let me tell you something

the rest of the day was fine.

2010-12-09T22:13:01Z

Soooo I just drove into a ditch.

Going ten miles an hour around a slight curve into a two foot snowy ditch sakgjnkjsagnklmh this is the most pathetic first 'accident' in the world askjgn

See, see. I was wondering if I was really hitting the breaks, since my car wasn't... slowing down.... and my friend was in the passenger seat just staring as we got closer and closer to the edge. and then we. we went over right over and BOOF into the snow.

my friend gave this pathetic little delayed yell, and then we sat in silence. and then she just burst into laughing while I was still processing that we had slid into a ditch askjfnk aaand so she called her dad still semi-cackling while I started laughing. tried a few times to get out, kicked up mud and snow, had about four people pull over to ask if we were okay. the car was perfectly fine (so thankful for that), we were one foot away from getting the back wheels back onto the road........ god I don't even know what is this askjgnk

Some kid from school came around and gave us a ride to her house, so that is where I now am. Waiting for my parents to get home so I can break the news to them. 8(;; Uhm.

Yeah.

SUCH A PATHEIC HILARIOUS ACCIDENT kjasngkj mygod

Thanksgiving's still the best.

2010-11-28T22:49:59Z

POSTCARDS.
( Hopefully this is far enough in advance that I won't procrastinate. )

By "postcards," I mean "Holiday cards," and by "Holiday cards" I mean "Christmas cards." I'd really like to send a few out this year, since I'm generally horrible at showing how much I appreciate all of you good fellows out there-- and it also just sounds like a fun and interesting opportunity to brighten up somebody's blizzardy cold season (or warm, slightly rainy season, depending on where you live).

So if you could, leave your address here! Comments are screened, so no worries there. I've.... never done these before, so all I can guarantee is something that you'll most likely roll your eyes at. Why you're rolling your eyes, exactly, I'm not sure. And don't go assuming that you're bothering me by giving me your address. I want to. ):
Soooo thank you, everybody. ♥ I hope to get these to people before Christmas, but it may be more of a... New Year's card. Unfortunately.

Junioritis.

2010-11-14T16:32:08Z

Now I'm hitting that point where I need to start ironing out what I want to do with my full life, and... I'm wishing the world still accepted answers like 'zoo keeper' or 'horse jockey,' because I just don't know.

My art teacher thinks I should go into illustration. I can't see myself drawing over and over for a living. My mom thinks I should go into law. I don't know exactly what that means (criminal? patent? you write things and present them and Ace Attorney doesn't help in explaining here), should really find out, but who knows if I'd be able to hack it. I guess I could go into editing-- of the writing sort- because I actually do enjoy correcting and helping other people with their papers, but I don't exactly know what being an editor means, either.

See, the problem is that I adore history. European, Asian, American, any history. I memorize it on my first read, I'm good with it, I love it. But what the heck can you do with a history degree? Become a tour guide? (I actually did contemplate that for about a month). I could become a history teacher, yes, and the sound of that is appealing, but it also kind of feels like I'm selling myself short. I grew up around teachers. Everyone knows what they do. Shouldn't I go for something new?

Hhhh. It all adds up to.... meh. I know what college I want to shoot for, but what should I shoot for once I'm there?

Mrph. Anyway.

I got a cellphone yeeeee. For all that I'll use it, it is nice to have. (8 Seventeen is an ugly number, but life's going on. RP-wise, guuuh SC. I love you even if I'm super slow with logs and you are heavily plurk-centric. SP... I just wish time let me do more there. Or at least talk with the players. But. :/ Ahh well.

Hey, hey. What ever happened to memes, man. They're all gone. ):

Take care anyhow, everybody.

no I can't ever write simply.

2010-10-22T23:34:24Z

FUCK YEAH FRIDAY.

LET'S GIVE IT UP FOR FRIIIIDAAAAYYYY.

The best day of the week, hhhhg. ♥

So, yes! My life has been slowly shaping itself back into sorts. Our exchange student, Michelle, was amazing. Awkward at first - we have no common interests at all (she's sportsy and slightly boy-crazy, for example) - but she was super super nice and it all worked out in the end. <3 I think she was a nice break, since there've been major tensions all over my family and. Yes. The only bad thing was that... half-way through her stay, while my dad was walking my dog, my dog got hit by a car. Pelvis was completely crushed. They had to put him down.

And the worst thing about losing a big pet like a dog is the emptiness a house gets without it around. Very strange to come home with only the cat's food dishes out and not have a boundlessly energized dog to yell at. Still strange.

But, well. That was three weeks ago. And tensions are high everywhere (sister going through with her divorce, other sister's husband is out of a job with two kids to take care of, parents fighting, etc etc etcetra) but. But! It is smoothing out. Or so I hope. At least, I feel like it's not effecting me too badly. Which is probably unhealthy, considering, but I'm in too good of a mood to really mind. Had a really, really bad week some time back there, with everything crashing in, BUT I AM ABOVE WATER and cheesy metaphors aside, feeling very fine.

Drawing lately, which is fun. Things turning out satisfyingly, even more fun. Friends have their act together. I've gotten better at keeping in touch with the people I want to. Books are being read. European History is badass and interesting. Slated to learn French next semester and joining an unofficial extra class that'll teach me Hmong. (X RP-world is going very nice: decided (for now, I hope this decision stays, sob) that hey. Backtagging is fine. People can wait for ten minutes. This decision occasionally makes me feel guilty, but-- I really do want to roleplay! I'm just slow, since I typically work through 40-50 notifs a day. Need time to penetrate that. Aaand on that favorite topic of mine, I got back into roleplaying China a few days ago and ahhhasgnkh I forgot how much of a favorite muse he was of mine. ♥ His voice was... slightly wobbly, but the kinks are being worked out. He's such an old man in SC, I don't even know.

