I could not speak; and my eyes failed

derp

2014-10-15T20:24:49Z

as a celebration of the last pink floyd icon coming out i'm thinking of making some text/lyric icons that will only be popular with myself but at least i'm making some attempt to get back into icon making??

raikune @ 2014-02-14T18:26:00

2014-02-14T18:40:58Z

fug i haven't even started in inspired20in20 yet

and i don't have all the caps i need either because no one is capping this show (true detective)

...sheeeeeeeeeeeit.

raikune @ 2014-02-05T00:47:00

2014-02-05T01:01:10Z

I managed to make 3 icons for a claim today. granted I haven't made icons in like 6 months so they're average and took about 5 hours to make but i'm pretty chuffed nonetheless. now to finish them all before sunday...

raikune @ 2014-02-03T21:58:00

2014-02-03T22:12:23Z

I'm thinking of joining instagram mostly to follow muh official tv shows so if you feel like it, share your details here and I'll follow you c:

....i still haven't registered yet so once i get a name i'll let you guys know haha

today's halloween

2013-10-31T16:09:16Z

TOO SPOOPY FOR ME

raikune @ 2013-10-25T22:24:00

2013-10-25T21:30:01Z

my cousin (who's a couple yrs older than me) is spamming my fb feed with pics of her little son, my slightly older other cousin is having her 3rd kid, in the meantime i'm over here like blrglhjlhjlhjlrhnrlhnrkhr;hrhrh

I can't even stand to be around babies...

at least my parents haven't started nagging about grandchildren yet i guess that's something.

I miss LOST

2013-10-21T18:47:15Z

I miss the fandom on lj (can't remember the last time I saw a Lost comm update on my flist)
people don't talk about it anymore, naturally, what with all the cool new tv shows
but it was such a huge deal at the time, it was up there with the x-files as one of the most popular watched tv shows eVER
I miss the characters (JACOB, MIB, RICHARD = HOLY ISLAND TRINITY)
.....
I miss writing the fic....my lost claim is still unfinished...I should finish it

the point is that I saw a random lost gifset on my dash and all of a sudden felt this stab of pain in my chest after all these years I MISS THE ISLAND AOUFHAIF;AG;AGJ;AGJ'AGMALSFLFLS

REC ME SOME ANIMES

2013-09-19T23:06:55Z

I'm getting back into anime again, please rec me some cool stuff. I don't normally go for romance-y stuff but I do like "romcoms" like School Rumble sooo if it's funny I'll watch it! I also like anything dark, weird, strange etc.

Currently watching:
Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan
Free!

Have already seen/seen some of:
School Rumble, Gankutsuou, Kuroshitsuji, Paranoia Agent, Fullmetal Alchemist, Wakamote, Mai-Hime, most of Studio Ghibli, Naruto, Bleach, Death Note, errrr

THANK

posting the same thing to tumblr just in case

meh

2013-09-12T23:58:16Z

in other news one my young cats got run over a couple of days ago, I'm very sad and bitter about it, I don't know why people can't just fuck off and let me grieve for my beloved Ginny instead of asking whether I'm "feeling ok now" like it takes only 48hrs to get over the death of a pet, clearly animals just aren't as important as people are. Clearly. This had to happen like a week before my birthday too. If I could stab to death every person who's run over a cat of mine, I would. I'd gladly go to jail for that, idgaF.

on a somewhat lighter note, idk why some people in the Breaking Bad tag are disappointed about the Saul Goodman spinoff, it boggles the mind. How can MORE of Saul Goodman/Bob Odenkirk be a BAD THING? Oh but apparently it "cheapens the show" and "Saul's only good in small doses".

Well bitches I will be sitting back enjoying my sleazy lawyer dramedy with awesomesauce Bob Odenkirk and you can just keep fucking whining how AMC never gives its fans anything. DIS GON B GUD.

#opinions

BrBa 5x11

2013-08-26T19:43:19Z

man oh man.

