Sarina

Wow

2004-04-23T08:31:11Z

Long time no update... I have a new journal now, Balletbaby74 (its the same as my screen name). Add me if you'd like.

sarinala @ 2003-08-22T08:08:00

2003-08-22T05:17:35Z

Today I was looking at the Theatre Ink stuff, and I decided that I'm going to try out for plays and musicals. I doubt that I'll actually get into anything, but Its fun just to try out. I really miss being on stage... like in middle school. I'm only on the stage once a year now for dance recitals, but i wanna be in a musical or a play! it would be so much fun.

Should I be excited for school to start? Seeing old friends, getting new classes... readjusting to new teachers and people... its just so stressful. Just think, after this year we have to take the SATS, and we have to pick colleges. Its seems so unreal... Oh well. I'm excited to see my HOMEROOM! yay:)

sarinala @ 2003-08-07T10:58:00

2003-08-07T08:03:44Z

The Justin and Christina concert was SO MUCH FUN. I founf out that I really like the Black Eyed Peas. Yeah.. and I also found out that I'm going to be a back-up dancer in concerts and in music videos.. lol. Well,, thats all for now cuz i gg.. ttyl!

Bored...

2003-08-03T10:02:39Z

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - aniras
[ x ] Where do you live - newton
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - short, energetic, loud, annoying

DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - its black with purple and says "Cutie" on it
[ x ] Hairbrush - light green and a dark green one
[ x ] Toothbrush - uhmm. its a random blue one
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - EARRINGS, i always need them
[ x ] Pillow cover - yellow.. light pastel yellow
[ x ] Blanket - a sports one lol
[ x ] Coffee cup - don't have one
[ x ] Sunglasses - kinda brownish-tourtise shell look kinda, very 60s
[ x ] Underwear - Delias underwear rocks!!
[ x ] Shoes - uhm cheerleading sneakers, regular white sneakers, 4 inch heals, platform black sandals, and orange spongey sandals
[ x ] Handbag - my black one with the white stiching
[ x ] Favorite top - my punk halter
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - camp mix
[ x ] Tattoos - a lil rose on my back (near my shoulder)
[ x ] Piercings - two in my left, one in right
[ x ] What you are wearing now - jeans, blue short
[ x ] Hair - up and curly
[ x ] Makeup - eyeliner, mascara...

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - my tongue
[ x ] In my head - people
[ x ] Wishing - that I was perfect and I wouldnt make mistakes and get ppl mad at me
[ x ] After this - I have to work
[ x ] Talking to - noone
[ x ] Eating - nothing for once
[ x ] Fetishes - hmm.. sunshowers.
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason - I wouldnt ever murder anyone
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Coree
[ x ] Is next to you - uhh...?
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - Center Stage, Ferris Beuller..
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month? absolutly nothing..
[ x ] The last thing you ate - pizza
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - spiders
[ x ] Do you like candles - yea
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - hahaha
[ x ] Do you like incense - oo yeaaaah
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - wtf?
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - maybe
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - most deffinatly
[ x ] Do you believe in God - yeah
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die? I'm not sure yet... probably creamated...
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - myself
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a dolphin
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - mm.. not going to sleep?
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium- nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - omg thats so hard
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - dimes
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - Venice, Rome, New York...
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - ice cream.. chips...
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - the way my mind works
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - society, love
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - camp friends
[ x ] What's one thing that you wish could happen tomorrow - That I could be a perfect friend and always keep everyone happy...

BTW, does anyone have an extra LJ code or do you know how to delete this journal?

Urgh...

2003-08-02T09:47:42Z

I hate how whenever I write something in here people get pissed off. I know I should be considerate of other people's feelings, and I am, but its MY FUCKING JOURNAL AND MY FUCKING LIFE. I'M NOT GOING TO JUST NOT WRITE WHAT YOU DONT WANT ME TO. Yeah, fuck you.

sarinala @ 2003-07-24T10:18:00

2003-07-24T07:29:58Z

I'm confused about this whole Sherv thing... supposedly he cheated on me (the girl he cheated on me with told me..) but then his best friend assured me he didnt. Wow, thats just so confusing. But, I'm never going out with him again, even if he doeslike me when he comes back. He just brings so much shit into my life... and anyway, I found someone better:):)

