pollicem wistful

Listens: closer, chainsmokers & halsey

Like riding a bike

A couple of weeks ago, my computer was down for a round (but thankfully not for the count). I went through and tried to back up everything I needed, and rediscovered fanfiction I'd written over a decade ago.

Much of what I wrote I don't remember writing. The turns of phrase surprise me. I've forgotten the plot progressions. Most of the stories are mundane, but some astounded me. But I must have written them, because the files rest in their folder, sometimes multiple drafts, downloaded to this computer from its long-dead predecessor. I can see that my writing has developed in the intervening decade as my goals have changed, some of which I'm proud of, but I miss elements of what I used to aim for. 

And I realized I never did finish my 30_kisses Tom/Harry project. It's funny, because my name is still listed beside the pairing in the community. The last time the community was updated was in 2015. It's taken me a lot longer than the 2 month deadline, and will surely still take me longer yet, since I'm not done.

But I kind of thought hell, why not?