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These past few days have been so stressful and kind of upsetting. Maybe not just the past few days but maybe this month has been feeling pretty off. I guess maybe there were just streams of disappointing events or just finding out about some news that is hard to bare for me. But I really haven't been feeling myself. I can only put on a smile for so long before I start to snap at almost everything and end up going on 'lock-down' mode. ( I'm really scared that the 'snapping' period is about to begin). I hate when I do this since when I snap at people I really care about, I feel horrible. Sadly, I only realize it after I do it and they are upset with me. haha.
It is already really weird that when someone talks about how much they hate it at NEU, it just reminds me of how much I really don't like it here and I tear up. I've never felt something like that. I've always generally liked where I lived, or made it somewhere where I like to live, but no matter how much I try. I just seem to hate it here. There are amazing people I've met here and I can say I really love them, but this place just doesn't feel like home.
I really wish this feeling will go away, but I know it is up to me to figure it out and get over.
It is already really weird that when someone talks about how much they hate it at NEU, it just reminds me of how much I really don't like it here and I tear up. I've never felt something like that. I've always generally liked where I lived, or made it somewhere where I like to live, but no matter how much I try. I just seem to hate it here. There are amazing people I've met here and I can say I really love them, but this place just doesn't feel like home.
I really wish this feeling will go away, but I know it is up to me to figure it out and get over.