Eccentric Ramblings

sakura_ame — Fri, 16 Mar 2018 18:31:13 GMT

Hey it's been a while...

Free Kindle Book! Go Go Go! :D

sakura_ame — Tue, 01 Apr 2014 09:52:51 GMT

Originally posted by cadkitten at New Book Published on Kindle!

Totally forgot to write this here... but I published another book!

Check it out. I’d be honored if you’d spread the word and even more honored if anyone would like to purchase it. Even if you don’t have a kindle, you can use your phone (with free kindle app) or your computers (kindle cloud reader, free download) to read any kindle books!

Excerpt

The bright morning sun beat down on the roof of Zach’s faded red 1987 Chevy Silverado. His truck seemed to hit every single bump in the road as he drove down the dirt road leading away from his ranch. Sometimes he could have sworn the shocks were going to give right out on the old truck and he’d find himself riding more of a bucking bronco than the driver’s seat of the red beast he had called friend for so many years. But, luck was on his side and it seemed today would not be that day.

Of course, it's gay erotica (what else would it be?) and here's a hint for everyone on here. I actually wrote it as Die/Kaoru AU in my head. Seriously, papi as the half-Mexican? Mmmhmmmm yup!

久しぶりです

sakura_ame — Sun, 10 Nov 2013 09:38:33 GMT

私は大丈夫はない...

I don't know where else to get this out. I'm not even going to be able to get it out fully here...but the simple thing is...I'm not okay. Not emotionally okay. I haven't been for a while. I'm trying to be but things keep piling on top. I wanted DIR EN GREY to fix it, to heal me...but it's like it just added on because now I'm frustrated that it didn't. I wanted to open up and feel but I'm so damn blocked up or something. My chakra are shut tight. I can't let anything in or out except in tiny, unfulfilled bursts. I feel like my own energy is poisoning me. I'm choking on the emotions I can't properly release. They're just getting more and more and more bottled up.

-----Fuck it. Just chopped off most of this post. I don't want to upset anyone. I'm so pathetic. It's laughable.

It's been a while...

sakura_ame — Sun, 09 Jun 2013 15:40:08 GMT

...so I wanted to update here. It really has been a very long time since I've written anything here. No one is on LJ anymore, not like they used to be. It seems the site is quite dead and somehow, that's sad.

I have successfully completed my first semester at University of Memphis. I met many awesome people in the Japanese program and I think I've truly found my calling. I excelled in my class and am now going to have private study sessions with my sensei for the rest of the summer. Nearly everyone involved in the program is really nice and helpful. Despite my age(I've got 10 years on most of the students), I felt truly welcomed. In fact, due to certain circumstances, my mother ended up being at most of the events and she is now a regular part of the group as well. She's even learning Japanese with me and will be attending our study sessions!

In recent news, we have a new kitten named Jiji. She's a demon and my arms look like I got into a fight with a razor blade. She's cute though so hopefully she'll settle down in a week or two. We have no idea how old she is but I suspect around 7 to 8 weeks. She, like most of our other cats, just showed up out in the yard one day. I asked around and nobody has lost a kitten so we think someone must have dropped her off. Their loss I suppose, though we really didn't need another cat. We're just suckers when it comes to animals!

Speaking of animals, in less happy news, my brother's dog got hit by a car Wednesday. He's alive and mostly well but his leg is broken in two places. One is a compound fracture, in which his bone came through his skin and the other is a crack in the smaller bone. It took screws and plates to repair it and we're still worried that he's going to mess it up. Hopefully it will heal properly and he will be back on his feet in no time.

Well then, not to end on an unhappy note but I can't really think of anything relevant that's been going on. So, I will end it here. Maybe I'll update sooner next time but I doubt it. >.>

Jingle Balls

sakura_ame — Fri, 21 Dec 2012 06:13:12 GMT

Title: Jingle Balls
Author[s]:sakura_ame
Pairing: Kyo x Kaoru
Band[s]: DIR EN GREY
Rating: 18+
Summary: Kyo surprises Kaoru with a little fun.
Note: For the direngrey_yaoi Winter fic exchange.
Disclaimer: I make no claims to the persons mentioned within nor do I claim any of the following to be truth.
Warnings: M/M, rimming, light bondage

Kaoru walked out of the bathroom with a towel slung around his waist. He’d just taken a very relaxing and thorough shower and was feeling pretty good right about then, ready to slip his pajamas on and relax in bed for the evening. His plans were interrupted, however, as when he got close to the bed, a tattooed hand slipped around and clamped over his mouth, causing him to immediately start struggling until a smooth voice murmured in his ear.