Well, this is a confusing story, but I'll try to tell it as best as I can. Rachel was going out with Mike Latino, and I met his brother and i kinda liked him... but then Rach cheated on Mike (they are friends now...) and Mike and I started to talk ALOT. So then I didnt like his brother anymore, I liked him!:) Well just my luck, he likes me too! Rachel assured me it was okay to go out with him, and I checked with everyone else. So now everyone is on good terms. Yesterday, Mike and I were hanging out with Cor, Chris P, Ricky, Chris M, Scott, and Jon. Mike is kinda shy, but hes soo sweet. and OMG is he hot. Yeah, so he asked me out yesterday and I said yes. He's so sweet, and did I mention hes going to be a senior? That doesnt matter, but I think its cool. And hes into long relationships... thats great because I hate stupid pointless relationships that only last like a week to a month. Oh, I am so happy... hopefully this happy streak will last longer than my last one, i totally got shot down in that one hah.

LoL, all of the guys I hang out with make fun of me SO much. Its so funny tho. They all make fun of my height and they either always throw me in a pool with all of my clothes on, or they get me with squirt guns or dump buckets of water on me. LoL, Even chris p's lil brothers get into it. Its so great, I love my friends.

sarinala @ 2003-07-17T20:39:00

2003-07-17T17:59:40Z

I had a pretty good day today! I went to Canobie Lake Park with Coree, Rachel, Chris P, Chris M, Ricky, and Keith. I went on alot of rides and I didnt sit out on any of them so I'm proud of myself. But when I got home, I just felt all shitty.

My uncle drove me to *STAR* to get my first paycheck! And he said "Here, add this to your paycheck" and slipped me $20!! I thanked him generously. It was SO sweet of him. Yeah, so I got my check and I cashed it in there... OoOo I feel rich! LoL! I'm opening a bank account on Saturday and then when I get next week's pay check I'll add that and then I'll buy a cell phone. Oh I love money... this is great!!:)

I finally got up the nerve to call Sherv, and silly me I expected to get his answering machine, but NOPE! HE ANSWERED! I totally freaked out and then hung up. I feel so stupid. So then I wrote him a letter about how I know he likes Sam but I didn't want to discuss it in a letter and how I'm mad he hasnt written or called me and its been 12 days since hes gone. That means 11 days until he comes home. Just thinking about Sherv got me into a low mood which I'm still in right now.

Ricky called me and was like "You have to come to the carnival down the lake with us tonight!" But I was so tired so I said I didn't wanna go, and then he and everyone got kinda pissed at me. Oh well, I need a home night. And I told them I'm gonna go tomorrow, so hopefully they'll go again tomorrow night.

So then I decided to take a walk to the mailbox and mail the letter to Sherv, I took the dog with me. I needed a nice lil walk. On the way I passed Chris' house (the-- omg! hes not a senior anymore! hes a college kid!!!) and I talked to him for a bit. Hes so nice to me and it's sad I'm not going to be seeing him as often as I used to. But I think he's going to college in Ohio, so I most deffinatly won't be seeing him much!

I finally picked out my pointe solo song for next year. One Song Glory from Rent! I love this song because it's slow, and then it get quick and then slows back down again. I also decided that I'm absolutly in love with Swan Lake. I love the ballet suit to it. Its 11 minutes long, but I enjoy hearing it everytime. It makes me wish I was a professional dancer...

Oh, I also got a new babysitting job. It's for a 3 month old. Hey, its more money!!! :)

Steph, you remind me of Frenchie from Grease.. especially when you said: "guys are rats -- they're flees on rats. Worse than that, they're ameobas on flees on rats!" That was just so cute!!:)

Soph, Ell, and I are getting our belly buttons pierced in like 2 weeks. I'm so excited, but I'm still trying to convince my dad. My Mum doesnt care, but my dad does.. Oh well, he didnt want a dog at first, but I have a dog! lol! I'm gonna keep trying.

*+*!The*End!*+*

sarinala @ 2003-07-14T13:30:00

2003-07-14T10:32:17Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHIE!!!!!!! you rock my socks!!!

Well, this whole Sherv thing is funny now.. I have so much backup info and he has no idea about any of it... HAH HOW DOES IT FEEL ASSHOLE??!

Oh just fuck this shit....

2003-07-11T12:13:38Z

That fucking asshole.... FUCKING SHIT ASS BITCH!!! im not even gonna get into it.. all i'm saying is that this has to be the WORST SUMMER with guys... fucking assholes.... ruin my fucking summer... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

Some of my new favorite songs...