Only lamentation is that I'm probably too busy to join another game, no matter how much I'm tempted. I miss playing an obnoxiously talkative character. Allen's fun, but he doesn't get near what I need for him in SP. Ehh, well. Separate issues.

Unsure if I'm gaining weight or if this is muscle. :I Hrm.

Need to: maybe start Mass Effect this weekend? and finish P3. and watch Soul Eater or more Doctor Who. none of these things will get done.

In conclusion! Parents are gone for the weekend. C8 Everything had better go perfectly, as I plan it to.

-- AH WAIT WAIT WAIT

okay.

if you are 5'3" and 120 pounds, you are not obese.

any nurse that says you are should be pronounced a witch and in cahoots with the devil. maybe even pretend-burned at the stake.

no wonder the statistics say we're getting fat, if that's the standard they're going by. good god.

need to do productive things.

2010-08-28T19:54:17Z

Give me a character from any fandom (or game) I know at least fairly well, and I will tell you:

A) My OTP
B) The runner up
C) The anti-ship
D) My unpopular fannish opinion on said character
E) One person he/she never fell in love with, and why

Also... ask about a net name/ username, and I'll explain it. Most of them are just random things, though.

Annnd super late, but. From grotesques:

reply and I'll give you four fandoms. you then have to make an entry writing about your favorite character from each fandom, and why.

Air Gear.
Tie between Kazu and Kiric. Kazu because he's essentially me with a beanie, and he's one of two muses that I can really... seep into. Which sounds really creepy, but. His mindset was just so natural. Kiric because over the years of playing him, guuh I've grown so much love for him. He's complicated and contradictory and a big jerk and a real woobie and has a hot sister and I get extremely sad whenever I think about how messed up he is. I... also like his point system. A lot. But, roleplay-wise, he's a horrid muse to pull off. I've never been completely sure what I did with him was right.

Wolf's Rain.
nnn I'm going to have to say Toboe, though Quent is close. Toboe's innocence was just adorable. No, wait, not innocence. He... reacts really, really normally to a lot of situations, when he's not normal at all. His way of killing things and not realizing it also slightly amuses me in a terrible way.

Toward the Terra.
TOO MANY. I want to say Shiroe, since I play him and his thought process is rather overwhelming, but I'd... probably go more with Sam. Yes, that's right. Sam. I loved that muttonchopped loser and everything he did. Even if he was only around to be a plot device, he doesn't get enough love with how sweet he was. Loved loved loved the fact that he actually stepped down from fulfilling his dream, too. The practicality of normal human Terra characters is depressing. Tony and Leo also get my love, but I could honestly go on forever with almost all of them.

Final Fantasy VII.
Cid Highwind, bitches. Alright, I love Zack and Reno and especially Rude and Cloud and Yuffie and Reeve and Rufus all those other merry banders, but goddamn Cid. He's just so. jksanjkg I don't know. He's abusive and destructive and has a lot of tea issues and is the basic epitome of tsundere in most cases, but. Shiiit Cid is fucking awesome. I could ramble about him for paragraphs if no one stopped me.

yup.

ah ah ahhh I feel like I'm channeling Hibari or something. Probably, definitely not a good thing.

School coming sooner rather than later. But it's not too bad. Do want European history and art back. haa.

Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amélie Poulain: a defining moment.

2010-08-05T17:31:53Z

Amélie is a hands-down amazing movie. I might be kind of late to the picture on that one, but I also juuust watched Zombieland last night, so. Both are good. Both are incredibly amazing. )8 Though I wouldn't put them on the same level at all, fff no.

But yeah that, along with To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything, and 2012 was my night yesterday. Ahh, movie marathons. We don't stick to a main theme at all.

Aaand I just realized I left Mass Effect over at my friend's house. Sigh. I think I'm just not meant to play that game.

A new pet peeve: getting facebook updates. forever. forget you, facebook.

Uum.

Goddang, when did it become August. Seriously. I kind of want to get back into school, but I'm going to miss all of this free time so much hhhg. Next week is a Soul Eater and Doctor Who marathon with my friend, for however many days that takes.

Right uh. I'm just. Going to put this next part down.

My sister's in her separation period (90 days? 6 months? we don't know) with her husband. :/; Divorce, yeah. And I... only feel vaguely annoyed and angry over it, so no one say that they're sorry. She's a bloody moron, having only been with him two years and breaking up because she feels like she missed out on the ~single life.~~ Shut the fuck up and sit back down, girl. You should've known this was going to be a permanent thing when you accepted the ring (we take marriage pretty seriously in my family, what can I say). It makes me mad that her husband can't really say no, since he's... idk, I don't want to say love, but he's about as committed to her as a guy can get. Which is amazing, because my sister is someone people normally can't get along with for more than a week. I MEAN I LOVE HER A LOT but god she's a bitch. And by "bitch" I mean "she's a real life tsundere, and real life tsunderes aren't all they're cracked up to be."

That turned out a bit longer than I wanted. errr.

so yeah yesterday morning, before the movies, was spent distracting my other sister. tension levels are high.

On the other hand, my brother's been loaning out his trailer for underaged people to come and smoke joints. When my mother and I went to drop off the dog for a few days when we went up to my Aunt's, we got to chase out two STD-ridden sweaty mongrels. They ran so fast and were so terrified that they left their stash of pot behind. )8 Really, really shitty quality pot.

And I was the one who had to carry it all, so the animals at my aunt's ranch went nuts whenever they caught a whiff of my hands. My mom was freaking out, but I'm kind of just "eh" on this topic, too. Haha, my loyalty to my brother. )X;;; My main proposal was just 'let's call the cops and get him in jail. maybe he'll finally learn something.' because. I can't even bring myself to care about his dumbfuckery any more. Not that I... ever really did in the first place. I know he's slow (uh, literally), but his personality and ~need to be cool~ just makes me not care. Call it ingrained from being a part of high school. Or just call it my apathy acting up.

...

Yep.

spin me right round.

