As they gather in the night in search of eternal light...

Yuletide 2019

2019-11-04T05:11:08Z

Dearest Yuletide Peep: Thank you for writing for me. The most important thing is to have fun with it.

The Stand:
Book or Movie canon is coolbeans with me. I'd adore Len/Billy fic, but it's not necessary. Any sort of slice of life, random bit of them interacting before the plague would be great. Or even a moment to themselves as everything's going to hell would be cool. Or, even, an AU where Len/Billy survive the flu, and try to cope with the fallout of knowing they made it/had something to with it.

For Stu/Fran. I'd like to see their life back in Maine. A small community of off-shoots from Boulder making it work.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs. Would rather no Major Character Death if you go for AU with Len/Billy. But if you go with canon, it'd be fine. (also, I know that Billy/Len are married to others in canon, but I'd rather it not be a focus)

Aliens:
Alien 3 (and beyond) do not exist in my world. At all. What I'd love is something featuring Ellen Ripley, Hicks and Newt living together, maybe please, on a frontier world, (something not city-ish) and trying to cope with life post-their experience. Any other relevant characters are welcome, but focus on these two trying to get along.

squicks: non-con, major character death, insects, vomiting, scat, vore, heavy sadism/masochism, crackfic, crossovers. unhappy endings, shovel speeches (hurt X, I'll hurt you) prostitution, infidelity.

IT: Ben, Bev, Mike and Bill. (Any of the Losers Club showing up is fine with me)
At the end of the Book, it's insinuated that they'll never see each other again. Though, I'm curious if that also means Ben and Bev because they leave together. I reallllllly want to see something where the remaining Losers Club meet up again. Or something on how Ben/Bev works out when they're losing parts of their memories. Do they re-imagine their love story?

Triggers: This is tough, because a lot of the canon is touching on stuff I don't want to read in fanfic. So, I'll say, if you do touch upon the child abuse, domestic violence, racism, homophobia, rape, etc, please don't get overly graphic with it. I don't want something that's grimdark and upsetting. I'm more interested in how they heal.

Wild Adapter: I ship Kubota/Tokito and only Kubota/Tokito. (I don't mind if you write them in that strange way they have in the series without making it overt, however.) I'd love something about them discovering something new about Tokito's past or his arm. Or I wouldn't mind if Kubota gets hurt and Tokito goes on a rampage. Or really anything with these two.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs, major character death, unhappy endings

*Non-con/rape is a massive squick for me. I also don't like reading my otp broken in favour of other ships. I don't need a sunshine-rainbow happy ending-though I like them, but I dislike massively unhappy ones. Hopeful ones are cool with me. I don't like gay for you stuff or we're not gay, we're just in love with each other. I dislike homophobia/transphobia/racism, even if it's a character spouting it. I really, really hate shovel speeches. Like more than anything. "If you hurt them, I'll hurt you." Or anything like that.

*I'm pretty easy to please otherwise. I like almost every genre but crack and uberfluff. I like happy to dark to in the middle. I don't mind violence. If you write sex, I'm cool with anything. Just...I don't like flowery words for genitals. Her sweet flower or his most secret place stuff just makes me laugh. Same with manmeat and lady essence. I'm fine with cock, clit, tits, stuff like that.

*Kinks: I like obsessive love/adoration. I like barebacking a lot. And felching. I like my sex to include love Um. I like realism in fic...like not excessively happy or sad, but a mix of the two. I love violence and guns and knives. I love, LOVE AU. If you want to AU anything, please be my guest.

* I normally don't mind pet names or stuff like baby said during sex, but it needs to make sense for the characters.

*I'd love if the fics are in tune with the tone of the series they come from, but it's not necessary. I like sex that feels mutual. I don't really like rape as a kink and dislike sex when one person is always protesting ala most yaoi manga. Though, as I stated, sex is not necessary, but I wouldn't mind it.

* Although I didn't choose any, feel free to include any characters in the given series as side characters. Any additional characters needed to make the world whole are fine.

Dear Yuletide Author

2017-10-08T21:45:29Z

Dear Author,

Sorry, I'm late updating this. Hopefully you see it.

Thank you for writing for me!

Normally, I have a standard "squick" list. In fact, I think I copy/pasted it for the last 3-4 years I participated. However, it won't work so well with my picks this time. Mostly due to the canon they come from.