Kyo had been waiting in the shadows for Kaoru to finish his shower and had pounced as soon as the other was close enough. He smirked and whispered, “It’s just me. I thought we could have a little “fun” tonight...” With that, he released the guitarist only to move in front of him, revealing a pair of neckties, a devilish look in his eyes as he leaned up to press his lips to Kaoru’s.

The guitarist almost groaned as Kyo held up two of his best ties, that look in his eyes that told the guitarist all he needed to know about how things were going to go that night. He kissed the vocalist back then pulled away, licking his lips as he shivered with anticipation. “What’s the game tonight, Kyo?”

The shorter smirked and nodded towards the bed. “On your back, arms to the side.”

Kaoru nodded and slipped his towel off, tossing it down then crawling onto the bed and laying on his back, spreading his arms out beside him. He gazed up at Kyo, chewing his lip slightly, anticipation and nervousness written on his face. “This what you want?”

Kyo watched Kaoru move around on the bed, waiting for him to settled before walking up to the head of the bed. “Not quite...” He laid one of the ties on Kaoru’s chest then took the other and tied it loosely around his wrist, fixing the other end to the bedpost. He moved around and did the same to the other side, making sure that they weren’t too tight but tight enough. “There now, perfect.”

Kaoru tugged at the ties, shivering slightly at being bound this way, his body already starting to react. He shifted and looked up at Kyo expectantly, wondering where the vocalist was going with this tonight. “Tell me you aren’t going to cause me a lot of pain...please.” He could take it but he didn’t always care for it.

The shorter chuckled softly and shook his head as he started removing his clothing. “No, not tonight. Tonight, I’m going to give you something you’ve always wanted but would never ask for.” He smirked and climbed onto the bed right between Kaoru’s legs, reaching out to run a hand over his thigh before shifting up and starting to press open-mouthed kisses over the other’s stomach, dipping his tongue into his belly button briefly.

He slowly moved downward, taking his time to rile Kaoru up, nipping and sucking at his skin, moving to his thighs instead of paying attention to his slowly swelling cock. Finally, he leaned back and grasped Kaoru’s thighs, pushing them apart and revealing all the other had to offer to his view. “Gorgeous...”
Kaoru shuddered at Kyo’s administrations, his body squirming as that hot mouth worked on his skin. “Kyo...,” he breathed out, face flushing as his most intimate area was exposed.

Kyo licked his lips as he pushed Kaoru’s legs up and apart before leaning back down and beginning to lick over the guitarist’s sac, drawing one of his balls into his mouth, sucking gently then releasing it. Finally, he got to what he’d been planning to do and moved further down, running his tongue along Kaoru’s crack, darting his eyes up to see the other’s reaction.

Kaoru moaned softly as Kyo sucked on his balls, his cock nearly fully hard now. When Kyo’s tongue brushed over his entrance though, he let out a cry of surprise and arousal, his hips jerking upward. “Oh..God..Kyo..” He squeezed his eyes shut, turning his face to bury it against his arm. Kyo was right, of course. He’d always wanted this particular thing done but was always way too embarrassed to ask for it.

Kyo simply smirked and ran his tongue along the same path before focusing on the puckered skin of Kaoru’s entrance, circling around it several times then pressing his tongue into the other’s body. He groaned as he worked his tongue past the first ring of muscle, moving it around as well as he could.

Kaoru cried out repeatedly as Kyo rimmed him. It felt unlike anything else he’d ever felt before and he almost felt like he could cum just from that. “Oh...fuck!”

The vocalist started lapping at Kaoru’s entrance as he finally moved his hand to wrap around Kaoru’s neglected length, jerking him off in an almost frantic manner.

Kaoru’s hips bucked upward as Kyo started stroking him like that, his head twisting from side to side. It all felt so good, he knew he wouldn’t last much longer. “K-kyo! Please...”