2010-07-06T17:44:10Z

Giant post in 3

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GO.

holy shoot I honestly feel like taking a day off RP and just marathonning series. I've never seriously considered that before. Normally tags in my inbox bother me.

But! Goal for the week: finish Gundam 00 and Ergo Proxy. And TWEWY.

Annnd I have an app written up for Toboe for SP but ajksngfkh I should wait a month and finish all of these series before settling on my final character. ;A; It's been a while since I've wanted to app so many hhgg. I'm displeased with my character roister (or, more accurately, I want to play too many of my characters).

why does this bagel smell like it's raisiny.

OKAY NO I have more things to say. uuh. oh right. ~~sorry Bakhu--~~

I MIGHT BE GOING TO CHINA.

Given, it'll be in two years, but JESUS CHRIST ON A MUHAMMAD SANDWICH Chinaaaa. Yeeee. I've no idea what we'd see (probably the Great Wall, Forbidden City and Beijing in general), but even the thought. ;A; And it'd be with one of my favorite aunts! jknfhk aaaaa this will be amazing if it goes through. I only hope it goes through. afkjn I really really hope it goes through.

Speaking of foreign country visiting. Signed up for the German exchange program, and jksanfkjh ahaaaha I'm terrified over the girl we got. I can get along with pretty much anyone once I talk to them enough, but I've got the feeling this girl's one of the few types that I'd never be able to click with. never mind for long periods of time. but. I should be optimistic! exchange students are generally awesome people.

and if all else falls through, my friend's offered to let me camp at her place for the month.

Fourth of July/my dad's surprise 50th birthday part went off without a hitch! Ahh, I love my dad's side of the family. ;w; They brought in a prop coffin and put my grandma's life-sized stuffed doll inside of it, had a gravestone set up in front. Everything was black and mournful, it was great. Our priest even came over in his ceremonial robes and gave a short blessing over it. X3 Then I got to hang with my favorite cousins while playing Left 4 Dead, Call of Duty and Assassin's Creed 2. And then boating on the lake! Good, good weekend.

So. This next part's kind of late in coming, but there are a few things I need to get into this lovely online ~~diary~~ journal.

First and foremost, because at this point it's pointless to pretend I'm not a complete retard for Hetalia, I MET THE CREATOR OF THE WORLDWIDE COSPLAY CONFERENCE. As in the America that started it all. holy shit what the hell happened to "no one fandom-orientated lives in Wisconsin." And she's such a nice person. )8 She had a friend who I'm positive is going to become a world dictator but is equally awesome. (Rei, if you're reading this, um, they adored your Turkey. Seriously.) Together, they reminded me of Kyouya and Tamaki. I. Don't think I've ever made comparisons to characters and real life people before this.

but anyhow.

haha art camp. Some of you might or might not know that I live in one of the most white republican country bumpkin/ upper middle class areas in the United States. Like, uh, the neighborhood five minutes from mine is about 600 some strong and votes 100% republican. Our school has a massive fanbase for Star Wars, Star Trek and Harry Potter, but absolutely no love for video games, manga or comic books. The few we do have are all Narutards and COD losers, too. I don't mean to say I hate people who like Naruto. I just dislike people who don't bathe for weeks on end, cosplay as Itachi during school, fight over the girls who are easy to get laid with, are extremely self-centered and otherwise mean. So jumping from that to art camp was. Er. Amazing.

And vaguely hilarious. My mom came to pick me up and she was a fish out of water. A fish out of water and thrown into the Sahara desert. There was one boy who was extremelyyy nice, up until the last day, when he mentioned how conservative, religious and pro life/homophobic he was. Then my friend started a religious debate with him that literally lasted three hours. He had cold lunch, could've sat down, but choose to stand in the obscenely long lines with her, just so they could keep arguing. It was kind of epic to behold.

And then our acrylics teacher came over and sat with us over it. (8 Very nice. Love that lady. She was native Egyptian with a Spanish accent and spoke five languages. Her music tastes were... interesting, to say the least. South African drumbeats right after bad Spanish rap (we were able to identify the second ones by the end of Friday. sure, none of us had a clue what they were saying, but it was interesting to make up stories about why the gruff man was yelling at the sad pansy guy over the phone). Then there was the morning she played nothing but Beatles. fff.

did art trades and nights of sitting on a street curb and drawing. went to the mall and took up the entire manga and comic book section of the bookstore for a good hour. crashed gamestop. participated in throwing money at some kids who were dancing to Lady Gaga, chalk drawing and Mafia. ate rice with pizza. forgot canvases in the dorms and had to run all the way back to get them. air and water and fire and earth bending matches that grew to be 10 people strong. had a teenaged mutant ninja turtle fan as a counselor, a man with a fine manly jaw (no really) for another, and the best charismatic one for the last. that last one had a name no one could pronounce (he was from Jordan), so he went by George for the duration of the week.

nngh, so much fun. I even completed a work I'm actually proud of. hee.

Aaah.

Meme. Then I'm finished.

1. How can I tell if you're angry?

Errr this is a bad question since my general response to anger on my part is to wait it out and think if there's any sides I didn't already think about that'll make me less angry. You'll only be able to tell if I'm pissed in real life if what you did was something confrontational (like shove someone or something). Then I tend to throw all 115 pounds of Irish Pelt at you. Verbally. Of course.

On the internet, uuuh. I make it a point that you can't tell. If I'm angry at some outside force, if you're one of my good friends, I'll probably just tell you. If I'm angry at a person I'm actively IMing, I'll do a lot of xD;;; and :/;; and :<;;'s and keysmash my way out of the conversation.

AGAIN THOUGH I haven't gotten truly angry since I was 11. I'm more likely to just become exasperated. That's when I stop replying to things (or when I'm doing tags, but uh, you'll know the difference).