The Stand: Nadine Cross, Randall Flagg, Larry Underwood. (Any other canon characters needed for the story)

I'd be super interested in seeing how everything would've changed (or not) if she did make love to Larry. I'd be interested in any alternate Nadine story. One where she has more agency. One where she thwarts Flagg.

Triggers: Non-con. I'm aware that it's a part of her story. I just don't want to read it graphically described. Any sort of ending where it's a Nadine/Flagg story. I'm not all wanting to read anything with them having any sort of romance.

IT: Ben, Bev, Mike and Bill. (Any of the Losers Club showing up is fine with me)
At the end of the Book, it's insinuated that they'll never see each other again. Though, I'm curious if that also means Ben and Bev because they leave together. I reallllllly want to see something where the remaining Losers Club meet up again. Or something on how Ben/Bev works out when they're losing parts of their memories. Do they re-imagine their love story?

Triggers: This is tough, because a lot of the canon is touching on stuff I don't want to read in fanfic. So, I'll say, if you do touch upon the child abuse, domestic violence, racism, homophobia, rape, etc, please don't get overly graphic with it. I don't want something that's grimdark and upsetting. I'm more interested in how they heal.

Jessica Jones: Jessica Jones, Trish. (Any characters in her show/related shows needed for the story)

I would love a story where Trish saves Jessica. Or a story where they work together to solve a crime or case. Jessica/Trish is A-okay with me. (Also okay with Jessica/canon romances)

Triggers: Don't want to read graphic non-con. Understand it's a part of her backstory, but I don't want it graphically described or the focal point of the story. Dealing with the aftermath or discussing it is fine. No cheating or prostitution fic, please.

Wonder Woman: Diana Prince, Etta Candy. (Any other canon characters needed for the story except Steve.)

Just would love a fun little story about Etta and Diana on an adventure of some sort. Something where Etta gets to shine and Diana loves helping her shine.

Triggers: no graphic rape, prostitution, child abuse, grim-dark stuff, please no time-period related homophobia or racism. I know it exists, but I'd rather not read it anyhow.

If you have any questions, leave them anon here and I'll answer.

Dear Yuletide Friend

2016-10-10T06:36:37Z

Thank you for writing my story, Yuletide friend.

*Non-con/rape is a massive squick for me. I also don't like reading my otp broken in favour of other ships. I don't need a sunshine-rainbow happy ending-though I like them, but I dislike massively unhappy ones. Hopeful ones are cool with me. I don't like gay for you stuff or we're not gay, we're just in love with each other. I dislike homophobia/transphobia/racism, even if it's a character spouting it. I really, really hate shovel speeches. Like more than anything. "If you hurt them, I'll hurt you." Or anything like that.

*I'm pretty easy to please otherwise. I like almost every genre but crack and uberfluff. I like happy to dark to in the middle. I don't mind violence. If you write sex, I'm cool with anything. Just...I don't like flowery words for genitals. Her sweet flower or his most secret place stuff just makes me laugh. Same with manmeat and lady essence. I'm fine with cock, clit, tits, stuff like that.

*Kinks: I like obsessive love/adoration. I like barebacking a lot. And felching. I like my sex to include love Um. I like realism in fic...like not excessively happy or sad, but a mix of the two. I love violence and guns and knives. I love, LOVE AU. If you want to AU anything, please be my guest.

* I normally don't mind pet names or stuff like baby said during sex, but it needs to make sense for the characters.

*I'd love if the fics are in tune with the tone of the series they come from, but it's not necessary. I like sex that feels mutual. I don't really like rape as a kink and dislike sex when one person is always protesting ala most yaoi manga. Though, as I stated, sex is not necessary, but I wouldn't mind it.

* Although I didn't choose any, feel free to include any characters in the given series as side characters. Any additional characters needed to make the world whole are fine.

Wild Adapter: I ship Kubota/Tokito and only Kubota/Tokito. I'd love something about them discovering something new about Tokito's past or his arm. Or I wouldn't mind if Kubota gets hurt and Tokito goes on a rampage. Or really anything with these two.

squicks: non-con, major character death, Tokito and Kubota with anyone but each other, insects, vomiting, scat, vore, heavy sadism/masochism, crackfic, crossovers. unhappy endings.

