i'm not sure about this

. . . and I keep remembering the Ellison story, "All the Birds Come Home to Roost," or something like that, which is very disquieting.

In the last ten days, roughly, four different men from my past have reappeared, all interested in establishing some sort of new/renewed contact with me. And all just at the point when I was prepared to (in one case, resigned to, if you want to be specific) walk away from those aspects of my past.

At least, I tell myself, as past relationships go, most of these I can look back on and see what I was attracted to, and why. But I'm still slightly uneasy about it, and wondering what might happen next.

Wish me luck, okay?