Erasmus Ravello

The 'How Did I Miss That?' File

reverse_solidus — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 16:06:10 GMT

So for someone who is online so much, I really don't internet very cohesively. Like I missed that we know who God is in SPN. Uh, yeah. I mean, I caught the speculation, after those episodes aired... but I didn't catch that the actor and the writers had confirmed it, like a year ago. So that actually makes me like... super excited, even more, for season 7. Like really really, and here's hoping it's not another wasted opporunity, like Jesse.

/rambles about SPN

Hi, my name is Elmo...

reverse_solidus — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 06:26:44 GMT

And I'm addicted to the internet.

All joking aside, this is the truth. Especially when it comes to roleplaying. I have said, I don't know how many times, that I was going to cut back... but it never ever ever happens. I just make the post and then carry on as always. That's been my MO for the last... uh... six or seven years. Yeah. No. Not good.

What ever happened to blogging about my day? Or spinning theories about the things I like? Or writing just to write, and not for some kind of outward pat on the back from the world?

I don't do that at all. Hell, it's been months since I posted here, even to check in.

And I'm not saying I'm gonna quit rping. But I am going to invest in Quality over Quantity. Skip, Shawn, Eeee, Jormy... you guys rock, and I'm always here. There's a reason y'all are my friends on Facebook too, you know?

Bah... it is late, and I'm all weirdly emotional.

Anyway. I'm around, and I'm going to try to be... better. That's all.

{like I do}

reverse_solidus — Wed, 29 Jun 2011 16:46:31 GMT

So, I will still be around, but I am taking a mini-hiatus thinger until after Otakon [at the end of July], because there's a lot of stuff we need to get done for it. I will still be around, but maybe not quite as late or as prevalent. I love you guys.

EDIT: It is seriously like... fake, mini-hiatus. I just really need to stop stay up until like.. 4am. Might switch to completely lj rp for a bit too, so it's easier to catch me if I'm not on at night. Should you know... actually use my fifty bajillion accounts for something. /makes self go to bed

{Turn that frown, upside down.}

reverse_solidus — Tue, 07 Jun 2011 17:25:37 GMT

So, in case you missed it, I just watched all of Heroes. Which has given rise to... like six more muses, six more journals, and a hell of a lot of writing power:

Anyway, this is what I have been up to.

And now, I think I have the necessary momentum to really really get the ball rolling on the epic thing that is my eternal love of role-play. I have tomorrow off, and I plan on doing something--- even if it is stupid and small--- with every single one of my rp journals. And if I can't think of even a small thing to do? I will do the unthinkable.

That's right, people. I'm talking character drops. I won't be deleting or purging anything, but if I've lost my voice for a character, in an unsalvageable way, I'll be posting big things on my profiles, that the journals are up for grabs. That sounds like karma.

Okay, gotta get ready for work.

{wanna make a withering speech to the}

reverse_solidus — Sat, 28 May 2011 14:18:28 GMT

fucked

Huh. A lot has happened, and I just feel weird not putting anything about it here. I mean, I hardly even ever post here, but still. I feel like I should and I know that a lot of that is that I feel drained today. I stayed up late and woke up early; I'm a little hung over; and I wrung my emotions out like a rag last night. But it's good.

I should write. Or something.

First, I should shower. Should have done that before people were about to get up.

{it's like a book elegantly bound}

reverse_solidus — Sat, 30 Apr 2011 16:45:43 GMT

but in a language that you can't read

It is Doctor Who night [day], and I am actually super excited. This is good. Now if I can just get back on the writing wagon, I'll be set.

{my body tells me no}

reverse_solidus — Thu, 14 Apr 2011 16:14:36 GMT

but I won't quit
'cause I want more

Yeah. Nick made me listen to this song.

{baby can't you see}

reverse_solidus — Mon, 28 Mar 2011 17:02:55 GMT

I'm callin'
A guy like you should wear a warnin'
it's dangerous
I'm fallin'

So, I've been waffling, on the verge of actually calling a hiatus now. Because so many of my muses need a real Global Reset. It is just a side-effect of this situation. This is what happens when you become so strongly enmeshed with someone. But I have decided to do a kind of case-by-case reset on the fly. I'll do it as characters come up, instead of trying to force them back to zero with no prompting. And who knows, maybe it'll get me using some of my neglected muses more.

