So I've been away... Again.

I blame being busy and my emo like mood. My emo moods are not fun and while I started several entries, I never posted them because they were annoying.,

I'm feeling better today. Not 100%, but better. My self esteem took a crazy hit this week and I don't know why. I was in a "I hate everything about myself" mood. I miss my family like crazy. I keep crying about something.

Though one thing to consider is the switch in birth control pills. I usually don't take the placebo pills because I'm on the pill for ovarian cysts and every 6 months or so, something bad happens on those. So I stay on the pill continuously which helps regulate my moods too. However, during the switch, I was on the placebos and yeah.... I blame that and the post-vacation blues on my mood. Even my therapist said it's normal and it'll pass.

And it shall pass. It's already starting to. I feel like myself a bit more today.

A few things....

1) I'll post a post-vacation update soon on what we did and all the fun we had :)

2) I started my application to go back to school. UC Irvine has a really great program that I hadn't looked at before. I may not get into that one (it's fast tracked with a fully paid job in the field after only two semesters. Meaning I wouldn't have to freak out about paying for the program as much). If they decide I don't have enough experience, I'll go into the regular program. Well if I get in. I could start as early as the spring if all goes well. Keep your fingers crossed?

3) I go to the dentist today. Ironically, my tooth feels better today too. It hurt all week. It's still sensitive and since my boss gave me permission to go, I'll go instead of regretting it next week when undoubtably it'll hurt again because that's just my luck.

4) Otherwise, my face is healing fast. My chin isn't as bruised, I don't get stated at as much. My lip may scar, but that's healing up. The gash on my nose is still there, but better. The only thing that still hurts a lot is the inside of my mouth and my tooth. My mouth is cut up badly and toothpaste even feels like boiling acid to the inside right now. But even that's healing. I look mostly normal again.

5) The visit to the properties went well. I enjoyed it. The first place we visited was a senior home in L.A. It was in okay shape and in an okay neighborhood (bordering on a bad neighborhood). The second was in one of the roughest parts of L.A and you could tell by the shape of the buildings. Though some revitalization is going on and I love neighborhoods like this because believe it or not, I spent my childhood in one of the bad parts of one of the most dangerous cities in the U.S (it used to be #1 or 2 every single year. Now I think it's #4). The building was so run down with locked doors in every entry way. People are afraid to come to events because they fear their neighbors.... It's a sad place. From there, we went to Hollywood and Vine. We drove through old Hollywood neighborhoods with historic mansions to get there. Totally different vibe just down the street. This apartment is mostly market rate with some affordable units. Celebs (both reality stars and A-listers) live there. The community manager made a comment about how hard it was to work with the reality stars, the A-listers were cool. This place was.... Wow. Right off the Walk of Fame, with the Hollywood sign in view. The most expensive apartment? $9,800 a month. But they also serve low-income residents so yes, it fits with our mission too. It's my property to coordinate along with the two I saw before it. Blows my mind.

Okay, I better get back to work. I have a lot to do and little motivation to do it today. I'm finally feeling better though :)

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