The Stand:
Book or Movie canon is coolbeans with me. I'd adore Len/Billy slash, but it's not necessary. Any sort of slice of life, random bit of them interacting before the plague would be great. Or even a moment to themselves as everything's going to hell would be cool. Or, even, an AU where Len/Billy survive the flu, and try to cope with the fallout of knowing they made it/had something to with it.

For Stu/Fran. I'd like to see their life back in Maine. A small community of off-shoots from Boulder making it work.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs. Would rather no Major Character Death if you go for AU with Len/Billy. But if you go with canon, it'd be fine. (also, I know that Billy/Len are married to others in canon, but I'd rather it not be a focus)

Aliens:
Alien 3 (and beyond) do not exist in my world. At all. What I'd love is something featuring Ellen Ripley, Hicks and Newt living together, maybe please, on a frontier world, (something not city-ish) and trying to cope with life post-their experience. Any other relevant characters are welcome, but focus on these two trying to get along.

squicks: non-con, major character death, insects, vomiting, scat, vore, heavy sadism/masochism, crackfic, crossovers. unhappy endings, shovel speeches (hurt X, I'll hurt you) prostitution, infidelity. Also, please don't pair Newt with either Hicks or Ripley.

Avengers Academy:
I'd like to see Steve and Tony work together to solve a mystery. Any characters in AA are welcome. I'd really like no hints to other Marvel canons. Everyone in AA has a specific story/age/dynamic. (No Hydra Steve lol)

Squicks: non-con, major character death, Steve/Tony with anyone but each other, insects, vomiting, scat, vore, heavy sadism/masochism, crackfic, crossovers. unhappy endings, shovel speeches (hurt X, I'll hurt you) prostitution, infidelity. Hydra Steve.

All New, All Different Avengers.

Team Fic. I just want them going off to do their own thing since the adults can't get their shit together.

squicks: non-con, major character death, insects, vomiting, scat, vore, heavy sadism/masochism, crackfic, crossovers. unhappy endings, shovel speeches (hurt X, I'll hurt you) prostitution, infidelity, hydra Steve mentions. Tony Stark hate. Character hate in general.

Thanks again and if you're needing a bit of guidance, ask djin7 she owns a room in my brain.

Dear Yuletide Person of Glory.

2014-10-21T01:24:16Z

Firstly, thanks so much for writing for me. I hope you have a fun time doing it. :)

(and, yes, most of this is almost completely ripped off my last year's letter.)

*Non-con/rape is a massive squick for me. I also don't like reading my otp broken in favour of other ships. I don't need a sunshine-rainbow happy ending-though I like them, but I dislike massively unhappy ones. Hopeful ones are cool with me. I don't like gay for you stuff or we're not gay, we're just in love with each other. I dislike homophobia/transphobia/racism, even if it's a character spouting it.

*I'm pretty easy to please otherwise. I like almost every genre but crack and uberfluff. I like happy to dark to in the middle. I don't mind violence. If you write sex, I'm cool with anything. Just...I don't like flowery words for genitals. Her sweet flower or his most secret place stuff just makes me laugh. Same with manmeat and lady essence. I'm fine with cock, clit, tits, stuff like that.

*Kinks: I like obsessive love/adoration. I like barebacking a lot. And felching. I like my sex to include love Um. I like realism in fic...like not excessively happy or sad, but a mix of the two. I love violence and guns and knives. I love, LOVE AU. If you want to AU anything, please be my guest.

* I normally don't mind pet names or stuff like baby said during sex, but it needs to make sense for the characters.

*I'd love if the fics are in tune with the tone of the series they come from, but it's not necessary. I like sex that feels mutual. I don't really like rape as a kink and dislike sex when one person is always protesting ala most yaoi manga. Though, as I stated, sex is not necessary, but I wouldn't mind it.

* Although I didn't choose any, feel free to include any characters in the given series as side characters. Any additional characters needed to make the world whole are fine.