2. How should I behave around you if you're angry?

If it's toward you (and you're a friend), change the topic and keep talking. It'll make me feel less awkward in the future and wind me down. Do noooot stop talking to me. ;w; But don't talk to me about frivolous stuff. The whole distract-them routine will only frustrate me more. I want srs bsnz when I'm angry.

3. How do you want me to behave when you are hurting emotionally? How is it best to comfort you?

Ask me about what I do and how it's going. :c I probably won't tell you, but the thought helps. Oddly enough, talk to me about RP. Not "hey we should thread this!" but things going on in the universe, characters, relations. Talk to me about fandoms and series! I'm a very bottle-it-up-and-be-anxious kind of person, sooo those topics make me relax. You'll probably end up leading the conversation, though.

But talk to me like a person. "/hugs" and "/clings to" have their time, but unless you're just breaking ice in the first email, I largely don't appreciate those things. Again, same goes with frivolous crap. I might avoid what's bothering me for a good amount of time, but when I do bring it up, I like to get it all out at once and talk about it. And then I go eat ice cream and sob into my cat's belly while watching reruns of MASH.

Egh. If I did that, just put me out of my misery.

4. Are there things we should not discuss?

Uuuh not that I know of. The only rule of thumb when dealing with me is to not make me feel like an idiot. I don't mean by pointing out something I said was wrong, but by being very "adult" and "superior" in your typing or talking...? If I don't know you, I'm extremely susceptible to thinking you think I'm plain stupid. I realize it might just be the way you talk, but it's a paranoia of mine.

Fun fact: up until fifth grade, my elementary thought I was mentally handicapped. The only reason I wasn't put in a special class was because our school was incredibly small and poor and didn't... have anything like a special class.

5. How should I treat you when you are ill?

Leave me be. D: When I'm ill, I'm more happy to watch series or read a book or play a game or tag. I feel like being lazy, and talking to people takes too much continued effort. This goes on the internet and in real life.

6. What makes you happy that's in my power to grant you?

TALK TO ME ABOUT RP AND FANDOMS. haha. these topics never fail to make me happy, no matter where I am. mostly because I only get to talk about them on the internet (my real life is very rp and fandom free). unless I don't really know you-- then it just gets more awkward, since I don't know how far into my fangirling I'm supposed to go. D8

Talking to me even if I'm slow at replying makes me smile, too. Just... no... paragraphing! Short sentences! Short! Only debates require paragraphing! Tell me life stories. This is going to sound creepy, but guuuh I love life stories. love love love. love hearing other people's opinions and problems, too, and helping them out. though strangely, if the closer you are to me, the more and more anxious I get over giving you advice.

7. How would you like us to recongize your birthday?

Don't. :/ A happy birthday's nice, I guess, but I don't consider it anything big. I'm reaaal bad with dates, so I feel horrible when people get me things and I have no clue what to do for them. If you know me in real life, go with me to Jim's and get some ice cream and corndogs. But that's it.

well okay some paid time on rp accounts would be nice but that just occurred to me now. :3?

8. Are there any standing categories of presents that would be inappropriate or unwelcome?

... Sex toys, I guess? Call of Duty and Halo? And food, unless you know what I like. I'm disgustingly picky. I don't want to do an awkward lopsided smile and thank you for the chocolate that I'll never eat.

9. Are there times of the year that are difficult for you? Please explain if you are comfortable.

Nnnot really. Don't talk to me during May, I guess, because I'm probably panicking over school and using my free time to tag around in RP.

10. Are there important anniversaries in your life?

Nooope. Though let it be known that Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. My dad's side of the family always gets together on that weekend, so it's full of fun and crazy people and good food.

11. How do I cater for you if you are visiting me?

Food! No, uh, just be ready to lead the conversation and activities a bit. I'm EXTREMELY AWKWARD AND SHY during the first half hour of any meeting with any friend. After that, I'll calm down and be chill.

Don't ever repeatedly ask me to do something. The moment someone does that, I lose interest in whatever it is. Also, unless there's a set plan (like a dinner or movie), don't try to keep me around for more than four hours. I'm an introvert at heart: I need my alone time to feel comfortable. I'm real OCD over time, too, since I mentally schedule my day whenever I'm given times. If you say you're going to be gone at 5, please leave at 5. I despise those kids who ask themselves over for longer, since I'm too nice to tell them to gtfo. I end up smiling awkwardly and fidgeting and shuffling and they generally ignore it and then I'm very HHGGGHHHHRRRGGGH for however long they stay.

I've only ever had one friend acknowledge that, yes, I do want them to leave, please (not because I hate them! but because I have other things I want to do, and those things will eat at me until I do them) and I love that friend to pieces just because of that. )x

12. If I want to contact you, how should I do it?

I want to say IM me...? But it really depends on who you are and how the day's going. :/; LJ comments are the best way to talk to me. I'm almost obnoxious in how little I thread drop (if I do, it generally means I think I'm bothering you). If I talk to you over LJ, it means that while yes, I do want to talk to you, I'm too busy to IM, and I don't want you to try to IM me and I end up... not replying. It's rarely, rarely ever a case of "oh my god I hate you" or "you're incredibly boring" if I don't reply in IM. Just. So you know.

Errr. Never e-mail me. I'm prone to ignoring direct e-mails for ages, for whatever reason. AND NEVER CALL ME phones are a heck of a waste of time. Skype would be even worse. Facebook is only slightly better than plurk. Both are things I rarely check.

...

Oh yeah. I should be. Making a backstory and character design for my D&D character.

Still would rather watch Gundam 00.

I need a new mood theme thing, too, even though I've completely forgotten how to install those.
also tempted to rehaul my character's icons. kjnsafn I've been sucky at tagging and talking to friends all weekend, I shouldn't be doing this.

a chief subscriber to rénmín rìbào.