Kyo changed tactics and thrust his tongue back into Kaoru as far as he could get it, his hand never stopping on the other’s dick.

It only took the guitarist another second and then he was screaming Kyo’s name as he fell off the edge, his cum spurting out over his stomach and chest in copious amounts. “KYO!”

Kyo groaned and lifted his head, stroking Kaoru’s cock until he was finished. He then quickly moved up to kneel beside the other, taking himself in hand and jerking off quickly, occasionally shifting downward to rub the head of his cock through the mess on Kaoru’s stomach. It wasn’t long before he found his end, moaning lowly as he came onto the other’s chest, mixing their cum with a grin. When he was finished, he slumped back and glanced at Kaoru, licking his lips. “I think you need another shower now...”

Kaoru could only watch as Kyo jerked off on him though he found himself wishing he could suck that glorious cock instead. After Kyo was done and mentioned another shower, he let out a breathless laugh and nodded. “Yeah, I think so..but aside from that...thank you..because that was fucking amazing.”

The vocalist shrugged and grinned, moving to untie Kaoru’s wrists before flopping down beside him. “Consider it a not so early Christmas present.”

sakura_ame — Wed, 14 Nov 2012 17:34:35 GMT

Getting real tired of your shit. I wish I could tell you that but I can't so I'll just post about it on LJ where you'll never see it because your brain is withering by the second and I doubt you know how to turn on the computer much less get here.

Update and picspam!

sakura_ame — Tue, 06 Nov 2012 12:01:43 GMT

So, I haven't updated in a while. Whoops!

I've been on Tumblr but it's not like I actually post things, I just reblog a bunch! I don't have anything to say. I mean, I go to school and sometimes it's a little interesting but I feel like I'd bore everyone if I talked about my day. I just want to hear y'all's 'adventures' instead! xD

Anyway, school is going well. I am doing decently well in both American History and Speech/Communications 101, though I struggle in Speech a bit. I have to fight myself to write the speeches and then getting up in front of everybody and delivering them is difficult. I did have fun doing an informal bit where I taught them some Japanese. :D

When I'm not at school or asleep, I'm usually on Tumblr, playing Sims or RPing. I would be playing Wind Waker but my TV up and croaked and we're broke so...can't replace it.

OH! Don't forget to go vote(for Obama!) tomorrow! I would but there was some kind of screw up with my voter registration and it didn't get in. :( SADFUL!

Okay, on to the promised picspam.

First, I never got around to upping pics of my trip to PA so I'll include them here!

Inner Harbor in Baltimore. We went for a day trip to the aquarium and Inner Harbor. :D

Castle thingie at Gettysburg.

Neesha and I messing around on this walking trail at Gettysburg.

Neesha and her boyfriend, John at this pretty reservoir thingie.

I did a couple of things with an schoolmate(somewhat reluctantly but that's another story).

We went to the Delta Fair and this is my first EVER Ferris Wheel ride. :3 It was kinda neat but I was too chicken to go on the actual big one. >_>

There's this thing called the Cooper Younger festival in Memphis and she dragged me to it. It was kinda nice, would've been better with someone that was actually...fun. *coughs* Anyway, there's this cat rescue place there and you could make a donation to go inside and pet the kittes. So, we did. :3

Last month, my aunt had a fish fry/bonfire thing. It was actually a lot of fun even though it was really cold and rainy. The fire would've fixed the whole being cold thing but the rain made that impossible!

She lives in the Mississippi river bottoms.

MISC!

Meet Waru-something! I got him at the Cooper Young Festival. :D We've already been on an adventure to the casinos!

Waru-something and Cindy(Mom's Angel Pullip) were chilling on the window sill.

I dyed my hair a few weeks ago, it's already faded but I liked it at the time!

Damian doing his best "dead cat" impersonation. I couldn't help but mess with him~!

And that concludes the HUGE pic spam! Now I'm off to take a shower and maybe a nap before class!

My birthday is in 21 days.

sakura_ame — Wed, 08 Aug 2012 11:06:19 GMT

Yes, that's right. My birthday is the 29th of this month. Honestly, I don't actually care. It was just a useful title to have. LOL Seriously though, we won't be doing anything and I won't get gifts so it'll just be another day.

