I suspect that I am losing a friend.
This is unrelated to other, recent entries (that's an acquaintanceship that's moving more distant, as I don't think I want X closer to me). This has to do with other relationships, and my reaction to being told the equivalent of "Next time, maybe, you'll get an A," after I've done something that I didn't have to do --
-- particularly when the main person in the other relationship under discussion has, in fact, not done anything towards resolution, or acknowledged my efforts towards same.
This sucks. I'm not going into detail, but I facilitated communication between two people, one of whom has hurt me badly, and who is the one who cut off the original communication -- but that's apparently not enough. I should stretch myself even more, to make sure that I never interfere between those two people, because I have the power to do so. My feelings, evidently, should always be suspect; I must examine all my motives constantly, for fear of hurting someone who doesn't actively show concern for hurting me, or the person I'm closer to.
To hell with this. I am tired of being the one-who-takes-care-of, and watching the other person be allowed to let their fears and feelings guide them. And I'm tired of interacting with people who apparently feel that if I can find the courage to do X, I should also find it to do everything else, because I'm so fucking strong.
This is unrelated to other, recent entries (that's an acquaintanceship that's moving more distant, as I don't think I want X closer to me). This has to do with other relationships, and my reaction to being told the equivalent of "Next time, maybe, you'll get an A," after I've done something that I didn't have to do --
-- particularly when the main person in the other relationship under discussion has, in fact, not done anything towards resolution, or acknowledged my efforts towards same.
This sucks. I'm not going into detail, but I facilitated communication between two people, one of whom has hurt me badly, and who is the one who cut off the original communication -- but that's apparently not enough. I should stretch myself even more, to make sure that I never interfere between those two people, because I have the power to do so. My feelings, evidently, should always be suspect; I must examine all my motives constantly, for fear of hurting someone who doesn't actively show concern for hurting me, or the person I'm closer to.
To hell with this. I am tired of being the one-who-takes-care-of, and watching the other person be allowed to let their fears and feelings guide them. And I'm tired of interacting with people who apparently feel that if I can find the courage to do X, I should also find it to do everything else, because I'm so fucking strong.