I will say, that until further notice, I do need a break from all Sherlock muses. I was pretty much already doing that, but now it's like official or something. As ever, [Skip and Kris and Shawn especially] thank you all for your patience. It's good to know I have such good friends.

reverse_solidus — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 16:58:33 GMT

I made no secret of who I am. I was upfront, and my only crime here was trying to spare your feelings. Yes, I could have played along, ruined the SIGNIFICANT relationship that you half the time lament, and half the time rave about the wonderfulness of. I could have allowed you to labor under the impression that I was going to come visit, and sweep you off your feet, and 'take you away from all this'... but even if I had followed through? It would have been as a friend. Only ever as the best of friends.

I am male, and gay. This is not a transient state. This is not something I could put aside for that 'one right person'. I really don't believe it works like that. You need to look at what you want, and what you have, and if you aren't trying hard enough to make it work? Try harder. And if you are? Maybe it wasn't built to work. That happens, about 50% of the time, and there is no shame in it. There will be no shame.

I am not attracted to women. I find them often beautiful and wonderful and brilliant. But I am not sexually attracted to them. That is the bottom line. I have also stated, I don't know how many times, that I am not in a place where I could be 'in a relationship' with anyone. Not like that. Hell, I made that whole 'preferences' post on Tumblr, and I know you read it. We talked about it.

Your words have hurt me deeply, especially after everything I have gone through. Everything that you know I've gone through. I do not understand how a conversation that started with me worried and making sure that you were okay, ended the way it did. I was not asking for a separation. I was not looking for burned bridges, and nothing nothing nothing I said should have prompted the reaction you gave. But it happened, and there is no taking that back. So... goodbye. I hope you find some help, from a source you can actually trust. Obviously, that wasn't me.

{I'll rest my eyes til the fever's outta me}

reverse_solidus — Tue, 22 Mar 2011 17:37:47 GMT

I'll rest my eyes to the rivers in the sea

So here's the plan. Eat better. Exercise more. Don't cripple myself before I'm 30. Actually talk to the people I live with.

1] EAT BETTER: Already implemented. Just needs FOLLOW THROUGH. It means spending more time shopping and more time cooking. It also, in my mind, means more time actually cleaning up after I cook myself something.

2] EXERCISE MORE: Really have to do this, really really really. And, likewise, it means more time at the gym, more time cooling down, more TIME in general.

3] DON'T CRIPPLE MYSELF: This last few days, dealing with my knees, has prompted all of this. I need to start taking better care of myself, or I will need surgery and crap in the future. There will be plenty of time for feeling old, when I am actually old.

4] COMMUNICATION: We've been doing more of this lately, but it is the cornerstone of a stable living environment. Guess what I need? Did you guess 'a stable living environment'? Once again, this means taking more time and being more emotionally responsible for the life I have become a part of.

What this all comes down to is spending a little less time, over all, on my computer. I love you, and I love all of you, and I still want you all in my life. But if I'm not on AIM or Trillian, this is why. Anything replied to here, or sent to my email [sixpounduniverse @ gmail . com] will get a reply as promptly as humanly possible. This is not a hiatus, just a heads up.

Generally, I try too hard to please everyone, and I spread myself far too thin... and then I crash. This is me breaking the cycle.

{I had a hole in the middle}

reverse_solidus — Sat, 05 Mar 2011 00:19:37 GMT

where the lightning went through it
told my friends not to worry

I think I need a new layout again. This one is no longer doing it for me. Hmmm.

I got a random comment on that Eleven/Amy/Rainbow Unicorn fic I wrote like forever ago; made me smile. Also, I bought a bookcase at Savers [faux '70s and pre-fab, but I like it] and FINALLY unpacked my books and comics. I feel better just having done that. And now I am listening to The National and trying to sort out all the things I thought at work.

Hmmm... might go buy snacks.

{facebook, get out of my lj}

reverse_solidus — Thu, 03 Mar 2011 17:37:38 GMT

What the hell is up with the game center thing?

Unless playing these games is gonna earn me more icon slots, no thank you. That is not why I am here. Livejournal has always afforded me enough entertainment, without gimmicky games crap.

{Sun in the sky, I am stopping you from burning}

reverse_solidus — Mon, 07 Feb 2011 17:01:06 GMT


All we need is stars and moon
Clock on the wall,
I will keep your hands from turning
Or this night will end too soon

There we go. I got a Plurk or whatever: reversesolidus , there as well.

{there's a devil lying by your side}

reverse_solidus — Sat, 05 Feb 2011 18:06:00 GMT

because I am what I am and I am what I am and I am what I am

Going to work soon. Again. Forever and ever and ever. I'm not sure how I feel right now. Kind of wrung out and amped up at the same time.

{you whisper prayers into the dark, up to a god in whom you've never believed}

reverse_solidus — Tue, 21 Dec 2010 22:29:05 GMT

Blargh. I should be knitting. Or writing. Or finishing the dishes. Or a million other things other than sitting on the couch with a blanket draped over me. Though this is nice. Other than the gnawing in the pit of my stomach. We have like... no food. Ramen so does not even begin to cut it. And I have no idea when everyone will be home. What I do know is that I am exhausted, but if I lay down to nap, I will never ever ever sleep later.

So... distracting myself. Yup. That is what I need to do.

{we do these things for reasons forgotten}

reverse_solidus — Thu, 16 Dec 2010 19:57:17 GMT

Okay, so you know when you love a thing, and then you go away from it for a while, and then you come back to it and you remember all the things you loved, and the depth of it and the heartbreak and just the joy of loving it? I've been doing that with Supernatural. I caught up on all the episodes I'd missed, and then we've been showing it to our room mate and she loves it so much.

But... I made the mistake of exposing myself to the fandom again. I always forget what crazy people they are, and I really can't handle it. This isn't aimed at anyone I've recently friended, obvs, but if you're wondering why I haven't been around sixwordstories in a while, this is why. If any of you want to write something with me, I have a few open communities that I've made, and you're welcome to come and hang out. But I am so done with the fandom overall.

In other news, I downloaded all of the soundtracks for SPN and the full Queen discography. This make me happy, even though I'm still exhausted.

{who are the noble and the wise?}

reverse_solidus — Wed, 08 Dec 2010 18:23:11 GMT

who are the noble and the wise? :: a sam winchester fanmix

.rar

Not completely satisfied with the art, but it was a first try, and I did this at 5am. I do rather like the mix. All lyrics are included, if you load in iTunes; I don't know about other programs. Enjoy. I'm not sure about spoilers... I mean, some of the songs are more than a little suggestive of things that happen [obvs] but if you don't know, you won't know? It's just good music.

{cause ya gotta give give give back a little}

reverse_solidus — Wed, 01 Dec 2010 04:19:10 GMT

I am thinking about making a fanmix.

Thoughts?

Advice?

The door is open.

{wth? again?}

reverse_solidus — Fri, 26 Nov 2010 18:50:04 GMT

So... I did that thing where I make another damn community. literarystream It doesn't have a layout or a banner or anything, because I am supposed to be getting ready to go out... but go take a look at it if you can.

{nanonanonanonanonano}

reverse_solidus — Wed, 27 Oct 2010 18:53:35 GMT

So, all moved in in Nashua. Things are going well, so far, despite a few normal settling in issues. You know how it goes. Been watching Baccano! and Community and other things. And it is good. But it is 70 degrees today. wth??

Oh, and I am doing NaNo this year.

{excited doesn't cover it.}

reverse_solidus — Thu, 14 Oct 2010 13:15:19 GMT

Going back up to Nashua tonight, for AAC. I haven't been to a convention in more than a year, so I am super psyched. I'm going as EoT!Master, Sarquiss [One Piece], Mayor Iceburg [One Piece], and maybe flashback Spandam, if there is time. There shall be pictures, when I return.

{would you like to play a game?}

reverse_solidus — Tue, 12 Oct 2010 21:15:28 GMT

So I am listening to my niece read from a computer screen. She does it for school. It is usually very cute.

Today? It is terrifying. She isn't feeling very well, so she is a bit stilted, and I am not completely listening... so I keep snapping back to attention, thinking that Moriarty has her... I think I need a nap.

{made a thing}

reverse_solidus — Mon, 11 Oct 2010 19:49:29 GMT

I made a multi-fandom community thing of ultimate love and inclusiveness. You know, like I do.

coincidentzones

It is made of awesome, and so are you. So join it, and exponentially increase the awesome of the multi-verse.

~~{squee long, and prosper.}~~

{tmi}

reverse_solidus — Sun, 10 Oct 2010 15:50:11 GMT

So, hung over and exhausted and girl-thinged... and terribly happy. Just even, and happy, and just happy. I am... whole again, in a very fundamental way. I am moving here, and me and Josh get along really well, and everyone is just... the same, but better.

I am excited to work, and live, and play... in a way that I haven't been in a very long time. Maybe ever. I think I finally know how to exist, in usual places and otherwise.

I should eat my french fries.

{treats lj like tumblr}

reverse_solidus — Thu, 30 Sep 2010 22:14:37 GMT

~~{i ship it}~~