Actually, it'll be my first day back at school. Woo. I have American History and Speech this semester. These are the last classes I will take at Dyersburg Community College because I'll be transferring to University of Memphis next spring where I get to start my Japanese courses! Finally, I will be working on my actual degree material! So excited!

In other news, we had a family reunion of my Dad's mother's family this past weekend. I would post pics but I was in the pool ALL day so I didn't take any! LOL It was nice though, seeing all my cousins and meeting a few that I didn't know/hadn't seen since I was a child. We're also going to lunch with my aunts tomorrow. Yay~ Lol

Oh, yeah, my LJ subscription expired. It has been a paid account for quite some time now so it feels really funny not having it. Sad times! :C

Welp, that's really all I have to say except go read this. :D It's a writing collaboration between cadkitten and myself. It is smutty and such, so...read at your own risk.

(Nii-san, I don't suggest clicking that link.)

Happy 4th of July!

sakura_ame — Wed, 04 Jul 2012 14:54:04 GMT

Happy 4th to my US friends~ :D Go light some fireworks, have a grill-out and all that fun patriotic stuff! Lol

So...let's see...update. It's summer and I'm not doing anything! It's too damn hot to even think about going outside unless I was going straight for a pool. Sadly, I do not have a pool nor do I have local friends(period) that have one. I miss swimming and I miss the beach. Boo.

The folks and I are slowly making our way through the Avengers movies(Iron Man, Thor, Captain America, etc.). I'd really like to go see it again but we'll probably end up waiting on the DVD.

Speaking of movies, I've been watching a TON of Disney movies lately. My childhood...lol

I need new icons...randomly...

Well, I don't have anything else interesting to add so I guess I will go and take a nap. xD

Stay cool in this heat, everyone!

Random

sakura_ame — Wed, 06 Jun 2012 06:01:09 GMT

At the laundry. Bored. There's bugs everywhere. Lol

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Happy Birthday Neesha~!

sakura_ame — Sat, 21 Apr 2012 11:41:39 GMT

ilu x3

Meme

sakura_ame — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 11:18:32 GMT

Comment to this post, and I will list seven things I want you to talk about. They might make sense or they might be totally random. Then post that list, with your commentary, to your journal. Other people can get lists from you, and the meme merrily perpetuates itself.

darkp_hawk/Nii-san gave me music, best friends, Japan, Fey marriage, Ruki's Penis, stabby, gaming! :3

1) Music: This is something that is a huge part of my life. Japanese rock holds the top spot but I also listen to the occasional Korean artists as well as American artists such as Linkin Park, Metallica and the old classics(Led Zeppelin, Jimi Hendrix, etc.).

2)Best Friends: Hmm well my best friends are my mother, Neesha and Nam(that's Nii-san). I don't know much to say about this except that these people mean the absolute world to me(yes, you too Nii-san) and I would be lost without them. :'3

3)Japan: One of my greatest passions, Japan has held interest for from early on in life. I am currently going to school in hopes of one day working in some field that will enable me to either work and live in Japan or at least make frequent trips.

4) Fey marriage: Ahahaha..."He doesn't believe in Fey marriage." Though I've yet to watch the whole thing, this is a joke from the PAX 2011 live D&D game. I don't play D&D but some of the stuff is very funny.

5)Ruki's Penis: Yay! :D Anyway, this is another joke amongst the "inner circle"...which means nothing...lol but I know if I say "Ruki's Penis" to Neesha...I'll always get a smile. :3

6)Stabby: Ah the stabby!! Nii-san has gotten me somewhat into MMORPGs and I usually play assasins or other stabbity things. :D I like my blades!

7)Gaming: Gaming has been in and out of my life since I was old enough to work the Commodore 64(yes, my age is showing here..)! I am not a "gamer" so much as a casual player but I love old school Sonic and Mario and I used to spend hours on them. Nowadays as I said above, I play MMORPGs some, LOTRO being the one right now.

sakura_ame — Wed, 29 Feb 2012 15:06:23 GMT

My phone won't lemme delete this stupid draft so I'm posting!