2003-07-10T17:33:59Z

1.)Straight up now tell me by Paula Abdul:

Straight up now tell me do you really wanna love me forever?
*oh oh oh*
Or am I caught in a hit and run?
Straight up now tell me is it gonna be you and me together?
*oh oh oh*
Or are you just having fun?

2.)Girls and Boys by Good Charlotte:

Girls don't like boys
Girls like cars and money
Boys will laugh at girls
When they're not funny

Yeah, so those are my 2 new favorites.

I had a great day at work today. I was talking to Dima and Josh the whole time. Josh is trying to get our class a day at 6-flags or water country or Cannabie lake park. He's such a good class president! LoL, Dima thinks I am the weakest thing. He makes fun of me and is like "do you want me to carry that for you?" hehe hes so cute. I absolutly love the people who I work with. But some customers fucking suck. Who the fuck wants a whole watermelon in a bag? wtf... lol. But talking to everyone who works there while bagging food makes it fun. Except I'm always in pain after work because of the standing and lifting and bending. Oh well... its worth the money I'm getting! lol! First pay check next Thursday!!

18 DAYS UNTIL SHERVIN COMES HOME! He still hasn't written me yet. Well, I only mailed my letter to him on Monday, so maybe he did write to me and it just hasn't come yet. I hope he thinks about me.. I don't know what I'd do if he comes home from camp and we don't get back together.. Okay Sarina.. positive thoughts here!!!

My first day at work...

2003-07-08T18:53:26Z

It wasn't so bad! Everyone was SO nice to me and I learned very quickly. I know most of the kids who work there anyway. But by the time I was done with my shift I was SO tired. I know 4 hours isnt much, but I was so overwhelmed and shit. I'm so excited for $$$$!!!

On Sunday I'm going to help my dance teacher around the studio. We are going to organize the costumes in the basement, make new posters, decorate the studio, and have a lil fun! And then we are gonna go to Lizzie's for ice cream! I really like Jane.... she's so sweet to me and I'm glad I have such a great bond with her.

I FUCKING MISS SHERV! I sent my letter to him yesterday.. hopefully he'll write back or call me or something. Fuck:( I need him. I wear this ring everyday and I think about him all the time... *sigh*

well I'm fucking breaking out a sweat typing this! Lordy! Well, ttfn!

sigh

2003-07-07T18:59:10Z

Sherv has been gone for 3 days. I miss him SO much. I wear the ring he gave me EVERY day, I always need it with me! It's so weird not talking to him late at night on the phone, or all the time online. I wrote him a long letter and gave him some pics and a nice gold ring so he can remember me. It kinda sucks how we aren't "together", but we are just on a "break" until he comes home July 28th (only 21 days!!) So hopefully we will get back together. He is the most romantic/sweetest guy EVER to me... and I can't get him out of my mind!!!! I hope hes thinkin about me.. but hes probably not:-/

I start my job tomorrow. 2:00 to 6:00. fun fun fun. At least it will give me something to do... and I will get mmoney. that means I will get my cell phone. score.

Well, I'm done with this entry...

Mmm!

2003-07-03T06:34:24Z

Last night was THE MOST romantic night of my LIFE! All I'm going to say is that Sherv is a sweeti...

Well, I got the job. I start Tuesday. I work 3 days next week. PSSH! HELLO CELL PHONE! I also get paid 3 extra hours worth for going to orientation..score!! :):):)

I have the biggest hickey ever... like its not even funny how big it is... If my dad sees this, oo goodbye Sarina!!!!!!

dum di dum.. I feel like I'm in a dreeeeeeeeeeam

=-/

2003-07-01T10:49:31Z

It's the summer...

Why can't I just be fucking happy?!

OoOoOoh Baby!!!!!!!

2003-06-30T11:09:24Z

That is my new phrase... I keep saying it and I don't even realize it.

this reminds me of Cor and *****'s situation:

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way
~Crush by Mandy Moore

That's a good song.

I liked my pointe solo.. I miss it. Tonight in dance I'm gonna see if I can do it again...

I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one whose in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There's nothing more to say
There's nothing else I want more than to feel this way
I wanna be with you

I remember Cor told me that she cried during my pointe solo.. that boosted my confidence. I seriously love dance. I want to be in the American Ballet Theatre, but I will NEVER make it... Well, I can always own my own studio. But I need a better jazz teacher.. My dance teacher is only good at ballet... and I'm okay at ballet and pointe.. but i'm better than her for jazz and shit. Oh well..