Wild Adapter: I ship Kubota/Tokito and only Kubota/Tokito. (I don't mind if you write them in that strange way they have in the series without making it overtly slashy, however.) I'd love something about them discovering something new about Tokito's past or his arm. Or I wouldn't mind if Kubota gets hurt and Tokito goes on a rampage. Or really anything with these two.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs, major character death, unhappy endings

The Stand:
Book or Movie canon is coolbeans with me. I'd adore Len/Billy slash, but it's not necessary. Any sort of slice of life, random bit of them interacting before the plague would be great. Or even a moment to themselves as everything's going to hell would be cool. Perhaps something about how Len dies, too. I dunno. Anything with these two would be great.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs

Aliens:
Alien 3 (and beyond) do not exist in my world. At all. What I'd love is something featuring Ellen Ripley and Newt living together, maybe please, on a frontier world, (something not city-ish) and trying to cope with life post-their experience. Any other relevant characters are welcome, but focus on these two trying to get along.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs, major character death, unhappy endings.

HTGAWM:
I'd love to see something with Connor if he decided against being a lawyer. If and how he'd meet everyone on the team. I didn't add more of the team because I didn't want to mandate their appearance, but whoever fits is fine.

Triggers are: rape, infidelity, prostitution, *ist slurs, major character death, unhappy endings.

Thanks again and if you're needing a bit of guidance, ask djin7 she owns a room in my brain.

(FIC) SPN: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 5, Dean/Cas, PG-13.

2014-05-26T08:24:35Z

Title: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 5
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Rating: PG-13, this chapter. NC-17 overall.
Contains: Supernatural-levels of violence. Ignores season nine.
Notes: Thanks so much to djin7 for the beta. This is for you, btw.

Summary: In order to save Sam, Dean's forced to make a difficult choice. Dean now needs to balance figuring out what to do about a now-human Cas, demons, angels, and everything else life tends to throw at him with taking care of his brother, who needs him now more than ever.

Can he finally get past his self-hatred, guilt, and inability to let go in order to give Sam the life he always deserved? Or will he follow in his father's footsteps. Castiel is determined that whatever happens, Dean won't have to deal with it alone.

(FIC) SPN: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 4, Dean/Cas, PG.

2014-05-13T15:20:16Z

Title: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 4
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Rating: PG, this chapter. NC-17 overall.
Contains: Supernatural-levels of violence. Ignores season nine.
Notes: Thanks so much to djin7 for the beta. This is for you, btw.

Summary: In order to save Sam, Dean's forced to make a difficult choice. Dean now needs to balance figuring out what to do about a now-human Cas, demons, angels, and everything else life tends to throw at him with taking care of his brother, who needs him now more than ever.

Can he finally get past his self-hatred, guilt, and inability to let go in order to give Sam the life he always deserved? Or will he follow in his father's footsteps. Castiel is determined that whatever happens, Dean won't have to deal with it alone.

(FIC) SPN: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 3, Dean/Cas, PG.

2014-03-17T08:35:33Z

Title: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 3
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Rating: PG, this chapter. NC-17 overall.
Contains: Supernatural-levels of violence. Ignores season nine.
Notes: Thanks so much to djin7 for the beta. This is for you, btw.

Summary: In order to save Sam, Dean's forced to make a difficult choice. Dean now needs to balance figuring out what to do about a now-human Cas, demons, angels, and everything else life tends to throw at him with taking care of his brother, who needs him now more than ever.

Can he finally get past his self-hatred, guilt, and inability to let go in order to give Sam the life he always deserved? Or will he follow in his father's footsteps. Castiel is determined that whatever happens, Dean won't have to deal with it alone.

(FIC) SPN: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 2, Dean/Cas, PG.

2014-03-03T10:00:17Z

Title: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 2
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Rating: PG, this chapter. NC-17 overall.
Contains: Supernatural-levels of violence. Ignores season nine.
Notes: Thanks so much to djin7 for the beta. This is for you, btw.

Summary: In order to save Sam, Dean's forced to make a difficult choice. Dean now needs to balance figuring out what to do about a now-human Cas, demons, angels, and everything else life tends to throw at him with taking care of his brother, who needs him now more than ever.

Can he finally get past his self-hatred, guilt, and inability to let go in order to give Sam the life he always deserved? Or will he follow in his father's footsteps. Castiel is determined that whatever happens, Dean won't have to deal with it alone.

(FIC) SPN: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 1, Dean/Cas, PG.

