~Boy's Don't Cry~

shadowfall213 @ 2008-05-11T19:48:00

2008-05-12T00:49:51Z

i really need to think before i freak out about things.

RIP

2008-04-29T20:24:37Z

my neighbor passed away yesterday of battling cancer for a yr and though its a blessing that she doesnt have to suffer anymore it still is a shock that she is gone.She was my grandma's best friend and ive known her since i was born.She was such a strong woman and was a part of the family.My mom,grandma and i went over to bring some food to her husband and we were talking to her daughter for a bit and talking about memories of her and i started crying.today was the first time i saw my grandma cry and it broke my heart.she is goin to be deeply missed and things wont be the same without her.Im tryin to be strong but i know at the wake tomorrow its goin to be really hard.i have never known anyone like her and was blessed to have known her. we will all miss her and all the happy times we shared together.

the day from hell

2007-11-19T01:52:15Z

so i had the day from hell today,It all started out when i came into work this morning and i find a note from joe (my assistant) because he worked yesterday and i guess they were kind of busy and 4 younger teenagers came in and ended up stealing shoes.They found 5 pairs of shoes stolen! i was so mad because i had 3 people on working and they couldnt watch them good enough and then i guess he confronted someone without even knowing for a fact that they stole.Our policy is that u need to witness them stealing and know exactly what they have and where they concealed it etc.So that person can totally go back and complain to corporate about that and he can get in a lot of trouble and then i would get in trouble because my staff should know what to do in that situation.And my DM is coming in tomorrow for an interview and when she sees all of our stolens she is goin to flip.And even though i wasnt there i will get the blame because im the store manager.So the day didnt start out too well.Then i worked with 2 part timers and people kept changing their mind with stuff like they wanted to add on another pair of shoes etc and once u put in the coupon u cant go back so i had to do a ton of post voids so im sure i will get yelled at for that because they dont want u to do it a lot because it looks bad and i might get red flagged for it.Then one of my part timers didnt load the receipt paper right and the reciepts werent printing out so i had to do a hand written receipt which took a while and i got nothing but attitude from a costumer.Then it was 2 mins to 6 (we close at 6) and a whole bunch of people came in so i didnt get to close totally til 20 after 6 because people werent getting the point that we were closing.Then everything was all done and i was goin out to my car and realized that i didnt have my keys and somehow i locked them in the van this morning and didnt realize it so i had to stand outside in the cold waiting for my brother to come out to unlock my door.so yea my day has been horrible and tomorrow i have a feeling my DM is goin to bitch at me for stuff.I have been nothing but stressed out this whole weekend.work is definately getting to me and is stressing me out.I dont know what to do anymore.I hate how things are goin well and just like that they get messed up.I think I have a permanent kick me sticker on my ass because thats how ive been feeling lately.I just wish i could get away for a while and not be so stressed out.i got a total of 5 hrs of sleep the past 2 days and its driving me insane.

shadowfall213 @ 2007-08-21T22:38:00

2007-08-22T03:48:26Z

i am physically and emotionally exhausted.I had a long and dreadful day at work.The only perk was my sweetheart of a bf called and we got to talk for a little bit.Damn i miss him but anywhoo back to school is in its full swing and i dont remember last yr being so bad.People are so ignorant and rude and it makes me wonder why society is the way it is.I mean people freak out over the dumbest things and they treat the person who is trying to help them like shit.Sometimes i wonder why i even stay in retail.Its times like these i wish i was doing something else with my life.Dont get me wrong i do enjoy my job sometimes but more times i dont.i just cant wait til everything calms down again and i dont have to deal with all of this stuff.i havent been sleeping well at all and its driving me nuts.The harder i try to sleep the more i toss around.I know its due to stress but i dont even remember the last time i slept the night all the way through.I duno but my bed is callin my name right now so its time to attempt to go to sleep and have another exciting day tomorrow at work.

