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HELLO LJ. I return to share with you some good news, and that is that I have spent the past few days in Ireland with my one and only, mockturtletale, even though we are not longer friends on her declaration. We're watching hockey and eating pancakes and talking about boybands, AKA everything we always do except in person and it's glorious and perfect except that the Blackhawks lost tonight. She died my hair bright blue and I'm stoked on it.

I recall having something to say when I started this journal, but I can no longer remember. ATM she's terrorizing me by showing me pictures of Jonathan Toews and Patrick Kane so I think the point is that WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS AND WE NEVER WILL BE AGAIN. #NOTALAD

Hello all! I suppose it's time for an update, seeing as... I don't actually remember the last time I posted. I think it was sometime in late August? Well, it is now October, and I'm sure you are all just dying to know what's going on in my life.

The short version of RL events: I started up classes again, I stopped and started work again, I went to a taping of Wait Wait... Don't Tell Me! on Wednesday, and that's really it.

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The short version of fandom events: Ummm.... mockturtletale has corrupted me into reading pretty much solely Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles fic, so there's that. I listen to the entirety of every Breakfast Show Grimmy does, because even though he's done some problematic things I'm pathetically charmed by him and I think if I weren't in love with Harold, I'd be hopelessly gone for him. That's not true, I am gone for him. I haven't felt this way about people I don't know in .... ever, really, so. I'll have you all know that I've read every single Harry/Nick fic I've come across, including those in first person, those that are actually Harry/Louis (a ship that I really don't ship), and literally every single one. So.

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The end!!

THIS IS AN IMPORTANT POST ABOUT IMPORTANT THINGS.

Yes it IS in fact almost three weeks past my birthday and I AM still posting about it, because why would you NOT. Birthdays are the best holidays ever, this year has totally redeemed itself from last, in spades and by miles and with flying colors.

So as a birthday present to myself last Tuesday, I went and got myself a tattoo. So pic and a little bit of that under the cut!

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ALSO FOR MY BIRTHDAY, MY BEST FRIEND WAS BETTER THAN YOURS COULD EVER BE, SORRY NOT SORRY. Clo did all sorts of GLORIOUS things for me, inlcuding drawing me a picture, making me a glorious audio post, taking lots of pictures, and the one most important to this post ... she wrote me a fic!

Y'all need to read this immediately, basically. It's called 'just to get it blessed', it's Harry/Zayn, canonical (for the most part -- derivations from canon stated in the author's notes), and it is here on AO3, and here's why you should read it ASAP:

It's described as coming!out fic, which it is, but it's also so much MORE than that. I don't know how many of y'all listened to my long, rambly 1D voice meme, but basically I mentioned how unrealistic I find it in fic when every or any one of the members is taken for granted as gay, or bi, or whatever -- that there's rarely any struggle there. So she took that and RAN with it, and wrote 12,000 words of... what I think is really one of the best characterizations of some of these characters that I've yet seen. And I'm not saying that because it's my fic, or because my best friend wrote it, but because it's just ... it's a fantastic story.

In it, Zayn struggles with his sexuality in... a really less conventional but so realistic and so refreshing way; the story warns for 'angst', which it has, a bit, but not in the soul-crushing way -- it doesn't deal with any disorders or anything, just with Zayn coming to terms with his sexuality in a way that he can express to the world around him. In the middle of all of that is Harry, whom Zayn's been in love with for quite some time, but who doesn't even entertain the idea of Harry being interested back -- both because he doesn't expect Harry to be interested in dudes, and because he doesn't expect Harry to be interested in him.

The dynamics described and illustrated between the boys, individually and as a group, are fantastic, really, really, amazingly well-done. Another thing that's considered here is how the band might react to some of the horrifyingly intrusive questions interviewers and fans ask them, how everyone takes that in personally and how it affects everyone as a group, and how it ends up affecting Zayn on a very personal level.

