Last night was rough. I'll have to call the pharmacist today, because I didn't get a wink of sleep. Why? Because I was struggling with anxiety attacks worse than normal and my brain would not shut off. Day two of the Lexapro went fine until bedtime, but that was not fun. Not fun at all. I was cold, then hot, then cold again. My brain was half asleep, but not enough so to stop thinking and it was very weird. I woke up shaky and anxious. I have a feeling it's because of withdrawals, but it was hours before my next dose still, so I don't know if I just have to wait until it gets in my bloodstream or if this is what I could expect from now on.... Or if taking it at night will help (though I don't want those anxiety attacks during the day either). Or maybe a higher dose will be needed. I don't know. I like that it takes the edge of my anxiety which actually makes me more productive and happy (they said it would take 10 days to help with depression, but I don't think I have depression... Just the anxiety wears me down sometimes, you know?)

I took my morning dies because I have to work at the bookstore this morning. It's kicking in slowly and I'm relaxing bit by bit. I took a nap after work yesterday and I'll probably do it again today, but I have a lot of work to do too.

I've been offered another writing job that pays my going rate. Problem is? It's due the same day two other big projects would be due and days after another one is. I haven't technically gotten the one, which is why I'm struggling to turn it down. It's quick work for me, and it'll be ongoing if it goes well... But so will the other and it's more fun. So I'm in limbo here, and likely will take it and just work my ass off for a few weeks because the money will be good and I need the money.

I just don't have time for sleepless nights in this equation, unless I'm working during that time... But the bookstore job requires me to be up at 5:30 am, so yeah... Not that easy.

We'll see.