these 2 yrs have felt like i lifetime...oh what a day

2007-03-26T18:31:40Z

so its been a long time since i updated this thing so today is the day that i do just that! things here have been pretty good lately.Just celebrated my one yr at famous footwear and got myself a promotion and a nice raise.Ever since leaving spencers i feel much more appreciated and i get praise for my good work which i never got there.I will hopefully be moved up to store manager in less then a yr if everything goes as planned.So im starting to feel as though things are heading in a positive direction.Winter is finally gone which im super excited about.Nice weather always puts me in a good mood.Last night my friend and i went downtown and drove around.I know i go downtown a lot but everytime i go i find new and interesting things about the city.Im not really a city girl but if their was a chance to move there i think i would.Its such a pretty city that lights up at night and u cant help but smile when u see that skyline.Nick and i are doin well.He came here in dec and i loved having him here for christmas.It was even more special celebrating xmas with him.Im goin out to see him in july which im super excited about.It will be summer weather so we can do more outside. we both miss each other a lot but we are working on being together,it seems as though we have been working on it for a while but i think now we are more positive in thinking that we will get to that point in the future.We both love each other so much that we dont want to lose each other.But i know that one day we will get married and be together forever and thats all the motivation i need to get all of this straightened out.A lot has happened this past yr but for once im comfortable in saying that the older i get the more life gets better.Im looking at things in a whole new light and dont stress over the small stuff which i think helps me out a ton.there is nothing but goin up from here!

F@#K V-Day ~<~@

2007-02-15T04:09:29Z

so today is valentines day.Just when u think it couldnt get worse it does..having a day to remind the single people and the ones who cant be with their loved ones how much it sucks.I know i shouldnt let it bother me,i mean ive been through this yr after yr but i hate seeing how everyone around me is with the person they love and are out on dates and such.I know that nick and i will be together one day but it just sucks because i want to be with him so bad.I know that their is light at the end of the tunnel but i hate the whole waiting aspect of it all.I guess i have my friends but only one has called so far.I dont think we will be hanging out because he works late tonight so its another lonely night in.I am looking forward to visiting nick in the summer hopefully.But right now i wish that we were together.Oh how i hate this so called holiday!

shadowfall213 @ 2007-02-04T20:56:00

2007-02-05T02:56:52Z

the bears are losing :( rex grossman i hate u!

shadowfall213 @ 2006-12-16T14:48:00

2006-12-16T19:48:07Z

2 hrs to go and im headin out to o'hare to pick up nick at the airport!! he lands at 715 so by 8:00 we will be together! im so damn excited i miss him so much.so yea time to get some last minute stuff done before i leave.eeeek!

its almost here!

2006-12-06T20:11:23Z

10 days til the love of my life is here! dec 16th needs to get here faster!

shadowfall213 @ 2006-11-14T21:00:00

2006-11-15T02:00:56Z

just took a nap and i feel 100% better. yay for naps!

i dont know

2006-11-12T17:35:41Z

so a friend who i havent seen or hung out with for a long time wanted to make plans to hang out today which i thought would be fun so i left my whole day open...still no call and when i called her house her mom said that she was out for the day.Now what the hell how does someone just forget about hanging out when we literally talked 2 days ago about it? i duno this happens all the time with her i duno maybe im just overreacting but i could be doin other things then just sitting around the house waiting for someone to call.GRR!

so close but yet so far..... ps. i miss u

2006-11-07T04:09:04Z

I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will hear the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change

crazy!

2006-11-05T02:28:17Z

so tonight we took muh dad out for dinner for his birthday and i ate way too much and now im miserable.lmao.So we told our waitress that it was his birthday and they made him stand up in front of everyone and sang him happy birthday.It was hilarous because the place was packed.teehehe we are so mean.Not a whole lot has been goin on here really.Went to my friends house last night and i havent seen her in forever..well not forever but it seems like it.She's getting married in june and its on her and her fiance's anniversary which is funny because nick and my anniversary is on the same day so i thought it was funny.Well my other friend i found out is not engaged which the story about it is pretty bad.Ever since my friend Ashley started planning her wedding my friend Jill has been pestering her bf to get her a ring.So she's been nagging him for months about it and she even had the nerve to tell him which ring she wanted.So i guess they got into an arguement and she was like " ur never goin to propose to me and get me a ring and im sick of waiting etc" so he gets mad and gets the box out and was like " i got u a ring" and she called him a liar so he gave her the box and was like " its right here!" so she opens it and complains that its the wrong one and its ugly.OMG who in their right mind would do that? she should be happy that he wants to marry her spoiled ass anyway.That just annoys me because guys wait their whole lives to have that one moment where they get a chance to pick out a ring and get to plan out the whole proposal and there are girls like her who just crush the whole thing.I duno she thought nothing of it and she ended up goin to the jeweler to pick out the one she wanted.So yea i got to hear everything about weddings etc last night which was uncomfortable for me.So yea last night was interesting to say the least.Then today i went to the mall and ran into two girls who i havent seen in a few yrs and didnt want to see so that was interesting.So i hope they dont try to start talking to me again because i dont need all that drama in my life anymore.So yea im looking forward to the holidays and spending time with nick,i miss him so much and im starting to plan out things for us to do so im getting more excited.Only one month to go!

