when terrible things happen, there are moments of levity. they feel wrong, and you feel guilty, but you can’t help it. this one happened when we had called the family back to the hospital to say goodbye to nancy. we were all gathered in the…

Today Andrew woke me up because our Airbnb’s gigantic windows were suddenly filled with the close-up views of cows. We thought they were relegated to the hill we’d seen them on yesterday. Apparently not. It is the best thing that has happened to me in…

I think a cool art project would be looking at what I used to search on the internet five weeks ago and what I search now. Or even what I keep as unread in my inbox. Previously, my searches were “what is the weather going…

when i left tim’s condo after seeing him taken out in a body bag, i saw a cat in the window of his neighbor’s place. i took some comfort in that. tim loved cats, and i thought maybe this was a sign of something -…

something strange happens when your brother-in-law dies of an overdose. you become convinced that if you find the person who sold him fentanyl - and everyone connected to him on the internet - you’ll somehow bring him back to life. if you can solve this…