I was just talking to a couple of people about the word "love". It is thrown around too much. Some people say it and don't mean it. I should stop using it unless I KNOW I mean it. Yeah, I can say it to my parents and to my friends... but I'm not going to say it to a guy unless I mean it. SoOoOo...

Well last night... A bunch of people met in Newton Center so we all hung around for a bit. And then we decided to take a walk to the park. Rachel and Sherv seemed to be flirting a lil bit, so I got a lil bit upset and I decided to go for a run away from them... And then later on, Sherv was like "can we talk" so we did. I found out that this isn't a permanent break up (thank the Lord...) and that its just until he gets back from camp. I like him so much and I can't let him goo... So now I have something to look foward to for when he comes back in august:)

OO yay I bought a new bathing suit! I'm so excited to wear it!!! This Wednesday, I'm going to the beach with my brother and his girlfriend, so I'll probably invite one of my friends to come with me. OO BEACH BABY BEACH! (fuck you LAX guys.. you got that shit stuck in my head...) AHHH I LOVE MY BATHING SUIT!! Its blue and has white flowers and stuff.. its hard to explain.

Sherv is leaving Saturday:( I'm gonna miss him so much.

Today I am hopefully dying my hair blue... I haven't done it in awhile. LoL, I remember when Chris first met me he thought I hung out in red... thats so interesting. dum di dum

Well, I've run out of things to write about, so I guess I'll end this entry.

*+*!SaRinA!*+*

sarinala @ 2003-06-29T11:05:00

2003-06-29T08:17:57Z

Dance is most deffinatly not enough exercise.. and plus its only once a week now that its summer... I'm going to start doing my old cheerleading exercises because I got alot of muscle doing that stuff lol. I'm going to write out a daily schedual of exercises to do in the morning and evening. Hopefully I'll stick with this for the summer! I was coming on at least a 4-pack with cheerleading (no lie..) and now its gone cuz I'm a pig and I dont exercise enough. And I'm not going to sit here this summer feeling sorry for myself for all of this shit and just eating, watching movies, and going online.. I'm going to go running, or something else instead.

I really need my own personal dance studio... I'm fucking better than my teacher that I have right now, and its SO annoying. But I really like her so I dont want to go somewhere else. If my brother wasn't moving into the basement, we were gonna put up mirrors and a nice floor so I can dance on it, and my brother can do his karate shit. But NoOoOo, my brother gets the basement. Oh well, I get his room and mine.. so thats good.

I didn't get alot of sleep last night and I'm not sure why. But then again, I'm afraid to think of why. I don't wanna get all depressed and shit over the summer!!! I wanna go out and make a fool of myself like usual!:)

*Forget the steps, just DANCE the shit out of it* ~ Center Stage
^thats EXACTLY what I'm going to do...

Well My friend Jeff from Waltham is such a nice kid. He and I REALLY have to hang out soon. We talk online, but since we are totally different people now, we don't have much to talk about. Oh well... He rocks my socks!!!

Well I'm going to plan my day after I take a lovely shower. Anyone want to do anything today??

*+*!SaRinA!*+*

"Sarina, there's an ant on your light..." ~Mag, one of the first times we hung out.

2003-06-28T19:50:05Z

I was just looking back on some of my old entries... wow am I a fucked up person. I love reading about old fights, old boyfriends, and old drama that doesnt even matter anymore! I was just reading this one entry, and Cor and I got into a fight (nothing unusual, ily! MUFFINS!) and she was like "I'm not the bad guy here you lil shit!" wow it was so amusing! and BTW Cor, "you lil shit" and "you lil fucker" is my thing.. hehehe.

So today, not too much happened. Shall I list out my day?
~Woke up because of the fucking dog.. she's so annoying
~My computer kept freezing on me so I had to shut it off like 50 times..
~I was bragging about Sherv to Mag about how he is such a great guy and I love him so much
~Sherv dumped me (oo, nonono, we are taking "a break" because he doesn't know if he can be faithful to me.. mhm..)
~Nice looooooong shower
~Went to Chris' with Cor, Jessie, and Ricky to plan a party.

yeah that was my day basically. At Chris' we had a really good time. Chris decided to become Jackie Chan and make up the "tiger claw" wow.. I really needed that laugh:) After that, Cor, Jessie, and I walked home.. It was a nice walk.

