Found myself writing to Reive that I expect there will be at least two, perhaps as many as five, photos from this shoot that everyone else will love, and that I will hate, because they reveal too much of me. Stephen took some shots in which, as he was asking me to breathe and relax my face, I could feel emotions coming up, because of the positions I was in, the arch of my back, the pressure of the corset against my waist and ribs...

I'm actually a little frightened of what I'll see when I get the disk. I don't think he knows what he opened up, but I know some of it.