2014-02-05T02:38:22Z

Title: This Burden In My Hand Ch. 1
Pairing: Dean Winchester/Castiel
Rating: PG, this chapter. NC-17 overall.
Contains: Supernatural-levels of violence. Ignores season nine.
Notes: Thanks so much to djin7 for the beta. This is for you, btw.
Summary: In order to save Sam, Dean's forced to make a difficult choice. Dean now needs to balance figuring out what to do about a now-human Cas, demons, angels, and everything else life tends to throw at him with taking care of his brother, who needs him now more than ever. Can he finally get past his self-hatred, guilt, and inability to let go in order to give Sam the life he always deserved? Or will he follow in his father's footsteps. Castiel is determined that whatever happens, Dean won't have to deal with it alone.

Hi everyone! WAVES

2013-12-02T04:22:39Z

OMG, it's been an age since I posted here.

It's been being sick (again) and writing and more writing and migraines and Trina and life and pokemon.

Basically, I spent most of August after my birthday til mid September alternating between being sick and writing. October was mainly writing. The tail end of October through halfway of November, I was playing Pokemon X. I also started getting migraines again. bleh. Now, it's effing December. JFC where does the time go?

There are so many fics I've written that never got linked to here. I'll do that over the next few days.

I sometimes lurk around Tumblr which is here: tumblr of mine if you want to follow it.

So...how is every little thing with everyone?

Tell me how you're doing!

Once again, I missed my LJversary. (Nov. 17) Nine years.

Dear Yuletide Writer Person of Awesome

2013-10-09T18:13:29Z

Firstly, thanks so much for writing for me. I hope you have a fun time doing it. :)

(and, yes, most of this is almost completely ripped off my last year's letter.)

*Non-con/rape is a massive squick for me. I also don't like reading my otp broken in favour of other ships. I don't need a happy ending-though I like them, but I dislike massively unhappy ones. Hopeful ones are cool with me. I don't like gay for you stuff or we're not gay, we're just in love with each other. I dislike homophobia/transphobia/racism, even if it's a character spouting it.

*I'm pretty easy to please otherwise. I like almost every genre but crack and uberfluff. I like happy to dark to in the middle. I don't mind violence. If you write sex, I'm cool with anything. Just...I don't like flowery words for genitals. Her sweet flower or his most secret place stuff just makes me laugh. Same with manmeat and lady essence. I'm fine with cock, clit, tits, stuff like that.

*Kinks: I like obsessive love/adoration. I like barebacking a lot. And felching. I like my sex to include love Um. I like realism in fic...like not excessively happy or sad, but a mix of the two. I love violence and guns and knives. I love, LOVE AU. If you want to AU anything, please be my guest.

* I normally don't mind pet names or stuff like baby said during sex, but it doesn't really feel right with these pairings. (I think Robbie calling James "love" is about all I could buy.)

*I'd love if the fics are in tune with the tone of the series they come from, but it's not necessary. I like sex that feels mutual. I don't really like rape as a kink and dislike sex when one person is always protesting ala most yaoi manga. Though, as I stated, sex is not necessary, but I wouldn't mind it.

* Although I didn't choose any, feel free to include any characters in the given series as side characters.

Wild Adapter: I ship Kubota/Tokito and only Kubota/Tokito. (I don't mind if you write them in that strange way they have in the series without making it overtly slashy, however.) I'd love something about them discovering something new about Tokito's past or his arm. Or I wouldn't mind if Kubota gets hurt and Tokito goes on a rampage. Or really anything with these two.

Red Dwarf: I'd really like something gen here. This isn't a fandom I ship anyone in. I would love any sort of story in the style of how episodes usually go. Fail and snark and teasing.

Captain Marvel: I love Carol Danvers. A lot. I'd love any story centered around Carol and other women kicking ass and taking names. If you could write a story featuring only female characters (heroes and villains) I'd love it.

Lewis: I ship James/Robbie. The fic doesn't have to ship them, but I really don't want them with other people if you don't. I would love a fic that has Robbie retiring and James following after him, insinuating himself in Robbie's retirement plans. Any sort of story with that tone is cool. I'd rather not have a lot of homophobia in the story or gay for you stuff. Though, I can understand a little bit of discomfort due to James' character and past. I just don't want it to be a big focus. Everyone can have their big gay freakout off screen. Alternately, an AU in which Robbie meets James during a case and falls in love.

If you're really unsure and need to ask someone about my tastes, you can contact djin7. She pretty much knows my brain.

Effing SPN

2013-06-20T09:12:44Z

I swore to myself I wouldn't fall in love. I swore it. I vowed and swore and declared it. But, alas. I was no match for it. I succumbed.

