Would my real boss please stand up?

I have decided to wake up earlier and work out in the mornings. This is a big deal fore because I love sleep and struggle to get up at the last minute. But it'll free up my evenings (which I need for when I start NaNo) and I'm less likely to skip it if I suddenly have to run to the store. Usually I'll squeeze in a walk with Annabelle which isn't very effective exercise because we stop every 5 steps to sniff. Now I can let her stop and sniff on our walks a bit more since my workout time is separate from her walks.

Sounds great, but it won't be easy. I'm not a morning person.

I started today though and I woke up just after 6 (normally I drag myself out at 6:50 or so). I started one DVD and didn't like it, so I put in the most brutal workout DVD I have (it has Pilates with weights and squats between every move that kill your thighs). I couldn't do the whole DVD at this point, but 20 minutes of pain was good with the wimpy workout I started with. I will need energetic workouts to get me going, I need to find more DVDs. Right now I have all Pilates, yoga and dance DVDs (I have a Bollywood and the Carmen Electra strip aerobics ones). I've done Pilates/yoga three days in a row and need to mix it up a bit to let my muscles rest between workouts. My abs are killing me, which is a good thing :)

So to make sure I wouldn't run late, I stopped at 6:40, showered and now I've walked Annabelle and ready to go really early. It's nice to not rush.

I'm stressed about work today and dreading it immensely. My boss has mood swings like you wouldn't believe. One week he's a Mr. Positivity on steroids, sending emails with inspiration and talking about how to find happiness in life and work, reassuring that we are all a team and in this together, how no one will fail because we have each other's backs. He sends emails telling us to take breaks, take naps, take it easy and he's Mr. Inspirational.

Usually we greet each other every morning with a smile and friendly greeting. At the end of the day, we smile and tell each other to go home and relax, to have a good night, you get it. And he's always stopping by my desk to tell me he appreciates my hard work, that I'm awesome and amazing and goes overboard with the praise.

Then he flips over to his other side. That boss is grumpy, will look for reasons to tear everything apart, will yell at you for being a minute late and then show up several minutes late the next day himself. He shuts his door, doesn't talk to us except to tell us we screwed up, and when you try greeting him, he gives a grunt of a greeting like he's pissed.

It leaves me feeling really uncomfortable. What side of him will we see today? I never know. Just as I get used to the one, he flips again. With my insecurities and issues, this drives me crazy and leaves me anxious and stressed all the time.

Well I better get out the door. I'll have a more fun update soon I hope!

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