On top of all that, while Clo finished it in a rush for me last night (because she is FLAWLESS and couldn't stand how late she already was and wanted to finish it as quickly as possible after having very tragically (that sounds sarcastic -- it isn't at all) lost a TON of her writings in a flood), so there are a few typos here and there, but as per ALWAYS with Clo, it's so unbelivably well written I want to puke with it. The way she handles words, the metaphors she makes with feelings and the body and emotions and making it all so visceral, so real, makes you think about it in ways you'd never thought to before and it's -- I fucking love the way she writes, and that carries over to this so well.

Have an OT5 quote:

"They're best friends, and sometimes they're too tired or confused to say that out loud - so to be able to stand up there and say it with their smiles, with their hands and their voices tied up with words that aren't what they mean to say but say it anyway - that's their gift and their reward."

Now go read it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have I mentioned, yet, how inconvenient it is to live so close to the President?
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Anyway. It was my birthday recently! It was awesome. Lollapalooza was just as fantastic as I'd imagined, although Saturday they evacuated the park about 5 minutes before Empires set was supposed to start because of severe weather, and then the festival was shut down for like two hours and Empires weren't rescheduled and I was HEARTBROKEN. The Weekend still played, and Bloc Party, and they were FANTASTIC, and I saw fun. and wished they'd played more songs from Aim & Ignite and was yelled at on SEVERAL occasions by fans for being a "fake fan" because We Are Young played just about halfway through which was when I'd decided previously to leave for The Weekend so I left right after it played and I just wanted to shout at people because reasons.

BUT THEN EMPIRES GOT RE-SCHEDULED FOR SUNDAY WHICH WAS MY ACTUAL BIRTHDAY AND GLORIOUSNESS ENSUED. They were so fucking good, oh my GOD. There was so much energy and Sean was jumping around like wild and then JUMPED ON TOP OF THE CROWD where I was standing and almost BROKE MY ARM and then continued singing Bang jumping around the crowd and the security personnel were SO UNHAPPY and it was the literal best.

Everything else was good, too, I guess. IT WAS ALL SO FANTASTIC REALLY and I got to see The Jezabels perform 'Hurt Me' which is my favorite song and basically it was phenomenal. Then my dad came and hung out with me for a couple days and then on Thursday I came back to Detroit to hang out with my mom! It's been a lovely, relaxing week. I head back tonight and go back to work tomorrow but it was a really nice break and I think I'll be better for it!

ONE DIRECTION THOUGH. I just watched the Olympic closing ceremonies and cried for like 15 minutes straight about it because ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. I could talk for days about the fact that Harold was probably sick with nerves but they all killed it anyway and that this single was released a year ago and that they've only been a band for a year and KILL ME PLEASE. I'll spare the word vomit because it's rather repetitive and mostly on Tumblr and Skype but basically none of this is okay.

Also I opened a word doc yesterday and titled it 'mall!au' and wrote words in it, which is.... progress?? I keep wanting to title things from lyrics in songs but then having nothing to write about to give that title, o well. Here's this, because you needed it in your life:

Livejournal will have you know that my birthday is both today AND Sunday. Right you are, LJ, right you are. I officially declared it my birthday at 8:52PM today after I spent two hours cleaning the whole kitchen and washing every dish in the apartment and made everybody dinner last night and washed half of those dishes, too. I am not doing ANYTHING for the rest of the weekend that isn't playing Teen Wolf drinking games, sneaking gin into Lollapalooza, or generally being at Lollapalooza.

I am THRILLED for Lolla. I'm also thrilled to have three days off of work, which is three days more than I've had for two weeks. Not that they'll be at all restful, what with spending 11 hours every day up and dancing and enjoying music. Speaking of enjoying music, Saturday is going to be the greatest day of my life?! Empires, The Temper Trap, Fun., The Weekend, Bloc Party, and Frank Ocean (and/or The Red Hot Chili Peppers) all in a row. None of them overlap, I have time to move from stage to stage between all of them, basically I can't WAIT. Tomorrow's also going to be really good. Sunday I'm a TAD disappointed about because Florence and the Machine is playing at the same time as Of Monsters and Men and The Jezabels which were the three bands I really wanted to see on Sunday and I didn't want to have to CHOOSE, but it'll still be awesome. Sunday's gonna be good for checking out new artists and having a more chill day.

mockturtletale sent me a few songs by The Weekend a couple weeks ago in a mix she made me, and then yesterday she sent me the House of Balloons mixtape and I can't fucking stop listening to it, it's so fucking GOOD. I was all about Wicked Games yesterday but House of Balloons/Glass Table Girls is my jam today, I'm honestly head over heels for this mixtape and I can't WAIT to see him live on Saturday.