Awesome ep aside, I feel sorry for Saul (not only because he's my fav character besides Walt and Jesse). I know he deals with criminal crackpots as his job and all but i swear this wasn't the first time he got roughed up by one of the boys XD He seems to be a decent enough person while stll being an absolute crook lol. Every time he offers them a way out it backfires in his face. Yeah, I just feel sorry for him.

Walt's confessions was GENIUS. Of course. o.o

how many eps are left? I'm not ready for this to end!

who ever said watching Wakamote was a good idea

2013-08-14T13:27:01Z

this is like watching myself irl, minus all the highschool-n-boys bullshit.

oh god dying

9/10 really funny tho

WTF ATTACK ON TITAN??!!

2013-08-13T23:34:49Z

WTF ENDING EP 18 LIKE THAT WAS NOT OK AKHAJLGSGLJDJD;KDK;H BUT WHAT HAPPENS NEXT

IS THIS ANIME SRS NIGHTMARE FUEL FOR ANYONE ELSE THOSE TITANS ARE FUCKING HORRIFYING SERIOUSLY WITH THEIR WIDE SHARK GRINS AND VACANT HAPPY DEAD EYES AND WEIRD MOVEMENT LIKE BRAIN-DAMAGED PPL ON DRUGS WTF

FUCKING

ahhhhh 10/10 go watch it

raikune @ 2013-08-05T21:45:00

2013-08-05T20:54:32Z

whoa whoa, Peter Capaldi from The Thick of It is the new doctor now?

ah fuck......I might be forced to watch DW..........

he's such a fucking brilliant actor ~~however there will never be a character better than his Malcom Tucker nuff said~~

also im gaining weight again (by which I mean FAT) fuck fuckufkcfucuofojgfjvjvcjfuck

gbye it's kettlebell time

raikune @ 2013-08-02T10:52:00

2013-08-02T10:01:24Z

you know I'm just going to go ahead and get a british citizenship already, I've been here 10 yrs or so and I'm tired having to fork my passport out every time I want to sign up for a course to prove I'm not an illegal immigrant...you should've seen the email Central St Martins sent me, BIG BOLDED TEXT IN A TEXTBOX, BOLDING ORDERING ME TO PRESENT MY PASSPORT TO THE ADMIN OR YOU WILL NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER THE BUILDING SO HELP YOU GOD LJSLJSJLGJLFGFG;K

fuck them, I am emailing my handily pre-scanned pp pages, not going all the way up to london to flash them my visa YO

i have indefinite leave to remain here so S U C K I T

then once i get my citizenship i can have 2 passports, nicely contrasting maroon(?) and blue :3

back from my weekend art thingie

2013-07-21T23:46:26Z

so I just finished a weekend residential course in childrens illistration at west dean art college! UGH it was like living at downton abbey/hogwarts, best place EVER. And my course was really good. I wish I had the nerve and the money and qualifications to do a BA in illustration. But that industry is tough as shit so aeeheheheheheh

Now, I am shit at making up story plots so I ended up illustrating this dumb little thing about an alleycat who's best friends with a fish and they like to sing together (hope that made sense). Even if I couldn;t write it for shit I liked drawing it. So hahahaa. I had fun.

HOW IS EVERYONEEEEE

stuff

2013-07-11T22:56:36Z

Next weekend I'm doing a weekend residential course at an art college in children's illustration. I've never done illus before so it's kinda exciting. c: I want to be prepared though and have some ideas ready to go so I don't spend the entire time flailing around wondering what story I should come up with and draw. Sadly, I have no ideas atm. I'm thinking something fantasyish or supernaturalish or "dark" but not toooo dark lol. Or, something with animals (a la Wind in the Willows or Redwall) because I like drawing animals (drawing ppl sux ok).

why must art be so harddddd

Also I don't what I'm looking forward to more, Windwaker HD or Pokemon XY. The wait is KILLING ME.

pokemon trainer problems

2013-07-04T16:18:54Z

Why do I suck so bad at the PWT in black 2??? I just want to buy a damn razor fang so I can evolve up my cute lil gligar into a flying scorpion beastmode gliscor. SO WHY AM I SUCKING SO HARD AND NOT GETTING ANY BP UGH WHYYYY. I USED TO OWN EVERYONE'S ASS IN BLACK.