I don't understand this... I hooked up with him last night and he was all over me and shit, and then the next day "oh, we should take a break"... I feel a bit, how should I put this... USED!!! This is such a shitty feeling. Hey, well at least I didn't get dumped on a Tuesday! I usually ALWAYS get dumped on Tuesdays.. lol. Well, I'm trying to make the best out of this situation, even though it fucking sucks...

Grease, 10 Things I Hate About You, Center Stage, and Legally Blonde are the movies that I'm watching over and over again.. they are such chick-flicks... they make me feel better. But ooooh do I LOVE Grease...

"My head is saying "fool forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go, hold on 'til the end" and that's what I intend to do, hopelessly devoted to you...":-/

Other shitty news: this kid who likes me in Virginia who I blew off for Sherv fucking keeps trying to commit suicide because of me! But he HAS a girlfriend so I don't get it. I'm not special. I'm not gorgeous, I don't have that great of a personallity... Why would you ever do that? That makes me feel kinda horrible. But this kid is usually a liar, so I dunno... oh well...

I'm going to have to start using my LJ more often... I used to use it SO much like, 2 years ago.. and then I just stopped.. But it feels SO good just to type out my feelings, Even if nobody comments.

4th of July Friday!!! I remember how me, Soph, and Rach used to spend our 4th of july's... we used to get all decked out in red, white, and blue stuff and then we'd all watch the fireworks together with other people. This year I will have fun also, with the southies and my new friends (Cors not a new friend.. but nvm lol).

7th and 8th grade... our clique. It sucked we were so bitchy, but I MISS our friendships. I miss the people I used to hang out with! DOn't get me wrong here, I love my friends who I hang out with now, but I wish I could also at least see my other friends. Mag, I'm serious, I'm literally coming up 3 houses and stealing you out of you're bed... So you better watch out, I know where you sleep!!! LoL!

I better start fucking working soon so then I won't be so bored. I want money and a cell phone so fucking badly!

Hah, this was SUCH a complaining entry... but I really needed it. And now, I need sleep.

*I don't need a guy to make me happy...*

*+*!SaRinA!*+*

sarinala @ 2003-06-28T12:50:00

2003-06-28T09:52:47Z

Sherv is going away for a month next Saturday, so we are taking a break. I wonder if this is a permanent break or if we are going to be together again afterwards... hmmm... I still love him.

Ricky... what a fucking PLAYER

2003-06-18T09:20:32Z

HE THINKS HE SOOO COOL.. HE DUMPED ME, THEN WENT OUT WITH SUM1 ELSE AND DIDNT EVEN TELL ME.. HE THINKS HES SOO SLICK!! HAHAHA he doesnt even know that i know about him and his gf yet... well he will!! i'm gonna fucking yell at him like there is NO TOMORROW. that lil FUCKER! He thinks hes a player.. holy fuck hes not even CUTE.. he has NO LOOKS what-so-ever.... everything has been a fucking lie.. that whole month, a fucking lie. His Southies didnt even know about me! wow... I'm never gonna talk to that kid again... until after i yell at him,. holy shit i am FURIOUS!!!!!!!! i thought he was a good kid.. GOOD KID MY ASS! how could he do this to me??? he asked me on monday if i liked anyone.. and i said no. then i asked him and he said no.. well theres a lie. becuz he has been going out with her since sunday. hahahaaaaaa that lil shit. What goes around, comes around!!!!!!!!

LLONG quiz...

2003-06-08T15:28:06Z

1) The singular most boring question: what is your name? gonzalez
(2) Are you happy with it? sure
(3) Are you named after anyone? nahh
(5) Your screenname: lilsqueebabe
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? no
(7) Then what would you name your children? jeff, i dunno wut else
(8)If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? ....
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? nahh
(10) Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? nahh
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? nahh

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BASICS
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(12) Your sex: female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? STRAIGHT
(14) Single? nope
(15) Want to be? sometimes i do.. sometimes id ont
(16) Your birthdate: feb. 1
(17) Your age: 15
(18) Age you act: 15
(19) Age you wish you were: i like being 15
(20) Your height: 5'?
(21) The color of your eyes: greenish brown
(22) Happy with it? yah
(23) The color of your hair: brown
(24) Happy with it? i guess
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? righty
(26) Your living arrangement?
(27) Your family: mom n dad n dan
(28) Have any pets? dog, 2 cats, fish
(29) What's your job: dancer
(30) Piercings? ears.. hopefully belly button soon!
(31) Tattoos? no
(32) Obsessions? ...
(33) Addictions? music!!!
(35) Do you speak another language? nahh
(36) Have a favourite quote? YUP! *guys are like lottery tickets, u need to rub the losers b4 u find the winner*
(37) Do you have a webpage? no