2010-06-11T18:42:41Z

Summer.
2010.(for records' sake:)
Favorite Muse: China.
Easiest to Play: Zack Fair.
Funnest: America.
Most Interesting: Shiroe.
Hardest: Kiric.
Archetype: moved from playing all blonds to no one under the age of 20 to angsty blunt angry characters back to side-kick an heroes who bottle it up.
Game-wise: found that I can't last at light-hearted crack games very long.
Fandom-wise: officially a hetalia retard. but hey, I say it's the reason I got a 5 on my AP US history exam. c: AP Euro, happily I go.

It'll take a bit to actually feel like vacation, but it's here at last. ksjagnjkh so much to be done...! Love it that way. Sssoo the personal goal for today is to rewatch the first half of FMA, but then for the rest of the summer...

× Wolf's Rain. (Mariya)
× House, M.D. (Mariya)
× Baccano! (Mariya + Erik)
× The Office. (Erik)
× 300.
× Toward the Terra. (Elizabeth)
× Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog.
× Rent.
× Curse of the Komodo. (Erik)
× The Fantastic Mr. Fox. (Katie)
× Jurassic Park: all. (Katie, group?)
× Year One.
× Heroes. (Erik)
× Doctor Who. (Elizabeth, Alice, Mariya, Haili, Jen Roy)
› The World Ends With You.
› Pokemon Silver.
› Dragon Age.
› Fable II.
› Prince of Persia.
› Bioshock?
» Hunter X Hunter. (how many chapters is this again)
» One Piece. (see above)
» Detective Canon. (yeah not really)
» Tsubasa Chronicle.
» xxxHolic.
» DOGS.
× Anastasia.
× Finding Nemo.
× Psych.
× Durarara!
× X-Men. (comics)
» Haruhi Suzumiya.
» Deadman Wonderland.
» Pandora Hearts.
× Catch up on Axis Powers Hetalia.
» Catch up on Saiyuki.
» Catch up on Fullmetal Alchemist.
» Ouran.
× Gundam 00.
» One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.
» Catch-22.
» The Gallic Wars, Julius Ceaser.

... Haaah. Drawing more, too, and doing things in games. Plus downloading some kind of painter program would be nice, so long as it doesn't crash my off-brand laptop.

But what better way to celebrate it all than memes. Heeeck yes.

Name a character from the muse list and I'll answer as best as I can the following:

01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Last sexual experience
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

Comment with "according to you" and I will tell you:

1. Something random about you.
2. Which color you remind me of.
3. My first memory of you.
4. What random character I associate with you.
5. My favorite thing about you.
6. What fandom I associate with you.

I'm also really craving some writing to kick-start this break. Give a prompt, character(s), setting-- I'll try to deliver!

no problem.

2010-04-20T23:31:43Z

UH. I'm a little late in making a "hey everybody! Europe was smashing" post, but... geez, it was too big of a trip to squish down into an interesting entry that people will actually read. So, instead:

the HIGHLIGHTS, the LESSONS.

^1. Italy takes away your self-preservation instinct. To get anywhere, you must learn that to cross traffic, you just have to walk right on out, regardless of any sort of lights. You'd be the only one paying attention to them, anyway.

^2. Europeans have some deep, psychological issues with their bladders. I do not understand this. Public toilets should be your friends, man.

^3. The French Unions really are fickle. And everything else you've heard about them.

^4. The subway is the most interesting place, ever. I believe we should install one in our tiny town of 1,330, just because they are so awesome. Helpful, fluently English-speaking zombies and crazy men who throw umbrellas onto tracks are found here.

^5. Capri's travel guides are hilarious. As are the Vatican's. Our main British guide was a sad, brilliant man who was struggling through college with an English Literature major and random cough attacks that made me wonder if he hadn't actually worked in a coal mine for a good part of his crazy-haired life. He could do Cockney rhyming, sing A-Z Beatles songs, and say "aluminium."

^6. WHERE THE HELL ARE THE ANTI-SMOKING CAMPAIGNS. or at least the don't-blow-smoke-into-everyone's-faces campaigns. and the shave-your-backs campaigns.

^7. While French junkmen are fun and friendly, Italian junkmen are obnoxious, persistent and vaguely creepy. This is called "irony."

^8. Why don't we have 2-dollar coins. )8 Or flat prices. Or gelato.

^9. Along with their bladders, Europeans have something against electrical sockets. In one famous hotel room, we found one (belly-level) by the door, one behind the window's curtain, and one on the ceiling.

^10. Cannibalistic seagulls.

Yeah.

And. And.

As awesome and non-monotone-like-Wisconsin as it was, though, I'm glad to be back. ;w; Aaa. ♥

... And, obviously, nothing says "I'm back" like a good old meme.

A. "Has my portrayal of a character(s) changed the way you think of him/her?"

B. Pick one of my characters and I'll answer the following questions about him or her:

1. What would your character kill for? What would they die for?
2. What would they refuse to do under any circumstances? Why?
3. What do they dream about?
4. What’s their biggest fear?
5. What single object would they be most hard pressed to part with? Why?
6. What is their fondest memory?
7. What is their worst memory?
8. What or who was were their most significant influence? Expound.
9. What do they believe makes a successful life?
10. What makes them laugh?
11. What are their religious views?
12. What is their greatest strength?
13. Do they have a fatal flaw? If so, what is it?
14. Who is the most important person in their life?
15. If they died, who would miss them most? How would they die?

C. Pick a fandom, any fandom I'm in. I will tell you:

• One True Pairing Ship:
• Canon Ship:
• "If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
• "You are one sick puppy" Ship:
• "I dabble a little" Ship:
• "It's like a car crash" Ship:
• "Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
• "Makes no canon sense but why the heck not" Ship:
• "Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship:

FOR TEN DAYS.

2010-04-01T22:15:49Z

BRB EUROPE.

Catch you all on the flipside of jet lag and the Old World.

So take care, everyone! <3 Make sure the internet treats you right.

pick your kitten.

2010-03-18T02:38:08Z

Hng. You know you're Irish when you eat corn beef and still think it's nasty.