I THINK MY TEAM JUST SUCKS. OR I SUCK. OR MAYBE ITS THE STUPID NUMBER OF CRITS IN THIS GAME.

RLLJGLJSGJG;KDG;KFK;HF

christ i'm a horrible person

2013-07-01T22:39:01Z

AH UM I DIDN'T MEAN TO ABANDON LJ BUT I HAD A DEPRESSION CRASH AND UH ANYWAY

BUT IM BACK NOW after spending ungodly levels of time moping on tumblr

HI EVERYONE (DID ANYONE UNFRIEND ME, I DON'T BLAME YOU)

lajsf;dgk;gkgsfklfh/hlljjkfgjksjgs I don't even know what to do now, I think I might start to get back to iconmaking again cos I miss that :<

I hope everyone is ok and I'm sorry for not commenting or doing stuff here. Please tell me how you all are!

yes good i sound nice and casual

derp

2013-03-29T00:22:37Z

if the weather doesn't start getting sunnier anytime soon i may actually start to cry without end

I started catching up on The Borgias again, woopwoop. Also some shows I got into recently are Bates Motel and Vikings, which are awesome and people should check those out, ah but tw: rape/attempted rape occurs in the first episode of both shows so watch out for that.

Reminder that if anyone wants to jump on my SPOOKY FILTER where I post about meditation/dream experiments/weird folklore ect ect should make a comment on this post C: I have something kind of weird to write about, it happened yesterday and was quite bizarre, so expect a post about it, 2spookies.

my behbeh kitty Minnie had a urinary infection recently :< and was peeing everywhere (like on my bed. while I was in it). But she's taken meds and seems fine now so WHEW. Speaking of which, my two kittens' main activities seem to be 1. eating 2. pooping. 3. eating some more 3a. overeating and puking 4. more pooping. XD

They're getting spayed next week though. /o/

also my brother moved back in. temporarily. And I'm off therapy for 2 weeks cos of easter. And my parents are leaving next week. BASICALLY ALL SHARP OBJECTS SHOULD BE KEPT OUT OF MY REACH. :<

raikune @ 2013-03-27T00:03:00

2013-03-27T00:14:12Z

man i really hate choosing caps for icon battles, i get terrible fits of irrational insecurity and anxiousness over what is considered a "good iconable cap".

like maybe *I* could think of things to do with this cap but mAYBE OTHERS CANT AND THEY'LL HATE IT

maybe they don't see at least 3 obvious crops that are available for this cap

IS THERE GOOD ENOUGH LIGHTING IS THAT A GOOD ANGLE OF THE SUBJECT IS IT TOO BLURRY OR GRAINY CAN OR ADKHADFLJDFLJDLJJLGJGLFD

themes man, gimme themes, idc if they're "too boring" i cant handle picking caps man

p.s. sure this will be a fun battle tho :>

apparently Nestor Carbonell appears in Bates Motel

2013-03-21T14:32:38Z

and I like creepy hotel settings and murder stories and stuff so yeah it's on my to-watch list

like

the very last thing i need is another tv show to watch but eh

also it's an A&E show and I like their Longmire show so maybeee this won't be so bad. c:

um what

2013-03-20T14:57:41Z

so last night I was dropping off to sleep and suddenly became aware that every time I breathed out, like, in that pause before I drew another breath, I'd feel this gust of wind(?) on my face, a sensation like something was either blowing my breath back in my face, or someone was breathing on me

like i could feel strands of stray hair on my face being blown back i swear to fuck it was like someone was breathing on me, like there was a small gust being blown back at me every time i breathed. it sure as hell wasn't some kind of draft.

after quietly wtfing for a few minutes, I opened my eyes, saw nothing but weird night vision shapes. I then changed my head position and it stopped.

If you ever had someone leaning over you really close so you could feel their breath, that's what it felt like.

idk mang o.o

some thoughts on drawing on tablets v. drawing via traditional methods

2013-02-25T00:11:49Z

I just got a bamboo wacom tablet recently (eek!) so I spent a bit yesterday playing around with it (but not as much as I would've liked, since I strained my right arm). Previously I had doodled around on my mom's ASUS tablet, and the difference between that and the wacom is kinda big, I guess.