Monday I go back to work again but I have the rest of next week off because my dad is coming to visit me and then I'm going to go see my mom, and I am REALLY looking forward to the time off and the time away. I'm lame and miss my parents, or something, or at least miss my mom's cooking and my dad's penchant for delicious restaurants. My mom also bought me a massage for my birthday that I get to cash in on next weekend and I'm STOKED, my back is killing me after all of the tight wire stuff I did last weekend for the circus, children are HEAVY. We also get to go to my favorite restaurant and I'm very much looking forward to it.

Umm... fandom-wise I'm really bummed about the lack of fic in the One Direction fandom that I wanna read right now, so I'm back to re-reading Inception fic. I'm considering dipping my toes in some Teen Wolf fic but that sounds dangerous and I'm still bracing myself for reading Stiles/Derek fic whichis 99% of what's available. I'm thinking about WRITING more 1D fic though, that counts, right????

Right.

Have a picture of Harold that's ruining my life.

So I started watching Teen Wolf. I blame this entirely on mockturtletale, for no real reason other than that I CAN. She is the reason for all the worst (read: best) things in my life. I also finished watching Teen Wolf in about three days, which all things considered is not necessarily all that impressive (I mean, there are only 21 episodes), but I feel like my life has been consumed by it. Yesterday at work, I was really excited to get home because I wanted to watch more, and today at work I was heartbroken because I could not come home and watch more, because there was no more to watch.

I'm in love with it. It is of course ridiculous, and the special effects are awful, and for something that's aired on Music TV, I seriously question its musical choices sometimes, but I have a LOT of feelings about it. Most of which were shouted at darelose, who generously offered to rewatch the series while I watched it, which -- thank GOD, I could not have done that on my own. She also conned me into promising to write her Teen Wolf FIC? She's sneaky. But the joke's on her, because she promised ME fic, and hers is going to be 100x better than anything I write.

Speaking of fic, though, if anyone here ships Stiles/Derek and could explain to me why, that would be cool? I can maybe ship it in a theoretical sense, if there were some character development on both ends (and some character interaction other than trying to make sure everyone they know stays alive), but in the actual show....... I just don't see it at ALL. It's actually one of the ships I can see the LEAST in the show, I just really don't see any chemistry between them? And if someone else does and could point that out to me, I'd totally be up for that, because I'm interested in seeing how everyone else looks at their relationship!


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That's all, folks! I hope you're all doing well and enjoying the summer and whatnot!!

I did the 1D voice meme, because .... reasons. It's 15 minutes long. I do not blame you if you don't want to listen to me speak for 15 minutes. I ramble SO MUCH. But. Here!!!!!!!



I hope this works??? Oh god, sorry, it's so boring I don't even. I've never done just a voice thing!! It was so weird! IDK okay yeah.

HELLO LIVEJOURNAL, it's been a while. And by a while I mean like a week or something, but it feels like MUCH longer. I've been super busy recently, working 30 hours last week in 4 days (this is actually only impressive because 15 of them were on one day ((the 4th, no less, which was about 105 degrees and all of my work that day was physical))), and then one of my very good friends came to visit over the weekend and we had a blast pretending (on my part at least) to be tourists downtown and doing things like go to the Art Institute, Willis Sears Tower, walking up Michigan Ave. and walking into shops that we could not possibly afford to purchase anything from, etc. It was a good, but busy, and occasionally kind of stressful week!