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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? i try to
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? yah
(40) Do you have any secrets? yah
(41) Do you hate yourself? no way!!!
(42) Do you like your handwriting? no
(43) Do you have any bad habits?
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? sarina's lil life
(46) What's your biggest fear? dying
(47) Can you sing? yah!
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no
(49) Are you a loner? no way
(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? having friends
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? hmm.. maybe
(52) Are you a daredevil? yah
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? nahh
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? agrressive!
(55) Have you got a journal? yups
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? ..
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? nothing!!!
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. You can only drink out of one. Which one would you drink of? love
(59) How do you vent? yell
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? yah
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? ...
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? yah
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? ...
(64) What do you like the most about your body? my belly button
(65) And least? nothing really
(66) Do you think you are good looking? on some days
(67) Are you confident? yah
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? ...
(69) Do people know how you feel? sumtimes
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? yah!!!

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DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke? no
(72) Do drugs? no
(73) Read the newspaper? sumtimes
(74) Pray? depends
(75) Go to church? sumtimes
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? yah
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? yah !!
(78) Take walks in the rain? yup
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? i dont hate..
(80) Drive? nope
(81) Like to drive fast? i would

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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice?yah
(83) Hurt yourself? Intentionally? no
(84) Been out of the country? no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? yah ;o)
(86) Had sex? nope
(87) Been unfaithful? ...
(88) Been in love? nope
(89) Done drugs? no
(90) Gone skinny dipping? yah!
(91) Had a medical emergency? no
(92) Had a surgery? nahh
(93) Ran away from home? nope
(94) Played strip poker? yah!!
(95) Gotten beaten up? nopers
(96) Beaten someone up?nah
(97) Been picked on? RICKY! lol
(98) Been on stage? yah
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? ...
(100) Slept outdoors?yah
(101) Thought about suicide? no
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? nah
(103) If yes, what is your record?
(104) Gone one day without food?yah
(105) Talked on the phone all night? yah
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first(moms and daddys don't count)? o...
(107) Slept all day? yupperS!
(108) Killed someone? no
(109) Made out with a stranger? no
(110) Had sex with a stranger? no
(111) Thought you're going crazy? nopes
(112) Kissed the same sex? no
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? no
(114) Been betrayed? yah
(115) Had a dream that came true? sure
(116) Broken the law? no
(117) Met a famous person? yes
(118) Masturbated? lol hehehe
(119) Masturbated with something other then your hand? ...
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? no wayzers!
(121) On purpose? no
(122) Had sex? nope
(123) With more then 1 person? no
(124) Threesome? no
(125) Orgy? no
(126) Whip cream? mmm
(127) Bondage?hah
(128) Whipped/gotten whipped? wow
(129) Blindfolded? ...
(130) Tied someone up/been tied up? BONDAGE!

(missing questions?)

(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? yah
(146) Stolen anything? yah
(147) Been on radio/tv? yah
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? yes, but its hella scary lol
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? yah
(150) Considered religious vocation? no way!
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? huh?
(152) Bungee jumped? nah but i would
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? yup

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CLOTHES and other fashion shit
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(154) Shoe brand? dont care..
(155) Brand of clothing? ...
(156) Cologne/perfume? strawberries and champagne (oo victoria's secret!)
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? sweatshirt over a tanktop and jeans.//
(158) How about parties? i dunnoo...
(159) Wear hats? nah
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? sometimes..
(161) Wear make-up? yah
(162) Favourite place to shop? oetco! where the pets go!
(163) Favourite article of clothing? my pj pants
(164) Are you trendy? lol nope
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? no!!!!

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BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? yup yup
(167) Miracles? yeah altho i have never seen it happen
(168) Astrology? yup
(169) Magic? yup
(170) God? maybe...
(171) Satan? yup
(172) Santa? no
(173) Ghosts? deffinatly
(174) Luck? yup
(175) Love at first sight? yes!
(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? yeah!
(177) Witches? yup. my mum is one.. but replace the "w" with a "b" hehehe
(178) Easter bunny? hells yeah!
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? honestly.. no
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? yup
(181) Do you wish on stars? all the time..