shadowfall213 @ 2006-11-03T15:13:00

2006-11-03T20:13:15Z

sometimes i wish i was someone else.

grr

2006-10-03T17:29:25Z

People can be so rude sometimes.So this morning I woke up and went to the laundry mat and driving up to the parking lot i could see that it was busy for a tuesday morning.So i get everything out of the car and headed inside and started doin my laundry.So about an hr goes by and i was finishing up folding everything and i noticed a delivery truck backed into a space and took the last spot so u would think anyone coming into the parking lot would park on the side spots.Well wouldn't u know a jerk parks right smack behind me and has his car running and he was talking to the delivery guy.So i thought that by the time i get done he will be done with whatever the heck he was doing and move.Well i was wrong so i came out with my basket loaded with clothes and put everything in the car.So i slammed the door so he would get the hint and he just looks at me.So i got in the car and started it so then he would get the hint.But no luck so i rolled down my window and said " ur car needs to move i dont have time to sit here and wait til ur done parking." i was so mad because what did he expect parking behind someone like that.So I heard him call me a bitch to his friend and was like " ill move it in a second" so i snapped and said " i dont have a second" so then he got really pissy and got in his car and sped off.What does he think im goin to be all nice as pie and wait til he was done talking? i dont think so! i hate how people act like its ur fault when they park all stupid.So yea next time im deffinately getting up earlier so i dont have problems like that again.

been a long time...

2006-10-02T16:50:35Z

i dont know what i did last night but i hurt my back.So im all in pain and i dont like it.And i have to go to work today and its goin to suck.Maybe i can use that as an excuse to not do anything today *thinks* lol.So things here have been good lately.I hang out with my friends a lot so that makes me happy.Nick and I are doin great and we are counting down the weeks til he comes over and im uber excited.teehehe.My friends are all excited to meet him too so he's goin to have fun while he's here.Work is goin okie at the moment.Their is talk of me getting transferred again which im not happy about.I just get comfortable at a place and they want to move me.U would think i would have a say in this but i dont.So i applied at my friends work so hopefully i can get in there.Its a receptionist job that pays more than what im getting now with really good benefits 9 to 5 monday through friday and best of all its not retail lol.So ill see how that goes so *fingers crossed* yea so everything pretty much is on the up and up.so yea life is good...at least for the moment

shadowfall213 @ 2006-09-13T10:41:00

2006-09-13T15:41:31Z

its cold and raining and im tired...its goin to be a long day

blast from the past

2006-08-21T23:26:36Z

So last night after seeing the movie with ryan (which was cheesy and hell) i stopped home to get more money so we could hang out more and brett ended up getting out of work early so we all met at my house.Well my mom was telling me that someone from my past called and wanted to catch up on things and wanted to apologise about how she treated me in grade school etc etc and i had no clue who she was goin on about.So finally she gave me a name and it was a girl i went through kindergarten all the way to 6th grade with and was friends and just lost touch over the years.She is now divorced has two kids and is back living at home and i guess she saw me at the wake the other day and wanted to get in touch and to talk.So after i got home from work i called her and we remaniced about old times and who we have seen from school etc.She didnt treat me bad in school and the reason we stopped talking was she moved away and we drifted apart.It was so random that she called but in a way im glad because it makes me proud of all of my accomplishments and because i wasnt the "popular" girl in my class i got to a whole hell of a lot more in my life so far then any of the girls who used to tease me.I lost a lot of friends throughout my life but im happy the way things are working out for me.So i duno how long we will talk to each other for but id really like to keep in touch we had a lot of good times growing up and its goin to be so weird seeing her now because all i can think about is her as a kid.so i guess ill see what happens.Oh yea and staying out til 5am and having to wake up at 8 to go to work this morning is not fun but boy did i have fun at the bar with my friends.

shadowfall213 @ 2006-08-20T13:28:00

2006-08-20T18:34:34Z

so tonight i wanted a group of us to go out to dinner and to a movie.And of course all my friends bailed on me except ryan so its just the two of us.Should be fun anyway but it sucks because everytime i try to plan something it all gets messed up.We are goin to see snakes on a plane it looks so bad but u cant help to want to see it.So if its as cheesy as they say i should be a happy girl lol.Ive been so stressed out with crap at work that its good to hang out with friends every so often.Went with some friends on fri night to bar louis and it was a blast in a half lmao.Except for these creepy guys who kept staring at us but it was something for us to make fun of so it was okie.I have a feeling we will go back there because it was a lot of fun.I ended up having to open the next day which sucked because i was exhausted and hung over and we were super busy with people shopping last minute.What is up with people these days ur kid starts school on monday and u wait 1 or 2 days before to get fricken shoes.Honestly dont be a dumbass and shop last minute and u wouldnt have stuff to bitch and moan about.If i have one more person bitch me out because we dont have a size they need im goin to throw a shoe at their head lol.But i am happy i dont work at the mall anymore though because i dont get half the crap i did there.so yea exciting things happening lately.lol i need a vacation

shadowfall213 @ 2006-08-15T17:34:00

2006-08-15T22:39:11Z

just found out some bad news.A girl i went to grade school and high school with her brother got into a horrible car accident.I dont talk to this girl anymore because we never got along etc but i feel so bad for her family.He just got a car and has been driving so bad around the neighborhood that i knew he would get into some kind of accident but never thought it would be as bad.He past away this morning after being in critical condition last night.I just want to send my prayers and thoughts to his family during this tough time.

look ma im famous!! lol

2006-08-02T18:03:06Z

shadowfall213 @ 2006-08-01T12:24:00

2006-08-01T17:40:30Z

so after a long time im finally updating on the wild world of molly.lol.Sheish its been so long since i actually wrote in this.Its not like i didnt have the time its just i dont really have anything interesting to write about.So here's whats goin on at the moment.Work is goin well for me.I was so scared about being transferred because i didnt think i would get along with my new boss but she isnt that bad.We get along great and i think she realizes that im all she has because the other assistant isnt dependable at all.Actually the woman is a nutcase lol.But yea i actually dont mind goin to work now and i definately dont miss spencers.Actually i havent been to that store or the mall for that matter since i left.I know once i go in there im just goin to get pissed because that could've been my store but anyway dont look back on the past i guess.Nick and i are doin very well.He's got his ticket booked to fly out in dec and we are both looking forward to it.Its been a few yrs since he's been here last so im excited for him to meet everyone that he hasnt met yet.And i have a car this time lol so we can go wherever whenever so that will be a nice change.LOL i remember the first yr he came over and i just started driving hahaha that was funny.So yea im counting down the days.Only bad thing is i have to work while he is over so i have to work around my work schedule but he's here for 3 weeks so we will see each other a lot still.Im goin to see if maybe she can cut my hrs back while he is here since we wont be that busy.And he will be here for christmas too which im super excited about.He can see all my family and our weird christmas day celebrating lol.Summer has been good so far.Its been really hot and miserable so ive been staying inside lately.Their has been heat warnings so its just not me lol.Im kinda ready for fall though besides summer fall is my favorite season.And kids will be in school so work wont be busy lol.So yea things are goin well for me and i hope it stays that way.One thing is for sure im goin to try to post more often on this.

ever had one of these days?

2006-07-31T15:30:32Z

>>>> When you have to visit a public bathroom, you usually find a line of
>>>> women, so you smile politely and take your place. Once it's your turn,
>>>> you check for feet under the stall doors. Every stall is occupied.
>>>> Finally, a door opens and you dash in, nearly knocking down the woman
>>>> leaving the stall. You get in to find the door won't latch. It doesn't
>>> matter.
>>>>
>>>> The dispenser for the modern "seat covers" (invented by someone's Mom,
>>>> no doubt) is handy, but empty. You would hang your purse on the door
>>>> hook, if there were one, but there isn't - so you carefully but quickly
>>>> drape it around your neck, (Mom would turn over in her grave if you put
>>>> it on the FLOOR!), yank down your pants, and assume "The Stance."
>>>>
>>>> In this position your aging, toneless thigh muscles begin to shake.
>>>> You'd love to sit down, but you certainly hadn't taken time to wipe the
>>>> seat or lay toilet paper on it, so you hold "The Stance."
>>>>
>>>> To take your mind off your trembling thighs, you reach for what you
>>>> discover to be the empty toilet paper dispenser. In your mind, you can
>>>> hear your mother's voice saying, "Honey, if you had tried to clean the
>>>> seat, you would have KNOWN there was no toilet paper!"
>>>> Your thighs shake more.
>>>>
>>>> You remember the tiny tissue that you blew your nose on yesterday - the
>>>> one that's still in your purse. That would have to do. You crumple it
>>>> in the puffiest way possible. It is still smaller than your thumbnail.
>>>>
>>>> Someone pushes open your stall door because the latch doesn't work.
>>>> The door hits your purse, which is hanging around your neck in front
>>>> of your chest, and you and your purse topple backward against the tank
>>>> of the toilet. "Occupied!" you scream, as you reach for the door,
>>>> dropping your precious, tiny, crumpled tissue in a puddle on the floor, lose
>>>> your footing altogether, and slide down directly onto the TOILET SEAT.
>>>> It is wet of course.
>>>>
>>>> You bolt up, knowing all too well that it's too late. Your bare bottom
>>>> has made contact with every imaginable germ and life form on the
>>>> uncovered seat because YOU never laid down toilet paper - not that
>>>> there was any, even if you had taken time to try.
>>>>
>>>> You know that your mother would be utterly appalled if she knew,
>>>> because, you're certain, her bare bottom never touched a public toilet
>>>> seat because, frankly, dear, "You just don't KNOW what kind of diseases
>>>> you could get."
>>>>
>>>> By this time, the automatic sensor on the back of the toilet is so
>>>> confused that it flushes, propelling a stream of water like a firehose
>>>> that somehow sucks everything down with such force that you grab onto
>>>> the toilet paper dispenser for fear of being dragged in too. At that
>>>> point, you give up.
>>>>
>>>> You're soaked by the spewing water and the wet toilet seat. You're
>>>> exhausted. You try to wipe with a gum wrapper you found in your pocket
>>>> and then slink out inconspicuously to the sinks. You can't figure out
>>>> how to operate the faucets with the automatic sensors, so you wipe your
>>>> hands with spit and a dry paper towel and walk past the line of women,
>>>> still waiting. You are no longer able to smile politely to them.
>>>>
>>>> A kind soul at the very end of the line points out a piece of toilet
>>>> paper trailing from your shoe. ( Where was that when you NEEDED it??)
>>>> You yank the paper from your shoe, plunk it the woman's hand and tell
>>>> her warmly, "Here, you just might need this."
>>>>
>>>> As you exit, you spot your hubby, who has long since entered, used and
>>>> left the men's restroom. Annoyed, he asks, "What took you so long, and
>>>> why is your purse hanging around your neck?"
>>>>
>>>> . .This is dedicated to women everywhere who deal with a public
>>>> restroom (rest??? you've got to be kidding!!). It finally explains to
>>>> the men what really does take us so long. It also answers their other
>>>> commonly asked question about why women go to the restroom in pairs.
>>>> It's so the other gal can hold the door, hang onto your purse and hand
>>>> you Kleenex under the door.

shadowfall213 @ 2006-07-11T14:21:00

2006-07-11T19:22:59Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (u know who u are ;))	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (i use the computer more than i watch tv)	✓ I own lots of books. (i have a quite the collection)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games. (only when im really bored)	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. (not on my free will)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (omg i cus like a sailor)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (i think im more mature)	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (i accidentally took a razor home from work and had it in my purse ever since lol)