But, the underaged redhead in me bids that I say something. So.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY.
may your day be filled with driving out snakes and alcohol. ♥

Because there's no use lying about it. :c But you know what. AT LEAST WE GET A DAY. To prove we all haven't died from eating too many bad potatoes and suffering stereotypes. hell yeah Ireland.

I've also skirted around this for a while, but. Hey. Would anyone be interested in a random open rp post?

Geez. D8 Updating so much lately.

St. Edelweiss.

2010-03-14T21:27:10Z

To those of you who weren't/ aren't a part of this game, do ignore this.

This is going to be a pathetic too-late brown-nosing move, but since someone with actual brains pointed it out to me, I'm going to try anyway. >: If you're mad, stay mad; if you're hurt, I hope I can smooth that over? It really wasn't because of anyone but myself, and myself wasn't thinking so well.

I will miss all of you, and I hope things stay clear. S'not "just a game," and as much as I knew that, I was an idiot.

Not the victim here, so if you want to rave about my stupid actions, proceed.

don't even know.

2010-03-12T03:55:58Z

Ahaha.

Anyone know of a not-giant game that isn't too opposed to the idea of a semi-boring, mumbling giant and mute, glowing wolf?

Fashionably late as of three hours.

2010-02-06T01:43:50Z

Leave a comment saying, "fuck it in the ass" and I will give you five things I associate with you. Then post about what they mean to you, along with this, at your journal.

Von srs99d_s2am:

1) Pinkies! (air gear :D)
Pfff. Started because we had three out of four Main Whatevers of AG, and I had been on my Good Guy kick for a while, so Kiric was a rather nice change. It's near impossible to play him solo, though-- I definitely need someone I trust (AWWW MUSH) or a character who plays off of him extremely well in-game to keep him up. He's fun, don't get me wrong- I especially like seeing other character's reactions to him- but he's probably the muse that gives me the most insecurities and the third most one I put thought into. He's also taught me that the more comfortable at a game I am, the more cynical and bitchy my characters get. ):

2) Maturity
.... Apparently I am? D8 I prize this a lot. A lot a lot. Like, nerdily so. Obsessively so. I'll constantly look back on old conversations and hate myself over how retarded I sound. The story probably goes something like this, though: I surrounded myself with the Elite Literate bunch of RPers at the get-go of the age of ten (posing as a fifteen year old, mind you), and I'm the sort of person who molds themselves to fit into another's perspective, so I guess I made myself fit into their standards. Or something not-actually-tragic like that.

Learned a lot of Life Lessons by the age of twelve due to the Internet, lame as that is, because my only other options were Little Sparkly Town of Bubbles or Hey Everyone Let's Go Get Drunk and Wear Make-Up and Aren't You Too Old to Go Crawling Through Sewers for Frogs No I'm Not Leave Me Alone.

3) Family
... 8D;;;? I have a mental one instead of physical one. OR ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT MY ACTUAL FAMILY, because ahhaha I'm the black sheep who gets to graze on their green fields for another two years. They make me so awkward, as much as relations have improved over the last... year. My dad's side is amazing, but my mother's side still thinks I'm going to be stuck as a McDonald's cashier or as a socially inept, homosexual, atheist anarchist (mostly due to the fact I spent five solid years of my impressionable angsty teenaged life in the basement with a computer and ear-length hair).

4) China
SHIT I'VE TURNED INTO A WEEABOO FOR CHINA. aaagh. okay. [tl;dr] freshmen year had me put into the wonderful and amazing Mr. Ziegelbauer's class, and by the end of the semester, he made me into a history addict (because in three weeks, he had covered all of modern China's history in the most interesting way possible, on top of teaching me a new respect for Stalin and ancient Greece).

And then I found Hetalia. And Bakhu said he'd app Japan over at CW, and I thought, hey. Why not. So then I started to roleplay him.

And now he's probably my most favorite muse around. I don't think I do the best job (I make him far too serious; probably insert too much development; neglect some of his canon personality; still don't know half of the history pre-1800s, let alone mythology, language, superstitions or true culture), but I feel completely confident with him, and that's... something of a first. So much fun asgjknkhklmsg aaa

do you like my sob story, aru

5) Education
bitches better have it. I'll be honest. people who "give up" on college or "don't feel" like getting a good education because they "can't handle" the stress disgust me. nothing is more obnoxious than people wailing over having to read a 200 page book. it' probably the number one priority of my real life (one thing I got from my family), is recently causing me the most anxiety (heck yeah I got my first anxiety attack last semester), and so seeing someone not go their full distance tends to make me lose all respect for them, whether that full distance is becoming a carpenter or a doctor. I will judge you over this. I won't tell you I'm judging you for it, but I'm rather unashamed about it.

BUT HEY. I'm not saying you have to be an awkward recluse - part of education is being able to function with others, I think - or hating on people who can't afford to go to college; I'm saying I hate to see ignorance dripping from your ears. rip up a book to plug those things up.

Name a character of mine and I will tell you:

1. What would your character kill for? What would they die for?
2. What would they refuse to do under any circumstances? Why?
3. What do they dream about? [Either literal or figurative, specify please.]
4. What's their biggest fear?
5. What single object would they be most hard pressed to part with? Why?
6. What is their fondest memory?
7. What is their worst memory?
8. What or who was were their most significant influence? Expound.
9. What do they believe makes a successful life?
10. What makes them laugh?
11. What are their religious views?
12. What is their greatest strength?
13. Do they have a fatal flaw? If so, what is it?
14. Who is the most important person in their life?
15. If they died, who would miss them most? How would they die?

ANNNND.

Where and when did you start rping?

Age ten, Neopets. Original wolves and horses, I believe, were my first RPs. Moved from that to medieval original to Fullmetal Alchemist to Harry Potter to Furcadia to forums to Insanejournal CW. Ah, the old days.

Do you rp anywhere other than lj?