The ASUS is pretty much like drawing on a regular sketchpad, just on an interactive screen. On the wacom you also draw on the tablet, but it's hooked up to your computer so anything you draw appears in whatever app you're using, which is opened on the computer. This means I draw without actually looking at the surface I'm drawing on, I look at my laptop screen instead. Instead of focussing on pen-tool in my hand, I'm looking at the cursor on the laptop screen. It's a little like drawing blind at first, my hand in front of me drawing but me with my eyes and attention focused in a different direction. It was a bit jarring but I'm getting used to it.

All that said, the wacom is pretty awesome for drawing. You can use pen, ink, pencil, oil paint, water paint or chalk brushes, accordingly, you can also turn on "pen pressure" so pressing down on the tablet makes your marks stronger and darker, as if you were actually using a real pen or whatever. Depending on what drawing app you have you can also use layers and other PS-like tools.

I've only had this tablet for a day or so, so I'm still trying to get the feel of using it. (read: everything I doodle looks like shit). I'd say drawing via tablet has about a 98% accuracy for me - going by how well the tablet follows the drawing movements of my hand. The more tiny and precise my movements are, there it falters a bit. It's hard (for me) to draw fine details on a tablet, sometimes the cursor overreaches. Sometimes it doesn't register the marks I make. In some brushes, which appear as large round circles, I don't know where the "nib" of the cursor is so it's hard to track the line. Of course this may just mean that I need to fiddle with the settings more/I suck. Who knows. I've only experimented for a few hours, hay.

Anyway these flaws are very minor and I enjoy using the tablet quite a bit. o/

For absolute pinpoint accuracy though, I think I will use a pen or pencil. P;

first actual attempt at coloring something! I NEVER color art usually, not even with traditional media. I'm all about dem pencils and black ink. Coloring is scary and for other people who are not me :B

the iconmaker's friending meme

2013-02-10T23:16:04Z

Join in!

dat feel when I'm the first comment and no one else has filled it out yet....
AWK lolol

oh nvm =3=

FRIENDS CUT + LJ SPRING CLEANING

2013-02-10T18:30:06Z

oh god
adksjldldgkfh
guys, I had to get off my lazy ass and do it.
I HAD TO DO A FRIENDS CUT. THIS IS NOTHING MAJOR FOR ANYONE I HOPE. THERE WAS NO DRAMA OR HIDDEN AGENDA ATTATCHED TO THIS. I HOPE I DIDN'T CUT ANYONE I'M STILL TALKATIVE AND FRIENDLY WITH BY MISTAKE OH GOD I BET I DID DO THIS. be calm.

PLEASE READ:
→ basically I went and cut everyone who A) hasn't updated their lj for 1+ year(s) B) announced they were going on indefinite hiatus from lj C) has otherwise dropped off the face of lj.

Most of these people were dear frands from the bleach and naruto fandoms (plus a few Losties) and I'm sad to see them go. Jesus a lot of them were SO FUNNY akadkajjll.

→ FANDOM-WISE just because I don't ramble on about a certain fandom doesn't mean I'm not into it anymore, for clarification. I still read Bleach and Naruto every week. I still love the Lost fandom and characters, it's just it's sort of a dead fandom on lj ;_; THAT DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT WITH YOU GUYS IF YOU WANNA TALK ABOUT IT.

→ I discovered I hadn't added back certain friends who added me first. I have now. So if you get a notif that's why. I mean. If you don't mind me adding you back *footscuff* If you do just say so and I'll undo it, I am so sorry to be a bother @-@

→ If for some reason you feel I SHOULD have cut you, for various reasons, maybe we don't get on well (?) or whatever, please say so. There will be no hard feelings. :]

→ If I have cut you, accidentally or otherwise and you wish to be re-added THIS IS OK TOO /(*3*)/

All comments are screened, I hope.. You can also PM me to discuss it.

I've also updated my profile and interests, cleaned em up.

This is more stressful than I thought it would be...