The weather is crappy! Don't like it! D:

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sakura_ame — Fri, 24 Feb 2012 19:36:42 GMT

*prods journal with stick* ...Hello? Is there anybody still here? ~~and not on Tumblr xD~~

Holiday blues

sakura_ame — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 21:48:56 GMT

I was looking for Christmas music stored on an old harddrive and came across my old AIM/Trillian/MSN log files so I decided to read some. They made me smile but it was a sad smile. I really miss having my friends. I miss them. I miss our group chats and utter silliness. The sad thing is...I didn't stop talking to them, they just moved on with their lives. I know people get busy and have lives and shite but...in this day of technology and IMs, txts, etc...why can't we stay in touch..even a little bit? I dunno, the holidays have a habit of making me feel so fucking lonely...even though I have people around me that care for me. I guess I just really miss having that group of friends that I can fangirl with, be silly with, stay up late talking about random shit with. It sucks. It sucks so hard because there's not a goddamned thing I can do to change the fact that they moved on and I'm just stuck here like always.

Tumblr has taken over my social networking needs

sakura_ame — Sat, 17 Dec 2011 11:58:44 GMT

:O I just realized how horribly out of date my profile is now! I should remedy that soon...I'm out of school for the semester...So much I want to do though..>.> I want to do graphics and write and do Christmas and and and...yeah stuff! Also, I need new icons. o.O I need reaction icons...lol. I fail so hard at being internet cool. xD;

DIR EN GREY 2011 Pictures

sakura_ame — Wed, 14 Dec 2011 03:01:09 GMT

Here are some of the pics I took from Houston and Dallas. They are not like uber HQ or anything but I like them. I really needed more time to get to know my new camera before the show and I think if I had, the pics would be a lot better but oh well~ These are in no particular order but the ones from HOB are more front and center and the ones from Trees have a stupid tree in the middle.

Our meet and greet pic...yes, I cut us out of it. >.>

DIR EN GREY 2011

sakura_ame — Tue, 13 Dec 2011 11:41:59 GMT

Ok I am horrible with live reports so this is gonna be random.

Mom and I went to Houston and Dallas this year. First time going to two shows in a row. Houston is a LONG ass way down there from here. The ride was alright, it's pretty fun hanging out with Mom and jamming out to DIR EN GREY but I was ready to be out of the truck by the time we got to our stop for the night. We ended up staying in Livingston and headed out the next day into Houston. It was raining the whole way there (about 2 hours..ish) but Mom handled it like a pro! We found the House of Blues and parked right across the street, had a bit of a squee-y moment when we saw the bus and then decided to find lunch. Lunch was FAIL! Nothing was open since it was a Sunday and we ended up at this funky, high end grocery that had a deli. Unfortunately for Mom's and my seemingly unsophisticated tastes, the "rosemary ham with brie" cold sandwiches we got were...bleh. They had some odd sauce and bleu cheese on them. :x Neither of us ended up eating more than a few bites and we threw them away. The cashier there was cute though...xD He even all waved and smiled when we left.

Anyways, we headed back to the House of Blues and ran into cadkitten's dad, though we didn't know it at the time. LOL He told us when the doors were supposed to open so we just headed back to the truck and sat for a while to dry off because it was still very wet in Houston. After a while we got back out and wandered over to where some fans had gathered near the bus(there was a rail thingie) and kinda hung out on the outskirts of the crowd, not really sure where to go. Then someone informed us that the line was upstairs so we all moved up there and waited...and waited...and waited some more. Finally I heard someone mention a "pass the line" pass and went down to the HOB store to check it out. You could buy so much in merch or gift cards and get in the line that goes in right after the VIPS which would be nice because we could get our tshirts and pick a good spot in the balcony(or so I thought, turns out it was closed and I don't know my way around HOB...) Well I called Mom and told her to come on down to the store but she went the wrong way! She ended up walking 4 blocks the wrong way and back and we were both pretty panicked by the time I found her again. HOB is like in this..shopping thing and it's HUGE! D: Poor Mommy! I felt SOOO bad for losing her. So, after that we got our pass and got in the short line and we...you guessed it...waited some more!