So, now I beg...can anyone rec me some decent Dean/Castiel fic? Ones that acknowledge that Cas is a soldier and not a wimp?

plz and thnx.

Oh, fandom....

2013-06-17T12:39:48Z

Oh, fandom, you do nothing halfway.

Like, there are people who bash characters for no good reason. Yanno. Because the character is a girl or breaking an otp or whatever idiotic reason.

So, we all agree that character bashing isn't fun. Because people should be able to enjoy what they like.

Except, now we'll go completely in the other direction.

Now, there's a bunch of people going on and on about how 'if you don't like character X, you're a horrible human being'. Which is just as annoying as the character bashers.

I continue to sit on my nice little slice of middle ground.

Back to Supernatural ruining my life with Dean Winchester and Misha Collins' face.

SPN, post the something

2013-06-15T06:54:01Z

God, I wish someone would have warned me that seeing Misha Collins in this show would ruin my life. He is a life ruiner. No doubt.

His stupid, beautiful, stupid face.

JFC, this show is so...this show sometimes.

2013-06-11T08:19:50Z

Okay, okay, honestly, how many of you SPN fans were able to make it more than ten minutes into "It's the Great Pumpkin, Sam Winchester" without, like, cracking the fuck up. Just. Yeah.

However, this show is now, like, five hundred percent better now that I can look at Misha Collins' face. Which is adorable.

P.S. I actually hate the episode Wishful Thinking because it is incredibly gross and terrible. Like, the worst episode I've seen them film thus far. Just. Terrible.

Supernatural, cntd.

2013-06-09T03:27:41Z

Damn, Dean, you are so damaged. lol. So, I'm in the middle of season three and I'm declaring that everyone on this show needs like...five hundred hours of therapy. John Winchester really did a number on Dean, ffs.

It also sucks to be Sam, but he comes off as more balanced to me. It'll probably end up the opposite, but still.

I did a thing.

2013-06-06T02:25:47Z

Out of boredom and/or desperation, I did something unwise. I...erm. Blame Tumblr. And boredom. And being too broke to buy the expansion pack of a game I was playing.

I started watching Supernatural on netflix.

I've just finished season 1 and am now on season 2.

I have to say...they're remarkably bad at hunting for people who've been doing it since they could walk.

Not quite sure how I feel about it. There are things that make me wtf. I know there are more to come. I'm not quite attached to either of the Winchesters. (Though, I'm more attached to Dean than Sam, who irritates me often enough for me to notice.)

Still, I think I'll continue to watch it. At least til I get to experience Castiel.

At least I'll be able to sit back and enjoy Dean's handsome face and epic emotional constipation for a while.

So....

2013-06-04T05:30:23Z

I guess I'll be watching season three of Teen Wolf. gdi. I was so expecting this episode to suck. Then, it didn't. ffs.

Also, mcshep_match is starting. Awesome. I am so excited about it.

Also, I need to make some icons this week for a certain awesome lady porny gem goddess person.

Mass Effecting.

2013-05-29T09:47:12Z

So, I've finally given up the hesitation and went through a complete Ashleymance in Mass Effect. I loved it. It's adorable. I kind of feel like the Kaidanmance got the shaft. He's so much more suspicious of Shepard and grouchy at him. Ashleymance is dorky. It's completely dorky because Shepard all 'Smooth Dog' about it. So, all his lines are corny and ridiculous.

Garrusmance is still my most favourite. I also adore Stevemance a lot. I haven't finished the me3 Thanemance stuff yet. And I doubt I'll ever Jackmance or Talimance*. Jack...to me, I think she needs friends who aren't after her tail. (yes, it's a game, but roleplaying, wtf) And Tali is the same as Merrill to me. She reminds me of a child. The whole naive, virginal, young thing. I'm not really interested. (Though, I think it says a lot when you think about how popular those romances were)

When I was playing through me2 for my Ashleymance, I stayed single...However, I did end up doing the whole Justicar romance angle (which doesn't work)...boy, was that touching. I really loved it a lot. I adore Samara and part of me wants to playthrough me3 to get that scene with her during Citadel...but it's a lot of game to play just for a small scene.

Aaaanyhow, I'm doing a Stevemance again because I want to. Then, I plan on finally doing a Traynormance.

* I realise I didn't include Jacob in the mances I'll never do, but that's because I pretend Jacobmancing doesn't actually exist.

Season Finales...

2013-05-24T07:00:03Z

Was anyone else disappointed with this seasons season finales?

H50 is suffering under the mum/girlfriend curse. In which writers think women can only be a mum or a girlfriend. And nothing else. Dudes can be cops and villains and doctors and mechanics and scientists. With women, they can have jobs like those, but first and foremost, they're a mum or a girlfriend. It's dull. Kono used to be a cop. Now, she's a girlfriend whose job is a cop. And now, she's a fulltime girlfriend. It's annoying. I liked Adam/Kono, but hated how they just made her a girlfriend on this show after her being a badass for so long. Then there's Catherine. I adore Catherine. I hope Catherine dumps Steve and gets herself a non-Steve plotline. So far, her role on the show is to give Steve orgasms and information in turns. And little else. Which is boring. It reminds me of that scene in BBC Sherlock when one of John's girlfriends comments that he's an excellent boyfriend...to Sherlock. Well, Steve is a lovely boyfriend. To Danny. To Cath, he treats her like shit.

This entire season was too disjointed. Like...they didn't know what to do with the plots they started...every once in a while, they remembered to check in on Adam or Wo Fat or Doris or Gabby. So, it came off stilted and poorly paced.

Also, there's only so many times you can have these people under suspicion for crimes/actually doing crimes before the premise becomes unbelievable. There needs to be basic public trust in the body of H50 for it to make sense that the Governor would allow it to continue.

However, there were quite a few excellent episodes. Enough to keep my interest. Enough to get me to check out next season. I just hope it's the final one. I think that it's about run its course.

This show just gets more and more ridiculous. idek. I'm glad they didn't do Tiva because I like them better as friends. I really wish there were more instances where there are m/f friendships without sex involved or ust involved. The end...idek. I just hope it's the last season next year.

Okay. So, another show that suffered from an uneven season. I love Kensei/Deeks and I hope they go through with it. Too much of the show is making fun of Deeks. Which gets old after a while. Still, this is probably the most even show of the three. I dislike cliffhangers on season finales. But, meh. I just want the show to go back to mostly lighthearted undercover awesomeness.

Iron Man 3, Star Trek: Into Darkness, Other Things.

2013-05-20T23:57:44Z

Lots of news and reviews:

1. I've been asked to be Captain of Team Fine for the last and best mcshep_match! Yay! I can't wait. It's going to be so awesome.

2. Been watching Hannibal. It's gonna get cancelled because of the ratings, but I love it.

3. Me and Vesilicious have decided to watch season three of Teen Wolf. Like a car wreck.

4. Playing Mass Effect again. This time, doing an Ashleymance. It's awesome. I really love it. Ashley never really connects with FemShep as friends like FemShep and Miranda and FemShep and Samara. But with DudeShep, her personality really shines through. I'm loving it so far.

5. I watched both Iron Man 3 and Star Trek: Into Darkness.

Okay, so I'm not a diehard comic fan? Meaning I've read a lot of comics, but I've not read forty-plus years of everything to know every single plotline. I do, however, know enough that it was distracting. The movie took like four or five plots and blended it all together and wasn't always coherent about why. I liked the movie. A lot. I loved Tony with PTSD and dealing with it. I loved Pepper. And Rhodey. And what they did with the Mandarin was really cool. They did the barest of nods towards the Ten Rings, but didn't explain it. I didn't like what they did with Extremis. Extremis was one of my favourite plotlines in Iron Man. I would have liked the Extremis thing to be a standalone movie, dealing with Tony post-Extremis. Dealing with all that entails. But, overall, I liked it a lot. I still prefer Happy/Pepper to Tony/Pepper...but they make Tony a lot more functional in the movies...emotionally, at least.

I had great reservations about this movie once I realised Cumberbuns was playing Khan. A white Khan, wtf. *rolls eyes* But he was a good villain. I watched all of TOS and all the TOS movies...and they have a special place in my heart, but I don't compare old Trek and nuTrek. In that way lay madness. Anyhow, I loved all the characters. I loved there was more visible diversity in the background characters. There was that bald, black lady on the crew deck. I don't recall if she was named...but she had a full figure, too. Wasn't super skinny and she was there and it was great. Most of the time, people toss thin white men/ladies in those roles.