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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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boring!!
(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? hmm.. i guess so
(183) Do you think God has a gender? nah
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? yup
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? depends
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? wherever you wanna go
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AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? yup
(188) Who is your best friend? i have a couple..
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? cor
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? use protection!!!
(191) Your favourite inside joke? hmm.. way too many!
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? my shortness
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Jeff
(194) Newest? bryan mak!
(195) Shyest? ricky
(196) Funniest? cor
(197) Sweetest? ricky
(198) Closest? cor
(199) Weirdest? me
(200) Smartest? we r all smart in our own ways.. lol
(201) Ditziest? myself//
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? ...
(203) Last person you talked to online? Jeff
(204) Who do you talk to most online? Jeff
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? ricky
(206) Who do you trust most? COr
(207) Who listens to your problems? cor, ricky, mag..
(208) Who do you fight most with? Ricky and Coree
(209) Who's the nicest? all of my friends:)
(210) Who's the most outgoing? mag
(211) Who's the best singer? meeee
(212) Who's on your shit-list? dunno
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? no...
(214) Who's your second family? Cor's family
(215) Do you always feel understood? yah sometimez
(216) Who's the loudest friend? coree...
(217) Do you trust others easily? yah

(218?)

(219) Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: ricky's
(220) Do your friends know you? yupppppp
(221) Friend that lives farthest away:...
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LOVE, and all that
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(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? no
(223) Do you remember your first love? have i had one?
'(224) Still love him/her? ...
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? no
(226) What do you find romantic? candles
(227) Turn-on? hmm... nice cologne
(228) Turn-off? bad breath!
(229) First kiss? josh
(231) If no interest someone you had in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? i would sex em up!
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? either as long as i get some
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? i dont care
(235) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? i dunno
(236) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? i dunno... maybe
(237) What is best about the opposite sex? penis
(238) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? they can be assholes...
(245) Do you read porn? nah
(246) Read the articles? nopers
(247) Just the pics? yah
(248) What's the last present someone gave you? a doll
(257) Are you in love? im not sure..
(258) Do you consider your significant other hot? in his own way..
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? talk to them..

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THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
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(267) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? hmm actually yeah..
(268) If you did experience that for one day, what would you do? have sex
(269) What do you love most about the other gender? penis
(270) What do you dislike most? noting!!!
(271) What do you understand least about the opposite sex? cheaterz
(272) Honestly, what do you notice first in the opposite sex? :o)
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POSESSIONS

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(273) What is your fave possession? hmm... my computer?
(274) What physical, tangible possession do you want most? ricky.. (yeah i have him.. but i kinda dont...)
(275) How badly do you want it? baaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(276) Have you ever seen The Exorcist? HELLS YEAH!
(277) How long did it take for you to understand why the last question is in this section? huh?
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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
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(279) That haunted you? no one!
(280) You wanted to kill? no one
(281) That you laughed at? coree
(282) That laughed at you? ricky
(283) That turned you on? ricky babyyyy
(284) You went shopping with? cor
(285) That broke your heart? ricky
(286) To disappoint you? uhm...
(287) To ask you out? wow.. i asked ricky out
(288) To make you cry? ricky
(289) To brighten up your day? ricky
(290) That you thought about? ricky
(291) You saw a movie with? ricky, coree, and keith
(292) You talked to on the phone? ricky
(293) You talked to through IM/ICQ? bryan
(294) You saw? cor, ricky, bryan
(295) You lost? ...
(296) You went head over heels for? ricky
(297) You thought was completely N-U-T-Z? me
(298) You wanted to be? myself
(299) You told to fuck off? dan
(300) You trusted? cor
(301) You turned down? hmm..

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WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
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(302) Smiled? now!
(303) Laughed? today
(304) Cried? today
(305) Bought something? yesterday
(306) Danced? well.. i AM a dancer....
(307) Were sarcastic? lol alot
(308) Kissed someone? last night:)
(309) Talked to an ex? josh right now..
(310) Watched your fave movie? a couple days
(311) Had a nightmare? long times
(312) Talked on the phone? fone with ricky right now
(313) Listened to the radio? yesterday
(314) Watched TV? dunno
(315) Went out? last night
(316) Helped someone? i dunno
(317) Were mean? oo.. i'm ALWAYS nice;-)
(318) Sang? all the time baby!
(319) Saw a movie? a couple minutes ago
(320) Said "I love you"? a lil while ago..
(321) Missed someone? Ricky
(322) Fought with a family member? all the time
(323) Fought with a friend? ALWAYS!
(324) Had a serious conversation? with ricky about 10 minutes ago...
(325) Smoked weed? i wish i have, but i havent had the opertunity
(326) Got drunk? never gotten drunk...
(327) Had sex? i'm still a virgin!

