\o hey dudes
It has been a while since I posted on this thing. So. The state of me.
I’m getting prepared to move about an hour north up the freeway in three weeks, and then starting my classes (going back to school, wooooo *waves eeny flag*) three weeks after that. Feeling a little bit (okay, a lot) of anxiety about it. I’ve been in this comfortable holding pattern ever since got my acceptance letter back in the spring, and overcoming that inertia is taking some effort.
It’s been two years since I did the whole full-time student thing, and this program is going to be really really intense. They’ve basically warned us straight up that it’s classes/labs Mon-Fri, 8 to 5 every day. And then homework/other assignments on top of that. I’m going to have to stay on top of things, because I can tell already that falling behind could be really, really bad.
I don’t know – transitions are always kind of stressful for me, and this one’s no exception. I’m wondering what my other classmates will be like – if any of them will be kind of non-traditional like me or not, or if they’ll all be younger than me. I’m wondering if I’ll have any free time to podfic at all, or if that’s going to have to be tabled while I’m in school. That would make me really sad; I’ve been enjoying being so participatory in fandom, on a level I never really have before, to be perfectly honest. I’m hoping I’ll be able to use podficcing as my stress relief, but then again that was also my goal last year during my second term in AmeriCorps, and 2011 was uh, not a good podfic year for me. But there’s a long project I want to start on soon that I’m legitimately psyched about working on (it’s going to take me months ahaha why /o\), so I hope I’ll be able to find the spoons to keep it up.
I think something that’ll help me keep my perspective over the next year is to keep in mind that I know this is where I want to go with my career. This is the culmination of over a year’s worth of research and applications and interviews. I know that I’m nervous, but I bet that the other folks in the program will be too, and hopefully it’ll be a supportive learning environment and not a dog-eat-dog one. :/ We’ll see. This is (hopefully) going to lead to a good, stable job for me, and at this point in my life that’s really my main goal. I can start worrying about other stuff after that.
I’m getting prepared to move about an hour north up the freeway in three weeks, and then starting my classes (going back to school, wooooo *waves eeny flag*) three weeks after that. Feeling a little bit (okay, a lot) of anxiety about it. I’ve been in this comfortable holding pattern ever since got my acceptance letter back in the spring, and overcoming that inertia is taking some effort.
It’s been two years since I did the whole full-time student thing, and this program is going to be really really intense. They’ve basically warned us straight up that it’s classes/labs Mon-Fri, 8 to 5 every day. And then homework/other assignments on top of that. I’m going to have to stay on top of things, because I can tell already that falling behind could be really, really bad.
I don’t know – transitions are always kind of stressful for me, and this one’s no exception. I’m wondering what my other classmates will be like – if any of them will be kind of non-traditional like me or not, or if they’ll all be younger than me. I’m wondering if I’ll have any free time to podfic at all, or if that’s going to have to be tabled while I’m in school. That would make me really sad; I’ve been enjoying being so participatory in fandom, on a level I never really have before, to be perfectly honest. I’m hoping I’ll be able to use podficcing as my stress relief, but then again that was also my goal last year during my second term in AmeriCorps, and 2011 was uh, not a good podfic year for me. But there’s a long project I want to start on soon that I’m legitimately psyched about working on (it’s going to take me months ahaha why /o\), so I hope I’ll be able to find the spoons to keep it up.
I think something that’ll help me keep my perspective over the next year is to keep in mind that I know this is where I want to go with my career. This is the culmination of over a year’s worth of research and applications and interviews. I know that I’m nervous, but I bet that the other folks in the program will be too, and hopefully it’ll be a supportive learning environment and not a dog-eat-dog one. :/ We’ll see. This is (hopefully) going to lead to a good, stable job for me, and at this point in my life that’s really my main goal. I can start worrying about other stuff after that.