Finally we got in, got our tshirts(mine fits! yay!) and picked a spot at these tables they had on a raised platform in the back. We'd pretty much agreed beforehand that we'd take it easy in the back for this show because we had VIP for Dallas so we'd be up front and standing the whole time then(or so we thought, more on that in a bit). I ran wee and when I came back, Mum was standing outside the area. She'd been asked to either pay up($50 for a table! These people are nuts!) or get out. She got out of course...well we were about to go find a place to stand when the waitress for that area came and told us that a (very nice!) lady was offering to share her table with us since it was just going to be her and her friend. We went for it and we met Janice and Dana. Janice was older than Mom and Dana was my age. They were awesome!!! I am SO sad we didn't get their emails. I meant to but in the after-show madness, I forgot. :(

On to the show~ Birthday Massacre were first and I didn't know what to expect from them but OMG the singer (Chibi, I think..) is adorable!! Bouncy and smiley and not bad at vocals either! For once, I truly enjoyed the opening band! They played for a bit and then they left and George, Kuroo, Nora and Rick got busy readying the stage for DEG. Mom and Janice went out to smoke and Dana and I chatted a bit...and somehow ended up on Kyo's......track pants. x3 We were highly amused when he walked out in them a few minutes later proving our...track pants...conversation. Anyway, lights dimmed, Kyoukotsu no Nari started and everything is a blur at this point. The boys came out and blasted into the first song and I was swept away in the sheer happiness and excitement I feel when I'm watching them play. I loved the new songs, sang along with the crowd to the older ones, head banged(my neck and shoulder still hurt) and flipped over them playing the older, rare songs(Mazohyst anyone?). It was, to put it simply, an AWESOME show. I was pleased to see the crowd was relatively well behaved.

My new camera was well behaved too for the most part. This is the first time I've ever been able to get a decent photo of Shinya, unfortunately, Kaoru didn't seem to want to be photographed. I didn't get one good shot of him in either show!

After they left the stage, throwing water bottles and picks(I'm always in the wrong damn place!) and such, we debated about what we were gonna do. The original plan was to wait and follow the bus to Dallas like a couple of hippie groupies(Lulz). That didn't work out. They weren't going to leave for quite some time if at all and Mom and I both needed foods and stuff. So we scrapped that plan and just got on the road. Not for long though because we saw a Whataburger and had to eat there. We don't have Whataburgers and damn are they good! Anyways, we got rolling after that and ran smack into a nasty rain storm that followed us the entire frigging way to Dallas. It was so late by the time we reached the outskirts, the sun was coming up. We were tired and irritable and wanted sleep. We tried a few places but they wanted to charge for two nights(it was like 6am at this point) and we didn't want that. Somehow, in the rain and stress, we ended up downtown Dallas mid-rush hour. OMG...it was awful! We finally stopped at a Walgreens and asked where some nice but affordable hotels were and got directed to some. Finally, we found a decent Holiday Inn that only charged us the one night even though we were checking it at 8am(yes, that late/early...ugh). We unloaded, ate breakfast and crashed until like 3 that afternoon.

We somehow managed to get up and headed to the venue, in the middle of afternoon rush hour traffic of course. We parked in like, the skeeziest place ever. LOL Probably a bad idea but it worked out. Then we got in line after finding other VIPs in a separate one and...waited. We were originally told to be there at 5:40 but then they said it would be about 6:30 so I ran down to a pizza place nearby to get us a slice. It was so warm in there and so cold outside. It was actually snowing...in Dallas. Wth?! Pizza was yummy..I wish we had a place like it around here. Enough about pizza...while we were standing in line, we kinda chatted a bit with the person standing behind us...who happened to be from South Korea. He was a white boy though! LOL (a damn cute one...why am I so shy..shoulda got his email too) He was sweet though, actually like..talked to both of us despite the two little girls standing behind him and constantly getting his attention.

Anyway, it finally came time to go in and my stomach got all butterfly-y and nervous as they walked us up to the area for the M&G. We got tshirts(too small, they only had XL) and a signed poster then kinda milled around while Nora finished handing stuff out and then informed us the band would be up soon. After a bit, she told us to gather over where the band would be which resulted in a mass rush...-_-; (Oh I was also so very disappointed to see that two skankasauruses from the Houston show were here too. They're just..nasty. I mean...nasty.) Anyway, finally the band came in and lined up against the wall we were facing. I was amused but also a bit sad to see Kyo immediately trying to hide in his coat. He completely disappeared at one point. Lol I don't blame him though...it's a bit like being paraded out like toy poodles or something, plus it was cold! Anyway, Nora asked the usual "Who has never been to show?, Who has been more than 10 times?, Where is everyone from?(which earned a "Ehhh?!" from Die when cutie from South Korea spoke up)" etc then asked if anyone had questions for the band. I don't remember what all was asked but Kyo did actually answer one (Lyrics or music first..music is what he said). After all that, the handshake/picture part started and Mom and I were about 10th or so in line...I was freaking nervous even though I just did this last year. x.x; The picture came out horrid and I will not be posting it. After our picture, we shook their hands. I got a little smile from Kaoru and little smile from Kyo..also a nice grip and he stuck his hand out first and I know I'm fangirling over him the most but I can't help it. >//>;

After that, we went downstairs to secure our spots on the rail.......that didn't exist. u.u The venue has a very, very short stage and a tree in the middle of it. It sucks! So we got in the second row right between Kyo and Die. We stood there a while and other people started filtering in, including a somewhat familiar red-head that ended up standing behind us. I hesitated a while and finally turned to ask if she was who I thought she was..and she was! I met cadkitten! :D We chatted and stuff for a while until Mom was like "I am not going to be able to stand here, I'm going to sit." Cad pointed her to where her Dad was sitting and I made sure she was ok with splitting up before I let her go. Cad and I started chatting again and the place started really filling up. In a bit, elya_chan bopped over and I got to meet her too! ^__^/ Yay~! I love randomly meeting peoples!! ♥ Well, things were going good, I was fine standing there, even if my feet were starting to really hurt and I was getting a bit warm as the place got more crowded and packed. I really thought I could make it through this time(I have a bad history of getting ill right before the show starts). Then Birthday Massacre came on and things got a bit...close. Still though, it was fine, we rocked out to their set. By the time they left stage though, I was burning up, wet with sweat and desperately wishing I had my hair clippy and a cold drink. I didn't know the half of it. The further along they got with the equipment set up, the tighter the crowd got. I was getting a bit claustrophobic and was really wishing the band would just get on stage so I could get into the music and forget that Cad and Elya and I were getting a lot more intimate with each other and the people around us. Oh how stupid could I be? x_x The band came out and the crowd fucking pancaked into the front. I could touch the stage, which I did at one point and got elbowed in the hand by this nasty ho. That bitch...urgh. ANYWAY, I made it through one song and I was done. I couldn't breath, these people were freaking crazy!! I wanted to stay so bad too but...I just couldn't. I'm weak. I wasn't even standing on my own feet half the time. I told Cad and Elya I wanted out and then turned and proceed to very slowly squish my way out and make it upstairs. Damnit I hated leaving that spot. I could've played Die's guitar for him. x.x; Ugh! I was glad I got out though....the amount of moshing and pushing was insane. I much preferred last year's crowd that didn't push like that. I still ended up sore as hell from the few minutes I was in there. I couldn't even get to my camera, it was so tight! I just enjoyed the rest of the show up in the balcony area with Mom and Cad's Dad(hehe that rhymed) and an adorable little Japanese girl that bounced the whole time.

After the show was over and I'd screamed myself almost hoarse, we went outside into the blissfully cold air and took up residence against the wall right by the bus door...waiting to be told to leave but more or less just hanging. South Korean cutie stopped by to chat with us again(OMG I should've gotten his email..damnit!)and pouted because his poor VIP poster got ripped in the fray. I also went and said bye to Cad and Elya and Cad's Dad then we hung out against the wall for a while. I was amused by poor Nora running back and forth between the bus and the venue and at one point we got onto her for not wearing her coat! LOL I eventually started to become numb from the cold so I asked when the others were coming out(Kyo and Toshiya had already left in a car to go shower and stuff...I barely caught a peek of them) and she said that Die and Kao were still in there and who knows when they'd come out...lol We hung out for a bit more, told the guitarist(I think) from Birthday Massacre that we liked them and then decided to leave Die and Kao to their...activities and just head back to the hotel(I know, we're lazy stalkers..but it was cold!!) We went back to the area our hotel was and headed to a Walmart for some stuff...like Ibuprofen...then we ate at this place called Taco Cabana. OMG...Beef brisket tacos..YUMMY! I want to go back...like now. God that was SO good! LOL

Anyway, we slept and then hit the road again. Nothing remarkable to that really...long way home and I had school the next day...except I missed it because I overslept. Fortunately for me though, it snowed 5 inches that night and almost everyone missed class. xD (Shush Nii-san, I was very tired...)

So that was my extremely long "live report" that makes no sense and is in crappy format...erm...hope you enjoyed? >_>; Pictures up next!

Holy crap...I wrote a book...o.O;; Erm, you don't have to read it..really. Yikes...>_>

Happy Birthday Kai!

sakura_ame — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 19:30:29 GMT

Happy Birthday Kai! ♥

(still no PS so...no graphic..:x)

The dream

sakura_ame — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:33:55 GMT

I had a dream last night...a really vivid dream. I received a note from someone close to me. It said "Dear Jess, our friendship is hanging by a thread. There's nothing to do to help it. Sorry." In the dream I desperately tried and tried to fix it....in the end I just ended up broken and alone. When I woke up, I just felt...empty.

Happy Birthday Miyavi!

sakura_ame — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 01:08:28 GMT

Happy Birthday Myv!

~~I'm photoshop-less atm so I'll eventually replace this with a nice graphic..lol~~

School n stuff

sakura_ame — Sat, 03 Sep 2011 13:17:04 GMT

So I finished my first week of school yesterday and I've got to say, I'm really excited about it! LOL The material is slowly coming back to me and I think I MIGHT make it this time! The teacher's nice and willing to re-explain stuff so that's quite helpful too. I still need to get my book ordered...Thank goodness for the library!

I started watching Glee this week...I think I'm hooked. >.> I've always had a thing for musicals and such so it really kind of ties right into that.

Oh, finally ordered the DIR EN GREY tix...Just in time too! I went back to the site like an hour later and they were all sold out so..Phew! Unfortunately, I now owe my father an arm and a leg...I just hope he waits til after the concert to collect! LOL

In some sad news, Taka-chan has apparently died on me. That's 1tb of data that I've lost and that really sucks! I'm hoping that I can take him to a place that does data recovery because trying to rebuild my collection of 5,000+ pictures is going to be nearly impossible, not to mention videos and audio. :x

This is a post...

sakura_ame — Sun, 14 Aug 2011 19:50:40 GMT

Livejournal, what's up? Been a long time eh? It always is a long time between true entries. That's because I don't have a life! ^^;

ANYWAY~ I'm finally getting somewhere with school. I re-applied at my old school to take the missing/failed/whatever math course. Hopefully, that'll go smoothly~. I am looking forward to actually being able to say I'm doing something with my life/towards my future.

Oh~! We have a new addition! Meet George! My brother brought him after the neighbor gave him to him and said he'd been following our one tom cat around. It is obvious that Kiiro is definitely George's dad!

Moving on...big happenings in the DIR EN GREY world! I CANNOT wait for December. Every new tour vid and pic that surfaces just fuels the anticipation. I love Dum Spiro Spero! The album is just...I can't even put it into words really...It's just deep man, deep. My current frequently repeated songs are 流転の塔 (Unplugged Ver.) and THE BLOSSOMING BEELZEBUB(remix). That's bound to change over the next few months as it usually does with new songs. Not to seem like a batshit insane fangirl, but I feel more connected with them than ever lately. I feel like...they're reaching out more...or something. I dunno. >.> Never mind me! Gonna go jam out now! :> *hardcore yo*

Happy Birthday Gackt!

sakura_ame — Wed, 06 Jul 2011 19:53:24 GMT

Hello LJ...

sakura_ame — Sat, 11 Jun 2011 09:47:52 GMT

...It has been a while hasn't it? I've been stuck elsewhere(Tumblr, Forsaken World) lately but I still love you all, if there is anyone left that is.

I don't have much to tell really. I applied to the University of Memphis as an undergraduate but have yet to hear back from them. I am anxious about that because the deadline is coming up and I am not sure if I should contact them or what. They were waiting on my transcripts but they've been sent so they should have them by now.

I've been thinking a lot about doing something with my hair lately. I want to stop just tossing it up in a clip but I am SO lazy that I'm not sure I'd be able to stick with anything. I am hopefully going to get it cut this week though. It's gotten too long!

Anyway, I yoinked Mom's computer to make this update and she's back so...I'm going to bed.

~おやすみなさい