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A LAST TIME for everything...
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(328) Last book you read: The Giver
(329) Last movie you saw: Legally Blonde
(330) Last song you heard: elevation by U2
(331) Last thing you had to drink: pepsi
(332) Last time you showered: today

hmmm

2003-06-08T13:06:19Z

does "Do you think we should stay together during the summer?" mean a guy is dumping me? lol

Frosh Cruise...

2003-05-18T07:44:57Z

Wow i had alot of fun last night!!! at first i didnt wanna dance, but then ijust had to.. it was SO MUCH FUN! omg and Ricky.. he's so fucking cute... he didnt know how to dance buthe tried anyways.. aww i love that kid so much. And he kept holding my hand and tried to grind.. awwwwww hes so fucking cute! and he smells so gooooooooooooood! Today i will probably hang out with him... if he feels better. Wow, every1 was so dressy last night! and there was me, with my capris!

NYC!

2003-05-09T18:54:10Z

Well let me do this in chronilogical order so then i can look back on this and realize exactly what happened when.

~Bus at 6:30... The way there was SO boring/tiring. i was sitting with Chelsea and we were both exhausted.. and she kept touching my ass (eeyore) :)

~first pit stop... Max stole a watch so he got sent back home.. sucks for him!

~Cloisters Museum... it was so pretty! it was like being in a castle... but the fucking worksheet made it suck.

~Hotel room... yeah the hotel was really really nice! 618 baby! Chelsea was cool, but the other two in my room.. eh.

~Din din and walking around in TIMESQUARE! wow that was AWESOME! chels and I went on this huge ferris wheel in TOYS R US! hah! it was so cool. and we saw MTV studios and shit.. so awesome.

~RENT! MY FAVORITE! it was SOOOOo good. it was very sexual. hehe. now i'm obsessed with the music from it.. yay.

~Hotel room... Chels and I stayed up for a long time, but Chrissy Dobies and Rachel Corey went to bed like right away.Omg, and then rachel was like "viggy, if i have a big problem can i go in the hall?" a big problem? say wha? lol. and then chels and i saw this cream in the b-room that was hers and it was like "gel to ease sleep" or w/e. OMG! AND SHE SUCKED HER THUMB WHEN WE WERE ALL TRYING TO SLEEP AND THAT WAS THE ONLY NOISE. it was GROSSING me out!!!!!!! ew ew ew.

~Wakey wakey at 7! breakfast.. i got orange juice spilled on me.. lovely.

~Wax museum... holy shit it was freaky, everything looked SO real!

~HARD ROCK CAFE! the food wasnt great... and the gift shop sucked.. but just being in there with all of the music and the golden records and signed guitars and shit.. it was amazing.

~Met museum. it was really pretty. and there i realized one side of my contact was missing.. lol no wonder why it was pissing me off!I also got this really pretty poster of this ballet class painting.. i LOVE it.

~The ride home was so funny! kurt, matt penta, chelsea, and all those ppl in the back.. wow it was interesting. omg and Mr. O'neil fell on chels and she put her hand on his butt.. it was SO funny!

~din din- I GOT A HAPPY MEAL! wow i love those...

~Finally after a few hours we got home... yay!

I'm glad that i finally went... it was so pretty and trying to walk in the crowd and stuff is so much fun!

Oh, and did I mention that i have a boyfriend?:):) (Mag, its the same person i told you about in the pool...hehe)

Happy Easter

2003-04-20T06:05:53Z

I got candy. Thats good because I need chocolate or else I'll die...

This entry is to Mag... what the hell ever happened to you and me?? we used to know so much about eachother and were we really close.. but now I feel like i dont know you. We never hang out, or you are busy or you cant. this just fucking sucks.

Ooo the puppy is crying.. i better go say hello to her.

sarinala @ 2003-04-17T16:51:00

2003-04-17T13:54:13Z

i feel like i have no other friends besides Coree and Chelsea.. and i'm starting to believe it too. I mean, no one even wanted to room with Chels and I for NYC.. that makes us feel just greeeeeat. I wish i could hang out with the people that i used to.... like last year. dont get me wrong chels and cor are great, but i want my old friends back also. they always hang out... but never invite me. i want to be their friends again.. o welll...