It was funny and cute and fun. Like a good episode of H50. Just enjoy the pretty and don't think too hard and you'll enjoy it.

"I knew a man who went 3 days without a Tupari sports drink; he got hit by a shuttle."

2013-05-10T00:12:09Z

Day four of my vacation...Day four of sitting on the couch in my knickers, playing Mass Effect. In other words? BEST TIME EVER. I will enjoy the last three days in the same exact manner. Yay for naked video gaming.

On saying goodbye to toxic fandoms.

2013-05-03T07:09:26Z

I left the gibbs_dinozzo community today. It's been building for a while. I like the ship a lot, and I used to like reading the episode discussions. Lately, though, they're not episode discussions so much as one big, long moan about Ziva. Her crimes include being competent at her job, having a father/daughter relationship with Gibbs and talking to Tony. *rolls eyes*

I'm not a fan of Tiva, but that's more due to my general disinterest in the way TV shows write m/f romances than anything about this pairing in particular.

Anyhow, I got tired of the rampant hatred in these episode discussions. It made me feel hesitant to offer my opinions at all. It all felt too hostile for me. I contacted one of the mods/owners/etc and said as much. In return, they basically delivered every thing that bothered me about the episode discussions into my very own PM box. Awesome.

Got a bit defensive when I said I thought a lot of people hated her for breaking up their OTP. Note, I never claimed she did that, however. She responded as if I had. Overidentifying much? Anyhow, the gist of the whole conversation we had was:

me: all this hate for this female character makes me uncomfortable.
her: well, I hate her for those reasons, too, and so do the other mods, so we're not going to stop it.
me: I'll leave, then. Bye.

Meh. Wtfever. I'm not saying people can't have legitimate reasons for disliking Ziva or her characterization. I'm sure people do. I just don't think that most of these people would hate her nearly as much if Tiva stood for Tim/Ziva instead of Tony/Ziva.

It reminds me of the clusterfuck over in H50 fandom with everyone hating on Cath because she's 'Wonder Woman' or something. I can't really roll my eyes hard enough.

The same thing happened, to a lesser degree, in Lewis fandom. With people hating on Laura. Laura Hobson who was one of the loveliest ladies in any TV show ever.

And, no, before anyone says as much, it doesn't mean that I think people can't dislike female characters or dislike het pairings. I dislike plenty of het pairings and I dislike the way a fair amount of female characters are written. It's more about the why. Why people dislike it. It makes a difference. I disliked Lori on H50 and mostly because the writers gave her pisspoor development and made her main characteristic of having a pointless crush on an extremely disinterested Steve. I also dislike Steve/Cath because I think Steve treats Cath like shit and I want her to go on dates with someone who doesn't see her as an investigative short-cut. Because she's beautiful and fierce and awesome.

So, it's not that I think anyone saying they dislike these characters or pairings should stfu or anything, but if you're going to say 'oh, she's so annoying, I hope she dies in this car accident' I'm going to call foul.

I sorta wonder if fandom didn't used to feel as negative as it does now or if I just had better blinders on back then? Because I really miss when fandom was all about yay and squee and fun instead of being gross and hostile.

Anyone at all is welcome to picspam this post with happiness.

Good On You, Dude.

2013-04-29T23:00:48Z

So, a former Boston Celtic, Jason Collins, came out today. Good for him. I hope he gets the life he always wanted and didn't think he could have. The article is really lovely. Tugs on your heart, a bit.

I hope that five, ten years from now, this isn't even a thing. I hope this really opens the doors and proves that hypermasculine areas of the world can function with openness. Sports World, I love you. You're some of my favourite things... Don't let me down!

Le sigh.

2013-04-26T09:00:34Z

Every single time I read the episode reactions on gibbs_dinozzo before actually watching the newest NCIS episodes, I'm left with the impression that Ziva fucked Tony against a dirty back alley or something. And for this, Ziva deserves to die. (Because there is always at least one comment by someone saying that they wished her to be dead for the crime of existing.)

And then I'll watch the episode and all it ends up being is a rather short, touching moment or two. Or sometimes it's just Tony and Ziva talking to each other like people often do. And I'm baffled. I'm not a Tiva fan. I don't really care for the idea of Tony and Ziva as a couple and not just because of the dumb plotlines that will invariably follow. But, I've never really been bothered by the level of Tony/Ziva interactions in the show. People will never make sense to me.