rants
So I need to pack for tomorrow, but my mind is racing. I feel like I need to do a hundred different things at once lol I get to see James tomorrow night after my terribly long day working at two different jobs, so I am happy! I miss him so much, it really is sad how depressed I get when I think about him not being around...I should be more independent. I used to be independent, but I just love having him around.
I mentioned some crap at work, well the last two days have been ok, but I am not pushing my luck. Here is the incident, in detail, behind the cut. It seriously made me cry at work because it was on top of everything else going on. I NEVER cry in public either. Why do restaurant owners always have to be such dicks? This seriously reminded me of the incident at Matts Steakhouse with the psycho owner going off on the new girl. Anyways, the rest behind a cut.
Remember I posted about how I couldn't find my work clothes? Well, the uniform is a pair of jeans and a black shirt, seriously. Well, I grabbed a pair of jeans and my black work shirt, threw them on and realized I was running late. I ran out the door, thinking I was good.
Apparently, my pants had a little jean tore at the very bottom, like a scraggly piece of material, and I had not realized it. The male owner notices and tells me that will not work, so I say I am sorry, I hadn't noticed, I will cut it off. No biggie, right?
He takes me to the back, where his wife is, and tells her. I apologize again, saying I did not notice, and that I usually wear other jeans, but I had so much going on with graduation the day before. His wife then says "I find it hard to believe that you actually graduated college." She goes on to insinuate that I am stupid or something. She said I dress like a 14 year old. The man says "No place would hire you dressed like that, maybe Mcdonalds, but that is it." His wife screams that not even Mcdonalds would hire me. They continue yelling at me, even after I cut the little piece off and my jeans look normal. Everyone is staring at me as the scream at me about how surprised they are that I actually graduated college. I keep apologizing, over and over, saying it will never happen again. Shouldn't that be good enough? I could have even went home and changed! But no, they had to yell at someone for the day and it was me. I went into the bathroom and cried. I couldn't take it on top of everything else that is going on. I was so shaky all day, anytime the man came near me, and I would drop stuff. I was terrified of being yelled at again. I made a stupid mistake, and he was making me explain it to him, and even yelled at me to stop shaking because I was so terrified.
It just pisses me off. Now I notice that he treats everyone like dirt. Why I ever thought he was decent is beyond me. His wife, well she acts all nice most of the time, but for some reason, had to go off on me. It would have been different if I had done it before, or if I wasn't willing to change, but I was. My jeans just needed to snip a little off the bottom to be normal, and I realized my mistake. What do they get from by treating someone like that? It seriously changes my views on the owners and makes me not like my job as much as I had before, thats for sure.
I know I had other stuff I wanted to write about, but my mind is drawing a blank. My ex sent me a congrats over myspace. I had not talked to him in almost 4 years. I feel I should say thanks, but I also know him. According to mutual friends, he thinks we are going to get back together someday. That is so not happening. I never want to see him again, much less date him.
Enough of my rant, sorry. He is my past, James is my future :)
I mentioned some crap at work, well the last two days have been ok, but I am not pushing my luck. Here is the incident, in detail, behind the cut. It seriously made me cry at work because it was on top of everything else going on. I NEVER cry in public either. Why do restaurant owners always have to be such dicks? This seriously reminded me of the incident at Matts Steakhouse with the psycho owner going off on the new girl. Anyways, the rest behind a cut.
Remember I posted about how I couldn't find my work clothes? Well, the uniform is a pair of jeans and a black shirt, seriously. Well, I grabbed a pair of jeans and my black work shirt, threw them on and realized I was running late. I ran out the door, thinking I was good.
Apparently, my pants had a little jean tore at the very bottom, like a scraggly piece of material, and I had not realized it. The male owner notices and tells me that will not work, so I say I am sorry, I hadn't noticed, I will cut it off. No biggie, right?
He takes me to the back, where his wife is, and tells her. I apologize again, saying I did not notice, and that I usually wear other jeans, but I had so much going on with graduation the day before. His wife then says "I find it hard to believe that you actually graduated college." She goes on to insinuate that I am stupid or something. She said I dress like a 14 year old. The man says "No place would hire you dressed like that, maybe Mcdonalds, but that is it." His wife screams that not even Mcdonalds would hire me. They continue yelling at me, even after I cut the little piece off and my jeans look normal. Everyone is staring at me as the scream at me about how surprised they are that I actually graduated college. I keep apologizing, over and over, saying it will never happen again. Shouldn't that be good enough? I could have even went home and changed! But no, they had to yell at someone for the day and it was me. I went into the bathroom and cried. I couldn't take it on top of everything else that is going on. I was so shaky all day, anytime the man came near me, and I would drop stuff. I was terrified of being yelled at again. I made a stupid mistake, and he was making me explain it to him, and even yelled at me to stop shaking because I was so terrified.
It just pisses me off. Now I notice that he treats everyone like dirt. Why I ever thought he was decent is beyond me. His wife, well she acts all nice most of the time, but for some reason, had to go off on me. It would have been different if I had done it before, or if I wasn't willing to change, but I was. My jeans just needed to snip a little off the bottom to be normal, and I realized my mistake. What do they get from by treating someone like that? It seriously changes my views on the owners and makes me not like my job as much as I had before, thats for sure.
I know I had other stuff I wanted to write about, but my mind is drawing a blank. My ex sent me a congrats over myspace. I had not talked to him in almost 4 years. I feel I should say thanks, but I also know him. According to mutual friends, he thinks we are going to get back together someday. That is so not happening. I never want to see him again, much less date him.
Enough of my rant, sorry. He is my past, James is my future :)