No longer, no. D8

Do you play in any public games?

hurhur. St. Edelweiss, The Spider's Walk, Soul Campaign and Siren's Pull.

Do you prefer first-person comment spam or prose logging?

First-person's enjoyable and fun; prose logging is more srs bsnz and that long-term sort of feeling you get from completing a not-too-bad school project. Depends on with who, in the end.

What was the first character you ever played?

uuh. pre-LJ-wise is Scar from Fullmetal Alchemist. LJ-wise is Vash the Stampede from Trigun.

Who's your favorite character to play now and why?

ffff China, hands-down. I suppose after playing characters like Vash and Zack and Kazu for so long, having someone like him (a mix between Kiric, Kazu and Zack), he's really refreshing. It helps that I've never once been bored while tagging with him, too, since he has so many different aspects to prod at. And that rational for his actions and development come easily. Andasjkgnjkh I could go on forever.

What's the longest you've ever consistently played one character?

Consistently, Kazu. I think it's been two years now, with him. Unconsistently, Vash. Three some years for him. Extremely unconsistently, Scar. Five years, bb.

What's your biggest rp pet peeve?

Dropped threads. Or people who app and drop and app and drop or disappear for weeks, make a single post, barely tag (or play favorites), then disappear again.

Oh. And when people use their default over and over. I'll actually get paranoid, if someone uses the same icon in a row at me, that I'm not being interesting. :c OH MY INSECURITIES.

Do you read rp secrets and the rp anon meme?

Of course. They're fun. :c

If you've played in public before, do you prefer community based or journal based games?

Either. Can't tell the difference.

Would you rather play with someone who's very very ic but a mediocre writer or someone who isn't always ic (but not terrible) and a great writer?

Uuuh. I'd probably prefer the great writer, but I'd actually have more fun with the IC person. Depends on what is meant by 'not IC.'

Do you have a "rp partner"?

Bakhu. ): Only person I'd actually app at a new game solely for, or bring in a character with. Also about the only person I do random logs with. THIS SHOULD GO WITHOUT NEEDING TO BE SAID.

Do you ever stalk any casts, games, or players? who?

Yes. Er. Outside of my own games, I'll look over at the Hetalia cast at mayfield. More specifically, the Russia. NOT TO BE A CREEPER but he's probably the only character I've ever actually consistently looked through threads for, only for the purpose of seeing how he acts. )x;;;

In your opinion, which part of an app is the most difficult/annoying?

History. Hhh.

Are you one of those people who has to customize their character's journal layout and userinfo?

Recently, very much so.

What was your first game?

Malaise House.

Are there any canons you avoid tagging characters from?

Nnnope. Though I'll admit to avoiding some comics players, because I mostly play manga/books, and I feel unreasonable pressure whenever I tag them. :/ Doesn't help that most of them show very very obvious favoritism to canons. ): Although I have met very friendly comics players! Like. Two.

Most memorable scene in any thread?

It was so stupid, but, yes.

Do you rp sex?

I can. I do not generally.

Do you play more males or females?

hahah males. ): I wish I had more girls. They're fun.

What won't you rp?

AIM RP. Never again.

Dressing rooms: yes or no?

N.

Ever rped a pairing?

Almost! And then the player konked out. I've been really wanting to get one going again, but I'm too loserish to ask or hint at it. Other people have to approach.

Favorite place to play: musebox, open posts, public games, private games?

Public games. Only place I feel comfy.

Talking rp with someone else who plays your character: fun or awkward?

Ahhh. I've never really had the experience. Wish I did, though, as long as it was during one of my better days, when I'd have the confidence to start up a somewhat serious analysis and see if the other player is as much of head-over-heels person that I am. It'd be fun. ;w;

Yeah.

simply smashing.

2010-01-01T05:40:50Z

I FINISHED AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENT.

And I also just realized it's December 31st. While I skip having a time capsule moment, allow me to show appreciation in another form.

In celebration of finishing and this Happy New Year:

a Prompt Quiz.
FANDOM or GAME or CROSSOVER
pairing or platonic
NC-17 slash or Disney G

request it. may be rewarded with a drabble, picture or three-comment fic. just give one, two, five or more characters and a word or situation.
ask if you don't know my fandoms.
~~limit on the Air Gear please.~~

( And if I don't actually finish one, it means my current writer's high has been slammed upon by a block. No personal offense meant at all. )

gee willikers.

2009-12-24T00:20:50Z

I was going to give an eloquent rant on how a combination of fandom and roleplay killed pairings, but.

Ahahha.

Your result for The Greek Mythology Personality Test...

The Oracle

33% Extroversion, 67% Intuition, 0% Emotiveness, 57% Perceptiveness

Heuristic, detached, and analytical to a fault, you are most like The Oracle. You are able to tackle any subject with a fine toothed comb, and you possess an ability to pinpoint nuances and shades of meaning that other people do not have and cannot understand. Accomplishment and realization of ideas are, for you, secondary to the rigorous exploration of ideas and questions -- you are, first and foremost, a theorist. You hate authority, convention, tradition, and under no circumstances do you accept a leadership role (although, you will gladly advise leadership when they're going astray, whether they want you to or not). Abstraction and generalities are your interests, details and particulars are usually inconsequential and uninteresting. You excel at language, mathematics and philosophy.

You are typically easy-going and non-confrontational until someone violates one of the very few principles that you deem sacred, at which point you can fly into a rage. Although you possess a much greater understanding of process and systems than the people around you, you are always conscious of the possibility that you've missed something or made a mistake. You don't tend to become attached to particular theories, and will immediately discard mistaken notions once they're revealed to be incorrect (but you don't tolerate iconoclasts who try to discredit validated theories through the use of fallacies and bad data). Despite being outwardly humble, you probably think of yourself as being smarter than most other people. That's because you are. In fact, in your dealings with people your understanding of their motives is so expansive that you know what they're going to say before they say it, and in world affairs, you usually know what is going to take place before it actually does. This ability would make you unbeatable in debates if only you were a little less pensive about your own conclusions, and a little more outgoing.

