March Madness Challenge ~ Day 21

Posted on 21/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 21 (U) ~ Understanding

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Understanding = Understanding my Mums choice to decline chemotherapy ~ positivity (for me)

The meeting with doctors, cancer nurses and Mum (of course) yesterday resulted in the decision that Mum will be given palliative care only.  She has declined chemotherapy.

Our dearest hope now is to get her back into her own home as soon as possible.

(took photo this morning and thought as it represents time, it would be ideal)

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 20

Posted on 20/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 20 (T) ~ Treatment

Chemotherapy

Treatment ~ shrink ~ relieve ~ remission ~ recovery of kind ~ comfort ~ positivity

Mum will have chemotherapy to try to hold back the progression of her ovarian cancer.  She remains very poorly indeed atm in hospital but we are planning to get her home asap so she can feel much better in herself surrounded by all her photo’s of my lovely late Dad and can be with her little cat Ditty. I will be staying with her for extended periods then so will be posting lots again and much more regularly.  At the moment with sorting stuff for Mum and being with her as long as the hospital will allow, I am struggling to keep up with running my own home, hence the infrequent posts.

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 19 (again)

Posted on 19/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 19 (S) ~ Supposition

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Supposition ~ end of ~ results ~ positivity

We must remain positive for my Mums sake.  Perhaps we will be surprised and good news will be given, perhaps.  One thing is for sure at the end of a very long week, we will today be told my Mums prognosis.

(put out day 19 yesterday by mistake but I hope my regular followers will understand that the last week has been very hard and my already muddled head has been rather overwhelmed so I apologise if days/letters all over the place right now.  Normal service will be resumed as soon as possible!)

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 18 & Day 19

Posted on 18/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 18 (Q) ~ Quiet

Day 19 (R) ~ Rest

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Quiet & Rest ~ contemplation ~ meditation ~ soul food ~ positivity

Particularly for my dear Mum today and onward.

(photo by me and not to be reproduced without my direct permission)

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I do, I will, I can

Posted on 17/03/2015 by desperateramblings

My feather duster!

You know where I am

I do

but I won’t call

nor you

The need is here

you can’t know

the failing is?

Become stronger

yes even more

The mountain peak

get higher it seems

but surely soon

the summit I’ll reach

no peak is too high so

I’ll tell others 

show them how

it can be done

I’ll know you see.

(photo by me ~ close up of my feather duster for no particular reason)

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 17

Posted on 17/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 17 (P) ~ Postponement

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Postponed ~ Mums biopsy, now on Wednesday ~ staying strong ~ positivity

Photo is of little Ditty, my Mum’s cat.  She is a very old girl although not exactly sure of her age as I got her from a rescue centre for Mum about 10 years ago and at that time I was told that she was believed to be about 8 years old which would make her 18 or even more now.  She had to have her tail removed due to a cancer growth just a couple of years after Mum had her but as you can see it did not phase her.  She will be missing Mum so much as she follows her everywhere and ‘talks’ to her constantly.  Her fur is quite brown now, due to her age but she has the prettiest little kitten face and I adore her.

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March March Challenge ~ Day 16

Posted on 16/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 16 (O) ~ Operation

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Operation day for Mum ~ information ~ essential ~ scary ~ be strong ~ show her optimism ~ positivity.

Trying so very hard to remain positive but pretty tense with her biopsy today but must go in smiling and cheery as can and give her positive vibes.

(photo of my Taz chilling in the sunshine which I thought was apt as that is what I am trying to do ~ chill!)

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 14 (out of order!)

Posted on 15/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 14 (O) ~ oncology            

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Oncology ~ the study & treatment of tumours ~ specialist treatment for Mum ~ gives hope = positivity.

(random photo by me)

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March Madness Challenge ~ Day 15

Posted on 15/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 15 (N) ~ Normality (normal service will be resumed asap!)

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Normality ~ what is normality? ~ its what you are used to in your life imo ~ life issues interrupt normality so we are thrown into disarray ~ being strong and adjusting to your new normality = positive thoughts = positivity

(random photo by me again ~ apologies my posts are a bit wishy/washy right now AND that I got my numbers.alphabet wrong on my publications, but hey, I wonder if anyone noticed anyway ~ lol!)

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Apologies for missing March Madness Challenge Friday 13th

Posted on 14/03/2015 by desperateramblings

Day 13 (M) ~ Mum

Those of you who follow me regularly will know that I have been staying with my Mum to look after her while she was poorly. She was admitted to hospital on Thursday. Yesterday we discovered she has cervical/ovarian cancer.  This was totally unexpected ~ as you will understand I am more than positively trying to gather all my positivity right now.

I remember my Dad on stage singing Be My Love to my Mum many years ago.  It was an incredibly touching moment.  They had the best relationship I have ever known, married for 59 years before my Dad passed away.  They were complete soul mates and had a very happy life together.  I thought it appropriate to publish the song in this instance.

(video via YouTube & published by GreekCallasChannel)

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