I have returned, however, as has my beloved mockturtletale to me, and as soon as she's through watching tv I'm going to shout fic at her and then hopefully actually WRITE something, maybe???? I watched this 1D US tour footage and my love for Zayn Malik intensified to levels I didn't think it could reach, but that child is a FOOL, and I was 100 fics about him and Louis being partners in crime, and also about him and Harry being in love, and about him and Liam being BFFS (and also maybe being in love), and about him and Niall possibly being in love. Sometimes. Maybe.

I.... have nothing exciting to say. Have some gifs of Harold, because he's still my favorite. Credit to harryhug @ tumblr.

The boys continue to ruin my life and make me miserable, and a list of people surprised by this contains no names. I am having FEELINGS about the end of this tour, namely that I wish it wouldn't. I don't know what I'm going to do without a constant source of concert videos and photos and stories. If they're in the studio, HOW WILL I KNOW WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE EVERY DAY. HOW WILL I KNOW WHO TOUCHES WHO THE MOST. Oh god, I am the creepiest. The actual creepiest.

I may or may not have already considered buying a ticket for when they come to Chicago in 2013, but also.... That would be ridiculous because that is literally A YEAR AWAY, how am I supposed to know where I will be/what I'll be doing in a year. Why would you even make tickets available a year in advance, WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT. Sigh.

My head has also been wondering what One Direction would sound like if they were covered by Pop Goes Punk. I REALLY want to hear this. Particularly I want to hear "Gotta Be You" because I can hear that line in my head, and the screaming starts with 'you'. It's a very, very strange thing to have on repeat in my head. I am also very interested in 1D dubstep remixes, but the only ones I've found are really terrible, which is heartbreaking. ;_;

I think this fandom has too much AU. I really really really want to read 1,000,000 words about this band being in a band, and being bros in a band and being on a tour bus and just. GIVE ME ALL THE NON-AU. I've never wanted that in my life, but it feels like EVERY fic in this fandom is AU, and I just wanna appreciate these boys as who they are for a little while. I guess that means I should press pause in writing my own AUs in favor of working on my non-AUs. Hmm.

I HONESTLY HATE THIS BAND.

Liam and Zayn decided it'd be cool if Liam named his firstborn 'Taylor' and now I have never been so miserable, except for when Zayn looked at Liam really really really sadly when Liam said, "I guess you can't always get what you want" or whatever in that interview. I haven't even watched the video, I've just seen the gif, but I don't think I can watch the video. I've cried enough tonight as it IS. (Seriously though. I was reading Zayn's section of Dare to Dream and decided it would be fun to video myself doing it, so now I have videographic evidence of the fact that this band has ACTUALLY MADE ME CRY. The video is five minutes of me clutching a stuffed critter that mockturtletale sent me whose name I have tragically forgotten and C R Y I N G. Sobbing into my pillow and shaking my head at two points. What is wrong with me.)

(I'm also having a lot of Zayn feelings tonight.)

But anyway. Why does this band think it's okay to consider naming any of their firstborns my same name. W H Y.

(The next paragraph contains discussion of a wound and blood, so... don't read it if that's not your thing, please!)

Sigh. In other news, I cut my finger open with a bread knife on accident last night trying to slice an old loaf of bread that didn't want to cut, resulting in the knife slipping and cutting open my uppermost knuckle of my pointer finger of my left hand. It has been bleeding for over 24 hours now and I think that probably warrants stitches but I don't have time for that so it just gets a tight bandaid that I change every few hours. It HURTS. A LOT. Typing in particular is very painful, which is too bad, because I have to type a lot at work and also in my life. This thing is never, ever going to heal, I don't think. Like twenty minutes ago I accidentally bent my finger too much and totally reopened everything (not that it'd ever really closed?) and it began bleeding profusely again and I got blood all over my keyboard and cleaning it was also painful. My life is hard, y'all. So very, very hard.

Okay. I'm going to go respond to Clo's chatfic email (and subsequently spew my Zayn feelings all over gmail), and then shout about fic some more and then maybe watch Scrubs and sleep, or something.

What fic are you guys excited about right now?! What are you writing, what do you want to write, what do you want written, what's your favorite fic that you've read recently, etc. I want to spend all weekend shouting about fic, please help me in my endeavor.