Stay clear of: Apollo, Icarus, Hermes, Aphrodite

Seek out: Atlas, Prometheus, Daedalus

Take The Greek Mythology Personality Test at OkCupid

Officially a Slytherin-in-denial. But until that denial is broken, Hufflepuff I will bear with loyalty.

And, oh yeah.

Last day of school is finally finally finally over yes.

To 2005 and beyond.

2009-12-19T19:08:21Z

Art has a funny meaning to me. Both of my parents can hardly draw stick figures, and the only reason I actually started trying to draw was because I discovered deviantart and the pretty pretty pictures that I instantly decided, at the age of 11, I wanted to be able to do.

I don't think I've quite hit that level yet, despairingly.

None of these are my bestbestbest works of the year, but they're things that I distinctly recall just sitting down and drawing; ergo, these are probably... the most accurate portrayals of where I was year-to-year. So.

Get the sick bag ready.
2005. (12 years.)

Impressed with the fact I managed to draw the Wild Dog with five, four, three and two claws on one body. First recorded time I tried my hand at drawing a person, although I think that "she" is actually a "he." Not that I can read my writing to figure it out.

2006. (13 years.)

Tail-end of my emo years showed a pension for lions, spittle-flinging dragons and roaring dinosaurs, though most of them are too smudgy to scan. On another note- aha, fanart of Peter and the Starcatchers. I was unreasonably proud of that picture, especially since I'd started looking at those "how to draw" books.

2007. (14 years).

The concept of anatomy and proportions had began to have been realized, along with the fact that base sketches helped in the overall picture. Enter the brief stint where I tried to make everything by shapes and sticks alone. The blue picture, I drew while bored in church.

2008. (15 years).

First year of actual art class! I learned that body language says the same as facial expressions (which was good, since I still haven't mastered the art of drawing eyes/mouths/ears/noses in the correct order) and that less spiky fur on animals isn't such a horrible thing. Restrained drawing might just improve the picture.

Which brings it all to...

NOW.

2009. (16 years).

Cheated on France - that would be zero_rei - but that weirdass style that I'm most comfortable in has finally shown through. Dragged my art through a period where there were no solid lines at all (thus the sort of fake feel to France's legs and shoes), but weaning myself off of that. And a fun fact: that hummingbird was the first time I used pen on actual sketches since that Wild Dog up yonder.

So. Now that this incredibly strange impulse has been fulfilled, I need to

↵ Do APUSH.
↵ Actually write cards. { Aku: you may really be getting yours on Valentines Day. ._. }
↵ Wrap gifts and pick socks off of chair.
↵ Write posts.
↵ Remember what I forgot.

From mashed potatoes to puppychow.

2009-11-26T21:45:34Z

I always seem to forget about how, at grandma's, you starve until mealtime (and, in my case, during mealtime), because grandma doesn't believe in eating between meals.

At least other Oma's stocked amazing food up the walls.

So a Happy Thanksgiving to all you Americans out there, and Happy Foodday to those who aren't.

rawri @ 2009-11-22T17:36:00

2009-11-22T23:36:54Z

I

have a car.

Huh.

New Moon's the best movie on the planet, by the way. I was crying through the whole thing. We (all 25 of us) didn't get near as many stares as we thought we would've, going to a Twilight movie dressed in Harry Potter costumes, and my friend - Voldemort, that is - and I had a deep conversation with the haggard popcorn counter girl, but it was a grand time anyhow.

Aaand I need to finish AC before vacation starts up. And possibly get this Sibrand app written, if only to find a place that needs a paranoid screechy Teutonic Knight to roam around in.

I don't want a car I want video games.

2009-11-14T21:51:49Z

X-BOX 360.
came without a controller motherf

ASSASSIN'S CREED.
glorious looking.

FIVE HOURS OF SLEEP.
entirely worth the cake.

NO PRODUCTION.

not a problem.

unstability perhaps more like desperation.

2009-11-10T02:28:45Z

So I'm off to miss a day of school for an academic qualifying tournament. Been studying and having my first actual anxiety attack over this for the past two months, time to see if it's paid off.

Please do wish me luck, comrades. I need it.

rawri @ 2009-11-05T19:11:00

2009-11-06T01:14:42Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
grotesques
Give me some pictures to draw or prompts thereof. ♥

and make it a happy birthday.

What a disappointment.

2009-10-14T03:16:04Z

ainissesthai: pelt come back to mmmeeee D8 /despairs
Peltted: back, ironically.
Peltted: forget your twintelapahty
Peltted: ..
Peltted: telepatyh
ainissesthai: gkal;
ainissesthai: ;,FAP
Peltted: you get it
ainissesthai: ...
Peltted: ..
Peltted: .....
ainissesthai: ......
ainissesthai: i swear to god
ainissesthai: that's not what i meant
Peltted: that why I should be back.

Yep.

Really really.

2009-10-01T22:17:39Z

Never thought I'd say this, but. Off to New York to go to a friend's bar mitzvah. Expect a report on Sunday.

Yeeeeeeee.

... Also, Zack's account is randomly suspended. Slight damper on my last day at home, but I'm. Near positive it'll be corrected soon. Er. Hopefully. Edit: And my Simon account. But the rest of them remain fine. Whatthe.

Did you know?

2009-09-26T17:34:03Z

Very happy that I jumped the gun.

Anyway. Oh memes, how I've missed thee. From uzis.

Comment with a series and I will respond to you with the following:

① One True Pairing Ship:
② Canon Ship:
③ "If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
④ "You are one sick puppy" Ship:
⑤ "I dabble a little" Ship:
⑥ "It's like a car crash" Ship:
⑦ "Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
⑧ "Makes no canon sense but why the heck not" Ship:
⑨ "Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship: