selfconflicted

Day 17: Memory is a Way of Holding on To The Things You Love

selfconflicted — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 06:07:55 GMT

Day 17: Your favorite memory, in great detail

The problem with this is that it’s kind of goes hand and hand with, Day 8: A moment, in great detail and let’s face it repeating myself isn’t really fun. So I suppose I will go with my second favorite memory since we’ve already visited my first: the day Robby proposed.

Ironically enough this isn’t some grand story. In fact compared to most engagement stories, it’s actually kind of unromantic, but at the time it meant the world to me. Robby and his family were going through a rough patch. His mom just had emergency surgery and was a little loopy and his aunt thought she was helping, but instead only said some really, really cruel hurtful things.

She sent his sister an e-mail basically saying I was useless and that I had brought another freeloader into the house and that we both needed to go. I was shocked, hurt, and just completely blown away and I broke down in tears. I never wanted his family to think of me that way, most especially his immediate family and the words I admit wounded me deeply and pissed Robby off.

I had busted my ass to make sure his mom’s house was sparkling because I realized she was doing me a favor by letting me stay there rent free. I appreciated it and it was a huge hit to my pride to not be able to compensate her monetarily so I did what I knew how to do, I cleaned and cooked and helped in what every manner she needed. Having her aunt send that e-mail to his sister made me realize that it wasn’t enough and it devastated me.

I’m not sure what it was for him but while I was sitting there crying in his arms and wailing like a child, I guess something in him clicked because the next thing I know he’s asking me to marry him and I’m choking and gasping on my tears. To this day I joke that was his attempt to get me to shut the fuck up. In any event, I obviously said yes and the fact that he asked me in that moment when things were completely messed up, only proved to me that he was going to love me regardless of the bad. He was in it for the long haul.

So while it may not have been the most romantic proposal, it was still one that touched me to the very core of my soul and still does.

Current Mood: awake

Current Music: Blessed - Christina Aguilera

And Damn I Almost Nearly Screwed Up

selfconflicted — Sun, 27 Jun 2010 06:43:50 GMT

It’s a good thing I stopped playing Sims when I did otherwise I would have missed today’s blog. I’m not sure why I decided I was done playing, but I just felt like I’d been sitting at the computer enough today and it was time for me to call it a night.

Speaking of which, I think I spent the past 3 or so hours playing Sims 3, which is the most I’ve played since I’d purchased the game. The reason it’s taken me so long to actually play the game is because I irritated that I couldn’t get custom content to work due to the new changes EA had made. Thankfully after a lot of googling, several unsuccessful tries, I finally (after what seemed liked forever) got it up and running.

It’s so interesting to see all of the changes made in comparison to the first and second Sims game. It’s also really crazy because it is sooo detailed now and before that wasn’t really the case. Also on another note, I do want to point out that I don’t think the game is really suitable for children. Even with the changes in the names for sex, etc I still think it’s a bit of a stretch for a lot of younger kids. No wonder why so many in the past few generations are getting pregnant so young! Okay, okay so I can’t really blame that on the Sims, but y’all get my drift.

In any event, it is definitely time for me to call it a night. I should have been in bed several hours ago but I got caught up playing the Sims. Finally, how that happens huh? And those who play Sims on a consistent basis know exactly what I’m talking about. G’nite!

Originally published at The QUEEN B {dot} NET

Play Your Damn Game! You Paid For It!

selfconflicted — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 05:52:40 GMT

Ever since I decided to reactivate my Aion account, this has lead Robby to insist reactivating his WoW account. We ended up using the paid blogging money I had earned to do so and he’s paid probably a total of 5 hours if that since he’s activated it. Want to know how many hours I’ve played? Probably over 100. My raptr account says 52 hours in the past 2 days and given that I activated it on the 18 and have been playing consistently every day, I’m pretty sure I’ve probably broken 100 hours.

Now, don’t get me wrong, it’s nice that he’s not addicted and can do other things, but at the same time it is a bit irritating that he’s only played about 5 hours at most since he activated it on the same day I did. I mean, I get it, he’s tired, he’s busy, so on and so forth, but it’s a bit frustrating to see him activate something and then decide he’s going to go watch a movie when there’s an account sitting there that has hardly been touched.

I know, I know count your blessings and I am, but I’m also a firm believer in bang for your buck and I’m sorry we did not just spend $15 for the month to have him play a total of 20 hours if not less considering the rate he’s going. So right now, he’s playing because I insisted and had to politely remind him that hello, we paid for you to play so effing play. /end rant

Tomorrow is my Friday and I am sooo happy about that too. I feel as if this week as dragged on and I’m not sure why. You’d think given all the game playing I’m doing to pass the time during work, I’d feel like it just flew by, but I think in large part one of the reasons it’s dragged is cause Jenn and I have hardly talked this week :(.

I miss my bestie.

8 Easy Steps

selfconflicted — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 04:03:40 GMT

If you're familiar with message boards then you're also probably familiar with the life of a message board. Generally things start off well, members are active, and you have several posts throughout the fast few weeks. However, as time goes on activity starts to lessen and you find that for most boards they eventually die.

Why do most message boards die? Simple. The posts tend to be far too generalized and as members run out of generalized questions to ask and answer, they lose interest, which tends to discourage the staff, and then lends to the closing of the board.

Very few boards survive this cycle and if you happen to own a board that has or post on one that has, then you are very lucky.

8 Easy Steps was created after a much needed break from too many boards where the capacity of life was lacking due to unsubstantial posts. After a lot of thought on my part, I decided to create a very exclusive board where members would need to apply to be accepted and would be held to a very high standard.

So if you're looking for a board where you can just answer generalized questions and have no real interest in getting to know people and make lifetime friends then this is not the board for you. However, if you've grown tired of the countless boards closing left and right from what I've coined as "All Hype" syndrome, then you have come to the right place!

8 EASY STEPS

Friends Only

selfconflicted — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 11:37:55 GMT

The idea for this entry was blatantly plagarised from grrliz . If you decide to plagarise also, please credit her rather than me.

If you are interested in befriending me, here are a few things you may want to know before doing so.

& Content

» I post a substantial amount of real life stuff alongside an even more substantial amount of fandom related posts.

The fandoms receiving the most spamtime at the moment are Grey's Anatomy, Lost, Bones, and America's Next Top Model. I may also talk about other things from my interest list from time to time.

» I rant a lot. I'm one of those people who like to get things out so she doesn't explode. You are free to ignore any posts that involve me ranting and not making sense.

» I rarely post any of my graphics at this journal, so if your intention for adding me as friend is simply for that, then you're wasting your time. I may decide however to create a graphics journal and if I do then the link will be posted on my LJ.

» I am a lj-cutter and tagger. This ensures your friends lists aren't spammed by large pictures or long posts that may only interest a very few people. It also ensures posts on similar subjects are easy to find.

& Commenting

» I'm a serial commenter. I will comment on anything that appeals to me or anything I feel I can help with. Please don't be offended if I don't comment on something or don't reply to your comments. I do try!

» I'm occasionally one of those terribly rude people that will ask for your help in a comment completely unrelated to the entry, but you're free to ask for my help in the very same way. Can't be having hypocrites up in here, can we?

& Friending

» I am less likely to add you as a friend in return if you:

can't use proper English. By this I mean, no txt spk, sTiCkY cApS or terrible punctuation. I don't mind if English is your second language, but there's no excuse for crappy typing trends.
do not like any of the fandoms I belong to and may post about.
are an LJ friend whore (meaning you add people for the sake of having friends).
don't appreciate advice, whether you asked for it or not. It's in my nature to want to help, so if I feel I can, I will damn well try.
only want me to make graphics for you or help with your layout. I don't mind helping, but if that's all that I seem to be doing for you, I will cut you. With a bread & butter knife.
Know you in real life and see you as well as interact with you on a daily basis

» Although LiveJournal notifies me about new people adding me, I'd really appreciate it if you comment (on this post) before you add me! Just to make sure. That way, if I don't add you back, you have more than enough reason to call me a skank ho bitch or whatever you feel like calling me. I usually add everyone back, unless you're extremely obnoxious or we have very little to nothing in common.

» If I know you in real life and chose not to add you, please do not be offended. I tend to rant and bitch in my livejournal because it's my means of letting out my emotions and in an effort to keep my life drama free I'd rather not create an issue over something that I've been over decades ago.