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (everyone has their secrets will i tell no way)	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (i think anyone would)	✓ I need/want money right now. (hell yea u want to give me some?)
✓ I love sushi. (i dont love it but i think its okie)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (only when im excited)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair. (used to be before i chopped it off)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (i have 2 brothers)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (for halloween not on a regular basis)	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (that was the best invention ever)
✓ I like the way that I look. (when im having a good day)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (more like a fib of some sort)	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (omg yes lmao)	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (and i will keep it hidden lol)	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (especially at night)	✓ I have a lot of friends. (i have a lot of friends who i talk to on a regular basis)
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (my grandma and my mom come on u know everyone has! that fast cheek kiss)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (when i have stuff to talk about i hate the awkward silence that sometimes occurs)	✓ I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (heck yea nothin better..only around the house not in public)
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (ive been doin a lot of window shopping cuz i have no money lol)	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (yep i check it everyday and unfortunately dont write in it as much as i like to)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. (yeppers :))	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (never passed out but have been shitfaced many times)	✓ I've rejected someone before. (some kid wanted to date me in high school and he was gross and i was with nick so i let him down easy and said no)
✓ I currently like/love someone. (i love nick tons)	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (their is so much i want to do with my life)	✓ I want to have children in the future. (yeppers and i will be a kick ass mom)
✓ I have changed a diaper before. (too many to count thanks to babysitting when i was younger lol)	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything. (not that i can think of)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (more like i have a ton to learn lol)	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (depending on the situation im shy at first then u cant get me to shut up lol)	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (seems like i am but i shut it off when im not using it)
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved. (i do but i dont use them much)	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (alcohol lots)	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	✓ I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (lmao i would always be on livejournal at school instead of doing assignments)	✓ I enjoy some country music. (some is okie but i dont listen to it all the time)
✓ I would die for my best friends. (yea only if they would die for me first lol jk)	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (depends)	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (halloween is my christmas i love it! wish it was everyday)	✓ I have dated a close friend's ex. (i went on one date but we agreed we werent right for each other my friend wasnt mad or anything she had no interest in him)	✓ I am happy at this moment. (yea i dont work today so im excited lol)
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am. (im molly? lol)	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (doesnt matter but im taken)
✓ I study for tests most of the time. (i can count on one hand how many tests i studied for lmao)	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	✓ I can work on a car. (i can put oil in it if that counts lmao)
✓ I love my job(s). (i did until i got transferred)	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now. (i like me)	× I have more than just my ears pierced. (i have my ears pierced 7 times)
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. (is their any other way?)	✓ I have jumped off a bridge. (dont ask lmao)	✓ I love sea turtles. (omg they are so cute i love turtles in general especially my brothers turtle he cracks me up)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (too many to count)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs. (i would love to have one for a change lol)	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted. (sometimes i wish i was lol)
× I am a pyro.	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much. (yea a few times)	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours. (ooooh pretty lol)	✓ I usually like covers better than originals. (depends some are good but yet some are horrible)
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (no way i loves em)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (i can pick up pens or pencils)	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (i rode a horse a few times)	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in. (lmao yes i do and it cracks me up to see what all went on when i was younger)	✓ I talk in my sleep. (i even answer myself lmao)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (all the time)	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (my new boss)	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (thats a bunch of tree huggin hippy crap lol)	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (i have many collections)
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (i think i can draw pretty well if i try i like to doodle every so often lol)	× I am ambidextrous.
✓ I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (nick ur right i swear they are taking over my bed lmao)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. (lmao)	× I have terrible teeth. (they arent terrible but they are crooked)
✓ I hate my toes. (i hate anyones feet i think they are ugly)	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (i was bored)	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (not really pretty much everyone i talk to online i hang out in real life)
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible. (omg no)	✓ I love hugs more than kisses. (i love both)
✓ I want to own my own business. (id love to own my own bakery one day)	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (raises hand* giulty lol)*
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (omg im a mess when i watch sad movies lol)	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (id love to be a ghost hunter)
✓ I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (lmao! thats just too funny)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent. (only to england)	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (ive done it before lmao)
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (i had a whole yr to do it and i did it the night before lmao)
× I have no piercings.	✓ I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (i spent the night in a museum once but it was a lock in so does that matter? lol)	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (heck yea atari all the way)	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish. (does throwing a dead fish at someone count lmao)
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (i cant sleep without music)	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair. (more than u know lol)	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. (lmao)
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum. (i like mints better)
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it. (that would be awesome)	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (happens to me all the time)	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing. (when im alone)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	✓ I've gone skinny-dipping. (when i was little)	✓ I've performed in three plays. (sadly yes)
✓ I enjoy burritos. (yummy)	✓ I'm Irish and loving it. (heck yea irish all the way!)	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day. (when i can)	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out. (sometimes)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (falls asleep)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (no but i will now lol)

happy anniversary nick!

2006-06-23T22:37:11Z

today is nick and my 5 yr anniversary.Pretty weird to be saying that because it doesnt feel that long.So thanks sweetie for putting up with me for 5 wonderful yrs.lol.And good news nick got a job today as well so things are definately looking up.So hopefully by next yr we will finally be together.So here's to more yrs together i love u nick!