious ebayers out there.

I just sold my Noblex panorama camera to a person in Thailand. Before I sold it, I put fresh batteries in it and tested its finicky self out at all speeds, wherein it performed like a champ. I did not send it to the shop for eval, but it appeared good to my professional user's eye.

Well, said buyer has gotten the camera. He says he has another (he? she? I think Chusak is a male name...) Noblex and that this one is not working at slow speeds, needing help to finish its rotation for exposure. Now I am not one to call someone a liar. But where do I go with this? Is it true? If so, is it my fault? He wants me to look into getting it fixed for him, which would likely involve several hundred dollars in international shipping and fees. I did not have returns on it and I do not want to take it back (hello loss of $60 in shipping). But that would be cheaper. ALso, what if it is not working and it is his fault? That's not fair. It was shipped in it's original form fitted styrofoam and box, plus in an exterior box filled with peanuts.

Any ideas on how this should go? I so do not want the angst. Nor do I want to suck up $60 in shipping.

I have suggested he run a roll of film through it in case his judgement is off. But really, again, what if he killed the camera? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

Happy New Year

2010-01-02T06:11:11Z

Well, the holiday greetings and wrap up has been slow in coming, most especially since Lee has been so sick. But, I wanted to get it out here on New Year's before that festive feeling fades and I can be accused of being, well, lame. It was a jam packed year. If we have left something out (which we must have since the letter was not 16 pages long this year), feel free to suggest an addition : )

Without further ado, and with much love and hope for joyous and rewarding new year:

Moyers 2009 - card, letter, and slide show

alys695Asmall

2010-01-02T01:44:24Z

alys695Asmall, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

My first post of 2010. Off we go! This time last year I had no idea I'd be known as the mermaid photographer. Now my goals are deeply wrapped up in making this body of work expand and progress. Here is our young guest Alys from the summer. It is ajust a proof for her, but I like where it appears to be headed, difficult exposure or not.

091221LeFleurPR-260C

2009-12-24T07:58:20Z

091221LeFleurPR-260C, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Pendulum's Duo L&S - Luis and Suzanne in their new trapeze act Le Fleur. HOT STUFF!

Vindication!

2009-12-23T04:59:49Z

I received notice yesterday athat one of my pieces was accepted for the Ex Arte Equinus competition by Art Horse Magazine. It was awarded 3rd place in the photography category. Entering was one of my launch activities - I am so pleased!

While many of you may have seen this on his journal....

2009-12-12T02:37:14Z

I wanted to share this holiday image that Lee did for Iraq Veterans against the war. Please send it to any vets you know - we want them to know people are thinking of them and working for their benefit.
http://www.ivaw.org

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2009-12-09T21:55:39Z

0910PinupStacey-57BFlat, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

It has been fun watching her make people stutter. I can't believe she's never really modeled before. Henna by rovinghorse at Roving Horse Henna.

Little opening

2009-12-09T06:29:14Z

Equigraphic.com is finally up!!!

2009-11-12T01:43:53Z

Oh, I can't believe it - my all horse web site is up! And, it is beautiful. Please visit and link it up to help me establish my presence on the web!!

http://www.equigraphic.com

Another from this summer

2009-11-10T05:37:42Z

Requested by the model's mama. For her body painting portfolio : )

Halloween hilarity

2009-11-01T22:26:13Z

With my old glasses on the pearl chain, my short skirt and tight sweater last night, I was asked by a charming corseted fairy if I was a "sexytary". "Excuse me, *I have a degree*. I am not a sexytary, I am a sexylibrarian, thank you very much."

; )

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2009-10-23T23:36:21Z

_DSC7707, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Probably the best fall day we will have in Portland. Thank goodness I had some pre-wedding portraits to shoot and a handy Cathedral Park/St Johns bridge nearby.

Are 2 Liz's better than one?

2009-10-22T04:40:55Z

mermaid6957

2009-10-21T17:39:40Z

mermaid6957, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

ix mermaids since I last posted. Oh am I wanting to get in the water...

A Day at Chez Moyer

2009-10-20T22:06:58Z

I have:
*Raged at Facebook.
*Made a sparkly green mermaid tail.
*Cleaned the garage studio and filled tank (mylar fail - ah well, next time).
*Broke down indoor studio.
*Hung blackout fabric.
*Read more about the flu vaccines.

Next:
*Clean buckets for return to the hammerheads.
*Roll airbed for return to mr_nice_gaius
Set up lighting.
*Make regular flu shot appointment, await availability for the h1n1.
*Play with new mica mermaid makeup.
*Do it!
*Pass out.
Soak arms in cold water.

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2009-10-19T06:21:51Z

_DSC6849, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

A sneak peek from this weekends henna and photo madness. So much pretty. Henna, naturally by rovinghorse. More credit/info as models/etc see things. It has only visited Lightroom so far and was seen on laptop screen - pardon if it shows.

Dreams can be weird.

2009-10-11T18:13:14Z

I had a dream last night that my eyes were sewn shut. I seem to recall that I was kind of taken aback by this idea and felt kind of rolled by it happening but did not know what to do. When they began to heal, I could open them a little bit, like peeping through a very narrow crack and was making noises about how this was not going to work out this was going to have to change and thinking about whether I could just snips the little Xs of sturdy thread myself. Um, any analysts out there? It is rather odd that as a photographer and one prone to nightmares, this dream did not feel particularly urgent or terrifying.

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2009-10-07T23:05:39Z

091007AnnalieseHeadShot-125Dsmall, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Self portrait head shots are never all that, but... what the heck. Commercial audition this morning meant a need was highlighted.

091001PendulumCirqueWeb-24

2009-10-03T05:27:01Z

091001PendulumCirqueWeb-24, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Makeup for Pendulum Aerial. She reminds me of Bette Davis. I need to dull out some of the browns, but I am just enjoying playing in LR.

New Tattoo

2009-10-01T19:24:00Z

Life is short. It was time for more ink. It has Shakespeare, hints of the barn (swallow), it's way more cheerful, it's designed by Lee, and applied by Miss Mikal Gilmore at New Rose Tattoo in SE PDX. I LOVE IT!

MermaidsSarah1C

2009-09-20T03:19:19Z

MermaidsSarah1C, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Play, play, play... along these lines? Will need a little Lee magic to go the distance... but...

Picture 8

2009-09-19T05:45:51Z

Picture 8, originally uploaded by compassionateeye.

Color or BW?

I mean really.

2009-07-30T13:40:54Z

Did the sun really have to go and rise again this morning. It is depressing me.