⚠️ Trigger / Content Warning
This post contains mentions of alcohol use
relapse, self harm, mentions of derealization and ED.
Please prioritize your own safety before reading it’s completely okay to skip this if you’re not comfy with the topics
Hi, Vin here. I wanted to give a quick update and explain why I haven’t been on Pony Town much lately.
Recently, a lot of trauma related memories have resurfaced and it’s taken a huge toll on me. I’ve fallen back into unhealthy habits that I’m not proud of my drinking problem has gotten worse and my eating issues have come back with it. I’ve lost an unhealthy amount of weight in just a month, and I can barely tolerate the sight or mention of certain foods without feeling sick.
Because of that my body’s been reacting badly I get dizzy easily, I feel weak often, and I’ve been getting sick more frequently.
My stability has been slipping for a while now and lately it feels like I’m losing touch with reality.
Time doesn’t make sense to me anymore And I forget things in chunks and I often can’t tell what’s real or what I’ve imagined. It’s scary and exhausting.
i am aware of how obsessive and erratic I can be right now and I’m truly sorry for any behavior that comes across as uncomfortable.
I never want to make anyone feel unsafe or pressured but I know my current state might cause that unintentionally.
Another thing I need to mention I’ve been dealing with difficult urges and intrusive thoughts that make me feel unsafe around others at times. I’m doing my best to manage them and not act on anything harmful but I need people to be careful and mindful when interacting with me. Please approach me gently or give me space if I seem off or overwhelmed.
Please also don’t ask for details or try to get me to explain what’s going on unless you’re marked as safe. I know this might sound cold but it’s a boundary for my own safety and comfort. Being asked too many questions makes me panic and i feel disgusted being seen like this.
Age regession / coping
Due to how fragile my mental state has been I’ll likely be regressing more often as a way to cope.
Regression is not a sexual or inappropriate thing for me it’s purely a coping mechanism that helps me feel safe when my mind becomes too much to handle.
When I’m regressed, I’d like to ask everyone to please:
Avoid cursing, venting, or talking about alcohol, trauma, or adult topics.
Use softer names for me Tae / Tae tae / Clover /
Asmo
Speak gently, avoid heavy subjects and please don’t tease or joke harshly.
Understand that I may talk or act differently or seem younger or more sensitive
It’s not meant to be weird it’s just the only way I know how to calm myself down right now.
Final Notes
I know this is a lot and I’m sorry for putting such heavy information out there. I’m not looking for pity or attention
I just need to be honest so people around me understand what’s happening.
If you notice me acting off it’s not personal. Im trying really hard to get better.
I’m aware that I’ve been keeping a lot hidden and I regret not being more open sooner.
Please just be patient, and if you ever need space from me that’s okay. I won’t take it personally.
Thank you to everyone who’s been kind and understanding despite how difficult I’ve been lately
Boundaries !☆
Hello there 🕯
note!: please donate to my friend !
https://ko-fi.com/gothiccowboy/tiphttps://our-situation.straw.page/
Im vinny/Andy
pronouns r he/they + neos !
multifandom+multishipper !
due to past harrasment and threaths i will no longer be fully managing my sites ! please stay respectful/kind when interacting with me
1,no feminine pronouns or nicknames
2,please do not ask me personal questions
3, Please do not refer to me as love/darling or any other form of lovey dovey petnames unless you're Valien or Milo. ! also try not to be too clingy towards me when my partners are around !
Please do not yell or curse at me while im little. nor mention inappropriate topics. its really triggering to me and its a straightway to get blocked by me immediately.
Try not to flirt with me for i am taken !
if i ask for space i would really prefer to be left alone, do not poke at me when i clearly want alone time.
do not assume my feelings or emotions ! assumptions make an ass out of you !
wanting space ≠ im angry
do not use others to talk to me on things. this feels dehumanizing to me.
i am tired of having this boundary ignored and id appreciate it if you respect it.
please do not int if :
you're a fictikin or fictive of mori,mitsuba or dazai.
i am alright with doubles of some my fictkins but i really don't enjoy the company of mori fictives.
please refrain from explicitly talking about
smoking,drinking, or harmul drugs around me. i am a struggling person in rehab and i find such topics are triggering for me.
please try not to talk about needles around me either.
i do no indulge or support
proshipping ! darkshipping or any form of taboo fiction.
i am not going to be forced to change my mind about anything so no this isnt up for debate.
do not interact. i repeat DO NOT int with me if youre friends with
rab
kelp / nori
saffron
ratz
del/ misty.
Mystic.
the only excception to this rule is a friend of mine. any others will not be tolerated
lovemail more to be added soon !
valien - i've never been more happier to have you, you have no idea how bright you make everything around you just by being there when i need you the most ! ilysm darling <333
keegan - silly silly guy ! YOUR ART IS SO COOL AND YOURE A REALLY SWEET AND HONEST GUY !!
Nene / yoko - ILYSM OOMFIE /P
silly silly girl thats a deltarune nerd!
najm- Abbruaba #1fan core. super super cool guy ! Ily as well oomfie :( /p
Shoyo - SHOYOOOO!! YOURE LIKE AN OVERHYPER BALL OF FLUFF ! youre so sweet and the kindest ever !
micro- get a job 😒..
JK. ONE OF MY LONGEST KNOWN OOFMIES !!
friended so hard you get accused of being my partner in crime !!
Snicket! - the silly !! I SWEAR I'LL BUY YOU EVER POPTART FLAVOUR IN THE WORLD !!
shower cap- GO BATHE YOU LITERALLY REEK????
Cash.. smelly.. stinky.. gay...pick a struggle !!!
MIMI - ONE OF MY FAVS HEHEH mimiminimi
MORE TO BE ADDED AUGHH